I stood up again.
I thought I was hearing things or my mind was playing tricks on me. But the faint sounds persisted, drawing me deeper into the garden. I stopped. What was I doing? Gosh. I needed a bath. My heart was still heavy. I began to walk back only to bump into someone. I looked up, and there he was – Tyler.
What was he doing here? What the hell did he want?
I couldn't bear to look at him, not after what I saw. I would either tear his face apart or break down crying rivers.
"I didn't expect to find you here," he said with an unserious voice.
That's what he wanted to say to me? After what he did? Fine. Cool. We'll play that game.
I gulped then shrugged, keeping my gaze away from him. "Guess you never really know where someone might end up when they're hurting." My voice shook but I tried to mask my nervousness.
He rubbed the back of his neck with his right hand, "I've been looking for you everywhere."
I chuckled sarcastically and then pressed my tongue against my cheek. "Of course you have, or you've been busy…busy making out with people other than me."
He sighed with a heavy breath. And then he surprised me. He reached out and gently turned my face to meet his gaze. "Lily, why did you go there? Without even asking for my permission?"
A bitter laugh escaped my lips as I pushed his hand away from my face. "Permission? When did I start asking for permission to visit you, Tyler?"
He wanted to talk but I didn't allow him.
"Is it wrong for your friend, or should I say girlfriend, to wish you a happy birthday on your special day?"
His grip tightened on my arm. "Lily, you know it's not what you think."
I shook my head, a dejected smile on my lips. "Tyler, I saw you with my own eyes. There's nothing left to say."
He released me, frustration flashing in his eyes. "You're not even going to let me explain?"
He wanted to explain. I laughed drearily in my mind. After I had caught him red-handed, it was hard to believe there was any plausible explanation. The pain I felt hung over me like a dark cloud, making it hard to even try to understand anything he would say.
When I looked at him, he seemed frustrated and sorry at the same time. It made me a bit sad. We had been close, and now things felt like they were falling apart, all at once. But his actions spoke louder than words, and in that moment, and right then, I needed to think about how I felt. All those years I had lived for him and thought only about what he wanted me to do, what he wanted us to be and how he wanted things to be done. I had never prioritised my own feelings and mental health, all in the sake of having a first true love. I doubted at that moment if it was ever even true love. But I knew I had sacrificed a lot for him. Enough of that. At that moment, I had to think about what was best for me.
"Explain…" I scoffed and crossed my arms, meeting his gaze with sadness and anger all over my face. "What's there to explain, Tyler? You've obviously made your choice."
He raked his fingers through his hair, something he normally did when he is frustrated. "It's not like that, Lily. Audrey… she's just a friend."
I scoffed again, disbelief evident in my tone. I was almost annoyed at that point. "Some kind of friend, huh? The way you were romancing her, it didn't look like you were 'just friends'."
His shoulders slumped, and he let out a defeated sigh. "Fine. I know I messed up," he admitted with a low and remorseful voice. "I never meant for things to turn out like this."
For a moment, I wanted to feel sympathetic for him and empathy tugged at my heart. But the hurt was still too fresh and the wound was too raw. "It's too late for explanations now," I said softly, looking down from his gaze.
Tyler let out a frustrated breath. "Lily, please, just listen."
I turned away, my heart aching. "I've heard enough, Tyler."
His voice softened, almost pleading. "Lily, please. Don't walk away like this."
I faced him again, my eyes heavy with unshed tears. "Tyler, I freaking trusted you. You know how much I did for you. You know how much I gave to be with you. Can you even remember?!"
I remembered how he and I used to run in the field when it rained, even though my parents would get upset with me for bringing him along. The memories flooded back, each one like a hammer and nail hitting through my heart.
I remembered how we would laugh until our sides hurt, how the sound of his laughter was the best melody I knew. I remembered the way he looked at me, like I was the only one in the world who mattered. The happy times we had felt so warm, but now the cold truth in front of me was very different.
I remembered the fights we had, too. The way we'd argue about the silliest things, only to make up with a heartfelt apology or a shared smile. I remembered the late-night conversations and all the secrets we shared under the moonlight after we'd go through so much hassle to sneak out of our rooms anytime he stayed at the grove.
But then, there was that one memory. The recent one I had tried to push away. The memory of catching him with her, the way they looked at and held each other. It broke the idyllic picture I had imagined in my head. All those beautiful memories were tainted by that one painful scene.
I wished I could forget. I wished I could erase that memory and all the others that now seemed bittersweet. To have a clean slate, a mind without the weight of what once was. But memories don't fade that easily, and I knew I had to find a way to carry them.
I blinked, tears hanging on my eyelids and then stepped back. "I gave you my heart, Tyler, and you broke it." I said with a broken voice.
He took a step closer, his eyes searching mine. "Lily, I'm so sorry."
Tears blurred my vision as I shook my head. "Sorry doesn't fix this, Tyler. I never want to fucking see you again."
I turned to leave, but his voice stopped me. "Wait."
I sighed and balled my fists, my patience wearing thin. "What now?"
Tyler took a deep breath as he stared at me. "Audrey is my second mate."
I froze, trying to let what he just said sink in. Second mate? That wasn't something I had expected. I didn't understand and it made me sadder and confused. "What? What does that even mean?"
He stepped closer with a pained expression on his face. "It means that I thought I had lost my chance with you. I thought you stopped feeling the same way. You know I chose you…"
My heart hurt so much. I felt both mad and a bit hopeful. But did what he said even make any sense? How would he lose his chance with me? I'd always made it known that he was the only guy I loved and ever wanted in the entire pack and literally everyone knew too. So, what kind of silly excuse was he giving?
"Why would you think I stopped loving you, Tyler? Who told you that? Did I? And did you ever ask me? I've literally only ever liked you. You fucking know that! So what are you even saying now?!"
He took my hands in his, his touch warm against my skin. " I…" Of course, he didn't have the words to speak. What could he say?
"Audrey… she's important, but not like you." He completely disregarded what I just said and said something more annoying.
"Oh, save it." I rolled my eyes and dragged my hand away but he held it again.
He gulped and stared down at me, "Lily, I'm telling you the truth. She's a connection, but you're the one I love."
I pulled my hands from his grip fiercely as my emotions were almost out of control. "You expect me to believe that?! After everything?"
Tyler's eyes pleaded with mine. "I know I messed up, Lily. But I can't change the past. I can only hope you give me a chance to make things right."
I stared at him, torn between my heart and my head. My feelings were all jumbled up inside and I was so unsure of what to do.
Finally, I said, "I need time, Tyler. Time to process all of this, to think about everything. But I don't think I can ever forgive you. Not ever."
He looked like he didn't really want to try anymore. He just nodded and let go of my hand, like he was giving up.
"Fine." He said.
There was a brief silence between us before he spoke again.
"Actually," he began slowly, "I think... we should break up."
I felt surprised for a moment, even though deep down, I kind of saw it coming. Then, my surprise turned into anger. "Fine," I said in a huff, my voice sharp and frustrated.
I turned away from him, feeling like I needed to get away. The emotions inside me were too much to handle, and I didn't want him to see me cry. I turned and left, feeling really sad and mad. My steps felt heavy, like there was a weight around my ankles. He stayed behind and watched as I walked away.
I didn't want to look back but I did just once and yelled at him, 'Fine!' before running into the house.
Tears kept running down my cheeks as I stumbled my way back to my bedroom. I couldn't get the picture of Tyler and Audrey out of my head. It was like a pain that wouldn't go away, deep inside me. All the memories rushed in, hitting me like a wave. More tears wet my pillow. It was so hard to believe he actually ended our relationship. Despite how angry I was, I knew I couldn't just hate him. I remembered the words he said. "She's a connection, but you're the one I love." Like hell I am. How could I possibly believe him? How? Had he forgotten all the promises he made me? To never leave or betray me? How could he let it all go down the drain like that? All the fucking promises. They felt empty now, like they didn't mean anything. I still wished that when I woke up, everything would be back to normal. I hoped this was just a really bad dream. I managed to fall asleep, the exhaustion finally pulling me under. The last thing I remembered was Tyler's voice, his words hanging in the a
My parents looked at each other and then walked into the room. They watched me trying to get up and act normal again. "What are you doing, Lily?" My father asked with a raised eyebrow. I stammered, "Nothing, just... I was just..." I got up quickly and tried to change the subject to stop them from being curious. "Is there something you need?" They shared another glance before my mother spoke up. "We just wanted to let you know that Tyler will be joining us for lunch." I felt lots of feelings all at once, but they changed too quickly for my parents to notice. How could my parents understand how messed up and broken I was feeling? My mom especially always liked Tyler and thought we were a great match. She'd drop hints about us being perfect together. I couldn't be mad at them for telling me this. "Okay," I said quietly, trying to sound calm even though I wasn't. "Is there anything else you want to say?" My father cleared his throat, his expression slightly more serious. "Actually
I dashed across the corridor, desperate to reach my destination. The corridor appeared to be quite longer than it used to be, but I didn't let it deter me. I had to save the vampire's life. I paused for a second when I approached my father's room. What if he found out what I was up to? What if he got angry? I didn't want to deal with his anger. I took a deep breath and carefully turned the doorknob. As I opened the door, it made a creaking sound. I entered the room gently, looking for the medicine that my father had hidden. I saw a little box on a high shelf. It was made of wood and locked with a silver key. I knew my dad kept the key in his desk drawer. I quickly went to the desk, feeling very anxious. I felt my heart race as I looked through the drawer. I could hear someone coming towards the room. I started to panic as I searched for the key, my hands shaking nervously. "Lily, what exactly are you doing in here?" My father's voice stunned me, and I hurriedly shut the drawer whi
He looked at me with a visage that held a depth I couldn't quite grasp. He paused briefly before speaking, his voice noticeably filled with regret. "I'm Adrian. Adrian DuMont." Adrian DuMont. The name struck a chord with me, evoking a flash of reminiscence. It was a name with weight, one that triggered something deep within my memories. But I couldn't remember where I'd heard it before. He responded the question before I could think more about the mystery surrounding his name. "What about you? Can you tell me your name?" I paused for a moment, unsure whether to reveal my true identity. But there was something about him, something in the way he looked at me, that made me want to believe his every word. "Lily, Lily McGregor." Adrian's face lit up with surprise, as if my name meant something. His eyes widened slightly as a flash of recognition passed through them. "Lily McGregor," he said quietly again, as if testing the name on his tongue. "The daughter of the renowned pack hunter, H
I was really anxious when I left my room because I wanted to make sure my plan worked out smoothly. But when I unintentionally ran into Audrey, the same girl who had caused me so much pain in such a short period of time, things only became worse. Tyler choosing her rather than me still shocked me. The pain and rage I felt intensified as a result of how misled and played I felt. "Oh, how are you doing, Lily?" Audrey asked, her voice filled with disdain. "I noticed you weren't looking too well during our lunch so I decided to check up on you." I breathed in and out. "Such a shame. Don't tell me you're still heartbroken?" I attempted to ignore the hurt of her words and push past her. I needed to concentrate on finding Adrian and assuring his safety. Tyler's decision and Audrey's presence were unnecessary distractions. I walked past her and wandered the corridors, lost in my thoughts. My head was still reeling from the recent incident - I actually found a vampire in my room and I save
"What's happening here?" I asked. I was really confused and my voice was trembling. The air in the room choked me with tension, and I could feel the intensity of their gazes on me. Tyler's grip on Adrian tightened and he said triumphantly, "Look who I found snooping around your chambers, Lily. He could be a thief, or worse, an assassin." My mind raced as I tried to figure out how to fix this. I had to act quickly and find the perfect thing to say to distract them. I wandered why Tyler was suddenly acting like the hero in all this. Summoning every ounce of composure I had left, I straightened my posture, meeting Tyler's gaze head-on. "Tyler, let him go," I commanded. "He is not a threat. He's here under my protection." Tyler's expression hardened, "What? Are you commanding me, the Alpha-to-be? And why is he here under your protection? Who the hell is he to you?" My father stepped forward, his expression stern and questioning. "Lily, why are you showing sympathy towards this strange
Without looking at him, I replied, "No." I tried to move through the door, but he blocked the way again, "I won't beg you." "And I don't want you to." "Why are you being difficult?' "Just let me pass!" I jerked his hand off the door rail but he banged the door behind us, making me flinch back. I glanced at him, my gaze piercing. "What do you think you're doing?" "Is this how you want things to be between us from now on? Weird? Awkward? Toxic? Shitty?" The words came out of his mouth like garbage. "You made it this way…" My voice broke with every syllable. He sighed and looked the other side. I walked back and folded my arms, eager to get this over with and get away from him. "Talk." He hesitated, "Lily, I understand that our breakup was difficult for both of us, especially you…" "Oh gee, look who's just finding out." "You won't even let me speak." "Look, to be honest, I don't even want to hear anything. You've said all I needed to hear already. We just need to find a way to
Don swung a punch first but it barely reached Adrian. He let out a corny laugh that made me roll my eyes. "Was just warming my reflexes…I'm gonna pulverise you..." As Don continued swinging his fists in the air, Adrian remained still, observing his movements with careful attention. I couldn't help but wonder what Adrian was planning. What was his strategy? The anticipation slowly built within me. Jaxon took a seat beside me, breaking my focus on the fight. He leaned closer and asked, "Why do you trust that guy so much, Lily?" I paused for a moment, gathering my thoughts. "He saved me, Jaxon. There's something about him, something I can't quite explain," I replied shakily. Jaxon tilted his head at me, "Lily, you know you can't keep things from me right?" "I'm not trying to." "We'll get back to that… I talked to Tyler." His voice faded. "You didn't have to. You really shouldn't have." "I can see that it's been bothering you. You don't have to carry it all on your own," he said, h