Chapter 49-2

Chapter 49-2

While I wait for Sadie, I watch a family play together happily. Will that be Beckett and I when the baby growing inside of me is old enough? I do not trust my parenting skills. I know shit about raising a baby yet alone for the rest of its life. I can barely take car of myself.

I already know Beckett will be a great father, I know that for sure, but I do not know if he wants to have one or if he even wants to have one right now.

I watch the father throw his son in the air and then catching him. the mother watching in concern. Will that be Beckett and I one day? I do not know how to be a mother. I feel like I am saying the same thing over and over again.

I never had a mother that was home long enough to get to know me. my mother basically lived and breathed her career, and her children came second to that. Knowing my mother was wild and more me when she was younger does not help. What if I end up like her, more focused on my career than I am my children.

No child deserves