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XXII: This Is Love
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2024-10-29 19:42:56"Sometimes when we are too focused on our pain, we have a way of overlooking the pain of those around us."
Najmah snorted, pinching the bridge of her nose. "He is not in pain," she mumbled inaudibly.
"Are you sure about that?" Hanifa queried, snapping her brows together.
"Maybe?" Najmah blanched.
"I don't see him no more Adda," she pouted. "Even when I see him, he doesn't talk to me."
"Oh dear God," Hanifa gasped dramatically. "Are you...is the great Najmah Haroun in love?"
"What, what, what?" Najmah's eyes widened in shock. She couldn't possibly be in love with him, right? What is love? "Adda what are you saying? 'Cause not, I can't...that's not it." Even as she said that, her heart thudded wildly in her chest and she wondered if what Hanifa said could be true but she couldn't actually love him right? It was hard for people like her to fall in love.
"Is t
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