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Author: Didi Adeyemi
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HAYLEY’S P.O.V

Growing up I always thought about what it would feel like to see my mother.

My dad had no pictures of her, it had been a stupid fling and she never reached out to him. He could have found her if he did but he never wanted to. He told me that if I still wanted to find her when I turned eighteen then he would.

I went through all the stages of grief. There was anger at the fact that she had abandoned me and never tried to come back. There was the sadness and the feeling of not being enough for my own mother. By the time I turned eighteen, I didn’t care anymore and I told my father not to bother. It had always been me and him and that was how I wanted it.

Seeing the woman in front of me brought back all those feelings of anger and betrayal bubbling up to my chest

“I don’t have a mother,” I said finally. “You should leave.”

“Please,” she grabbed my arm. “I just want to talk. I came all the way here to find you.”

“I didn’t ask you to come here,” I spat jerking my hand out of
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