I can't recall anything from the weekend. On Sunday, I stayed holed up in my room, dedicating the day to perfecting my project. I intentionally took the day off work to ensure I could focus. I knew I hadn't treated Kent well on Saturday. I had been intoxicated and had let out all my frustrations on him. I yearned for a return to the way things used to be. I enjoyed our conversations, and it bothered me that he was distant when I knew he could be different. Then there was Chase, and the whole situation was driving me insane. I couldn't fathom what I had done to make him kiss me like that. Last night, sleep eluded me as my mind swirled with worries and thoughts. I couldn't comprehend how guys were complicating my life, but they were. Back at home, I didn't have any guys interested in me, and I preferred it that way. Now, I had to navigate Kent, Chase, and even Dane. On top of that, I had to give a presentation about my thesis. I had no choice but to put them all on the backburner unt
"When we're done here, we'll talk more and send you a full letter, but we're very interested in your research, Julianna," says Doctor Carlton, and I smile. It's the first time I've felt the stress leave my back since I started working on my presentation. "We're going to go ahead with your project, and we're looking forward to your next presentation in the new year." "Thanks, and I'm glad you like it." I walk forward, smile, and shake each of their hands. "And I really appreciate your time today." "Of course," he says with a smile. "We want to thank you for being so prepared and working through the technical problems. It's clear that this was important to you." I tell him, "It was...important to me," and he smiles and nods his head. "Thank you for being there for me during the change." "Of course, Julianna, have a good day and let me know if you have any questions," he says, and I quickly start to get my papers and laptop together. As I rush out of the room, I smile and wave briefly
"Julianna, there's yet another vase waiting for you on the step!" The sound causes me to groan as I push myself away from the desk in my bedroom. The entire week, Chase has been sending flowers to me; I don't know if it's to try and apologize or what, but I can't deal with him right now because the grind never stops and I have school things to get done on top of what I already have to do at work. "What is it that they are doing this time?" When I got back to the living room, I saw Mark holding a vase that was full of red roses. "What are those?" I asked. "Oh my goodness, why can't he at least send some nice flowers?" I let out a sigh as my irritation grew. "Not a fan of red roses, are you?" I laugh at his jokes while removing the vase from his grasp and placing it on the countertop in the kitchen. I despise them because of how cheesy they are. I informed him about it. "Up until now, they've all been red roses; if they were another kind of flower, I'd probably display them in my bed
When I hear a knock on the door and some talking, I start getting dressed. She's here way too early. Before I leave, I quickly change into my clothes and put on some nice shoes. Then, I grab my purse and check myself in the mirror to make sure I look good. I pick up the roses for her and walk down the hall. What surprises me is how Kent can make my mother laugh, no matter what story he tells her. He even brought her a glass of water. "Uh, hi, Mom," I say quietly. Usually, she rushes to me for a hug, but Kent was chatting with her. "Oh, Julianna!" I give her a hug when she smiles. "You can have these," I tell her as I hand over the flowers. "Be careful. She's happy," Kent says. "We were just talking about how interesting your thesis presentation was." "Really?" I ask, raising my eyebrows, and he nods. "Yeah, it's pretty cool," he says with a casual shrug. "I told you to be ready when I told you to," Mom says, and I sigh. She pokes my arm. "You said to be ready at a quarter to,"
My mother has been talking about Kent ever since she had dinner with him. It's only been two days, but she's already mentioned him twice. I'm not sure what she sees in him. Kent is tall, handsome, can be kind, has a confusing charm, and smiles with dimples, but I don't understand what's so special about that. Ugh, here I go again. Even though we're finally getting along, I can't stop my mind from wandering to him when it shouldn't. We've agreed to be friends, and he's made it clear that he knows the boundaries and won't cross them again. I need to let go of this silly thing that's driving me crazy for no reason. He can't be in a relationship. What he's told me should be enough, and his actions and what I've seen support his words. I know Kent has a lot on his mind, and I suspect he didn't have a great childhood. He's dealing with enough, and I don't want to add to his burden. We can keep this a secret because it was just a mistake between friends. I can control my feelings, and he
"I'm glad you decided to come out with me, Julianna," he says with a smile. I smile back and reply, "Tell me about yourself then." "I'm in my fourth year at Brown, studying early modern history," I tell him, and he smiles. "What do you want to do after your fourth year?" he asks, and I just shrug. "I plan to keep researching. Ideally, I'd like to do it at Brown and get my master's degree," I explain. "Then, maybe go to graduate school for a PhD or become a museum curator." "That sounds like a good idea," I say with a smile, and he nods. Looking at the menu, I see steak with fries. That's what I want, so I can use utensils and not look messy. I'm starving. "Tell me about your job," he asks. I put my hands on my knees. I've never been to this restaurant before, but it has white tablecloths, soft jazz, and candles on each table. It's expensive, and there are no prices on the menu. Lord help me. "I told you I'm a software developer. After college, I worked at G****e but wasn't appr
As Abby and I walked home from the library, she asked, "So, when will I finally meet this guy?" I chuckled in response to her question. "You're starting to sound like my mom," I replied, feeling a bit embarrassed. I've been dating Dane for almost two weeks now, even though we've only been on two actual dates. Two weeks might not seem like a long time to some, but for me, who hasn't dated anyone in years, it feels like a significant amount of time. I believe Dane and I are a good match. Ever since our disastrous first date, he's been incredibly sweet and kind to me. He's been eager to meet up, but I've been too busy studying for a midterm exam scheduled for tomorrow. Balancing schoolwork with a relationship isn't always easy, especially when my roommates seem to have lighter course loads. On Monday evening, Abby and I left the library to grab dinner together, but she had to return for soccer practice. "I'm not sure," I replied to Abby's question about when I should introduce Dane to
We drove to his house in complete silence, but the car was incredible. It was so expensive that driving it would make me nervous. We arrived at his apartment, which had an underground parking garage, and as soon as we pulled into his spot, I noticed my baggy jeans and hoodie. I was carrying a schoolbag like a child, while he was dressed in a suit and carrying a briefcase like an adult. This was the first time I noticed our age difference. I struggled to keep up with him as he exited the car. I accompanied him into the elevator and looked up to see a stern face staring dead ahead. We entered his apartment, and I examined it. It was large, and it was outfitted like a spaceship, with impractical fancy furniture and decorations. There was no picture of anyone or anything that felt personal here. "Your place is nice," I said quietly, to which he nodded, clearing his throat and removing his suit jacket. He was tense and almost angry. "Look, I'm not going to do this all night; either talk