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36. Let It Go

Author: Eden Moon
last update Last Updated: 2024-12-24 07:06:37

The paint dried in uneven streaks beneath them, vivid smears marking every chaotic movement from moments before. Hawk lay on his back, one hand resting in the mess of colors, while Quill stretched out beside him, quieter now. The tarp clung to their skin, the air carrying the faint scent of paint and sweat.

Quill shifted closer, his breath warm against Hawk's chest. "Do you think they regret it? Any of it?"

Hawk traced an absent-minded line through a smear of blue paint on the tarp. "No. People like them don't regret things. They double down."

Quill stayed quiet. "I hate that it still gets to me. It feels like they win every time I care."

"They don't win. You still made them face it. That's a kind of victory."

Quill brushed his hand lightly through the mess between them. "I don't feel victorious. I feel… emptied out."

"That's good." Hawk sat up. "Now there's room for something else."

Quill let that settle. He didn't move for a while, simply breathing and listening to Hawk's heartbeat
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