I kicked off my shoes and shut the door behind me, the smell of dinner cooking hit me and I hurried to the kitchen. My aunt turned around as she heard me walk in,
“Hey, how was your day?” She asked stirring a pot on the stove
“It was okay” I shrugged and peered into the pot, she was making a big batch of her chili, and my stomach grumbled loudly, my aunt chuckled when she heard it.
“Settle down,” she laughed and turned the stove off “it just finished, but I want you to take a batch to Alpha before you eat”
I let out a sigh and eyed the chili as she ladled it into a giant bowl and closed the lid. Thankfully the pack house was fairly close and it wouldn’t take long to get back. Having lived here for almost 3 months I was getting used to town, and discovering that my Aunt was a great cook, often making me deliver food to other pack members, she knew who loved which dish of hers and always made extra. Without kids or a mate of her own she took to taking care of everyone in the pack.
I knocked on the pack house front door, looking ridiculous wearing oven mitts to hold the giant bowl of chili even though my wolf hands wouldn’t get burned, my aunt insisted. I waited a minute or so before the door swung open and I was face to face with Nico. He smiled brightly at me, his brown hair shaggy and ruffled, he really was quite gorgeous, now that I could stare without meeting too much naked flesh. He was tall, a solid foot above me, slender but all muscle, and a smile of perfect teeth and dimples. I bit my lip and he eyed the bowl,
“Vanessa?” He asked pointing at it, I nodded and held it out to him.
“For, you, Alpha and Luna” I said quietly and he took it
“Tell her thank you”
“I will” I stood awkwardly while he just looked at me “are you serious about Saturday?”
“Yes, why wouldn’t I be?” He asked
“I don’t know, it just doesn’t seem like the most productive use of your time, don’t you have future alpha training things to do?”
He laughed and I grinned nervously “I do, but also training my future pack is beneficial for everyone”
“Oh” I nodded “well, thank you..” and took a step down the porch stairs without turning away
“Any time, Jess” he winked
I realized I was still wearing the damn oven mitts and my face burned, I turned and stumbled down the last step before sprinting back to my Aunts house. I heard a soft chuckle behind me before Nico shut the door. Damn him, must he be so attractive AND nice? Moon goddess help me, I have to stay away from him.
After stuffing my face and helping clean the kitchen, I flopped down on my bed, my face buried in pillows and my feet dangling off the side. I reached around and grabbed my phone from my back pocket before flipping over and browsing through a few texts from Leah making sure I was okay after Troys rude comments today, and I responded letting her know all was good. I recalled the rogue attacks and dialed my moms number, before sitting up in bed and making my way over to the window.
“Jessie!” Her voice sounded cheerful as she answered
“Hey mom, how is everything there?” I asked fiddling with my curtains
“Oh everything is great, your dad is still struggling to get that bike running, and your brother is mostly staying out of trouble. I swear that boy has a death wish sometimes with all the rule breaking and limit testing he’s always doing” I heard my brother Jake yell out an argument in the background and my mom shush him “is everything okay?”
“Yeah everything here is great, focusing on training and definitely feeling stronger” I said “I was just calling because I heard some rumors about a rogue pack on the east coast”
“Oh..” I could tell my mom was anxious about the subject “yes, yes we’ve been hearing the same, but nothing to worry about you know how Alpha is about patrol and dad makes sure to lock up every night”
“I don’t know if a few locks are really gonna stop them” I mumble
“Jess it’s nothing for you to concern yourself with, everything here is good we haven’t had anything happen close to us”
“Yeah but I heard about the Gray Stone pack-“ I start but she cuts me off
“Honestly Jess, don’t start.” She sounds irritated so I stop, and we share a moment of awkward silence
“Sorry mom.. I guess I just miss you guys. Maybe you can visit?”
“Your father has been nagging to come see you and his sister, I think we can make it sometime next month”
“I would love that..” I almost ask about Jensen, is he okay? Has he shifted? Is he all alone.. but I bite my lip instead and look down at the trees along the property line.
“He’s lonely you know” my mom says, as if sensing my thoughts, “I see him walking home from school alone”
“I’m gonna go finish my homework, I’ll call you tomorrow, love you” I hang up quickly and stare down at my phone.. I open my texts and click on Jensens name.. we hadn’t spoken in so damn long.. I begin to type out an I’m sorry, but quickly delete it.. maybe tomorrow I’ll try..
I didn’t.
But Saturday came quickly, Leah and I met up at her house which was closer to the falls than my Aunts. I wore some black exercise pants, sneakers, and a teal sports bra, Leah wore matching red leggings and sports bra. We nervously set out on the hike, at 6:30 in the morning, it was about an hour hike in our human form, but neither of us wanted to show up naked in case he beat us there. I was also under the illusion that the hike would be soothing for my nerves. Between stumbling on roots, almost losing the trail, and swearing we heard something creeping around us, my nerves were worse than before the hike. Despite all of that, the forest was really really beautiful. There were massive trees, beautiful foliage lining the forest floor, and the sounds of birds and other critters filled the air. I basked in the cool breeze that filtered through the leave, keeping my temp down as I pushed through the hike.
Leah was mostly quiet, I was guessing her nerves were about as shot as mine. This was okay with me though, I never had any issues with quiet. Jensen and I could spend hours with each other and never utter a word.
“This isn’t gonna be some prank right?” I look over at Leah and I notice her pale as she realized it was a possibility, higher ranks don’t usually help unless there’s something in it for them
“I.. don’t think so..” she didn’t sound sure but we kept moving in silence. The atmosphere heavy with a new sense of dread.
We started to hear the rush of water, and hurried our pace, I had lost 15lbs in the past few months and I was mostly lean muscle now, but my legs burned with the endurance required on the hike and I was eager to get there and rest before Nico showed up. Unfortunately for me as the river came into view, so did a naked figure sitting on a large rock at the edge of the falls. His hair was wet and he was already looking in our direction as we approached. He smiled as we both awkwardly waved to let him know we spotted him.
My cheeks started burning as I had to make an active effort to keep my eyes on his, I could feel my blush creeping down my damn neck and chest. He clearly noticed as his eyes flickered down and met mine again with a sparkle of amusement, but he didn’t mention it.
“When I was a pup, my dad and I used to spend hours here” he said, “he told me that the foundation of any good warrior is the ability to face their fears and push through them.”
Leah and I kicked off our shoes and socks and slowly stepped along the rocks protruding from the river as we tried to make it closer to Nico. The rocks were quite slick and the water was frigid, but I only almost died twice as we moved.
“We will build strength, agility, and speed, but first we have to learn to harness our fear” he said before turning and diving off the falls.
The sun was shining but the air was chilly, with flurries of tiny snowflakes swirling around, the roaring of the falls was drowning out our laughter as we splashed and swam. Despite the frost clinging to the pebble shore, we were enjoying our swim and our wolves kept us warm. Leah had been forced to miss training, so it was Nico and I alone for the first time in the last 3 months. Nico had become a silent ally in our climbing of ranks, it was an unspoken agreement that we didn’t mention his help to anyone. We weren’t entirely sure it was against the rules or not, but I think we all had concerns. Would the Alpha be okay with his son wasting time on bronze ranked wolves? The harsh whispers from Troy and Rayna lingered in the shadows when we passed them. Climbing the ranks wasn’t exactly a team building exercise, it was a competition. The packs tradition believed that an army was only as strong as their weakest warr
The engine beneath me roared to life, I kicked up the bike stand and adjusted my leather jacket before leaning down and pulling back the throttle. The wind whipped my hair that hung beneath my helmet. 10 years had passed since my family’s death, I had salvaged my fathers broken down bike that he had spent years trying to get running, it purred beneath me, a reminder of him every time I went for a ride. My mothers old locket and my brothers favorite jacket were the only other tokens of my family that I found in the wreckage of my childhood home. My heart had shattered completely at the state of my old town, buildings smashed in the fight, some burned down.. I wandered through the neighborhood, silent tears on my cheeks and a rage burning and growing within me. It was outside of Jensens home that I sobbed, my friend had died and the last moments we had together left me feeling hollow. I had abandoned him.His
I climb the steps to the pack house, I had left my bike at my aunts and walked the short distance. Nico glances up at me as I shut the door behind me and he smiles, he looks exhausted, his hair ruffled like he’s been running his fingers through it to disperse his stress. I nod at him before taking a seat while we wait for the rest of the group to show up.“Listen, we have some disturbing news..” Nico starts as the last person sits down “a rogue was captured alive in the silver dawn pack shortly after we arrived. All interrogations in the past have left us empty handed but this wolf..” his eyes get dark “we broke him”A murmur runs through our small group before he continues, “For the last 20 years this pack of rogues has been hell bent on bringing down all packs, wanting to destroy our hierarchy and bring about chaos. A large
“Fuck fuck fuck” I mutter as I toss workout clothes, pajamas, and a few outfits into my giant duffel bag, I don’t know what to expect on the trip so I pack a variety of things “fucking moon goddess and her bullshit” I’m whispering and trying to hold myself together. I feel like I can’t even breathe, I sit on the edge of my bed and bury my face into my hands, what the fuck am I going to do?‘Mm Nico isn’t bad, but he’s not mate’ Nya grumbles‘Massively fucking helpful, thanks’ I snap‘Maybe..’ She whines in pain ‘maybe mate was killed’ I almost let out a howl with her as the thought sends an ache of pain through me‘Will we be happy with Nico?’ I ask, avoiding the thought of our
Liam and Nico were stewing, we sat at the cafe near the Inn and sipped coffee after our lunch. We had been waiting on the alpha for 2 hours now, the streets were moderately busy especially for such a small looking town. I’d guess they were all finding a reason to catch a glimpse of the visitors, I wouldn’t be surprised to find someone vacuuming their porch just to have an excuse. I tapped my foot quietly, anxious for this exchange to be over, but also dreading the trip ending. I felt like there was no time to contemplate my choice on choosing Nico as a mate, but then maybe I already knew I’d have to choose him, was there really any point in dragging out the inevitable?‘Romantic’ Nya huffed in annoyance, we both wanted to wait for our mate, but at 26 with an impending war, a mating proposal, and the high possibility our true mate was dead, neither of us could really fight it.
My wounds sting considerably more in human form, I’m curled in the fetal position but push myself up to sit, drawing my legs closer to my body and wincing as my bloody feet scrape the ground. Wrapping my arms around my knees I glare at Jensen as he stands a few feet away.“Maybe it’s just you I’m always needing to run from” I spat at him“Noted” his eyes darken “but don’t be fooled kitten, I’ll always find you if I want to”I scoff at him, “I’m not the same pathetic little girl you knew” I raise my chin and he quirks an eyebrow at my position, ragged and bleeding on the forest floor“Funny, you’re still clinging to that pathetic alpha all these years later”
Having spent my entire life solely focused on being a good girl and stressing about my true mate, I finally felt like I could breathe around Nico. I felt sure in my choice of him, this whole fated mate thing was way more hyped up. Sure I was drawn to Jensen in a magnetic way, there was no denying that, his scent made my head do weird things and lit up my body, but I could definitely avoid the pull, and I would certainly be able to keep away from him when I saw him again. Nya had retreated and was locking herself away, but she would come around, the mate thing was harder for her than me. I was okay, I was hurt, but I was going to be happy if it fucking killed me..Of course fate loves to slap you when you’re feeling confident. Nico had insisted we go out for a nice dinner, dragging a hilariously awkward Liam along who pointedly refused to discuss mates and instead found any other topic, including weather, hum
The crunch of gravel fills the air as we pull into the pack house driveway, it wasn’t far from the inn but we decided against walking. Liam had begrudgingly come along, it may or may not have taken an alpha command on Nico’s part, reminding him that we came here for a reason and a little awkwardness between the pack alpha and myself was no reason to lose our heads. I had refrained from requesting to stay, not only did I want details, but I wanted to face this situation and stop running, I refused to give Jensen the satisfaction.. that and as much as I denied it to myself I couldn’t resist a chance to be around him. Damn mate bond.The pack house was beautiful in a rustic way, it backed a large lake, the moonlight shimmering off the surface of the water. The house itself was large, two story, green shudders on the windows, beautiful flowers around the foundation and trailed along the path leading
Ryver lead us forward and we stood for a moment, waiting for the other men in the group to follow. The women chained to me were whispering in hushed tones, Nya turned an ear in their direction to listen, we caught bits about magic, witches, and fear.‘They’re not wrong to be afraid, this is clearly the work of witches’ Nya growled to me,‘Nico will never find this place’ I muttered ‘To hell with Nico’ she snapped back, ‘how exactly are we going to escape this place? I hate to break it to you but no one will be coming to our rescue.’The realization truly slammed into me like a sack of bricks, I had no one left to even notice I was gone. My mate had rejected me, my almost chosen mate had replaced me, my pack had exiled me. I may as well be in a cage with the magic that encased us here. ‘Everything has a weakness’ I told her firmly, ‘even this place’ But we could both feel each other’s apprehension. A few moments later Heath and Fig approached from the stairs.“All clear and the gate
The rest of the journey was much the same, Ryver kept me close and I wondered if he had an interest in me, the implications of that honestly scared me, or if he was concerned I’d attack someone, which was the more likely of the two. Nya wanted to rip the throat out of everyone who came near us, Ryver included, or most of all actually. But every sunrise he tied us up and disappeared, returning with fresh meat, and always tucking his gloves into the silver collar around our neck, making comments about how he didn’t want to lose them, or jokes about having me hang on to them for him. Those moments were the only ones where Nya wasn’t daydreaming of his head being torn from his body, the relief from the silver calmed us both so much that we slept well in the warmth of the sun peeking through the trees, despite our internal clock feeling like we were jet lagged, the relief was so goddamn nice that we slept hard. Heath and Fig were the only two who approached, I couldn’t quite grasp who wa
We followed the large male for a few hours in silence, a few chained women whispered to each other, but our captors didn’t speak and the group of witches trailed so far behind us they disappeared an hour or so back. Nya was raging mad, the fur was singed off our neck and we dripped blood every few steps. She wouldn’t even speak to me as I tried to come up with ways to escape, the most she said was a muttered annoyance about humans. I watched through her eyes as she glared daggers into the head of the man leading us, we were a rather large wolf for a female thanks to all the training, but this man still towered over us. He yanked the chains hard causing us to slide forward, the women behind us shrieked in pain as they too were pulled forward. He wound the chains tighter around his gloved fists before glancing down at us. “I can feel your glares feral one” he chuckled and Nya bared her bloody teeth, “savage little beast you are, will you shift so we can speak?”Nya just turned her gaz
A month had passed since I was thrown from Emerald Falls Pack, I let Nya lead us through the forests, staying clear of any pack lands as we roamed. She was able to hunt and keep our body nourished, but I could feel the quiet creeping into our minds, being a rogue was a heavy burden for a wolf, we needed a pack, we needed companionship. However with the wars between rogues and packs going on we weren’t able to join another pack, even setting foot on their lands was an instant death sentence, and there would be no pleading my case to join anywhere since I would immediately be deemed a spy and locked up. I was truly fucked, it was Nya and I against the world now.We stopped at a river to drink, we were heading west hoping for some warm weather and to stay away from main packs inland. The sun was peaking through the trees as Nya lapped at the cool water, filling our empty belly with hydration and soothing our thirst. The mud caking our paws and legs was thick, but it aided in hiding our s
The sound of car doors closing had me looking up from my coffee, Liam met my gaze, pity in his eyes and I clenched my jaw. My forced chosen mate is here. Taking one last sip of the black liquid, I stood and strode toward the door, taking a deep breath to calm myself and my wolf.The morning sun reflecting off the car cut my vision briefly, the scent of wildflowers and morning rain wrapped around my senses, suddenly my wolf was urging us forward, and I stumbled the last few steps of the pack house.In front of me stood a female I recognized from my travels, Anne with soft blond hair and hazel eyes. She had been kind but hadn’t been my mate, I looked at her my eyebrows scrunching before scenting the air again. Movement behind her caught my eye, a small female, must be barely 18 or 19 peered around Anne’s shoulder, her giant blue eyes looked up at me and an expression of shock on her face.“Mate” she and I whispered together.Anne whipped around, her eyes on the beautiful girl, “Gloria?”
*Jensen*She was gone, our mixed scents still hung in the air around me and a twisted feeling of regret sat in my gut, Oren was shut off from me as well. I just sat there, watching the moon glowing red and the eclipse passing. Every inch of my body was in pain from the severing of the bond, and yet a sick sense of numbness was rattling within me.It wasn’t until the moonlight had eased back into its white glow that I finally looked down, my hands and crotch smeared red, blood? Had I hurt us being too rough? Was Jess okay? The realization of her innocence slammed into me a second later and I puked. For 10 years I had been so sure she had given herself to that fucking alpha, but she had waited. She had cherished the mate bond..I let out a roar and in an instant I’m smashing the couch, shredding cushions, r
His hands are rough, fisting my hair, gripping my hip, pawing at my breasts, one second we are locked in a kiss so fierce the world could burn down around us and we’d never even know, and the next second he’s nipping the flesh on my neck, grazing the spot his mark should be. I’m gasping and clawing at his back, pulling him toward me. There’s no way to stop, I can hear the tiniest shadow of myself screaming somewhere in the distance, but the moon ticking closer to complete eclipse and the vivid red soaking the sky has my own inner voice drowning faster than the heat pooling between my thighs. Jensen and I fall onto the cream cushions of the couch, he lays me back, a growl rumbling in his chest as he spreads my legs, running a finger slowly from my knee to my core, sparks feel like flames and I hear myself let out a raspy plea. His fingers slick from my juices, he slides one inside of
*Jessie*I could physically feel the moment Jensen stepped out of his car, I spotted him out of the corner of my eye and knew for sure when his scent smashed into me like a freight train. I refused to look in his direction, I refused to give him an ounce of my attention. But I could feel his eyes on me throughout the early evening.The moon was rising quickly and so was the energy, a frantic buzzing was blanketing the party, left and right shifters were losing their inhibitions between the alcohol and the moons influence. Mates were shamelessly touching and kissing, Nico, Liam, and I were talking, just the three of us remained together as most were beginning to pair off, or shift and explore the forest together. I could feel Nya pushing forward, it was getting harder to remain in human form and almost excruciating to stay away from Jensen.
“You could have killed him” Nico rubs his face“I couldn’t have, mate bond” I point out, none of my attacks were deadly, my wolf wouldn’t let me anyways“It looked like you were gonna kill him” Liam chuckled and I had to fight from laughing with him“That’s not the point, you can’t do that in his territory, he could have you killed for attempting to take his pack”“He started it” I growled, my amusement fading rapidly‘He deserved it’ Nya said to me, she was feeling smug with how the fight had turned out, preening with proud energy“Let’s just get through this training and get home” he meets m