What was I going to do with that man all hurt inside my room? My grandma was certainly sleeping like a rock after the medicine she took, and even if she hadn't I wouldn't have had the courage to go up to her and tell her that Julian was inside my room in the middle of the night. I needed to know what had happened to him.
"I'll get a cloth and a bowl of water. Wait here." I said softly and left the room. I went down to the kitchen and got a clean cloth and a small bucket of water.
I put the cloth inside the bucket and also took a glass of filtered water for him to drink. My hands were shaking. I went back up to the room, not without taking a look at grandma first. She was still in the same position and it looked like she wasn't going to wake up anytime soon. When I entered my room, I put the glass of water on top of my dresser and the bucket on the floor, locked the door and went to Julian who was sitting with only his hand on his head.
"Hey. What are you feeling?" I asked sitting down next to him.
"Anything." He replied.
"Like nothing? You're all bruised up! Doesn't it hurt?" I exclaimed trying to keep the tone whispery.
"I don't. I don't feel pain, the place where I lived for years made me fall asleep to the pain." He said and I felt a chill, there was pain in his voice.
"Place? What place?" I asked intrigued.
"I'm thirsty." I didn't believe it. He was blatantly changing the subject. But that's okay, we'd only known each other for a day, I felt that the subject was sensitive and very private.
I went to the dresser and grabbed the glass of water. "Here it is." I handed it to him, immediately he drank it as if he had been thirsty for days.
"What good water." he said and I couldn't help but smile.
"It's just water." I spoke. "Are you hungry? Want something to eat?"
"If you have it, I'll take it."
"Of course you do. I'll get you something." I said and left the room.
I went back to the kitchen, got a plate and put pasta with ground beef, warmed it up in the microwave. I made a point of taking some lettuce leaves and cutting them for him, seasoning them my way and taking them to his room.
When I entered the room, I was surprised, Julian had his eyes closed and leaning back on the sofa, he seemed to be sleeping. Did I take that long? I approached with the plate of food and left it on the dresser, locked the door again and went to where he was, facing him, I looked at him sleeping.
Even the injuries, they weren't serious, but even so it didn't diminish his beauty, he was so beautiful that I couldn't describe it, it still hadn't given me time to put my thoughts in place. I had lots and lots of questions to ask, but I knew it wasn't the right time, I didn't want to be inconvenient. Even knowing him for such a short time, I felt that I needed to be there for him.
Without thinking straight, I lifted one of my hands and ran it over his face, skin smooth but full of tension underneath. It deserved a photo, it would make a great photo. I reached for my cell phone in a hurry and took a picture. FLASH. Damn, I didn't turn down the noise and I didn't remove the flash.
"Are you enjoying it?" he asked in a mocking tone. I felt very embarrassed that he had caught me in that awkward moment.
"Sorry, but...you looked so cute sleeping." Oh no. I didn't say that, shit, I had a natural gift for getting into these tight skirts and complicating myself more and more.
"How can you find me beautiful like that? I'm ugly, Eloíse. I have marks on my face, how can you find someone that beautiful?" he asked and I swallowed hard. I needed to tell him.
"Don't ever say you're ugly again. Even with all those wounds, I think you're very handsome." I spoke and went in search of the plate on top of the dresser. "Here." I gave him the plate.
"Who are you, girl? Shouldn't you run away from me? Afraid that I'll come to your room like that in the middle of the night, suspicious and full of questions? If I believed in something, I'd say you're an angel and not a human being." His words warmed my heart, I felt happy to help someone, I confess that I never had malice or malice towards anyone, my heart was kind and I couldn't help it.
"I felt I should help you, I felt deep in my heart that I could trust you, from the moment you brought me home, and that you could do anything bad to me, you didn't." I said watching him eat. "And about questions, I have many, many. But I know how to wait for the right moment." I said and gave him a tender smile.
I sat on the bed while he ate. A few minutes passed and he handed me the plate, I put it on the floor next to the bed.
"The food was delicious." He said and ran his tongue over his lips, I bit my lower lip trying to contain the shiver that made me almost shiver.
"Can I clean your wounds?" I asked, I really wanted to take care of him. It was strange and I knew it, my attitude towards that stranger was not normal.
"Clear." He said.
"If it hurts, you tell me I'll stop." I noticed him smile when he heard my sentence. "What's funny?"
"Nothing. Doesn't want spoiling your innocence." He said smiling.
"I'm not that innocent, I told you." I replied sullenly and started cleaning his wounds.
"No!?" He frowned.
"Of course not. Don't be fooled by my angelic face." I winked at him derisively.
"What do you mean by that?" His tone was serious and he pushed my hand away.
"I was just kidding..." I said and he then softened his expression.
I continued cleaning the wounds, there were few, almost nothing. The bloodstains that were exaggerated and looked like there was something serious. There, now he was totally clean, except for his suit and shirt that had some stains. During a few times I yawned.
"Are you sleepy?" he asked me.
"A little, but I can handle being here with you." I replied. "If you want to use the bathroom, stay over there by the door." He said pointing to the bathroom door that was inside the room.
"I wanted to take a shower, is there a problem?"
"No, I'll get you a towel." I grabbed a towel and handed it over. He went into the bathroom and stayed there for about five minutes.
After that he left with the towel wrapped around his waist. I lay there looking at that view and I got hot, I moved in bed uncomfortable.
"Do you need something?" My voice came out broken, I tried to look away but I couldn't, he had a volume between my legs that left my breath panting. I sat on the bed trying to put my thighs together looking for relief from that feeling I only felt after I met Julian.
"Sorry I got it mixed up with my house which I always leave the bathroom and change in the bedroom." He spoke quickly and went into the bathroom. Two minutes later he left wearing only his pants and shirt. The vest and suit were in his hand.
"You can put it here in the corner." I showed him the corner and he put the clothes there.
"Thanks." He said and sat next to me on the bed. "I think I'd better go, I must be bothering you. In fact, I've already bothered you enough." He spoke and got up, it was stupid for me to feel that way for him, but I couldn't help it, it was automatic, I didn't want him to leave.
"You can stay the night if you want, but tomorrow morning you need to go, my grandmother will kill me if she finds out that a man has slept in my room."
"Okay, I'll stay if you insist." He said suppressing a smile, I slapped his arm. "If your intention was to tickle me, I'm not sorry."
"It wasn't tickle, it was slap." I explained rolling my eyes.
We burst out laughing together, I realized that my grandmother was sleeping in the next room and that she could wake up at any moment, so I held back the rest of my laughter and waved Julian to silence. He stopped smiling and looked at me with a twinkle in his eyes. Something inside me hurt, it was impossible to decipher what I was feeling, it was like a feeling, it was new, I wanted more from him and needed Julian's presence and attention, no matter how many hours I knew him.
"I think we better sleep, I have class tomorrow." I spoke.
"Okay. You can throw me a blanket so I can lie down on the couch."
"Don't you think this sofa is too small for you? It barely fits me, you can lie down with me on the bed, I don't bite." I spoke in a mocking tone.
"The problem isn't you biting me, it's me." He was so much better at teasing than I was, I blushed immediately. "Besides, I have trouble sleeping. I don't really sleep."
"I can sing you to sleep. There's a song my grandma always sang to me, she was infallible."
"Sing for me?" He looked afraid. What had happened to that man? Could it be that he had never had affection and affection from anyone?
"Yes. Come on, you'll fall asleep in no time." I got under the covers and patted the side for him to lie down, luckily it was a double bed.
He lay down beside me without protesting, lying face up on the bed we were. So I started.
"Sleep, master Julian, your friends are here, sleep, sleep Julian, your friends are here. I called the little dog, I also called the little lion, and the little alligator wanted to come too, sleep sleep little friend." I looked at him and in the moonlight reflecting off his face he wanted to smile but held back.
"It's working. I'm sleepy." He said smiling finally, I tried to hold back or feel offended that he laughed at my song, but I just laughed with him.
We stopped smiling and fell silent. Maybe a few minutes should have passed, I looked at the man beside me, so handsome... He was sleeping, I felt fulfilled with that simple gesture, having helped him to have a night's sleep, since according to him, he didn't sleep .
"Who are you Julian…" I whispered facing the many questions I had to ask, I would have the opportunity to ask them later.
I closed my eyes and the darkness of dreamless sleep enveloped me.
The next day I woke up a little scared, I sat up in bed quickly with a possible nightmare, but I didn't remember anything, the only thing I remembered was having slept and not dreaming about anything, also of Julian having come to the my room at dawn.I looked over and he was there, still sleeping. I felt a sense of relief knowing that it hadn't been figments of my imagination, he was really there. I ran to look on my cell phone what time it was, five in the morning, soon I would have to get ready to go to school and my grandmother would wake up, Julian had to go. With a heavy heart I shook him lightly, at the same time he opened his eyes, he looked a little scared."Shh... It's me..." I whispered to him."It's already morning?" he asked softly running his hands over his face."Yes, five in the morning, my grandmother gets up at six to walk and comes back at six twenty to wake me up." I spoke softly. "Did you sleep well?" I asked anxiously for the answer."I've never slept so well in
"C'mon pumpkin, don't keep your nose to me forever go." John said trying to tickle me."You're a fake João Pedro. I know you're all happy because your name came out with Antonella's name!" I exclaimed taking his hands away from me."It wasn't my fault, my name came out to do the work with her, and you're going to do the work with the rookie? You think I didn't see you looking at him and him eating you with his eyes, didn't you? His reaction to the knowing that he would be your work partner was clear that he already had a crush on you." he said as we walked to his car."Obligatorily I'm going to do the work with that Harry guy, but you know I don't like it. I can only do well in the works when I do it with you or Liv. Do you remember that work I presented with Caroline and with Belinda? It was awful." I made a dramatic face.The teacher had done the draws and I would have to do the work with the newbie, I felt very uncomfortable with his eyes on me the whole time, I really didn't like
I looked around to see if there were any neighbors snooping around like the lady next door, luckily she wasn't outside, but she was definitely seeing us, I needed to calm that strange and embarrassing situation."I think we'd better go inside." She just said and I signaled for him to come in. Treading hard he entered the house.The moment I closed the door, Julian suddenly pinned me against the door behind me, leaving me within inches of my face, even if he had to duck his head a little to do so. Studying me and burning me with that piercing blue gaze, I felt slightly dizzy at the feel of his warm, pleasant breath against my face."I'm not kidding! Who was he?" He growled with a set jaw, I could only concentrate on the heat I was feeling, with my gaze locked on his lips I tried to speak."H-his name is Harry Barriere, he arrived today in our class at school, the teacher drew names for pairs to do the work together and my name fell along with his." I explained calmly. I didn't understa
After closing that door, I walked very slowly towards the stairs that led to the top floor where my room was located. I looked to the corner of the room where Julian and I had just kissed. I felt hot right away, I remembered him touching my body, the way he touched, the way he took my lips in a delicious kiss. I felt moisture gather between my legs, a cold wind came through the window and I felt a shiver as if he was breathing on me.I went up to my room and tried to forget that little moment. I laid down on my bed and stayed quiet not wanting to think about anything. Minutes later I ended up falling asleep. When I woke up later, I heard a conversation downstairs, I knew that voice well. Olivia. I got up quickly and ran down the stairs, when I got there she looked at me and opened a huge smile, we hugged as if we hadn't seen each other for a year."Look who decided to show up!" I said happy to see her."I can explain." She said in a joking tone. "How are you?" she asked."More or less
I walked all over my room without being able to sleep, I put on some series to watch but I couldn't concentrate on any, so I took them off. I took out my cell phone several times to see if I had any calls from Julian, any messages. But nothing, there was nothing. I was so attached to him in such a short time that it scared the shit out of me. Sometimes I stopped to think about what was going on and it was just too weird.My window was the one I visited the most that morning, I even spent a few minutes hugging him with the towel he dried himself with the other day, it still had his unique smell. When I realized it, I threw it into the laundry basket and looked at myself in the mirror. Furious with myself I stopped to analyze the truth. I was obsessed.When I finally managed to sleep a wink, guess who was there, dominating my dreams? Exactly him, Julian.In that dream, he was coming towards me, walking slowly like a predator about to catch its prey. His intense blue eyes were burning in
shock state. I was in shock. You know that denial inside your brain and heart, which says no, it's not what they say and you need to hear from the person's mouth that it's all a misunderstanding? I was like this. I don't know how long I stayed that way, I just know that when I realized I was lying on my bed with my grandmother and João talking in a corner of the room.I must have passed out from the wave of nervousness I felt, when I remember again I could feel immense agony, I couldn't be normal, a normal person would call the police, tell them what they knew. But I wasn't normal, I wasn't going to do that, I needed to find him again, even if I was his next victim, I didn't believe he would have the courage to hurt me. In fact, that's why he didn't stay with me when I asked. I needed to hear from his beautiful mouth that he had done it all."Daughter, you woke up!" Exclaimed my grandmother with a look of relief coming towards me. "How are you feeling?" She asked caressing my face. I
I went back to where I was, when a few seconds later Harry left. I suppose he lied to me when he said he was João's neighbor. The last time he saw me with Harry, Julian had such a meltdown that I still didn't understand what had happened. That's when I had a stupidly brilliant idea; would kiss Harry. At that moment I didn't know what I was doing, it was wrong, Harry didn't deserve it, nobody deserved to be used. But only I would know.My heart was still racing and my hands were sweating, adrenaline coursing through my veins. Since when had I become that? Desperate for a man's attention, Julian's exactly. Even willing to kiss Harry Barriere to awaken in him the rage he felt the other day. But from the moment I laid eyes on that man, those eyes, that smile, it got worse after we kissed intensely in my house. I could disregard myself as a normal person."Let's go?" Harry said smiling and only then did I notice how handsome he was too, of course he couldn't compare to Julian but his smile
The clothes I was wearing were completely wrinkled, my hair messed up as if I had just gotten out of a fight, my lips swollen and my breathing labored. Julian was no different, his nice suit and shirt were wrinkled and a few buttons undone on his pants. Her hair was also messed up and her mouth wet for me.Both paralyzed looking at each other, and I had no idea what I would say to my grandmother if she asked me what happened to me in there. Another beat had me breathing again and coming to my senses. I pushed Julian into the bathroom and closed the door. I looked at the mirror that was glued behind the door and quickly fixed my hair, covered myself with a sheet and opened the door."Hi Grandma." I said smiling nervously."Are you well?" She asked examining me with her eyes."Yes, I was watching a movie on my phone and fell asleep." I responded hurriedly and faked a sneeze. "I think I'm catching a cold.""I see, your lips are very red. I'll get you some syrup my love." She said with a
"It turned out really good!" I exclaimed admiring our model of the Eiffel Tower assembled just the way we wanted it."It turned out much better than I imagined." Harry agreed smiling."Glad we got this done." I sighed mentally. I looked at my fingers and they were all covered in ink and colored glue."Was it torturous like that?" he asked."What?" I asked confused by being distracted."Doing the job with me. Was it that bad, being in my company?" He asked, I thought the face he made was so cute that all I did was laugh."Of course not Harry. At first you were quite grumpy, let's be honest. But now you're reasonable..." I admitted."So... Will you agree to go out with me?" I widened my eyes, totally taken back by his proposal. Harry scratched his head, and looked to the side, looking nervous."Harry…" I started to speak but he cut me off."I get it! You don't want to go out with a troubled guy like me. Let me take this model to class tomorrow, I'll take you home now." He exclaimed pick
I arrived home with heavy breathing. The day was cloudy but I felt hot because of the fast pedaling I did. What took me fifteen minutes every day, I took eleven that day. I was strangely eager to get into that house and find out more about Harry's family.I really intended to be friends with him, I didn't know much about him but he seemed emotionally unstable, I could tell by some things he said without meaning to. Perhaps he lacked the attention of his parents or his family."Is anyone home?" I asked as soon as I walked in after putting my bike away."I'm here, honey." My grandmother screamed from the kitchen. I went there and came across a gentleman, apparently the same age as grandma."Hello." I greeted."Hello everything is fine?" he asked."All yes." I replied."Daughter, this is Arthur Mollina. Arthur, this is my granddaughter Eloise." She introduced us."Pleased to meet you, miss. I want you to know that your grandmother is very important to me, right now." He said smiling at m
After the breakthrough Julian and I had, nothing but that happened. We went back to his small but perfect cabin."I think I'm going to turn on my cell phone, I need to know what's going on. If my grandmother called, if João said something... It's already dawn and I have to go back home, I have class and work I do." I spoke while Julian was in the kitchen making coffee."I think it's okay." Julian said, but I was still worried.I grabbed my cell phone off the table and turned it on. After a few minutes it only vibrated twice. It was a message from each one, Florence and João.Grandma: It's okay, I'm sorry I can't come home today. But your grandmother deserves a treat. I'm sure you'll be fine with your friends. Kiss, I love you.How could my grandmother be so wonderful? I didn't know how she existed, she was the best woman and grandmother in the whole world, she was always so dedicated to me that she deserved a lot of leisure, dating, going out and having fun, throughout my childhood I
I don't know at what point, but after making out with Julian on the couch, I fell asleep. I realized when I slowly opened my eyes and felt his big, warm body next to mine, it was one of the best sensations I've ever felt before. I lifted my head slowly and quickly felt the muscles in his chest tighten."I woke you up?" he asked hoarsely."No... You didn't sleep?" I asked sitting down on the couch."No, today you didn't sing Julian's friends song." He said and gave a slight smile."Want me to sing?" I asked smiling."If you want, yes. But I wanted to take advantage of your waking up." He said getting up too and coming to me."Oh yeah? And for what?" I asked in a teasing tone."For that." He spoke and pulled me in giving me a kiss. An intense and hot kiss."If that was it, why didn't you wake me up right away?" I answered and kissed him again with heavy breathing. I mentally thanked Julian for showing me what it was like to kiss, it was very good, with him it was very good.We stopped a
We were there, sitting on that couch in silence for a few seconds before he started talking. At that moment I didn't know if I really wanted to know everything, if that by chance could keep us apart. But it was important to know, I needed to hear him and he needed to talk too. Julian took a long breath and began:"Have you heard of arranged marriages?" He asked me and I nodded. "That's how it all started, it was two families, the Vicenzo's and the Roman's. Listen to me carefully, now I'm going to tell you a story.""I'm listening…" I replied quietly and gave him a steady look, he had to know I was willing to listen to him."On the 19th of February 1980 in Billericay, UK, two babies were born, a boy into the Vicenzo family and a girl into the Roman family. That boy was me and the girl was Brenda Roman. Our parents in agreement years before We were born ordained a wedding for both of us. As we were totally manipulated by them, we turned eighteen and got married in a huge and unnecessary
After Julian had said that, an internal conflict began within me, my subconscious, still normal, told me to go back home, ask him to take me back and never see him again, leave him together with his baggage of suffering and obscurity. for there. But on the other side, there was the part that was winning the war, my heart wanted him, that damn handsome man, my body wanted it, and my heart too. He asked me to listen to him and help him with whatever it was."We're here." Said Julian after driving for about fifty minutes."What place is this?" I asked looking around. Julian still silently got me out of the car.The place was surrounded by several trees, in the distance you could see a house, looking more like a chalet. It was perfect, all dark wood and very well maintained. In its upper part there was a small balcony in the shape of a triangle, the lower part had its glass windows with white curtains that could be seen from the outside. In front of the small house or cottage, there was a
The clothes I was wearing were completely wrinkled, my hair messed up as if I had just gotten out of a fight, my lips swollen and my breathing labored. Julian was no different, his nice suit and shirt were wrinkled and a few buttons undone on his pants. Her hair was also messed up and her mouth wet for me.Both paralyzed looking at each other, and I had no idea what I would say to my grandmother if she asked me what happened to me in there. Another beat had me breathing again and coming to my senses. I pushed Julian into the bathroom and closed the door. I looked at the mirror that was glued behind the door and quickly fixed my hair, covered myself with a sheet and opened the door."Hi Grandma." I said smiling nervously."Are you well?" She asked examining me with her eyes."Yes, I was watching a movie on my phone and fell asleep." I responded hurriedly and faked a sneeze. "I think I'm catching a cold.""I see, your lips are very red. I'll get you some syrup my love." She said with a
I went back to where I was, when a few seconds later Harry left. I suppose he lied to me when he said he was João's neighbor. The last time he saw me with Harry, Julian had such a meltdown that I still didn't understand what had happened. That's when I had a stupidly brilliant idea; would kiss Harry. At that moment I didn't know what I was doing, it was wrong, Harry didn't deserve it, nobody deserved to be used. But only I would know.My heart was still racing and my hands were sweating, adrenaline coursing through my veins. Since when had I become that? Desperate for a man's attention, Julian's exactly. Even willing to kiss Harry Barriere to awaken in him the rage he felt the other day. But from the moment I laid eyes on that man, those eyes, that smile, it got worse after we kissed intensely in my house. I could disregard myself as a normal person."Let's go?" Harry said smiling and only then did I notice how handsome he was too, of course he couldn't compare to Julian but his smile
shock state. I was in shock. You know that denial inside your brain and heart, which says no, it's not what they say and you need to hear from the person's mouth that it's all a misunderstanding? I was like this. I don't know how long I stayed that way, I just know that when I realized I was lying on my bed with my grandmother and João talking in a corner of the room.I must have passed out from the wave of nervousness I felt, when I remember again I could feel immense agony, I couldn't be normal, a normal person would call the police, tell them what they knew. But I wasn't normal, I wasn't going to do that, I needed to find him again, even if I was his next victim, I didn't believe he would have the courage to hurt me. In fact, that's why he didn't stay with me when I asked. I needed to hear from his beautiful mouth that he had done it all."Daughter, you woke up!" Exclaimed my grandmother with a look of relief coming towards me. "How are you feeling?" She asked caressing my face. I