“I looked for you. Everywhere. I promise.”
I calmed down a bit. He brought me back to the bed again and he kept on explaining on bended knees in front of me. I didn’t speak. I tried to control my emotions and to process everything.”I almost gave up, Emma. I almost lose hope because looking for someone I didn’t know was not that easy. And your mom only remembers your name and slightest things about you.”He’s right. I don't remember things that much. All I know is her name and if this photo is not with me, I wouldn’t have remembered her face at all.”But I can’t bear to stop looking for you thinking that you are everything she wanted. She helped me be the person I am today, she helped me when I thought it’s the end for me too. And here you are.”Cloud of tears started to appear in my eyes again.He didn’t do anything wrong. But whyEven after hearing all that from him, something is still lacking. I wanted to ask more questions, I wanted to ask more details. Yet, I didn’t know where I should start. And that just isn't what makes it more complicated, sometimes the past should not be forgotten because that past takes a big part of the future.I wondered, did he really loved me or did he just love the thought of me? The answer? How would I know? I don’t want to ask him. I’m afraid to hear his answers.He convinced me to eat breakfast with him. I am miserably seated on the dining table while he calculates all my actions. When he put the soup in front of me, I asked him questions.”Where is she now?”He sighed and put the spoon in front of me.”I’ll take you to that place when you’re ready.””I am ready.” I said without thinking.He eyed me ser
”Are you sure you want to do this?”I pursed my lips and nodded. I felt him holding my hand tight before he opened the door on his side. He opened the door for me and just by feeling the breeze of the wind, the aura and the presence that’s surrounding me changed right away.”Here,” Elijah led the way for me.Seeing the tombstones of deceased people gives me that kind of empathetic feeling. I’ve never been into a memorial park before, so I must admit that I’m not sure why I’m feeling this heavy.Me and Elijah walked not that far from where that car was parked. When we passed by an old tree, that’s when he stopped.I glanced at him and his eyes spoke already. My head turned to the direction of the headstone that’s in front of us.I was struck. The first sentence got me. Like this is the only moment that it finally sinks into my head.”In loving
Days happened so fast. For the span of two to three days, all of those situations happened like a snap. I was still coping up and trying to accept it all slowly and surely. Like what Elijah told me, the past may be a big part of today, but I won’t gamble my future for depending too much on the past. For now, I’ll focus on what’s on my plate. On things that are important. ”Zoey, everything okay?” I asked her. She seemed out of energy as usual. Usually, she’ll be talking to me endlessly like her mouth is not getting tired but now, she’s just spaced out playing with her food here in the cafe.””Yeah.” I narrowed my eyes on her. ”Actually no.” she sulked and put her cutlery harshly. I sighed heavily. I knew it. ”Why? What happened?” She pouted and looked at me. I was taken back by her intimidating looks at me. Don’t tell me I’m the problem? ”Don’t get me wrong, Emma. I’m not mad at you nor anything. It’s just
Reaching the last step of the stairs, I peeked to his direction. A small smile appeared on my lips when I saw the man I’m looking for. He’s wearing gray lounge shorts and a loose black t-shirt.He’s on the second floor of his penthouse where his office is located. I saw him in front of his laptop, typing seriously. Even though I can only see one side of his face, it is clear in my vision that his eyebrows are for sure meeting each other. That’s his natural complex. The mad man who always looks mad. Well, I should add up to that. I mean, handsome mad man.Even when I’m standing on the last step of the stairs, due to his concentration he still wasn't able to notice me. A wicked idea lighted inside my head. Slowly, I came near his direction.I bowed down and hugged him from his back.”Boo,” I whispered.He didn’t even flinch. He just looked at me with that handsome smile on his face. He immediately grabbed me by the arms and made me sit on his lap. I
”My! Look at you!” Zoey squealed, scanning me from head to toe.My cheeks flushed standing in front of her full body sized mirror. She made me wear her heels and some of her what she calls ‘go-see’ clothes.”My clothes are still a bit loose because of your tiny frame. You want to shop for clothes?” she casually asked.I harshly shook my head in disapproval. “No. I think I have a pair of jeans at home and this top. I need to borrow your heels though.” I said.”Oh, you can just have those. I still have a lot in my closet.” she winked.And that’s how the new chapter of my life goes. The next few days are like a gasp of breath. The end of our first year is almost coming to an end.We both focused on our studies first before going on into our plans.”Yes, I’ll be going home early today. We just have a few subjects to take.” I said to t
I was almost out of my mind when we arrived at the building where I assume my father is hiding. How did he know all of this? I don’t know. ”Why are you doing this, Angelo? Why are you helping me?” I asked eagerly while he unlocked one of the doors in this building. He smiled lightly without looking at me. “I know you’re loyal to your man now. I just knew you wanted to help him with his errands.” My brows shot up with his shady answer. What? When the door finally sprang free. I saw the inside of the place. It’s a studio type apartment, nothing seems to look so special. The single window at the wall has broken glass. There are empty bottles of beer everywhere, and the smell… suddenly sent a gruesome memory in my head I can’t exactly figure out. I unconsciously walk inside which Angelo let me do it. I don’t even know why we are here, or who’s place it was. I scanned the whole place looking for anything and the next scene surprised me. The
Funny how life plays with you. One moment you’re looking at yourself living the life you dreamed of. Then another day comes, it all fades away.”Emma, we have to clean your wound.”I made my strides fast because I didn’t want Angelo to follow me. He didn’t sense that. Instead, he grabbed my wrist to stop me.”Fuck off!” I shrugged his hands.I saw how his eyes widened a little because of my sudden violence. He can’t blame me. All I heard was too much. I still can’t process everything that I heardand now he’s crowding me.”I just want to help you with your wound.” he said.”I don’t fucking care!” I shouted harshly. “Drive me back before my bodyguard would even cut your throat.” I said out of anger.His expression didn’t even change.”You think I’ll be scared? That w
“Are you alright?” Elijah’s first words when he saw me. I couldn’t look him in the eye.”You made me so damn worried. Where did you go and why did you leave your phone?” he continued questioning me. My yes passed by his worried face. I bit my lip and avoided his eyes.”I’m… I was just looking for an ice cream parlor.” That sound so dumb but who cares? I couldn’t think straight anymore. ”What is that?” My body turned cold. I know what he’s trying to pinpoint here. He tried to touch it but I turned my head to the other side. ”I bumped into a street light a while ago. Can I go to my room now?” His lips are in thin straight line. I couldn’t read his expression but I’m sensing he’s not buying my reasons. All I did was to look at my foot while waiting for his answer. ”Alright.
”I can’t believe we’re back here again.” she said with wandering eyes, gracefully seated on the passenger seat.My lips protruded. I played with my lips as I stopped myself from pulling up the car and making out with her. God. How can she manage to be so goddamn beautiful without even trying? Is she purposely doing it to bewitch me more? Cause no need. I’m hell obsessed with her and even if she does nothing, I’m still gonna be head over heels with her. Gladly, we arrived at Long Beach without any delays. I mean, the sense of control that I had to possess. Phew~ “God. It’s been a while. I feel like so much has happened. This brings back the old days.” she spoke when she got out of the car.I encircled my arms to her waist because I’ve been dying to put my hands on her. Nothing, I just want to claim what’s mine. I just want her all the time.
”So you mean, you got back together without telling us?” Zoey asked me with her famous bitch face look. The three of us were left here after the ‘caught’ incident. Elijah greeted them and they were casual with each other. Well, Lulu is casual. Zoey’s a bit aloof and rugged in treating him. I gulped. Because I didn’t know the right answer. Half of it is true and half is not. ”See? You can’t answer.” she crossed her arms and rolled her eyes at me. Lulu is quick to butt in. “Let’s hear her first, Zoey.” ”What’s to hear if she had nothing to say?” I understand Zoey. I’m used to this kind of attitude of hers.“You’re right,” I started. I even heard Zoey say ‘See’ again. “I wasn’t able to tell you guys because things happened so fast. But no, we d-don’t ge
Because of Elijah’s little games, I can’t help but to feel awkward around Ms. Madrigal all day. It’s not that I have something against her, it’s just that I’m shy as we all have this little pretending thing that went on these past two days. We hadn’t talked about it since, so when the time of the day went, I started to step forward and background, whether I talk to her or not. I’m having second thoughts. ”Yes, Ms. Madrigal. That’s all you have for tomorrow.” I said as I reviewed her schedule. She nodded. “Great. That’s good to hear.” I smiled. Usually, after she acknowledges my review of her schedules, I would bid my goodbye already. But since I have these things going on inside my head, I stood on her side looking like a fool. When she sensed that, she glanced at me. My cheeks immediately flushed because of that.I bowed my head, feeling her intent
“Ah!” I screamed. Panting, I looked at my surroundings and saw that I’m in a car. Right. We’re on our way to buy some groceries.”What’s wrong? Everything’s okay?” Elijah curiously asked. Although I’m not sure with myself, I still nodded and smiled raw.Wait. Nothing bad happened to me these past few days. Why do my nightmares suddenly come back? ”Had a bad dream?” he asked. I didn’t answer and just concentrated on adjusting myself. I felt him eyeing me even when his eyes should be on the road. ”Eyes on the road, Elijah.” I said with a warning tone. ”I am asking you.” he answered with his more intimidating warning tone as well. I sighed heavily. The persistent Elijah as always. ”I’m used to it. Don’t worry.” I said. ”You’re used to it?”
Nothing happened. Elijah called a plumber who fixed the water pipes that night. He then went home late at night with his sulked face. We parted awkwardly and I overthought that whole night thinking I did something wrong. I didn’t do anything right? Not until he came inside the bathroom.“Ugh,” I groaned when I woke up. Sunday is supposed to be the day where I woke up with lots of sleep. But now, my head hurts because of thinking the whole night. Still can’t believe it. Am I just dreaming last night? No way.I checked my phone. No message from anybody. I went to the bathroom and looked at the new faucet. I sighed unconsciously. That is not a dream. I took a bath since it’s already late.I’m thinking of running some errands today, like doing grocery shopping because last night was just so embarrassing. For sure Elijah is not used to places like this. But I wasn’t able to think about
“E-Ej, I think, we still have a lot to talk about.” He nodded while his eyes re focused on the road. He’s driving and we’re both on our way to my apartment. Like what he said, he’s gonna take me home. The events are like whirlwind. Everything was just so fast and I can’t cope up with how things are going. It’s like I’m dreaming and I’m loosing some parts of that dream.“We’ll talk tomorrow. For now, you need to rest. I don’t want you depriving your sleep.” he uttered seriously. My lips parted as I look at him. I look at him with so much adoration. I can’t help but to feel so amuse and overwhelmed with what he just said. For a year, nobody told me that. I almost forgot the feeling of having someone to take care of you, to look after you. I fell into this pit of limitations and barriers, thinking that I don’t deserve all that. But here he is.
We stayed in that position for God knows how long. Him, holding my face while our forehead touched each other. My hands are on his chest and I’m just making the most out of the time. I feel at home. I feel like for the whole year I’ve deprived myself from the pain and aches, this is the only time I let myself down like this. At this moment, my pains are so sure; the reasons are clear, and I felt so free. In this world, there are these people that are home for you. Those people that are not just meant to stay for a short period of time but in the long term. And for that I think because those people are meant to give you lessons. You are meant to look for their purpose in your life. And I think his purpose is this. To make me feel safe, always. ”I-I… I don’t understand.” I said with a hoarse voice. ”You don’t have to. I just need your answer. Is one year enough? Or do I have to give you more?”
“I am not kidding, Elijah. I respect Ms. Madrigal as much as I respect your relationship. So please! Even if this doesn’t mean anything to you or you’re just trying to be casual to me, or whatever it is that’s inside your head, stop! Alright? “ I exclaimed. I just went all the way without actually thinking much of my words and just following what’s inside my mind.“How?” he asked.My brows shot up. “What?””How?” he asked again. “How can you say those words when your actions say otherwise?”I gulped and avoided his eyes. He knows.“You’re asking for me to go back but was that what you really wanted me to do?”I shut my eyes tight and shook my head. No, Emma. He’s just trying to get inside your head. You’re better than that. .“Elijah, please-”
That whole dinner is a pain in the ass. Who would stay sane when your ex is beside you while his recent girlfriend is on the other side. I was so doomed. He noticed that I’m gawking at his scent so much and that’s so embarrassing. What could he possibly think with those actions I gave him? He might think that I’m still crazy for him. I managed to hold myself until the second course of the menu. That conversation didn’t happen again, gladly. I tried to just focus on whatever it is that’s in front of me while I hear the small talks of the people around me. ”No, you’re allergic to that.” I heard Elijah.I pursed my lips. Even though my eyes are focused on the main dish that was served, my ears are fully indulged in the conversation of the two people on my right side. ”Oh, yeah. I forgot.” Ms. Madrigal laughed. I sniffed and used my fork to remove the vegetabl