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"What was that? You just kissed me? Do you trust me now?" He asked me frowning after he apologized and I laughed with him about the naive look he gave me. When I just started to go and sink im my thought too deeply sessions.
Once again.
Why?Why do I always feel like forgiving this man despite everything he does to me? This is not normal! I am sure if it. Then why? I end up in his embrace after having every fight.
The way he just shared his pain with me, that I always assumed that he would never say out loud because I am not close enough for him to share anything with me. I ended up craving down, but that doesn't change the fact of what I feel about him? Or how much he is using me for my assets. "I didn't kiss you because I wanted to get back with you. Or wanted to trust you now on. Don't read it wrong mister." I shake my head trying to be clear with him. Explaining him.&nbROSEANNA "I'm ready? Then! Bring it on." I said and laughed, as I took the ball and started thumping in down on the ground. Walking back, while I kept it on going. "You are not?" He asked when I just shrugged. "I don't know!" I said and started to run to have my turn of victory. But he came up and took it from my hand. Already. "You see? I'm not a losser either! I don't fall back on some sexy legs," He said, as his heavy breath said something else. "Sure, it does." I said and the distraction did really got him. As I got the hold back of the balls. And I started to run away. He following me close. He caught me by my waist as he tried to take the balls away from me. "This is wekng! This is cheating. And I don't want go play with you." I cried but he looked the other way. "Ahh! Or maybe you already loose?" He asked me frowning at me. "Umm! Me! And loose? From a looser like you! I'm not that stupid!" I said as I picked the ball back from his hand and starte
ROSEANNA "Nothing new that you are telling me but I thought you wanted to change and bring change that you want things and yourself to be different then everything right?" I asked frowning at him. He looking down. "What? " I asked him confused more on his silence. Not even took him a day to change his mind from changing to coming back being a jerk. Well, if doesn't astound me that much. This much? I assumed already. "And yes! I do believe that all your sweet talks are just for getting under pants. But yet! I didn't bring it up. I didn't say or acted any indifferent to you. I guess. That's a sign. That if I am staying quite you should try to change my opinion. I am giving you change. You need to take it. Or maybe you have just come up to get used to the fact that I am not ever going to be yours? And have already lost in yourself? "I asked him again. He just turning in a silent statue. As he looked at the other side. And come back this time directly in my eyes.
ROSEANNA "What do you wanna say? " I asked him as he raised his eyes at me. And I waited for him to reply back to me. When he just halted for a moment. And didn't say or do anything. He just sat there. I am just so curious and sad on what he was going to say next? And that what was in his head actually going on. I just patiently waited for his reply to me. And I just sat there silently. Why did this long pause? What he wanted to say? And what is he planning on saying? I was just there. Is he going to confess that something that I believe is true and he insists isn't. Going to come up? Is somethiny scary will be the truth and reality. I didn't realise this earlier but now I don't want him to be culprit if anything bad and wrong. I don't want him to be at fault for anything anymore. I just feel like shattering all over again if he will say that he married me in order for my inheritance. Since he wasn't going to get one. He looked up at
ROSEANNA He was frustrated as he left me alone. And just walked out, he can't take it. I speaking up, must have hurt his nerves after all having me udner fist was the speciality of this guy. Seeing me out of his den, he is nothing more then helpless. But why is he even here? Its not like that he is any better and would change in a nice guy over night. Why does he even cares? If I am dying in the hospital? For coming here in a phone call?I kept wondering to myself as I sat back on the bed. Where is Kashton? Why isn't he here? And most importantly what was he going to say to me? Before I fell down unconscious? Why was he apologising to badly and too much? Why was he crying? What did he do so bad? I was poisoned. That - does that means? No! I am thinking to far. He is a jerk and surely will do anything in the world but he won't poison me? Right? What would he even get from killing me dead? Though if he isn'
ROSEANNA I just kept wondering to myself when then aunt shelly stood up and looked at me. "Please forgive me angel!" She said as Lia and Rick walked towards me, "I am sorry that even after knew everything I was acting like a bitch and never told it to you." She cried too. When I didn't even know that do they deserve my forgive Ness? That are they even worth any thing? I just sat back in my place instead if doing or acting out anything. Honestly I was just very stupid and idiot that things happened around me. And I had no idea. People closest to me were biggest perpetrator and I was just a nonsense person. I just sat there wondering how big of a joke I must be. How much they have laughed when they heard me. How much they have enjoyed there time of life when when they played with my heart and head. I just chuckled inside. As Rick came to hug me. What is he? A weapon? A weapon you all used to make me do things as per there accords?
ROSEANNA I was alone and left with many questions, with answers that were all assumptions with little hint if reality and truth. And I didn't like how things are going. I hate being like this, struggling like this. I wanted and awaited better and more. And being miserable like this is just so much bad. And hurts me alot. Why? Why can't my life just be a little more better then what I am living like? I want to die. Living has made me so sick that all I care about is being dead. How peaceful it will be lying in the coffin all alone and eyes closed? No worries? No questions and no expectations to be dissappointed at? It will be the real peace. I wonder sometimes. What my life would have been if that day, the house hadn't burned down? And mom and dad didn't ended up the way they ended up? What if, mom was still alive. Or mom was not mistress of my father. And I was equal and living like a normal girl?What if dad had supported me, and be by my side from th
ROSEANNA"The person who poisoned you was Noah . Kashton 's Brother . Because he was scared. Scared as a little dog. Because you are richer than the entire Raven Empire owns. You have the money enough that even if you eat on money three times a day and throw it away everytime. You will still have left after death. " His words confused me. And I didn't know what to hear and what to reply what to trust on and what to not. I didn't wanted to trust him. For anything, but now what he was saying. I feel the picture have twisted and I am going to see the back side which I never really saw. And I am getting weird thoughts on this here.. "What does that means?" I asked him over confusion. He smiling at me. "See, at the end if day, it's me by your side telling you the truth and realty of everything." He told me, while I got itky annoyed. "Please! Vellore. Don't lure your forgiveness in this. You ain't getting any." I told him he nodding. "I know, a
ROSEANNA I heard the whole thing he told me starting to clear things in front of my eyes while I felt like shattering on the ground right now. All the whole I always thought what more worst can happen to me then what already have been with me for all this years. But I didn't see this coming that I had the whole story yet to know to be aware that the world can be cruelest then what I have imagined. And this is the worst. I wonder only one thing is this all. What was my mistake? What did I do so wrong? That things turned out to be like this? What fault did I make in my previous life or my childhood for karma, fate? Destiny to be kicking me on my face like this. What did I do so wrong! I wanted to yell out loud but I hold back on myself and just stayed back sitting down on my bed. While I looked at the floor. This was the least I could managed to do to save my face. I just closed my eyes. And hide my face in my palms because I didn't kn
CHAPTER 100 - EPILOGUE 2 HOURS EARLIER ~ROSEANNADo you believe in fate? i don't. Though once I had strong believe in one and I always though that everything that happened to me so far is because of the fucking fate, but no. There is no thing as fate. Fate is fake. Destiny is fake. Nothing just happens because the earth revolves and causes it to happen. Things happen for two reasons. And neither of them is fate. The first reason is because of your deeds. You pay for what you have sow. It's what it is called Karma. And second reason is the good awaiting you. Future. Sometimes no matter what you do. And what you give up. Your deeds and what you deserve never disappears and when needed Karma will aways show up to fuck up your life. The things that happened to me. i won't define them or name them as my fate. Fate is so small to describe what I went through. Neither I will accept them just because th
CHAPTER 99.ROSEANNA I read the notes as I couldn't helo but sit down on the ground and cry my heart out. Thinking about all the things I possibly can gather in my head. I lost it all. Now it's all gone. I have disrupted everything while being selfish, I deserved to die. I want to die. I told myself as I hastily stood up. But Eithan caught me, "Where do you think you are going? You can't go anywhere do you hear me? You can't..." He said it to me. "I know, I am going now where. I am coming to you."I told him as I took his hand and kept it on my neck." Please kill me. Please choke me and kill me right here. Eithan. Please,"I begged him. Shnr he frowned at me thinking what the hell was I doing? I begged him to reply and cried to him. To kill me falling down on the ground back on again whole crying. But he didn't move. " Why acting now? Isn't this what you wanted? You wanted to kill him! That's why you acted all clue less you made him dead. Roseanna, r
ROSEANNA He dragged me out as he shoved me over. "Don't you we ethe media pouring up there? Don't you know what reputation you own now? Don't you know how to act in front of media? Crying and begging for someone's life. The controversies and problem it will pour down together. You have no idea. What and how things will turn out! "He kept yelling me over the media people and personality which I didn't give a shit about. I jerked his hands away from me, and looked at him. " What did you say? Media? Personality? Controversies? Are you stupid? " I asked him," "There is someone who is dying in there. Some one I really care about and I want to be by the side of and here you are telling me to take care of media? I asked him. He laughing."Let him die. He deserves nothing more then death. Do you hear me? You have forgiven you and yet let me tell you that he doesn't deserve that forgiveness." He warned me. As I laughed. "Fine, I hear you. I hear all the shit you
CHAPTER 97.ROSEANNA I couldn't believe on what I just saw in front of right now. While I felt shattered in zillion peaces. How can this happen to me? Why did my life turn out to be this way? In front of my eyes. Right before me, I saw Kashton. Being driven by a truck all over him. There, he there from me ten meters away from me but I can't move from the shock and mental frozen state I am in right now. I couldn't move at all. My body was plastered, as if I was paralysed. I kept thinking again and again. The same scene I saw earlier. What was that? Why did that happen? What does that mean? I kept asking myself. Because I didn't wanted to heae what my head wanted to say. I don't want to be aware of any thing that could have happened. No! No Rose! He must be okay. You are not that weak, you can do this. Please, I begged my legs to fit love but they were just so stiff from the shock that I couldn't move no matter what I tried I kept pressuring myself t
ROSEANNAI felt very bad when I watched him walking away from here. Right now I felt guilty for so many things for talking like that to grandpa or the way Eithan said that I made a huge mistake. The way things led place when I was angry I was feeling guilty for everything. And felt like I betrayed grandpa even though he was the only nicest person in my life. I was sitting on the couch, and thinking about the day when I saw Eithan walking out from the door of his lounge room and passing by, ignoring me. "Are you really going yo act like that with me?" I asked him, being kind of sad, when he just stopped. "Why your all time favorite Kashton. Isn't here? To keep you entertained?" He asked me hysterically. When I was kind of dumbfounded. And step back. "Hey, why? He is already dying. Must you really?" I frowned. And exhaled as if I was frustrated out from them."Yes, he is dying. But we don't like him. And especially I.I hate him so much. That
CHAPTER 95ROSEANNAThe things he was talking about was hurting me too much while I couldn't hold back on all my tears this was hurting me so bad. I don't know why? I keep telling myself that no I don't like him. I keep telling myself that I have no feelings for him. When I keep reminding me all he have done to me. When I keep making me realise that this might all be a lie and he is dying so he have planned to kill me before he actually dies. Everything is possibility. I keep telling my heart all the thing but the fact that soon enough he will be dead if I don't find the right match for him? I am dreaded. I am scared and I want this all just to break. Like he said. As if this all was just dream. As if any between us two was dreaming this day. And that we all are just in one deep sleep. Why can't? It be like that? Why everything have to be true? I am sure I won't go back loving him ever again, but I can't hate him anymore again either. He is dying. What bi
CHAPTER 94. ROSEANNA i heard grandpa struggled to say it out loud, when i got little scared due to the rage he was getting in. i calming him down. While i tried to sooth my hands on his forearm." Grandpa, please don't get angry you just woke up. You need to rest down. Please," i begged him. Trying to calm him down. He still so enraged that he was trying to stand up and try to fight me and yet i couldn't do it to talk with him like this when he is so angry. "Roseanna fuck him off away!" And looking at grandpa enraging like this Eithan got very angry as he yelled at me and helped lying grandpa down. And soothe his anger, trying to calm his BP down. i kept swaying my hand back and forth, asking him to rest down. But he would through my hands away from him. While Eithan asked me to leave as well. i felt sad when everyone were trying to throw me off from the room. But giving the condition of grandpa i don't really took it on heart and started to leave,
CHAPTER 93.ROSEANNADid I hear it right wasn't it just a mistake? What I heard. Was it? Did he really say, Heart cancer? "I have heart Cancer Rose. I am dying. I am dying every single day. One more bit. " He continued while I was just to astounded to turn or speak to him about what I hear. Heart cancer? "Are you listening to me?" He asked me, my head up to look at straight. And not turn, while I heard him. "A month ago I found out I have heart cancer. I couldn't do anything. And that I was dying in less then two months. I didn't know how to react. But I guess deserved it." He started to talk bulshit between all. "Didn't you see my email? I send you, my reports. I'm not lying. And just 35 days." He again began talking about the same thing. While for me, I was too shunned to react or act anything. I just sticked to my place and didn't reacted anything. But was just silently listening to thingMy head up high when I looked at Eithan,
CHAPTER 92. OVER THE TOP. ROSEANNA I warned them, and started to walk out and went towards my room back again while I sat down. And remembered the paper I have read in the car for years ago. And yet I haven't even found the person. Or who wrote it. No one took any kind of weird actions my way. I don't understand why someone wrote me something like that? And if someone actually wanted me dead, why didn't the person took action. I kept questioning the person's intention that time, while I walked everyone over the top in the room. Thinking deeply.But as I called out for Eithan, he walked inside, "Hey, you asked for me-?" He came after an hour of when I actually called him. As he walked in, "I saw your guy out there, what is he doing there?" He asked me, the question I wanted to ask him. "You said he was kidnapped. What is he doing out? Well roaming around? His family will caught him and won't even give a shit about him. Before they decided on killing him."