Hopelessness

"Yeah, what are you talking about, Razel? Wait. Are you sick or something? Or are you on drugs right now?" inquires the other student which caused me to roll my eyes to the ceiling.

Razel and I have been communicating day and night over the phone but he never mentioned about consuming drugs or any deadly elements that could harm his body.

He was too smart enough to ruin his life that easily. As his older brother, I never miss telling him not to use drugs or any harmful elements to boast his confidence or to make it an excuse when his life turns into a mess.

Werewolves don't need drugs in their bodies. Not unless you are in the middle of a crisis or desperate. But I know Razel more than anyone. He fell head over heels for his Felise because their relationship, I believe, is in the middle of getting intimate.

"I think your boyfriend needs utmost attention, Felise. He's already talking nonsense things." says her friend before she laughed.

"Who says Razel is still my boyfriend?" Felise laughed back. "I already broke up with him since the night at the camping."

That was a total lie. And I don't know the reason she needs to lie in front of Razel. My wolf can still sense her deep and sincere feelings for my stepbrother, it was all over the corners of the classroom.

I just hope Razel senses that too.

"What?" Razel blurted out, telling me that my thoughts about him were mistaken. "Are you breaking up with me?"

While hiding in the toilet room, my wolf started to burst into worry and fear when Razel's mood started to change. Change in a way that I could even hear his teeth being gritted while having a hard time controlling his rage and embarrassment, especially when most of their classmates heard him loud and clear.

"Is it because of my stepbrother?" to my surprise, Razel suddenly brought me into the topic. "Or is it because you found out that my stepbrother is a fucking..."

My wolf was about to flash to their room before he could finish his statement but he cut it off himself. Perhaps he come to realize that once he slips off something about me being a wolf, he might get involved as well since he cannot deny the fact that we are brothers by blood.

Instead of debating with Felise, he went out of the classroom and flashed... heading to the toilet room where I was hiding. However, instead of noticing me standing in the corner, he slide to the lavatory and switched on the faucet. Then he rinsed his face with water.

"Razel?" I softly breathed out his name which caused him to nail his feet on the floor with his entire body stiffened as steel. "I believe you already saw her."

To my surprise, Razel disappeared from the lavatory in a blink of an eye and landed in front of me, choking my neck. He then pushed me until my body was pinned against the wall.

"And it's all your fault, you son of a monster!?!" yells Razel straight to my face. "If you and your idiot pack members did not show up that night, everything could have been fine by now..."

Razel's tears began pouring down to his eyes similar to the open faucet in the lavatory while continuously punching me in the face. As usual, I did not fight back. I let him punch me in the face all he wants as long as it could help him feel at ease.

"She could have been in my arms by now, Ezra," he added despite the stuttering tone. "You heard everything that happens in the room? I hope you are happy with what you heard."

My heart and mind don't know how to react or respond to his statement but I know deep inside me I have nothing to do with what happened that night. He knows that I was helping them at that time. Even killed one of my pack members for him.

But I cannot blame Razel to think of me that way. His heart was completely impenetrable to hearing explanations right now. He is mad. I got that.

However, what I don't get is when he still feels mad at me considering he already found Felise standing still, breathing, and talking to him.

When I could feel his punches start getting heavier, I quickly hold onto his hands and glowed my eyes. "Stop it, Razel!" I said. "We both know that nothing would change if I let you kill me. Want to kill me?" then I let go of his hands. "Then better do it with your claws and fangs. I hope you'd be happy once I'm gone. Go on. Kill me."

Razel punched me again, however, with just a single punch. And he gave all his strength in that punch when my jaws almost dislocated after getting hit. Good thing my wolf can access my healing process already.

Then he slides into the corner and burst out crying while punching the wall instead of me. "Why are you doing this to me, Ezra?" he said. "What did I do to you and your pack to make me suffer this much, huh?"

As soon as I could see blood coming out of Razel's hands, I grab his hands and wrap my arms around him. "You did nothing, Razel," I uttered. "Lance was an idiot. I cannot deny that. And it was all his fault my wolf was chased out of the pack because I disagreed with their proposal to kill you."

"But why me, Ezra?" he let go of his punches and drops his chin on top of my shoulder. "I cannot live without her in my life. What am I going to do?"

I could feel the weights that were currently bothering Razel's heart and mind. They were all nothing but pain. Helplessness. Emptiness. And hopelessness.

There are no inspiring words that can help Razel ease off, so I simply rub his back and tighten my wrap around him, even ignoring the two male students who just came into the toilet room.

As soon as the students came out of the toilet room, I also let go of my hands from Razel. I had to make sure those students will not say a thing about what happened between me and Razel, knowing they found a few drops of blood on the floor.

So, I followed their scents.

"Don't worry, Razel. Felise still loves you." I uttered without looking him in the eye as my senses kept tailing the two male students. "I'll make sure she will have enough time to get things back to their place."

"What do you mean by that?" Razel asked.

After knowing the two male students simply went to classes, I let go of my suspicions and drag my glare to Razel. "It means that Felise will be turning soon. It was my wolf who turns her into a werewolf. We already have this bond between us. Her wolf will come to find me."

"What?" he blurted out the way I expected him to.

So I explain to him everything he needs to know and what to expect about Felise sooner or later. That she may not be showing any signs of turning yet but I know deep inside her lies my werewolf venom. My wolf just doesn't know when exactly.

It is in our nature as werewolves that those who got bitten or turned by someone's claws and fangs will seek help from the source no matter which pack we came from.

On top of that, I also told him about my unfortunate situation as a lone wolf and working part-time in a convenience store. Unfortunately, Razel simply scoffed at me. He barely believe everything I told him because he no longer sees me as his brother but as an enemy to him and his pack.

He even threatens me that he is going to call the cops if our paths cross again, especially seeing me ten meters away from Felise.