Lily's POV I probably seem like the bad guy in the story. But as always, I don't care, I never cared. I hadn't gotten past blaming my parents' very messy divorce for my misdemeanors. We had court hearings almost every other week. Like it wasn't bad enough, my dad always brought along our step siblings. I hated the whole idea of it. I know I came off as a child when I always asked them why they didn't just split and handle their shit on their own, but it was all really just annoying. Strangers who, for all who knows, might have a messy family issue themselves sitting to judge my family. I made enemies of all the attorneys and judges, for and against. I just decided I had had enough of it all, and decided to visit a private bar. I thought it was the drink when I saw someone who looked like Chase come in, so I didn't bother looking too much, for fear I'd embarrass the person. “Has to be him.” I said to myself. He did what my baby brother called ‘violent drinking’. Shot after
Emma's POV I literally thought my whole life had turned upside down, but it was the beginning of the mending of many of my relationships. First, with Lily. I sat far away from her in class, among the ‘zeros’, as Lily called them. People who had little to no appeal. I had begun to feel that way either way. Someone passed me a note. I saw Lily's poorly drawn heart shape on it and laughed. “I'm sorry, Emma.” The note read. “I didn't mean for that to happen. You're a really pretty girl, you can't blame me so much.” She drew a very funny face next to it. I was still baffled, but I liked the fact that she was making a joke out of it. It made the air feel less tense. “It really caught me unawares.” I replied to her and sent it back. People were already looking at us and wondering how we were talking and laughing and exchanging notes barely an hour after the showdown in the lobby. “I know. I'm so sorry. It's messing with me again.” She wrote with a tear faced badly drawn man ne
Chase's POV Emma loved the flowers I got her so much that I decided to surprise her with the seeds. I ordered them that night before I slept. When things started to become awry between both of us, I forgot to cancel it. Apparently, they were delivered with all the instructions I left and it led her to the wrong conclusion. I can't say I'm sorry that she saw me fucking Patty. I only felt bad by making her feel bad. But it was also high time I proved to myself that Emma did not hold the key to my orgasm. I have been sexually active since I was thirteen. Emma was too soon, too recent, too brief, to be so etched in my mind. Our fling lasted barely a month. Too short to have me comparing every sex I've had since then to her. As soon as she left, my penis went limp. I shamelessly even tried imagining I was fucking her instead of Patty, but it's still didn't work. Patty was a maid my dad had for about ten years. She was married when she moved in, but she looked young and didn't min
Emma's POV Just two days after our fallout, Chase had an accident. I was the only one home, and it made sense to be there for him. All the nights I spent near his bedside praying that nothing happens to him. My grades started to slack, I slept in class, my social battery was down, I was even beginning to look malnourished. I tried to fight the fact, which is that I cared about Chase, but it was impossible. I hated seeing him like that. I'd very much rather he be up and well, than sick, bedridden and housebound. I passed out on him so many times, the doctor advised a maid to check up on me whenever I went in to see him. Life was beginning to look colorful again, when two weeks after crashing himself and his car, he blinked. Blood tests showed he was under the influence of drugs, but Mark paid heavily to kill the investigations at that stage. It was all anyone needed to know, really. Three weeks after, doctors certified him okay enough to go about daily activities “Rise and
Jessica's POVWhen Chase walked into that bar that night, I felt the type of joy I hadn't felt in over two months. I liked Chase, but I loved him broken. Broken Chase always ran back to me. Coincidentally, Mr Rudd and I were out that night too. He had been giving me glances too publicly, so I decided that it was hi-time we met somewhere outside the walls of school. He was just a sexy eye candy that caught my attention, gradually, we became more than just admirers. He needed something, and obviously I did too. Two things in fact. Chase had left me solely for Emma, no I needed some dick, and I also needed someone who could help me fuck Eme up. Rudd was my golden opportunity, so I grabbed him fast and hard. He was only too happy and excited. We used to make out in corners in the school, but between the threat of getting caught, and having to stop halfway. I hadn't been so unsatisfied. One day, it was so bad I had to finish up in the bathroom. “Hey baby.” I said, walking up to
Jessica's POV Emma's effect was really a thing. Gray once joked about how she had an aura that kinda punished people who didn't like her. I didn't think it was real till that night, even though I hate to admit it. I had lost both Chase and Rudd to her, indirectly. I didn't like post nut clarity, and I'm sure there was more wrong with Chase than just that. The next day at school was their showdown, which I really couldn't give a fuck about because I was nursing wounds of my own. The day seemed to drag. My wounds hurt worse than they did the night before. Worse still, I got an infection from the previous night. The thought of Chase pouring alcohol into my vagina now began to irritate me, though it was a little too late. Between all that, I knew I had to do something. I wasn't one to go down without a fight. I hated Rudd, but he still hadn't fulfilled his end of the bargain, which was failing Emma. Results were to be out in about a month's time, so I expected her to face her hel
Jessica's POV “They say you've been seeing Mr Rudd.” Grayson texted finally. It was a big deal, but definitely not as bad as I thought it could get. “Who the fuck said so?” I asked him “I don't know. News has just been floating around.” He replied. I had better things to get back to. “Alright Gray.” I texted. “It's fine. Thank you.” I wanted to end the conversation and get back to my toys. “I'm lonely though.” He texted. For a minute, I didn't know what to say. I didn't give a very big fuck that he was lonely. He and Chase left me to roll with their ugly raggedy bitches. “So what do you want from me?” I asked. “Let's hang out.” He replied I didn't really want to think too much about it. I knew I was probably gonna be rebound sex, but heaven knows I couldn't give a shit. “Where?” I asked, packing my toys back. “My place. I'll see you at five.” That was barely an hour away. Excited, I grabbed my keys and raced down the stairs. I drove to Gray’s in a mad r
Jessica's POV “You're such a bitch!” Lily screamed from her car. I laughed, seeing the effect I had on her. “Only two things can help you now.” I said, grinning from ear to ear. “It's either you tell me why you have Chase wiring a grand to you, or confirm my request.” I said, winking. “You seriously cannot be saying this.” Lily sighed. I enjoyed being in control, making her weak. It made me all shades of happy. “You know what's funny?” Lily asked, with a sad smile. “The fact that you always hated me for the longest time, because Chase liked me. And now that it's Emma's turn, you want me to be on your side. Emma's my friend.” She didn't even sound convinced herself. I laughed very deeply and sped off again. She caught up with me, again. “Hand over my phone and tell me what you want.” Lily conceded. I knew she wasn't gonna play any funny games, so I gave her back. “I'll call you.” I said, sealing our deal before speeding off. Mission accomplished. I raced back home f
Lily's POV Emma and I were gonna have premium fun, and I was gonna make sure of it. I didn't cancel my trip to Berlin to sulk and cry with Emma. “Do we go on our spree first?” I asked her. Her face looked conflicted when she got into the car after she and Chase's little pep talk. I hated to see my girl like that. “Yeah.” She confirmed. Good to know we were still on track. I need some summer dresses and sunshades for Berlin myself, and maybe boots too. “What's on your mind?” I asked her. She looked like she wasn't really with me, in the car. “I'm scared.” She said, “Why?” I asked her. “For a lot of reasons.” She said, “Start with the one on your mind now.” I said. “Everything.” She said, She was rubbing her hands furiously. “Everything is wrong.” “That can't be true.” I said. “You have a life many are only jealous of.” I said. “You're just trying to make me feel better. It would have worked when I was younger and dumber, but I'm smart now, Lily.” Her
Emma's POV. I did one last outfit check before heading down to Lily's. It wasn't much, but it was pretty, cute, demure. I took these stairs carefully, gently, just so if Chase was around, he would not hear me come down. It wasn't exactly like I was running from him, I just wasn't in the mood for any explanation. I just wanted to do what I wanted to do and be happy. The front door was left ajar, which was quite unusual, but not strange, since he was still somewhere around. “Here she comes.” Chase beamed. They had just broken their hug, and he and Lily were looking in my direction. I almost wobbled under their gaze. Their faces were so smiley, so expectant, I was tempted to look back to confirm if there was something else that had their attention. “You look so fucking pretty.” Lily said, hugging me and planting a kiss on my forehead. “Thank you.” I croaked. I was pinching myself, struggling to remind myself that the hug I just witnessed them break meant nothing. That the
Emma's POV I wasn't feeling up to talking to Chase when I woke up in the morning. That's not to deny that I didn't find his efforts cute. He sounded so happy, like if I stayed around him too much, he'd rub off on me. The pancakes he made, made their way into my nose, but my head was feeling a bit woozy, I was in fact trying to catch my balance. I didn't know that was enough to piss him off. I looked from the window opposite his bed, I could not see him. Meaning he didn't go so far. The pancakes were making me extra hungry, but I felt nasty, and weak. I stripped, half hoping Chase came in at that exact time. I took my time, taking my clothes off one after the other. I tarried a bit, waiting in sexy poses. I pinched myself. I was beginning to get too delusional, even for myself. I walked into the bathroom majestically. The blood flow had reduced, and for that I was grateful. Taking my time, I lathered my body carefully with a body scrub I'd just gotten. I felt fresh, diffe
Chase's POV. I was still very much haunted from how I reacted when Emma told me about it. Every time I saw her wear a painful look on her face I remembered how it mirrored the look she wore when she told me. The sleep at night was somewhat chaotic. She had a bout of nightmares. I was scared to my bones when I heard her scream the first time, but it was rather a relief when I saw she was still asleep. It happened three times more, and every single time, I got less scared than I was before. “How are you?” I asked. I'd been staring at her for over an hour, when the day was still a bit dark. “Better.” She replied, turning from me and facing the wall. I thought today was gonna be different. Maybe she'd be warmer, calmer, more composed. I had the most beautiful smile on, ready to make her world different from what it used to be. “I loved watching you sleep.” I said, like I'd done every morning since we'd been together. Emma's smile was a bit shy, or cold, frosty, I didn't w
Emma's POVHow the call ended was a bit strange. I didn't know why my mom had to cut it off. As much as I wanted to dash to Mark's, I wasn't feeling up to it and I had started to feel gnawing pains in my belly. I concluded my mom was gonna be alright and left it at that. When I called her, I wasn't expecting to hear her say those things she said, but they sure were what I needed to hear, in retrospection. Maybe it was better after all. My raw maternal instincts were mourning the baby, but a baby wasn't really what I needed. And she was right about the other part too. Chase and I were going to college in less than a month. She said two letters came from different schools for him, it was a lot more than a punch in my gut that he applied to two schools, none of which I applied to. I thought the plan was to be together. Apparently, I didn't mean so much to him. As I held my head in my hand, I cried to the God I don't know if I believed in. I'd been cheated so badly in my ver
Emma's POV I changed out of my already stained towels. Chase just got them from a fancy women's store, online, about two days ago. I felt bad that it had to get ruined, but it was all part of my healing. The doctor said I was gonna be bleeding for about four days. After bawling my eyes out again on Chase's shoulders, I logged my tired body back into the bathroom to wash up. I was weak as fuck, and definitely worse of emotionally. I put a sanitary pad on and then went to bedI didn't think it was gonna be easy sleeping, so it was not a surprise when all that closing my eyelids did was usher in the horrible memories. I began to think of something I thought I'd cast to the back of my mind a long time ago. Every now and then, I felt Chase's hand on my body. It was hard to tell him that the hands I once died for, the hands I once fantasized about being wrapped in had started to irritate me. The day went by slowly, I subconsciously looked at the digital clock on the dressing ta
Chase's POV “Baby,” I called out to Emma as soon as we got back home, “I hate seeing you this way.” My voice snapped her out of her thoughts, she breathed deep and came out of the car, leaving both her phone and purse behind. “I'm really tired, Chase.” She said, “I just want to rest.” “That's totally fine.” I took all our stuff out of the car and ran after her. Let me help you.” She looked and felt weak. “Thank you.” She said, as I helped her up the stairs. “Can I get you something to eat?” I asked “I don't feel up to it right now.” She replied. “Can I just try?” I asked her. “Don't bother.” She snipped. “Do you need something else?” I asked her. “Just stay next to me.” She said, It felt like an honor to be told such by her. “Let me jump out of these clothes.” I tore the clothes, a reminder of where we'd been and what'd happened. “Pull me closer.” She cried. I pulled Emma so close. Her body felt heavier, and was even warming up. “I'm sorry, Emma.
Emma's POV “Would you have me read the results with him present?” The doctor asked me. “Yeah, he's my boyfriend.” I said, smiling. I rubbed Chase's face, pulling his beards with one hand, and rubbing my belly with the other. “You might want to sit up.” He said. “We are happy you came in for a check up today.” The kind old man said. I smiled. It was a big hospital downtown, fancy and very modern too. I felt more at peace with Chase by my side. “Emma Watson,” He wore the glasses which hung down from his neck and read my name out from a file in his hand, “I'm afraid, but we couldn't find a heartbeat.” I knew nothing about stuff like those. I'd never been or lived with a pregnant woman. I remember the look on their faces while the nurse kept tapping my belly and scanning round, but I didn't think it was a big deal. “What does that mean?” I heard Chase ask as my heart was already shattering, it could only mean one thing. My baby was dead. “Your baby is dead.” The doc
Chase's POVI knew I was kinda weird, maybe a bit confused. But I had genuine reason to believe Emma was doing too much. The food arrived soon, and we went to get it at the door. We were cool just a moment ago. I hate how we weren't yet at the point where we handle our shit maturely. “I'll get that.” I said, reaching for the bigger and heavier boxes. It was only instinctive to be more protective of her. She was carrying my baby. Whether or not we were ready for it. “Emma.” I called her quietly since we weren't both far from the rest’ earshot. “Yeah.” She turned, I saw the tear marks on her face. I was gonna say how I was sorry for blanking out on her, but the words just couldn't get out. “I'm…” I started, looking in multiple directions at once. “It’s okay.” Emma said, and walked in. I took a minute to process what had just happened. “Where were you man?” Gray screamed in delight as I entered. “Been looking in that direction for the past minute.” He added. I kn