I was rushing, there was no time to wait. I wanted to put this right. I had royally fucked up, and I needed to do all I could to correct that. Of course, I knew it was unlikely to be easy. After all, Seren had seemingly given up all hope of us. I had made her angry. Understandably so. Not only that, but there was still so much to process…
‘Fucking process?’ My wolf roared angrily. ‘It is too late for fucking processing. Processing should have been done a long time ago. Did you not hear what your Uncle told you? Your mind was misleading you. Your very thoughts were going in the wrong direction. Your anger taking her away. You could have cost us our fated!’
A sinking feeling sat within my belly. I hoped my wolf was wrong. I would need to process all the information I had learned. I knew that. Ignoring it was never going to help. All this had taught me that. But, first we needed to fix this. I could not lose Seren. Not now. Not after everyth
The words Cole had just spoken turned my stomach and made my had spin all at the same time. Not a pleasant combination. I closed my eyes for a moment. I needed to think, and think fast. This was not what I needed right now…“She crashed here the other day… erm, her birthday, remember?” I all but stuttered at him, my eyes suddenly avoiding his. I knew what Cole was like when it came to his sister. Over-protective, and forever jumping to conclusions. He had always been bad, but when their father died he had become even worse. He saw it as being his role to ensure her safety and right now, this appeared to be one of those moments; despite my friend knowing I would never harm his sister.I was trying hard not so show any nerves right now. Nerves would raise suspicion. Suspicion would cause an over-reaction. Neither one of us needed that. I needed to get this interaction out of the way as swiftly as I could, then I could find Seren and fix the mess
Cole’s eyes met mine. Eyes full of questions. Questions and blame. The coldness remained, but I did not have time for the argument we had moments ago been in the throes of. I needed to find my mate. I needed to fix this. I did not wait a moment longer, I was already moving toward the door.‘What do you mean she is nowhere in pack Marcus?’ I demanded. Seren had been in pack not that long ago. She had been in the office with Marcus and I. She had stormed away in one of her mood swings she was known for. We had assumed she needed time to cool down, and she would be good again. How the hell had it gone from that to her no longer being in pack? It made no sense. Had things become too much for her and she ran?‘I wanted to talk to her about the plans she gave me, so I linked her, and I got no reply. So, I thought maybe she was in a mood with me, which would be understandable considering the way she reacted in the office, so I chose t
Cole and I walked into Marcus’s office. Marcus sat at his table, the senior warriors already there, standing either side of him, looking down at the large map laid out on the desk in front of them. They had begun looking to come up with a plan of finding Seren. Thankfully Marcus and the warriors had not waited for us before they begun on working out how far Seren may have travelled. They were well on their way to making a headstart.“You think her friends know anything?” I questioned, wondering if Seren may have called or messaged Ayla or Thea for help or even to say goodbye. The three of them were usually discussing most major things within their lives, so surely this would be considered major, right?Cole shrugged. “I could go and ask.” He said firmly, determination upon his face. Marcus nodded, knowing as well as I did that Cole would need a distraction, and going to speak to someone would likely be better than sitting
The drive to the City had to be one of the longest and most awkward I think there had ever been. Three friends who had spent countless hours together in the car over the years, all now sitting alongside one another with not a word to say between them. Tension hanging heavy within the air while we all waited stressfully to arrive to our destination. The city was one within only half an hour from the pack. A decent distance when it came to being far enough away to give us the privacy we needed as a wolfpack, but close enough for the supplies and things we also needed. It also meant that it offered some escape for those wanting to have time away from packlife… and I cannot help but wonder if that was what Seren had been looking for.Cole had not spoken a word to me. His darkened eyes glowering at me from across the car instead. I knew he had questions, and the unease he was feeling was evident from the way his fingers were tapping upon his thighs. But I don’t think
The words my friend had said sunk in, and my body felt like it was in agony, while time seemed to have stood still as my mind ran away with itself. City hospital had been in touch. That meant one of our pack was injured. Seren was missing. It could only be her. My sweet Seren. My heart twisted in pain. She had been fleeing from pack, and in doing so had put herself in harm's way. She had been hurt, and now lay in the hospital... my mind swam with horrendous images and thoughts. All bringing me back to the possibility of losing her. Losing her now before I had a chance to tell her I was wrong. Before we were able to fix things. Before I could say I was sorry...Chaos was beginning to ensue around me, snapping me from my daze. Cole had rushed back through the door of the office having left only moments ago to begin to speak to Seren’s friends in our bid to find her. “What do you mean the city hospital Marcus?” Cole demanded. “What do yo
Cole had slipped out of the room, walking past me with an icy glare, but spoke not a word. Marcus paused for a moment by my side. “We are just going to talk with the head doctor.” He informed me, so I took it that he was giving me the opportunity to walk in and see Seren. He had to have known I needed to see her. That my wolf needed to see her.I lingered for a moment, waiting, and watching as my two friends walked along the corridor, disappearing around the corner. The moment they were out of view I rushed to the doorway of the room I had been waiting for news from since we had arrived. There had been nothing. Neither Cole nor Marcus had come to speak to me, nor had they mindlinked. Everything had been silent, and it had been torture.I tentatively opened the door, and as I stepped inside my blood ran cold. Seren was surrounded by machines, her perfect, petite body covered with a sheet, with only her face visible. Her delicate features st
Two days of sitting by Seren’s bedside. And two days of there being no further progress. She had not moved. There had been nothing to sense from neither her nor her wolf, and damn had I been trying, as had Tyr. I was unsure I found any sleep in the hard and uncofortable chair that sat alongside her bed, but I had sworn not to leave her side, and I planned to stick to that.I had spoken to her at any given opportunity when it was just the two of us in the room on our own, hoping to the Moon Goddess she may hear me. Sharing memories of our times together in pack. The fun things we had done together. Good times. Things I hoped would make her smile if she was listening. I did not have a clue if, when someone was injured so badly and they were sleeping so soundly that they can hear what is happening around them, but I hoped she might be able to, or her wolf... anything to give me hope Seren was still in there.I allowed my eyes to drift to her again.
The move to the pack hospital had occurred. Now I was battling for space within Seren’s room at almost every given moment. Not only with my friends, but also my mother and my Aunts. There was always somebody here to see her. If not friends and family, then of course, understandably, the medical staff to attend to her. Cole had decided that now his sister was back within pack it was only right to break the news to their mother of the accident. It had been difficult to explain her absence for the days she had been gone, so I think he was glad of no longer having to come up with lies.But, what he was not glad of was the agony of seeing his mother suffering as she appeared to be falling apart at seeing her little girl injured within a hospital bed. Aunt Sophia had barely left Seren’s side, which meant I rarely got time alone with my mate. Thankfully, I did not think Cole had shared the news I had given him with his mother, as she was still the same
I woke with a start, shocked to find Lachlan looking down at me, an unreadable expression upon his face. He was leaning against the wall of the cabin, his arms crossed, and those big, beautiful dark eyes of his were watching me intently. Should I be freaked out he was watching me sleep? Maybe... yet oddly, I found it almost reassuring... I rolled over on the bed to face him, stretching slightly as I did, and his eyes observed every slight movement of my body“What is wrong?” I questioned, noticing for the first time since my arrival here that the rush of heat upon waking had lessened. I had to hope that could only be a good sign...Lachlan offered me a questionable smile, before shrugging slightly. “Nothing, Ren. Why would something be wrong? I just came to check you were okay. You have been asleep a while.”I nodded. That seemed plausible. I had no clue how long I had been asleep. It felt like sometime since I had come
I walked back through the now familar trees surrounding the cabin,my phone to my ear. "So you don't think it was as strong?" I questioned.The supply drop had been completed a short while earlier by Colton, but I had waited until Seren was resting until Ileft the cabin to go and collect, as I had done each time previously. I did not want to leave her when she needed me, nor did I want any other wolf in close proximity to my mate whilst she was in heat. But, from what my friend was telling me, that may not be too much of an issue now."The scent has certain dissipated. I think another day and it will have gone. Is she feeling any better?" He asked.I chuckled. "I don't think she would tell me either way, Col, she is making me guess at best. Anything but admit she is struggling. Shows weakness, right? Seren will not let me think she is weak." I told my friend, who in turn began to chuckle too."Damn, that sounds like somebody I know. Hmmm,
Pain. Heat. Tenderness radiated through my body. As did warmth. No, not warmth, boiling, temperatures. Hours? Days? I did not know now. I was in a state of confusion. Agony. Discomfort. Sobbing. Screaming. Crying one moment, yelling the next… I did not like this. How was this a normal state for anyone or anything to be in?!‘Why won’t he help us?’ I wailed to Maia. She was our wolf, why could she not talk to his wolf? Surely he could convince Lachlan to surrender to the matebond again. He had done it before. This good-boy image did not suit him. If he would surrender to the matebond we could ease this pain. Put an end to this suffering. It may even bring us closer...‘We have gone over this. So many times.’ She snapped, and she was right. I had begged her so many times, and I had argued this point with Lachlan too. He was not about to give in to me. He was determined to do the right thing. Why he deemed this the ri
I saw pain and anger flicker across Seren’s face at my words. I had expected nothing more. I had known the moment I had chosen to say those things that it would be the last thing she would be wanting to hear. She had sought me out for a reason. I was her mate. She knew the relief her mate could bring when in heat. Angry with me or not, she was willing to bypass that to gain the relief she needed. But, I was not willing to sink to that. And, no matter the pain nor anger I was causing her, and hating that fact, I knew I had to do this. It would be too easy to give her what she craved. But it would be wrong. We were not together. Yes, we may be fated mates, but we had agreed not to be together. I had surrendered to the matebond before, and in doing so I had hurt Seren and regretted that massively.I knew she saw this as me trying to hurt her, but it was me trying to do the right thing. Thankfully, with Tyr being absent resisting her was somewhat easier as
My whole body burned. It ached like never before. And now added to that was the delectable scent of my mate. I am sure it smelled stronger than it had previously, or was that what happened when a she-wolf went into heat? He smelled divine, I knew that much. I was desperate to be close to him. Rip those close right off his body…But Lachlan had stepped away from me. And now his eyes were dark, with a frown etching his face as he avoided my gaze. What was wrong with him? This was not how I had imagined this woud go. The last time we had seen each other he had wanted to talk. And all the times he and I had been intimate Lachlan had been unable to resist. He was insatiable. My scent should trigger that, I was sure of it. I had imagined the moment he caught a note of my scent and realized I was in heat he would pull me to the cabin and rip my clothes off. Make up for the time we had lost. Ease the pain I was feeling...But, just now he had stepped away from me. That
The silence was deafening, and frustration rushed through me at the fact Seren had not replied. I know it had to have hurt her that I never went back to the hospital. I had sworn to her I would prove myself and because of my Aunt telling me to stay away, and my mother agreeing I had gone back on my promise to Seren. I had failed her yet again. Was it any wonder that she would not trust me now? But, my Aunt's words had hurt, and I did as she asked, especially when my own Mum had backed her up. Family meant everything to me. But, now I relaize that maybe Seren meant more.A matebond is something to be cherished. And I had tossed mine away so easily. A choice I would forever regret. I should have gone to Seren. She deserved better. I should have put the matebond first and done all I could to fix the mess my fucked up brain had created. Her and I could have been good together. The moon goddess clearly believed so. My heart ached once again as I thought it all ov
I was tired. Sleep rarely found me, and despite it now being what I assumed was likely early evening I was laid upon the bed within the cabin staring up at the now familiar ceiling. I should be out enjoying a run, or cooking dinner, anything but lounging around doing nothing, but instead here I was, wanting to try to sleep again because I felt I was becoming weaker as the days went on. This was never a good position for a werewolf to be in.This was what more of my days were becoming. Days merged into one another, as did the hours now. The only way I could differentiate between day and night was the colour of the sky outside. My sleep pattern was fucked so I simply slept when I could, which was less and less of late; creating an ever increasingly tireder version of myself. Tired and weaker.I was slowly losing any will to live, and I feared that could be because Seren was gone. I had fucked up, and I had fucked up big time. But, I was scared it may be
I awoke on my bed, in sheer confusion, and a raging rush of heat charging through my body. I felt sick. My head hurt and I felt drained. This was not a pleasant feeling. I was sure I had been in the lounge of the packhouse only moments ago had I not? It had been light outside had it not? Now as my eyes wandered to the window the sky was a mixture of altering hues as the sun was going down... just how long had I been out of it?!I attempted to sit up but my head spun as I did, and heat flooded my body. Nausea sat heavy on my stomach. I quickly laid myself back down, closing my eyes tightly wishing I could fall back into the heavy sleep I had clearly just woken from. At least while sleeping I was not being forced to endure this hell...I could hear raised voices outside of my room. My Mum, My Aunts, Marcus and Cole. Why were they all here? And was there any need to be shouting? From what I could hear they were discussing me. Of course they were. What el
Aunt Alena’s desperate eyes were watching me. I could see the pain and desperation within her gaze and it made me feel bad for her. She was waiting on an answer from me, I knew that. But, in all honesty, what answer did I have to give? No answer that was going to ease the pain she was feeling, that was for certain. I had no clue where Lachlan was, or why he was acting this way. I had tried to mindlink him as I left only for him to ignore me. No, I did not reach out to him otherwise, but that was purely because I could not handle the disapointment of looking at my phone only to see he had once again not responded...What could I tell my Aunt? All I had done was follow the orders he had given me. That did not paint her son in the best way, and I did not want to make her feel worse than she already did. I had a feeling enough bad things were currently being said about Lachlan as it was, and they had to hurt Aunt Alena, I did not need to add to that. Lachl