Lilith’s POVI’m repentant as I lay with Lora in our bed whilst feeding her.Khai watches me and notes my emotions are sour and potent so much so he can feel them them as if they were his own.And under that repentance is sadness and anguish. A lace of feeling betrayed.He’s unsure what has happened and despite the fact that he had plans to be out on the training field with the rest of Theo's warriors he had actually decided to l stay here with me. Standing at the entrance of the bedroom door, staring at me in confusion as I mutters to myself about stupidity and anger and how neither work alongside each other."What did he do?" He asks me after standing awkwardly for a long time.Growing angrier by the second that Theo has hurt me in any way making him walk into the room to join me. To investigate the situation at hand.If he's... he thinks, his thoughts pungent to me. He looks to me guiltily, making him halt his thoughts right there."What did he do?" He repeats "I haven't a clue
Lilith's POVAbyss, I’m not sure how much more of this I can take. I feel weak. My head is killing me! I sulk my headache splinters down my spine.Literal shooting pains exit the base of my head like iced fire through my nerves. Not long now, Lil. Our souls are separating. I feel it, I know you do too, she says sorrowfully. Is that what that is? I ask her.Let’s concentrate on something different. That day, Lil. Go back to that day again!So I do, summoning that day in the kitchen with Khai as he tried his upmost to distract me. The distraction of making dinner seems to be the key of making me forget that I started this silent argument between Theo and I.Lora lays in her little basket crib on the counter whilst Khai and I work together to prepare the ingredients to make dinner.We laugh, cuddle and brush against one another.Khai cannot seem to keep his hands to himself and I'm all for it.It's precisely the distraction I needed.And that's how Theo finds us, Khai kissing me from
Lilith’s POVExplain, Abyss, I demand. What was that, why was her skin marking black? It wasn’t like that the following morning. I state angrily, whilst searching back to dressing her the next day.Sure enough her skin was it’s usual milky colour, reassuring me I hadn’t ignored the obvious twice.But then again the previous night I had been sleepy, waking from my slumber to feed her. Images fill my head as Abyss summons a set of memories that I had never imaged I be part of. Damian’s dark and depraved mind and inner voice alerts me to whom I’m watching first and then I see things through his eyes, looking at the witches that he keeps for company.“My mate is alive once more,” he hushed their way, walking around the witches whilst scaring the hell out of them.I watch eagerly, not wanting to miss anything Abyss feels like showing me. “I need you to bond us, ensure we come together when she comes of age,” Damian states.“Do you have her blood, hair… clothing,” one of the witches asks
Lilith's POVIt feels almost as if I passed out, coming to groggy and heavy minded. Yet aren't I already in some sort of state where I'm out of it?I'm essence, Abyss notes. Her warmth seeping into my coolness.What was that? I ask her.Your reserves are depleting but there's so much I need to show you, for this will be the last time I can help you. She tells me.Why do we have to part again? I ask. Hating the thought of losing her, of being wolf-less with no one in my mind to talk to.You do not need me anymore, Lil. You've outgrown me. I must go home, Celeste is calling for me. She answers coyly, avoiding the question it seems.We must go back again, Lil. Recap that day after. Remember the conversation you had about Lora.I do exactly as she's asked, recalling the day after Lora woke in the night...That next day Theo called a meeting between the three of us, Lucas, Andy and Dominic.I pace the office worriedly, cradling Lora to my body awaiting whatever he brought us in here for.A
Lilith’s POVThat stay sticks in my morph as it continues to play out.We sit in the warm air on the blanket just big enough for the three of us, eating the food Calley has prepared for us as I watch them intently. I’m impressed because she made the sandwich spreads this morning, the fresh bread last night. She picked fresh fruit from the farmers market just outside of the pack because, why not?The flavour of the strawberries and oranges areamazing, and it never ceases to amaze me how different they taste to store brought fruit. We talk about how much life has changed, what the upcoming Luna ceremony will do. The dimension it will created within the whole pack.I’m nervous because I do not believe I’m good enough for the role of leading our women and children: Believing my lack of involvement with my pack will disable me from forming the bonds that are needed between a Luna and those I will be guiding.But Theo undoubtedly believed I could and he was right. His reasoning was tha
Lilith’s POVI feel troubled that we, the three of us, have seemingly missed important signs that Damian, or his wolf, has been practicing dark magic on our daughters soul. It upsets me that we’ve missed that, makes me feel awful as a parent that my eyes weren’t open. And I think that’s why I’m intent to concentrate on the background things as I recall that day the Luna ceremony happened— the need to look at Lora is rife.Theo had ensures everything was ready, the yard being transformed into a pretty vision of twinkling lights, tables and a stage in the form of the deck without the railings. He’s ensured there’s room for every pack member that's chosen to come to the ceremony and the efficient from the high court has already arrived.When he woke me not an hour ago and he’d given me my Luna gift, a small necklace that matches a bracelet for Lora. And though he hasn’t told me, I heard his musing over the fact that both embodying a tracking chip in the event that the in-formidable ha
Lilith’s POVMy mind jumps as Abyss throws me into Theo’s memory of that afternoon. The whiplash from her control making my neck hurt and my spine tingle yet I see things from Theo’s memory and I watch intently. ~~~The ceremony passed with ease, Lilith accepting and vowing to remain in the one place she has destined to be in.For that I'm sure. She looks breathtakingly beautiful in her gown, beautiful beyond's words that I cannot fathom to articulate.Everyone forms a line to congratulate us.You see, this ceremony is basically a wedding, a binding of agreements between man, the alpha, and woman, the Luna.I think that's why we dress up as we are, me in a suit, a tie and all and her in a beautiful white gown that only accentuates the fact she is a magnificent piece of art.This is a day I will look back on for years and the photos will enable me to remember every detail.But it does get boring, the endless pack members repeating exactly as the last has said.It's not as if they nee
Lilith's POVThe memory jumps from Theo’s to mine and I groan with the effort to see thing from both point of views but I soon realise that Theo’s memory was important, because it led us to that moment, the one where he seduced me. So I watch on from my own memory…I bailed. I thought I could do it, but the anxiety of shifting before everyone overtook me.Yes they are my people and I felt nothing but love coming from them today but shifting for me is an emotional affair.It leaves me feeling raw and unplugged. Open to the possibility of being vulnerable.And I want, no need, not to be vulnerable in front of my people.Perhaps I'm just tired, maybe I can blame it on that. I haven't been sleeping well, waking often without really falling into a deep sleep.Not that I would change Little Lora for the world.She somehow completes me. Fills a hole I fear Celeste and Theseus created long ago.But they are trying to make amends for that, and I appreciate them doing it in an organic way with