Lilith's POVThe past morphs back to my own memories, the images rolling through a memory I do not care for nor see if any importance but it rolls anyway as I grit my teeth at the memory of such jealously that took me under its wing like not other…My night is disturbed again, Lora waking frequently to feed whilst my eyes droop with the tiredness that the lack of sleep is causing me.If I had match sticks, I'm sure I'd be using them to hold my eyelids open, though I'm sure my eyes would roll into the back of my head to find whatever sleep they could.This morning Theo is having me walk the pack lands with him."It's bout time I introduced you to some important people within the pack," he had said whilst I was drink a gallon of coffee and eating porridge.Okay, that's a little far fetched but I did have one cup of coffee.And yes, the doctor has already stated not to drink to much.Caffeine can be problematic with Lora and my milk apparently but even so, there's no way I'm going to get
Lilith’s POVMy mind morphs once again turning form my own thoughts and memories to Theo’s and though I shy away from his stance on my jealously I have no choice in the matter of watching his thoughts and memories play out before me…~~~I never expected for my previous endeavours to affect my mate.I hadn't thought I had a mate so the choice of being with other women never seemed relevant to think about but now I'm sitting in my office brooding about the fact I hurt Lilith.I took her to meet the medical staff but I never imagined that Delta would be covering for her father.I'm out of the loop, my lack of attendance within the pack proving that I need to dive right in the deep end to know who's where and why.And I suppose my open familiarity with Delta didn't help the situation in any stretch of imagination.But what was I suppose to do?Stay celibate for my late teenage years through to my thirties?Would any man, any wolf or witch or any of kind decide to stay true to a mate that
Lilith’s POVI’m repentant as I lay with Lora in our bed whilst feeding her.Khai watches me and notes my emotions are sour and potent so much so he can feel them them as if they were his own.And under that repentance is sadness and anguish. A lace of feeling betrayed.He’s unsure what has happened and despite the fact that he had plans to be out on the training field with the rest of Theo's warriors he had actually decided to l stay here with me. Standing at the entrance of the bedroom door, staring at me in confusion as I mutters to myself about stupidity and anger and how neither work alongside each other."What did he do?" He asks me after standing awkwardly for a long time.Growing angrier by the second that Theo has hurt me in any way making him walk into the room to join me. To investigate the situation at hand.If he's... he thinks, his thoughts pungent to me. He looks to me guiltily, making him halt his thoughts right there."What did he do?" He repeats "I haven't a clue
Lilith's POVAbyss, I’m not sure how much more of this I can take. I feel weak. My head is killing me! I sulk my headache splinters down my spine.Literal shooting pains exit the base of my head like iced fire through my nerves. Not long now, Lil. Our souls are separating. I feel it, I know you do too, she says sorrowfully. Is that what that is? I ask her.Let’s concentrate on something different. That day, Lil. Go back to that day again!So I do, summoning that day in the kitchen with Khai as he tried his upmost to distract me. The distraction of making dinner seems to be the key of making me forget that I started this silent argument between Theo and I.Lora lays in her little basket crib on the counter whilst Khai and I work together to prepare the ingredients to make dinner.We laugh, cuddle and brush against one another.Khai cannot seem to keep his hands to himself and I'm all for it.It's precisely the distraction I needed.And that's how Theo finds us, Khai kissing me from
Lilith’s POVExplain, Abyss, I demand. What was that, why was her skin marking black? It wasn’t like that the following morning. I state angrily, whilst searching back to dressing her the next day.Sure enough her skin was it’s usual milky colour, reassuring me I hadn’t ignored the obvious twice.But then again the previous night I had been sleepy, waking from my slumber to feed her. Images fill my head as Abyss summons a set of memories that I had never imaged I be part of. Damian’s dark and depraved mind and inner voice alerts me to whom I’m watching first and then I see things through his eyes, looking at the witches that he keeps for company.“My mate is alive once more,” he hushed their way, walking around the witches whilst scaring the hell out of them.I watch eagerly, not wanting to miss anything Abyss feels like showing me. “I need you to bond us, ensure we come together when she comes of age,” Damian states.“Do you have her blood, hair… clothing,” one of the witches asks
Lilith's POVIt feels almost as if I passed out, coming to groggy and heavy minded. Yet aren't I already in some sort of state where I'm out of it?I'm essence, Abyss notes. Her warmth seeping into my coolness.What was that? I ask her.Your reserves are depleting but there's so much I need to show you, for this will be the last time I can help you. She tells me.Why do we have to part again? I ask. Hating the thought of losing her, of being wolf-less with no one in my mind to talk to.You do not need me anymore, Lil. You've outgrown me. I must go home, Celeste is calling for me. She answers coyly, avoiding the question it seems.We must go back again, Lil. Recap that day after. Remember the conversation you had about Lora.I do exactly as she's asked, recalling the day after Lora woke in the night...That next day Theo called a meeting between the three of us, Lucas, Andy and Dominic.I pace the office worriedly, cradling Lora to my body awaiting whatever he brought us in here for.A
Lilith’s POVThat stay sticks in my morph as it continues to play out.We sit in the warm air on the blanket just big enough for the three of us, eating the food Calley has prepared for us as I watch them intently. I’m impressed because she made the sandwich spreads this morning, the fresh bread last night. She picked fresh fruit from the farmers market just outside of the pack because, why not?The flavour of the strawberries and oranges areamazing, and it never ceases to amaze me how different they taste to store brought fruit. We talk about how much life has changed, what the upcoming Luna ceremony will do. The dimension it will created within the whole pack.I’m nervous because I do not believe I’m good enough for the role of leading our women and children: Believing my lack of involvement with my pack will disable me from forming the bonds that are needed between a Luna and those I will be guiding.But Theo undoubtedly believed I could and he was right. His reasoning was tha
Lilith’s POVI feel troubled that we, the three of us, have seemingly missed important signs that Damian, or his wolf, has been practicing dark magic on our daughters soul. It upsets me that we’ve missed that, makes me feel awful as a parent that my eyes weren’t open. And I think that’s why I’m intent to concentrate on the background things as I recall that day the Luna ceremony happened— the need to look at Lora is rife.Theo had ensures everything was ready, the yard being transformed into a pretty vision of twinkling lights, tables and a stage in the form of the deck without the railings. He’s ensured there’s room for every pack member that's chosen to come to the ceremony and the efficient from the high court has already arrived.When he woke me not an hour ago and he’d given me my Luna gift, a small necklace that matches a bracelet for Lora. And though he hasn’t told me, I heard his musing over the fact that both embodying a tracking chip in the event that the in-formidable ha