We return to the base in time to go to my honorary dinner. Which is terrible.No—it’s actually very nice. Extremely thoughtful. It’s just awkward to be thrust into a position you know nothing about and to have to tell them you don’t intend to stay. At least not for now. If I can get my words together, I hope to be able to make them understand.When Alex and I enter the Meeting Hall, everyone is there. Tables have been set up with food, and my stomach growls at the thought of getting to slaughter some meat. Literally.Yeah, it’s weird for me.Everyone stops and looks at us. I smile, cordially, though I’m sure my face is red.Lenor comes to my rescue. She rushes over to me, takes my hand, and leads me to the other end of the table.I know from the last pack dinner I attended that the opposite end is where the leaders sit: the Alpha and his family.I see Rita on that end, along with two empty chairs.What I don’t see is an Alpha because there isn’t one. I’m afraid I know where they’re go
With no need to fear future attacks, we are set to leave the next morning. I meet with the Elders first so we could work out the details of my absence. Charles is also there, and there is a very informal “changing of the guard,” so to speak. He already knows his duties, so anything they explain to him is merely formality.For the first time, I feel a part of them. I may not know hardly anyone in the Malkeye pack, but I know this handful of Council members and they treat me like an equal. It makes me feel so included.And so grown up. Will my mother even recognize me? Of course she will, but will she notice any changes in me? I hope so…and for the better.The Elders and Charles also see us off. I feel like Charles and I have a connection, especially since he’s the first one to recognize me for who I am. I should be able to trust him while I’m gone.Rita and Alex wait until we’re out of town to shift.“I know it may take you a while to figure it out, and I didn’t want you to have to fig
That afternoon, I prepare to make my transition home.I talk to my mom and tell her I will be back within the week. I can hear the relief in her voice and it makes me yearn to see her. To be honest, I appreciate her even more now that I know she chose to keep me and love me as her own, though I’m disappointed she never told me the truth.I also text Hailey to tell her that camp is almost over. When I first left, I told her I didn’t know how many weeks I would stay to allow some leniency and to keep her from getting suspicious. She’s excited to catch up, and I promise to call her when I get back.That evening, we return to see Michael, who is looking substantially better. He’s sitting up and some color has returned to his face. He also already has a visitor. Sitting on the side of his bed—holding his hand—is Rita.Then it hits me. She didn’t want Alex because she’s already in love…with his brother. I can tell, because the look in her eyes is the same one I see in the mirror.Alex, my s
Alex talks to Michael for hours, leaving me to guess what is happening and eventually causing Rita and me to fear if something has gone wrong.Eventually, Alex returns to his parents’ house. I’m sitting at the table with his parents and with Rita, barely touching the plate of food in front of me. In fact, Mr. Hewlett is the only one who seems to have an appetite.Tala rises as Alex approaches. “Let me make you a plate,” she says before turning to walk away.“Don’t,” Alex says, causing her to stop in her tracks.She approaches him and places a hand on his shoulder, searching his face. “You need to eat something.”“I don’t have an appetite. I just need some time alone.”She lowers her hand and locks her fingers together, resolved to . “Of course. I’ll have something in the refrigerator for you when you’re ready.”I want to follow him to his room, but I don’t know if that would be appropriate, and he doesn’t ask for me. He simply walks away, followed by the sound of a door shutting. The
I spend the next few days at the Ayzena camp watching and learning, soaking it all in. Tala is very good about ingratiating me with the knowledge of everyday life in the pack, the roles that different members take on, and what is expected of a Luna.Each pack member has a role within the camp, similar to that in a human community. There are farmer werewolves—which is a crazy thought to me—who raise more than vegetables; in fact, other than a few staple staples, they spend most of their resources raising livestock like cattle, pigs, and chicken.“One thing that makes us different from humans is that we need almost twice as much protein in our daily diet,” she tells me. “We don’t get all of it from meat, of course. We actually eat a lot of eggs.”“Do you drink milk? A lot of humans do…for the protein.”Tala laughs. “No, dear. Drinking the milk of another animal is disgusting. No offense, but we’ve never understood why humans do that. Once our young wean from our milk, it is omitted from
Once I decide to hold a meeting—my “Unification Council”—with both packs to discuss the future, I clear the idea with Michael. It takes a little explaining, not necessarily because of prior distrust between the packs, but because packs are private.“Traditionally, when members of different packs mate, one member leaves their pack to join the other,” Michael explains. “They may see other members of their family, but they are no longer members of their family’s pack.”Rita, who hasn’t left Michael’s side since his meeting with Alex, knows where I’m going with my request. “They won’t be able to do that,” she observes.I explain to Michael that this is exactly what our packs can’t expect if Alex is going to inherit the Ayzena pack and I am the only remaining descendant of the Malkeye’s Alpha. “We will have to find a way to lead them both—together.”He immediately understands the issue and the need to get both packs on board. I discuss with him and Rita what Alex and I have in mind, Michae
With so much resolved, my time to leave finally arrives the following morning. I have to say, I’m sad to go. I feel like I’ve found a place here…and with the Malkeye pack. I never thought my life would turn out like this, but I’m grateful for the turn of events.Alex decides to escort me back, so the most difficult goodbyes are with Michael and Rita. I feel like I’ve come to understand Rita and hope our connection can last the distance until I return. But I know I may never see Michael again.I hug Rita, who holds on a little longer and a little tighter than I expected. “You know where to find me,” she says with a smile, but I know that I may not see her for a long time.I turn to Michael, unsure of what to say. “I am so glad my brother found his future with you,” Michael says as he embraces me. “You are a strong female and I pray to the Great One that your union is blessed,” he adds after a light squeeze.I try really hard not to cry, but this moment feels so final.If Michael passes
The ring of the doorbell startles me, rattling my nerves even though I’m the one who rang it. The chime doesn’t make it through two rounds before the door is open and Mom is gaping at us from inside.We stare at each other for a few seconds before either one of us moves, while Alex waits awkwardly behind me. I can smell fresh-baked cookies and cinnamon.Finally, Mom rushes through the door and wraps her arms around me. “Oh my god!”Her body begins shaking with sobs, and I can’t help but start crying. We stand there, holding each other and crying, for what feels like several minutes.When we finally break apart, Mom grabs my hand and pulls me in, using her other hand to wipe her face.Alex stands on the doorstep, not sure what to do. “No—come in Alex, please,” Mom says, ushering him in.Once she closes the door, Mom looks us over with a curious eye. “You two look…good.”She takes my hands again and grips them in hers. “You look…older.”She noticed! My mom doesn’t disappoint. “I mean, I