PROLOGUE

Anguish, he felt nothing but misery, his heart clamping badly beneath his chest as he held the icy body tighter, closely.

A precarious sob left his lips, as his sniveling gaze averted to the person in his arms, and once again, everything around him ceased, the violent, cold wind that brushed through his hair and slapped his cheeks suddenly stopped, the damp moss whiff of the forest didn't seem to reach his nostrils anymore while the rumbling sound of thunder quietened, the pattering of rainfall continued to beat on his back, soaking both of them but that didn't matter as his gaze remained glued to the man's motionless face.

Slowly, his left hand went up to cup the man's hardened jaw and touched nothing but frost, ice, cold, and almost instantly, his breath got caught in his throat, the knot in his stomach seeming to be tightening with every passing second while his wet form trembled, his tears meaningless as the rain washed them away.

How could he be so stupid?!

He could have just let him die in that cave, he shouldn't have gone looking for him in the first place knowing he had nothing to save him, knowing he would only trigger his doom, he should have just left him alone, he wouldn't have gone through all these stress of killing him with his bare hands. 

A shaky laugh nearly left his lips as he continued to stare at the unmoving form. What was the point of regretting anything, he was gone and everything was his fault!

Now, he had to bear the swelling, the throbbing sensation in his chest, that burning sentiment that made his heart feel like combusting, that pinching pain that made him feel that his heart was being sewed together with a needle. Agony, affliction, discomfort, sorrow, grief, there had never been a day did it ever cross his mind that he would one day feel these awful emotions, they were smothering and already, he already felt like he won't outlive them for a second.

His hand remained on the man's face. His body and lips quiver uncontrollably. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry!" He came out like a broken record, his voice rough. "If I had known it would hurt this much, I wouldn't have gone looking for you again, I should have moved on but you made me an addict of you, you took my heart along with you. You are so terrible. You swore, how could you break all your promises and sting me like this!!" He screamed at the man's face, the tears being scrubbed away by the waters that trickled and drenched his face from his head but what about his suffering, why couldn't the rain wash those feelings away as well? "I hate you so much, I gave you my heart and you broke it into a million pieces, how dare you!!" Again, he yelled but his words fell on deaf ears as the man showed to sign of life in him, his face going paler and whiter by the second, his once ruddy lips were now a withering purple.

Slowly, he tapped the man's cheeks repeatedly. "Open your eyes. I promise I won't be a brat anymore, I will let you do what you want with my body, I will be submissive, I will do anything as long as you wake and tell me you love me one more time!!" He pleaded, staring hopefully, waiting, and once again, he felt his heart and hope shattering.

Suddenly, he screeched, burying his face on the man's chest, wailing. "I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU!!"

He sat there in the rain, being enclosed by nothing but hedges and the smell of nature, and suddenly, his vision reversed, his setting changed and he found himself back in time where everything began, and slowly, he let himself sink in those memories, never wanting to leave.

To be continued...!