After the morning that my ears bled, I started having blackouts, losing time. I’d sit in my office busy with paperwork and I’d look up and it would be three hours later, the same paperwork still in front of me. I had no recollection of what happened during this time and I decided to open Karani’s chest again.I didn’t want to tell Adara about the blackouts, there was nothing any of us could do for me anyway and I didn’t want her to worry. Then the guilt hit me again, this was as good as lying, not telling her something she needed to know, that’s how she would see it.After another blackout at the office, I went home late, it was already six pm and I had missed dinner. There were five missed calls from Adara and I wondered how mad she was at me. I drove home and parked in the garage.I walked inside and Adara was coming downstairs. “Sorry I’m late,” I said to her and she smiled.“It’s okay, I just wanted to know if we should wait with dinner or not,” she said.“I hope you didn’t wait,”
“What’s going on, why are you crying?” The last time she had seen me cry was the day Christian had died.“Ever since that morning my ears started bleeding, I’ve been having blackouts,” I said to her and she looked at me.“Kiran, that was two weeks ago! Why didn’t you tell me?” she asked me. She wasn’t angry but worried. I was worried too.“I didn’t really realize what was happening to me, at first it was just an hour or two, today it was eight hours,” I said to her as she looked at me, worry creasing her face.“I thought it was the magic at first, part of the recovering phase, but this isn’t normal and I wondered if Karani’s books could tell me anything about it.” I showed her the book.“I didn’t want to worry you because there’s nothing you can do to fix me, and I wanted to wait and see if I could learn something from this,” I said, holding the book up.“And did you?” she asked me.“Yes, I was just getting to the second part when I…” I swallowed back the fresh tears that had started
After I put the book down, Adara and I sat there in total silence, so shocked that neither of us could say anything until she broke the silence.“Okay, I have lots of nettle leaves at the shop. You can drink your first cup tomorrow morning, unfortunately you’ll have to suffer through any side effects, I don’t think it’s wise to give you anything for pain or nausea,” she said to me and I looked at her. “I’ll be with you every step of the way, and I mean it,” she added.Her words of support meant more to me than anything else. Despite all my lies and the pain I’d put her through, here she was, prepared to walk this road with me. She loved me, despite all my flaws and it gave me the strength to see this through.I tried to say something but she just carried on talking.“We should do it in the clearing, that’s your most sacred place, it’s where Karani takes you in your mind. You should do it there,” she said and it made perfect sense. Determination swept through me because Adara standing
“No! This is beyond insane!” James yelled at me as he sat across from me in the study the following morning.“I don’t have any other option,” I said to him calmly. He needed to understand that I was doing the spell, no matter what he said or thought.“No, Kiran, this magic stuff, it’s messing with your head. How can you even consider doing that?” he said, his voice still loud and angry. “You’re talking about essentially killing yourself!”“You don’t understand, James, being enchanted is not an option either,” I said to him. “That’s basically what Dezrael did to me and look what happened there!” I said to him, also raising my voice. He sat back in the chair and looked at me.“And you’re sure there is absolutely no other way?” he asked me, his voice calmer.“Karani would have given it to me,” I said to him as Adara walked in and brought my cup of nettle tea. I was on day two of drinking it and so far, I only had two side effects, the dizziness, and the headaches.“I can’t believe you’re
I still felt like myself with no symptoms and I had convinced myself that it was possible that Karani was wrong. She’d never done the spell herself so she couldn’t be sure that half-breeds like us would suffer the same symptoms as pure-bred witches.I was positive that I would be different because I really was different but my victory was short-lived and soon turned sour in my stomach. The next four days would test my endurance and my determination.On day three, the nettle tea started to break my system down. I woke up with a splitting headache, it was so bad that I couldn’t open my eyes. Water made me nauseous and I felt like throwing up the whole time although I didn’t.I spent the day in bed and every sound reverberated through my skull, giving me stabbing pains and I flinched at every small sound. It felt like my hearing was enhanced and I could hear the twins crying downstairs. I heard the kitchen sink fill with water as Adara did the dishes. It felt like they were all right the
“Are you still okay?” she asked me through the shower door.“Yes,” I said to her as I stood under the hot water.A few seconds later I turned the water off and she handed me a towel when I opened the shower door. Her eyes still held worry as I brushed my teeth. She followed me to the bedroom and sat on the bed as I got dressed.I was tired but I wasn’t in any pain, for me that was a win. I’d take exhaustion over pain any day, especially the kind of pain I’d been in the last few days. Karani had been wrong. The side-effects were so much worse than she’d described in her book.“I’m okay,” I said to her as I pulled the shirt over my head. “Actually, I’m hungry.”She smiled and that made me smile. “Really? What do you want to eat?”“Whatever’s in the fridge is fine,” I said to her and she looked like I’d told her she’d won the national lottery.“I would have started with lunch in half an hour anyway, can you hold out for twenty minutes?” she asked me and I nodded.“I’ll try not to pass ou
I went back upstairs after I ate breakfast with Adara and she stayed downstairs to help Norah with the kids. I just needed a few minutes alone, to center myself. I got into the shower and I shaved for the first time in more than a week.“What time do you want to do this thing?” Adara asked me after I showered and came back downstairs, I shrugged instead of answering her. “You shaved.” She looked at me and smiled.“I thought it was about time,” I said to her and she laughed.“I kind of liked that scruffy look on you,” she said to me and I frowned.“Scruffy? I was leaning towards rugged…” Adara laughed again as my voice trailed off.I felt nervous and my heart was beating erratically, thumping hard in my chest. I wished that we didn’t have to do this but I knew there was no other outcome. James opened the front door as we sat by the table.“Hey,” I said to him as I stood up and we hugged.“I’m coming with you,” he said to me.“James,” I began to say but he interrupted me.“No, you’re no
I felt that stirring of magic inside me and I saw flames in my mind’s eye. I opened my hands without saying the words and the flames were there, it burned from green to red to blue and I looked at Jessica as she smiled at me. The flames overtook me and I felt the most magnificent, indescribable surge of power go through me.“It’s done, it worked,” I said as the flames died out. Malachi was walking back to the house and I looked at his back, his aura was full of anger.“He’ll get over it, eventually, he doesn’t understand why,” Jessica said to me but she clearly did and normally she would be the first one to yell at me when it came to magic.“I can’t believe you had the guts to do that,” she said and patted me on the back before she also made her way back to the house. Adara came over to me, her one hand full of my blood. She was crying and I walked over to her and hugged her.“That was horrific, I’m sorry,” she said as she cried against me. James was looking at me and I lifted my one
I sat down behind the desk and moved the mouse. The laptop came to life and I looked at it. I read the letter that I had written to Adara ten months earlier. Wow, I really did love her. I looked down and a huge wooden chest stood behind the desk. I wondered what was inside. I opened a drawer and there were cables and stationery, normal stuff you would find in a drawer.I tried the next one and it was locked. I looked at it and then felt beneath the desk where I sat, a few inches forward and took the key down from the magnet that was fastened there. How did I know that? I just knew there would be a key for this drawer. I unlocked it and pulled it open.It was full of A5 diaries, in numerical order, starting from 1994. I opened the first one and it was filled with my handwriting. I began to read it. It began when I was fifteen years old and it described my first teenage relationship. I skipped forward and read the last few pages. It was filled with wolf laws, training with Malachi, stor
Malachi and I finished our coffee and sat staring at each other. It felt oddly comfortable to be sitting there with him. I could tell that he loved me fiercely because his eyes and his aura, that I could see, were soft.“Let’s take a walk,” Malachi said.I went upstairs and got dressed in my own jeans, boots, and a t-shirt. I grabbed a sweater that Adara had given me the night before and pulled it over my head. I went back downstairs and Malachi stood in front of the open sliding doors.I followed him outside and across the garden right into the forest. I looked around me, this was beautiful. We walked in silence until Malachi stopped in a clearing, it felt kind of magical and I felt silly for thinking that.“This is sacred ground to us. Ten months ago you fought against twelve witches right here,” Malachi walked over to another spot and knelt down on one knee. “Right here, this is where you disappeared right in front of our eyes. Your cloak transported you somewhere and we had no ide
Adara walked back down the hallway and into the living room. There were pictures all over the walls and I stood in front of it and looked at them. I was in many of the photos and it was hard to look at them and not know when they were taken. I smiled a lot and I guessed I was happy with my previous life.“Cute kids,” I said as I looked at a canvas array of two babies.“They’re also yours,” Adara said to me and I looked at her in shock.“I have kids?” I asked her, stunned. She smiled as she walked forward.“This one is Kai, you chose his name, and this one here is Saga,” she said and I could see that she loved them very much.“How old are they?” I asked her.“One and a half, they could only crawl the last time you saw them,” she said and I didn’t know what to say. I didn’t remember them.“I think I should show you to a room and then tomorrow when Malachi comes back we can talk, I’m sure you have a hundred questions,” she said and I smiled at her. I followed her upstairs, my wife, mothe
The jet landed and I opened my eyes. I felt better although I could still sleep. Everything felt like an awkward dream where you didn’t know you were dreaming. I kicked Josh’s leg and he woke up.“What’s up man, did we crash?” he asked and I laughed at him.“I think we’re in Seward,” I said to him as I looked out of the window.Malachi, Jessica and James had walked down the stairs and two cars stood waiting at the bottom of the stairs. Malachi’s Zeta, Quentin, was loading our duffel bags into the first SUV.“These guys travel in style,” Josh said and grinned at me. We walked off the jet and got into one of the SUV’s Malachi showed us. We were driving with James. Malachi and Jessica followed behind us.“So this is Seward, where I live?” I asked James and he nodded.“All our lives we’ve lived here, went to Seward High, graduated, then we went to college,” James said and Josh laughed.“Should have known your ass was educated,” he said as he looked out of the window. Malachi’s car overtoo
I looked intently at Josh. Everything he said was true and a sudden idea occurred to me. I wasn’t going anywhere with these people alone.“Come with me then, help me figure this out. You have no pack, but you have me and I have a pack, a family, a home. I would never just leave you,” I said to him and he nodded at me.“Fine, let’s go ice-skating or shit,” he said and smiled at me.“I’ll go with you on one condition,” I said to Malachi.“Yes?” Malachi didn’t seem worried about my condition, he only wanted me to leave with them.“Josh goes with me, I’m not leaving him behind,” I said to Malachi and he nodded.“Of course. Gather whatever you want to take. Our flight back leaves in three hours,” he said.He walked towards the door holding Jessica’s hand. James turned to look at me and I could tell that he was sad. I could feel it deep within myself.“Do you feel that?” he asked me and I looked at him.“I feel your sadness,” I answered him.“That’s one of the things you can do. You can fee
“We don’t care what you selling, bargaining or want. We ain’t interested,” Josh said as he closed the door behind me and stood next to me. I had an uneasy feeling about this and I was glad that I wasn’t alone.The older man looked at me with curiosity and I wondered what he wanted from me. His gray eyes seemed to search for something in mine and I couldn’t look away. It was almost like he was trying to read my mind.“He doesn’t recognize us,” the older man said to the younger man and woman with him.“Am I supposed to know who you are?” I asked the older man.The younger man stepped forward. His eyes held sadness and he looked intently into mine. He put both of his hands on my shoulders and squeezed lightly. It all felt too surreal like I was supposed to know him.“My name’s James,” he said and then he hugged me tightly. I just stood there with my arms by my sides not knowing what to do. He let go of me after a while, sighed deeply and then looked away.“I think you might have me confu
It felt like I got tunnel vision until I could only see him, moving in the ring. I was focused and I saw the plan forming in his mind. He was going to move me until he had me on the ropes and then deliver his killer punch. I saw it happen in slow motion.“He’s going to come from the right and then the left, the punch to your jaw will be a right hook,” the voice said clearly in my head and I dropped my hands as I stood up right in shock. I couldn’t move my head as George’s fist hit me so hard I felt my jaw dislocate.I was on my back, coughing up blood and the crowd was going wild. Josh was right there by my head. “What the hell happened, why’d you drop your arms man?” He was yelling at me and the announcer bent over me.“Ten count then the fight continues, unless you tap out.” I shook my head and started to get up.I pushed my jawbone back into place and I felt it start to heal. I looked up at the Council members sitting there and somehow I knew that the older man was speaking to me i
I stood in that back room and wondered about the Council member’s presence. Everything that Josh had told me about them was terrible. They were rich old men using the system to their advantage, getting rid of packs that irritated them and executing people as they saw fit.He wanted nothing to do with them and neither did I. I had enough things on my plate to worry about their presence. Josh and I weren’t interested in becoming Council Zetas, no matter what they offered us.I shook my head and I took my shirt and shoes off. I had to get my head in the game. Tonight’s fight would probably be the hardest one by the look of my opponent. He was ready for me. I closed my eyes and centered my energy.I saw the fight play off in my head, in slow motion, punch for punch, kick for kick. This guy was a street brawler, I decided. His punches would hurt and he could get a knockout on the jawline.He wasn’t fast but he was strong and usually won his fight after a few punches, where he would then sn
Malachi walked down the hall, hoping that John wasn’t sending him another tribunal email. He was tired and he wanted to spend time at home. The kids were changing so much and every time he came back from a trip it felt like he’d missed something new they were doing.Adara was doing her best and she really was a terrific mother. Those two kids wanted for nothing. She read bedtime stories to them, told them stories about Kiran, they were healthy and well looked after.He could hear them all laughing in the sitting room as he closed the door to his study and switched the laptop on. He waited for it to switch on and then accessed his Council encrypted email and typed in his password.The email was from John with a video attached.“Malachi,I hope you’re sitting down while reading this. I received this video from a California Alpha, he always sends me these when new talent steps onto the scene for consideration as Council Zetas.Good luck,John”.Malachi frowned at first. They didn’t need