Chase's POV Emma had arrived yet, but I didn't want her to meet the word air that was brewing between Gray and I. Just a few hours ago, I assured her that Gray had nothing to threaten us with again, and that he might even soften towards her in the very near future. “What's going on?” I asked Gray, sitting next to him in class. He had a pensive look on, and stared unblinking at Jessica and Lily. “You mean you never thought to tell me?! Me of all people, Chase?!” He said, but he maintained a low voice. “I hate how I got to know about it, Chase, but I hate it more for you. I'll claw you with every weapon in my arsenal and I'm gonna bleed you where it hurts.” He said. I thought to reason with him, but there was so much disrespect in all he had said and done. “I'm not gonna take this shit anymore.” I said. “Gray, it was a fuckin mistake, I was fuckin paranoid. None of us was in a place to raise a child. Lily's family was breaking apart, I have no parents.” I said to him, “If y
Lily's POV “Hey baby.” My dad said, walking into my room. The old man's heart break was only too visible. It seemed like he miraculously had more lines and creases on his forehead. “I'm sorry about earlier.” I apologized. “Oh, baby. I'm not annoyed. I'm not the one with about fifty percent hearing.” He joked, and we both laughed. “I thought you'd be angry with me.” I confessed. “And that is where you get me wrong, Lily. You are the least expressive of both of you. You are the only girl I have. It's a cruel world to women out there. You need to learn to speak for yourself, Lily. And for what you did,” He said, lowering his voice, “I'm proud of you.” I had not been happier in a minute. He pressed a kiss to my forehead and rocked me a bit. “I'm glad I have you.” I said, my heart was full and the tears were already at the brink of letting themselves out. “That births the other news I have.” He said, pulling away from me. “And what is that?” I didn't know what to e
Emma's POV Once again, thanks to another boy, one I almost gave my life to, my nudes were floating around. It was deja vu. I should've seen it all coming. Pictures of Chase with Jessica and then pictures of me and him at the hotel. I shamelessly went through some others social media accounts and even saw pictures I sent to him privately. I should've known better, I should've seen it coming. Worse still, he didn't even run after me. “Hey baby.” My mom, in one of her very fancy floral outfits, walked in unannounced to my room. I was so grateful I didn't pack any of my clothes to Chase's house. It's been three days since it happened, but it was still the talk of the town, second only to speculations about prom king and Queen. The or I had planned so carefully for was going to elude me. There was no way I was setting my feet in school if it wasn't for school. “Hi, mom.” I croaked. “Come on. What's going on? It cannot possibly be your period.” She said, I lied to her that it
Chase's POV Lily somehow beat me to it. I didn't need a soothsayer to know that Emma was done with me. She blocked me on all her socials and even calls. I couldn't reach her in any way I tried, and her mom wasn't exactly someone she fancied. Plus, Mrs Linda and I have had our fair share of deals, deals I wanted to be over soon enough. I retired to my home after it. The days that went by were like a blur. The first day, I woke up to expecting a good morning text from Emma. I refreshed my phone as much as I could, but it still wasn't forthcoming. Worse still, she blocked me already so I didn't even know if she was online. I didn't want to live without Emma, I didn't want to learn how to. But I couldn't escape it. It's how love works. Someone does, or someone gets hurt. I took to finding comfort from whiskey. We hadn't been together for so long, but it felt like a very huge part of me was ripped out. Emma was exactly what I wanted. Despite all the bottles I drank, I only got
Emma's POV. I kept steadily regretting letting Chase know anything beyond my name. With the kind of pictures I had floating around, I was already going out of my mind. I was trying my best to keep from tearing the skin off my bones. I had the sort of self loathing I experienced back at Starry. My sad, ugly life somehow couldn't stay happy for too long. Misfortunes were my bad habit. I had problem keeping them off. I walked right into this, that I knew. Locked up in my room, I was losing control of my mind. It didn't help knowing that everyone else was so busy with every other thing. The only person who called by or checked on me was Lily. She called really early in the morning, sounding sleepy herself. “Hey.” I said, as I picked up the phone. “Hey baby girl.” I replied, sleepy. “I don't apologize for waking you up. I wanted my voice to be the first you hear, even before yours.” Lily was one of the few people who could change my mood. “That's funny.” I said. “How ar
Emma's POV I was pumped about my day out with Lily. After the ruckus of the morning, I was ready to dance my pain away. It was a new lifestyle, but surely one worth exploring. “Hi, Mrs Linda.” Lily announced her presence, with her very tiny voice. “Oh, dear. Isn't that a little too short?” My mom commented while hugging her “We could also discuss how your bum looks so good while we're at it.” She added. Lily laughed so loud one would think she had no care in the world. I was busy putting my affairs in order. If Lily's outfit caused that reaction, mine was gonna give her a heart attack. “Thank you.” Lily replied, slurring her words. She sounded drunk, but I knew he wasn't. She could b in really high spirits, just as she could be low and suicidal at times. “Where are you off to? Emma's been holed up since forever.” My mom asked. She was always trying to be friends with my friends and I didn't get the obsession most times, it was kinda cute though. “We,” Lily stated,
Chase's POV After I left my dads that morning, I had no other plans but to drink myself to stupor. I was a failure. Emma was only too convinced that I gave her pictures out. The one thing I wasn't questioning was that there were more pictures addressed to a certain Kevin. She did not feel the need to explain that, so I didn't see the point in trying to fix us. I was torn. If Emma was cheating, then what happened was for the best. “What are you calling me for, Man?” Gray’s hoarse voice grunted. “I wanna talk.” I said. “I'm in your yard.” I added. “Get the fuck outta here, man.” He said, and cut the call. I called four more times, none of which he picked up. “Since you're so eager to see me, here I am.” He said, entering my car with a loaded gun, facing me. I laughed. It seemed so unreal. Gray was almost my brother. “You're really doing this?” I asked, surprised. “And a lot more. You might wanna say what's on your mind before you leave here in a body bag.” He threa
Jessica's POV It felt so good seeing Chase humbled. It's what I've wanted for the longest time. “Did Chase come by?” Gray asked as soon as I called him to share my good news. “He did.” I replied. “How do you know?” I asked him. “He came earlier.” He said, and remained silent for a while. “Did you know?” He asked me. “Know what?” I asked. I didn't like the tone he was using on me. “Never mind.” He said. “Is there something you want to say to me?” I inquired, cause he sure as hell sounded like he did. “I said not to bother.” He objected, breathing heavily. “How's your application coming?” I asked him. Gray had applied for some modeling gigs. “Haven't checked my mail in a minute.” He muttered. “I think you should.” I suggested to him. “Thanks, bye.” Gray sounded weird as fuck. I rang Lily up countless times, but it kept redirecting me to her voicemail. I wondered where the hell she could've been. “Crazy bitch!” I muttered, trying her number for w
Lily's POV Emma and I were gonna have premium fun, and I was gonna make sure of it. I didn't cancel my trip to Berlin to sulk and cry with Emma. “Do we go on our spree first?” I asked her. Her face looked conflicted when she got into the car after she and Chase's little pep talk. I hated to see my girl like that. “Yeah.” She confirmed. Good to know we were still on track. I need some summer dresses and sunshades for Berlin myself, and maybe boots too. “What's on your mind?” I asked her. She looked like she wasn't really with me, in the car. “I'm scared.” She said, “Why?” I asked her. “For a lot of reasons.” She said, “Start with the one on your mind now.” I said. “Everything.” She said, She was rubbing her hands furiously. “Everything is wrong.” “That can't be true.” I said. “You have a life many are only jealous of.” I said. “You're just trying to make me feel better. It would have worked when I was younger and dumber, but I'm smart now, Lily.” Her
Emma's POV. I did one last outfit check before heading down to Lily's. It wasn't much, but it was pretty, cute, demure. I took these stairs carefully, gently, just so if Chase was around, he would not hear me come down. It wasn't exactly like I was running from him, I just wasn't in the mood for any explanation. I just wanted to do what I wanted to do and be happy. The front door was left ajar, which was quite unusual, but not strange, since he was still somewhere around. “Here she comes.” Chase beamed. They had just broken their hug, and he and Lily were looking in my direction. I almost wobbled under their gaze. Their faces were so smiley, so expectant, I was tempted to look back to confirm if there was something else that had their attention. “You look so fucking pretty.” Lily said, hugging me and planting a kiss on my forehead. “Thank you.” I croaked. I was pinching myself, struggling to remind myself that the hug I just witnessed them break meant nothing. That the
Emma's POV I wasn't feeling up to talking to Chase when I woke up in the morning. That's not to deny that I didn't find his efforts cute. He sounded so happy, like if I stayed around him too much, he'd rub off on me. The pancakes he made, made their way into my nose, but my head was feeling a bit woozy, I was in fact trying to catch my balance. I didn't know that was enough to piss him off. I looked from the window opposite his bed, I could not see him. Meaning he didn't go so far. The pancakes were making me extra hungry, but I felt nasty, and weak. I stripped, half hoping Chase came in at that exact time. I took my time, taking my clothes off one after the other. I tarried a bit, waiting in sexy poses. I pinched myself. I was beginning to get too delusional, even for myself. I walked into the bathroom majestically. The blood flow had reduced, and for that I was grateful. Taking my time, I lathered my body carefully with a body scrub I'd just gotten. I felt fresh, diffe
Chase's POV. I was still very much haunted from how I reacted when Emma told me about it. Every time I saw her wear a painful look on her face I remembered how it mirrored the look she wore when she told me. The sleep at night was somewhat chaotic. She had a bout of nightmares. I was scared to my bones when I heard her scream the first time, but it was rather a relief when I saw she was still asleep. It happened three times more, and every single time, I got less scared than I was before. “How are you?” I asked. I'd been staring at her for over an hour, when the day was still a bit dark. “Better.” She replied, turning from me and facing the wall. I thought today was gonna be different. Maybe she'd be warmer, calmer, more composed. I had the most beautiful smile on, ready to make her world different from what it used to be. “I loved watching you sleep.” I said, like I'd done every morning since we'd been together. Emma's smile was a bit shy, or cold, frosty, I didn't w
Emma's POVHow the call ended was a bit strange. I didn't know why my mom had to cut it off. As much as I wanted to dash to Mark's, I wasn't feeling up to it and I had started to feel gnawing pains in my belly. I concluded my mom was gonna be alright and left it at that. When I called her, I wasn't expecting to hear her say those things she said, but they sure were what I needed to hear, in retrospection. Maybe it was better after all. My raw maternal instincts were mourning the baby, but a baby wasn't really what I needed. And she was right about the other part too. Chase and I were going to college in less than a month. She said two letters came from different schools for him, it was a lot more than a punch in my gut that he applied to two schools, none of which I applied to. I thought the plan was to be together. Apparently, I didn't mean so much to him. As I held my head in my hand, I cried to the God I don't know if I believed in. I'd been cheated so badly in my ver
Emma's POV I changed out of my already stained towels. Chase just got them from a fancy women's store, online, about two days ago. I felt bad that it had to get ruined, but it was all part of my healing. The doctor said I was gonna be bleeding for about four days. After bawling my eyes out again on Chase's shoulders, I logged my tired body back into the bathroom to wash up. I was weak as fuck, and definitely worse of emotionally. I put a sanitary pad on and then went to bedI didn't think it was gonna be easy sleeping, so it was not a surprise when all that closing my eyelids did was usher in the horrible memories. I began to think of something I thought I'd cast to the back of my mind a long time ago. Every now and then, I felt Chase's hand on my body. It was hard to tell him that the hands I once died for, the hands I once fantasized about being wrapped in had started to irritate me. The day went by slowly, I subconsciously looked at the digital clock on the dressing ta
Chase's POV “Baby,” I called out to Emma as soon as we got back home, “I hate seeing you this way.” My voice snapped her out of her thoughts, she breathed deep and came out of the car, leaving both her phone and purse behind. “I'm really tired, Chase.” She said, “I just want to rest.” “That's totally fine.” I took all our stuff out of the car and ran after her. Let me help you.” She looked and felt weak. “Thank you.” She said, as I helped her up the stairs. “Can I get you something to eat?” I asked “I don't feel up to it right now.” She replied. “Can I just try?” I asked her. “Don't bother.” She snipped. “Do you need something else?” I asked her. “Just stay next to me.” She said, It felt like an honor to be told such by her. “Let me jump out of these clothes.” I tore the clothes, a reminder of where we'd been and what'd happened. “Pull me closer.” She cried. I pulled Emma so close. Her body felt heavier, and was even warming up. “I'm sorry, Emma.
Emma's POV “Would you have me read the results with him present?” The doctor asked me. “Yeah, he's my boyfriend.” I said, smiling. I rubbed Chase's face, pulling his beards with one hand, and rubbing my belly with the other. “You might want to sit up.” He said. “We are happy you came in for a check up today.” The kind old man said. I smiled. It was a big hospital downtown, fancy and very modern too. I felt more at peace with Chase by my side. “Emma Watson,” He wore the glasses which hung down from his neck and read my name out from a file in his hand, “I'm afraid, but we couldn't find a heartbeat.” I knew nothing about stuff like those. I'd never been or lived with a pregnant woman. I remember the look on their faces while the nurse kept tapping my belly and scanning round, but I didn't think it was a big deal. “What does that mean?” I heard Chase ask as my heart was already shattering, it could only mean one thing. My baby was dead. “Your baby is dead.” The doc
Chase's POVI knew I was kinda weird, maybe a bit confused. But I had genuine reason to believe Emma was doing too much. The food arrived soon, and we went to get it at the door. We were cool just a moment ago. I hate how we weren't yet at the point where we handle our shit maturely. “I'll get that.” I said, reaching for the bigger and heavier boxes. It was only instinctive to be more protective of her. She was carrying my baby. Whether or not we were ready for it. “Emma.” I called her quietly since we weren't both far from the rest’ earshot. “Yeah.” She turned, I saw the tear marks on her face. I was gonna say how I was sorry for blanking out on her, but the words just couldn't get out. “I'm…” I started, looking in multiple directions at once. “It’s okay.” Emma said, and walked in. I took a minute to process what had just happened. “Where were you man?” Gray screamed in delight as I entered. “Been looking in that direction for the past minute.” He added. I kn