***ESTHER*** “Hey! Esther,” I hear Natalie calling me as soon as enter the entrance gate of the university.“Hey!” I reply her. She runs to me breathlessly like she is going to miss something important right at this moment. What’s so important that she is rushing to me like that?“How’s Caden?” she asks me.Oh! Yeah! Caden. How can I forget that the most important factor of her life is none other Caden and that quick and swift rush to me explains every thing.“He’s fine, I guess. He must be watching movies at home right now,” I smile.“Oh! I have never seen you smile,” she says.“Is that beautiful?” I ask.“Awooow… That’s cringe. I never imagined that you would ask me that question?” she giggles for a moment and answers.“Yes, it is. If I was a boy, I would surely go after that sweet and gorgeous smile.”I giggle back at her. If she was a boy, I would have loved her more I guess. We both walk towards our respective classes after few chit-chats. She goes to her own fifth year classes
***ESTHER***Almost after two hours of cleaning, I complete the cleaning session. It’s been long that I haven’t cleaned like this. Its kind of making me tired while at the same time making me refreshed.I walk towards my study desk and sit on the chair for rest. I pull out the drawer from my study desk and see colorful diaries of mine which I started to write since my high school, every year with every new colors.They are of brown, lavender, purple, pink, sky blue and black color. Altogether, there are six diaries which I had written in last six years. I had filled them with all the emotions at that time. My fear, my anxiety, my excitement, motivation, my frustration, my madness, my anger and the love I always had been yearning for. All of them were mentioned over there.All of the five diaries were complete but I had never been able to complete the last diary. It’s because I had never been able to write and explain the things that had happened to me after that day.It was hard, too
***ESTHER***My eyes open as the bright sun rays penetrate my skin. For a few moments, I feel motionless and then, I check the place around me. I’m still in my apartment. I breathe in giddily as I feel fresh but my neck feels pained.Wait! I dozed on the couch for the whole night. God damn! That’s why my shoulders and neck are paining like hell. I turn around to check my phone and I see the phone is still going on.“God damn! Caden!” I shout all of a sudden. What the hell is wrong with me? Why didn’t he cut off the phone?“Yes!” I hear his voice from another side of the phone.“Holy! Caden! You didn’t sleep?” I put my phone against my ear.“Did …you wake up?” I hear his unclear voice from another side.“Just go to sleep,” I say as I cut off the phone. Is this guy crazy or what? Who does this kind of funny stuff? I couldn’t help but be in disbelief. But that disbelief slowly turns to a faint smile on my face.Wait!What am I even doing? Am I smiling right now? At the craziness of that
***CADEN***Did I just hear it right? Or did I just hear it wrong? I heard her telling me it is her boyfriend and her son. That doesn’t make sense at all.She is… She is just in the first year of college and the man in the picture seems like he is a cop. And that child… It seems he is almost 7-8 months baby and if that’s her baby then he would be with her, right?“You’re joking, right? I know you regard me as foolish in front of you but I am not. You should try to fool someone else,” I smile as pick up the picture from the table and shake it in front of her eyes.She… isn’t smiling. She looks absolutely serious. Her hands are motionless with the blue cup in her hands. It seems as if she is shouting out inside her hard and trying to tell a lot of things as I visualize the way she is looking at me. But she isn’t being able to tell anything.“Something’s wrong?” I bellow. My voice turns low as I comprehend their situation of hers and without even her answer I realize that everything… ev
***ESTHER***“Why are you doing it yourself? Don’t you have the machine for this?” he magnifies his eyes as he sees the pile of clothes in between him and me.“I do have but these are the clothes which I prefer to wash,” I say as I pick them up and walk towards the laundry room.“Really? With your own hands?” he shouts behind my back. I cannot help but smile as I walk away.“I told you, you’re going to regret it. Why don’t you just return?” I tease him. I know deep down that he is never going to return.“I’m coming,” he rushes behind me. I can hear his rushed footsteps toward me. His footsteps slow down as he reaches closer to me and walks along with me.I couldn't help but smile within me not showing the happiness within me. Having someone to walk along with you is more than just a blessing, isn't it?It reminds me of him, David!********Some years ago"Why did you call me over here?" I panted hard as I crouched to touch my knees.It's been a year that I have been friends with him.
***CADEN***"Are you out of your mind Caden? What the hell did you just do now?" she stands like a scarecrow whose hands are wide stretched and her face disoriented into something, not exactly like her but her.I giggle loudly as I drench her whole clothes with water. She needs this.She can't just hear some shitty thing that the stranger just said about her and get concerned with it. She should just wash that off her mind."I think you need a wash. That lady just threw a bunch of shitty talk in you and you need to shake it off," I say as I laugh out loud."God damn Caden, I'm gonna kill you," she says and turns her body left and right searching for something. I know she is searching for something to hit me. But I'm lucky there is nothing except those foamed clothes.Wait! Foamed clothes!Don't tell me she is going to hit me with that.God damn!I did a huge mistake for god's sake."No! Don't tell me you're going to do it?" I slowly pace my steps backwards."Nothing had ever stopped m
***Caden***“Picnic? Right now?” My eyes enlarged with shock when she says going out on a picnic out of blue.“Why? Don’t you want to go?” she giggles and walks towards the fridge and takes out the bottle of water and takes a sip from there.“Why wouldn’t I go? Picnic really seems to be a nice idea,” I nod my head gently with a smile.“But where are we going actually?” I ask.“It’s a surprise. I’m sure you’re going to love it,” she says and takes out a basket from the fridge.Had she already prepared for this picnic? Well! That doesn’t matter at all. The only thing that matters right now is I am going to be with her right now.I walk towards the balcony to get my clothes but she stops me on my way.“Where are you going to?” she questions and as she looks outside the balcony she realizes that I am going over there for my clothes.“You don’t have to get dressed to go over there. Trust me, no one is going to judge you over there,” she confirms and calls me quickly.But I am in a regular
***ESTHER***None of us enunciated a single word in our whole journey. Maybe it was wrong of me to ask her that question. Maybe, I was never supposed to ask to her.God damn! Caden! Why can’t you stop yourself before yo talk shit?“Caden! Caden!” I hear her voice calling me. I turned around to her and see that she is looking at me.“What?” I ask.“We need to get down now,” she turns away and is going to get out of the taxi. I suddenly grab her arm and she faces me.Her eyes are questioning me with my abrupt behaviour but she doesn’t say a word.“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have asked that question to you,” I apologize. She lets out a small before she speaks anything to me.“Caden! I think I should say this. You look extremely awful when you are apologizing. Today and before too but you know what I’m glad to see you being considerate of others,” she says and gets out of the taxi.It’s not for others Esther. It’s just for you. I can’t do this to others as others aren’t you.“Es…ther…,” I hea
Final chapter***CADEN***One has to pay for the sins that they committed all their life. But, I don't know what sin I had committed and I don't know what sins my mom and Esther had committed that we had to suffer a lot.I don't think I had done a great sin ever in our life. So, the truth is we all suffered from the sun that someone else has committed. We all suffered because of the sin, Cameron Payne has committed.I rush out of the office as soon as I hear that.He deserved that. After killing life of so many people he deserves to die like that."Where is he rushed to?" I ask as I run to the car."To the City Centre Hospital," he says. He drives the car for the destination.It's been a year that I have been planning for this day but seeing that without even lifting my pinky finger something happened to him makes me kind of mad.How? Why?There is not even a little bit of remorse on my face on his accident but somewhere in my heart I become restless as my heart beats quick and fast
Chapter 114 ***CADEN***A year later"Boss! We have a meeting scheduled with Cameron Payne," my assistant knocks on my door.I look at him and nod my head."I'll be there," I say as I stand up from my seat.I have waited for this day for so long. It's been a year. A complete one year, two days and fourteen hours that she has been away from me.I don't know where she is. What is she doing and what happened to her?I remember that night when me and Carlos reached on the research center. At that time, we realized that there is no entrance to that center until and unless Cameron Payne lets us to enter inside.And there was no way that he would let us enter inside that door. We waited for almost three days without food, without water just like a zombie but there was no trace that they were going to open that door for us.On the third day, I became unconscious and that was what brought me to the hospital.I was rushed to the hospital and was hospitalised for two days. I don't know when did
Chapter 113 ***ESTHER***"My baby was prematurely delivered and without even my consent. I was just a surrogate mother," I say and Cavendish looks at me with a shocking eyes."What? In how many months and why?" he asks me as he gulps the fire roasted meat into his mouth. Not a big piece but a small piece."Six and half months maybe. I'm afraid if the child is even alive," I look at the fire with my pensive eyes. I pray that the baby is alright and he make it to the world but even after I pray a lot I cannot think that the baby have so much chance of not making it to this world. The thought of it makes me scared but I cannot stop thinking about it.I know it's a negative thought but even after I try so hard not to think about it, it's what my mind is filled with it."Then, I'm sure the child didn't make it," he adds in it and though I know that might have happened being assured by him torments my heart to the hell.I don't say any word but just she'd tears."I promised myself that I w
Chapter 112 ***ESTHER***It's cold. It's freaking cold. My whole body feels like I am somewhere in the middle of the sea. What's this sound?Is it the sound of moving waves? That can't be. Or is it? Is it really what I am thinking of cause it feels absolutely something like that?I gently open my eyes. As soon as I open my eyes, the bright beam of sunlight almost blinds my eye.What's going on? My hands feel numb but I manage to use them. I raise them up closer to me. It's wet.I am right.I am in the water. I quickly get up from where I am lying. I look at my lower portion of the body. It's alright but I am still too weak to walk.They had performed surgeries on me. I still have my wounds in my body?I get up and sit upright in the sandy shore. I am here. I don't know where am I? He threw me over here. That damn bastard threw me over here.I look around the place. There is nothing that I can see like a civilization or human kind. This is ... Some lonely island that I have never hear
Chapter 111 ***ESTHER***I slowly open my eyes and see the world of machines, doctors and medicines all around me. There are six of them in the room. Where am I? In surgery room?I want to move my hands to see my stomach. I want to check if the baby is alright. But my hands are tied. There is no way I can reach my stomach this way.I don't feel anything over there. I guess they have ...they have already ...I cannot control myself. I don't have any energy to do that and I cannot move my lower parts of body. What did they do?I cry loud but my voice creaks. My voice doesn't come as it should have come. My tears keep on flowing from the corner of my eyes rapidly. I can feel my tears wetting my hair.But the fact that I am alive makes me happy. It gives me the courage to embrace myself one more time. And this is not decreasing my hope. Not even a little bit.I am bound to do that. I am bound to take revenge and and I will do that in any way. I am not giving up whatever they break of me.
Chapter 110 ***CADEN***I rush angrily to my dad's home. How dare he? How dare he do that to Esther? I had warned him. I had warned him numerous times but even after all of those warnings, he keeps on doing the things that always gets on my nerve.I travelled six hours long taxi ride just to see the man whom I hate so much. God damn! This man!"Cameron Payne!" I shout with a loud voice. I don't know if he is in the house. But I'm sure I'm going to kill him if I find him here.I look at his room but he isn't there. The head servant in his house comes out and informs that he isn't in the house. He set off for somewhere yesterday and hasn't returned back since then."Where? Where did he go?" I shout at him."We don't know young master," he says.I shuffle my hair in frustration and walk downstairs. I look around his house but I don't find anyone in there. Where does he keep his wife? Where does she live?I stop my feet as I turn back and ask the head servant," Where is his wife?" I ask.
Chapter 109***ESTHER***This smell! This smell is so much bad. It's the smell of tyre burning. I hate this smell. And this clouds of smoke, I can't see anything in front of me. Where am I? Where in the hell am I?I try to open my eyes but I don't get to. It's stinging like hell. What happened? What in the hell happened?I am tied on the chair. My hands are tied behind and my legs are tied too. I can feel my wedding dress hugging my body but I am not able to see anything.There isn't a single sound around here and luckily my mouth isn't taped or closed with some clothes.But God damn! I'm kidnapped. I'm kidnapped for god's sake.I try to open up the rope that has tied me from behind. I still cannot open my eyes."Caden! Caden!" I shout his name. Slowly, I remember what happened before.I was hit by someone in my head, someone from behind. I saw him. I saw that fucking bastard Cameron over there.How did he get over there? We even switched off our phones not to let him know where we we
Chapter 108***CADEN***Her smile is what I love to see the most in the whole world. We both don't know what is laid in front of our future but we really don't want to give up in any part of this journey. I know there would only hurdles in front of us but I don't want to give up on her. I want to be part of her, in her sorrows and in her happy times together.What could make me more elated than being her husband? I am more than just excited to be her husband.She wants to file a case against Cameron Payne and I have a full support in that. I hate to tell him my dad. I have always hated to but now I really don't want to get reminded that he is my dad. He is dead for me.He has made so many people suffer and cry that it's shameful to introduce him as my father. I have lost my mother because of his selfish motive and she lost her three members of her family. It's hard. It's not only the number of members but it's a emotion, the soul that he has killed.I can't tell how much I hate him.
Chapter 107***ESTHER***"For what?" she asks. I see her eyes looking at me with curiosity and innocence. But it's a first time that she has looked at me like that. She hasn't done that since I have come over here. She has been ignoring me since I came over here like I never existed in her world."For taking you wrong. For not being able to sit with you and communicate with you properly," I say."You don't have to do that. You don't need to communicate with me. I don't feel like talking with you after all," she says.That's hurts a little but I knew that from the very start."I know but can we talk? Who knows we might have something that's common," I say.She looks at me with those weird eyes and then turns back."We don't have anything in common except Caden, I guess," she says."Oh! Yeah! We both do have him as common," I follow her trying to catch with her footsteps."Why do you like him so much?" I ask. She looks at me and then returns back to walking."I don't know. Maybe because