The week seems to pass slowly. I feel like an eternity has already unfolded before my eyes, but it's only been a few days since this hell began.My clumsy hands searched for the pack of cigarettes, and I remember of trying it for the first time when I entered high school, when my mother spent more time in the hospital than at home, before I even knew about my father's existence. From then on, I smoked in secret — one of the habits I gave up on for Eric, who said he hated the smell… Even though he didn't know that this tiny, seemingly insignificant weapon was constantly on my lips.The feeling of putting it back into my mouth after so many years is both exciting and frightening. But I light it and take it in deeply, leaning against the terrace railing.The nicotine brings relief to my frayed nerves and a sense of nostalgia that inflates my lungs. The smoke that I expel causes a slight burn to my eyes, yet it appears to carry the burden that has been placed upon my chest.The view from
… My angel, you're everything to me; the air I breathe, the reason my heart beats… And I don't know what will become of me if I spend one more instant away from you. I hope you can forgive me because I can't imagine my future without you. — Absolutely yours, Eric.Letting out a loud, rueful grunt, I crumple this damn card within my fingers…Hah, I can't believe he's doing this to me.How is Eric able to write such empty words, after everything he did to me…? After impregnating Laura!… Laura.My eyes follow Laura's desk, and I notice that her expression is furious like her trembling lips. I can see the flames of hatred burning in her eyes that always seemed so innocent.I take a deep breath, turning my eyes to the delicate flowers, the white petals that smell so sweet, but cause me nothing but a screaming anxiety… an urge to run away, to simply disappear…Especially when everyone around me seems simply delighted with the attitude of my thoughtful boyfriend, without ever imagining the
I never considered myself a lonely person. Eric and Laura have always been there for me, as have Julian and my father. But this Friday, when I find myself without the people who, for years, have been my pillars, I feel loneliness creeping up on me like a shadow, enveloping me in a cold embrace. Even my apartment feels empty and cold without Daddy's radiant presence, who's traveling for work and isn't expected back yet.But I did consider knocking on Julian's door and asking him to stay with me today, but this is a day when he usually meets with his flings. We're only a few steps apart, and the desire to see him is just shouting inside my head. However, since he brought me home after our brief kiss, an uneasy silence has settled between us. I could see regret shining in his eyes, along with uncertainty. And this inexplicably hurt me. I take a deep breath, staring at my room that has too many memories in objects, with picture frames on the bedside table. Pictures with Laura, Eric, and
My body is on fire.Our lips only part for a breath to fill my lungs, but soon our mouths are together again and our tongues intertwine in a slow, enveloping pace… with an intensity that I never imagined be possible.Julian's hands are exploring every inch of my skin, but it doesn't seem like that's enough because he's constantly trying to find out more about the parts of my body. And I want to get rid of all these clothes as soon as possible. I want him to get rid of his as well — which is why my nervous fingers search for the buttons of his shirt, without breaking the kiss.I unbutton the first ones, allowing his cologne to get even stronger. And I can't help but caress his collarbones, which are bulging from the workout. I bite his lip, tugging slightly as my fingers search for the next buttons.Julian grunts against my lips and moves them apart, sliding his mouth down my chin and even lower, to kiss my neck. I inflate my lungs again and tilt my head back, allowing him to leave a w
I opened my heavy eyes, taking a few moments to get my brain to work. I blinked a few times, noticing that I was in my empty room — and the bed was equally empty. Even though the memories of my moment with Julian were still fresh in my mind, and I could still smell his cologne impregnated into my skin, Julian was not beside me. And if it weren't for the traces he left on me, I would say that it was all a dream. An extremely sexy dream. Hah… I really did… I had an orgasm with Julian underneath me. It wasn't exactly sex, but it was more than anything I've ever done. I touched him too… and I never imagined there could be something… so big. Although I have never touched Eric's, I have a brief sense of it… and it doesn't come close to being that big. Besides, it was intimate and really exciting, unlike doing it alone. Maybe it was even better because of Julian's appearance and touch, which seemed to bring electricity to my body… And the way he got rough… Argh!Once again, Julian lodges h
The return drive to our building was considerably quiet. The streets of New York City were busy, and the traffic was crazy, so it took us a little longer than expected. Sometimes, when we stopped at traffic lights, Julian would look at me until the red light turned green. I know this because, even though I kept my eyes locked on the people walking on the sidewalk, I could feel his gaze on my skin, warming me as if I were under the sun.When we reached the parking area of the building, I noticed how Julian's hands held the steering wheel with firmness, veins running down his skin, and how he sometimes relies on just one hand to push the car into its spot.As the car finally stops, Julian reaches out to grab the bags before I can do so, and I'm amazed at how easily he picks them up; his hands are so big they don't seem that many. At my obvious expression of surprise, he gives me a subtle smile that brings even more butterflies to my belly.I quickly get out of the car, allowing a breath
Julian's breathing becomes heavy, and I hear him grunt deep in his throat. He's pressing my body closer to his, and takes my lips again, leaving me breathless during the intense kiss that, without even noticing, causes me to sit up in bed and arch my body. My back sinks into the mattress and Julian stands over me, one arm resting just beside my head.His other hand explores my leg, moving up my thighs as he licks my lips with his tongue. With a husky voice, he adds, “Do you want me to fuck you that badly?”I nod frantically, feeling my heart pulsing so fast it feels like it's in my throat. Julian's low chuckle is delicious and sends chills to my entire body.“Then say it.” He commands with his lips against my neck, and his voice reverberates through my sensitive skin.“I want it…”“You want what?” Julian laughs deep, and that makes my body shiver again and flinch. However, Julian's hands held me tightly, keeping me fitted between his legs and under his big body. “Say it in all the rig
An intense shiver runs through my body the moment Julian bites the inside of my thigh, withdrawing his thumb completely from my wetness, leaving me with a feeling of emptiness that makes a disappointed grunt escape from deep in my throat.Julian's husky laugh makes me bite my lip hard. “Is it good, Angel?” He murmurs against my skin; I can even feel his husky words reverberating through me.I nod desperately, longing to feel him again, and to my delight, I feel the tip of a finger slide down my clit, wetting itself at my entrance, moving up and down all over my pussy, as if this torture is fun.And it probably is because the wicked smile doesn't leave Julian's lips.“I'm going to put a finger…” He murmurs again, and just as he said it, I feel the twinge of the finger enter me slowly, bringing a sharp pain that makes me try to close my legs. But Julian's other hand pushes my knee, making me open my leg. “If you can't take one finger, you won't be able to ride my cock.”I let out a gru