The cobbled streets were lit with the occasional lamp post but even so, Ava felt the menacing shadows of the night creeping towards her with every step she took. She shone the narrow beam of the torch Teresa had given her around, but so far, she had found nothing but the occasional cigarette butt or gum wrapper.
It made her think of her father, how he as the town mayor, had orchestrated a campaign to clean up the ancient streets of Bartovia, even though his own home had contained the filthiest of all secrets.
Ava gave a little shudder and forced the memories back and continued on her mission, her head down, her steps carefully measured as she went as close to the palace as she dared.
She was no more than three blocks away when she suddenly came up short, her heart thudding in fear as a pair of large male sports shoes were illuminated by her torch. Ava brought the beam shakily upwards to find Prince Federico Alberto Enrico, dressed similarly to her in a dark tracksuit, his eyes unreadable as they meshed with hers.
“Looking for something, Ava Marie?” he asked.
Ava had never imagined there would be a time in her life when she would have rather met a mugger on a dark street than the man she had once loved with all her being. She had faced fear before, many times, gut-wrenching fear that most people thankfully never had to face. But this was something else again.
He had the power to destroy her in a way even her father hadn’t been able to do. Everything Ava had fought so long and hard for seemed to be hinged on these next few moments.
The tension built in her spine… she could feel it moving up vertebra by vertebra, a vice-like grip that made her stomach crawl with the long spidery legs of apprehension.
“Oh… I… I seem to have lost my bracelet,” Ava said, lowering the torch. “I thought if I retraced my steps, I might find it.”
“You left without saying goodbye,” he said. “I was hoping for a few more minutes with you in private. There are some things I would like to discuss with you.”
Ava turned off the torch with her thumb in case the soft light showed the fear on her face.
“As you said, it’s not a good idea for us to be seen anywhere together, Your Serene Highness,” she replied. “You know what the paparazzi are like. You are about to be crowned as Bartovia’s King. It wouldn’t do your reputation any favors being seen talking with an ex-prisoner.”
“There is no paparazzi here… now,” Federico insisted. “I think we should go back to your place. We wouldn’t be disturbed there, I’m pretty sure.”
Ava was glad he couldn’t see the way her eyes suddenly flared in panic. Christian wasn’t the deepest of sleepers. He still occasionally wet the bed, which made him wake up distressed and call out for her.
“No,” she said, far too quickly. “I mean… It’s awkward… I… I have a flatmate.”
“A… man?”
“No.”
“There isn’t a lover in your life?”
She felt the fine hairs on the back of her neck start to prickle at the seemingly casually asked question. Unless she turned the torch back on, Ava had no way of reading his expression, and even then, there was no guarantee she would be able to decipher what motive lay behind his query.
Federico was a master of disguising his feelings if indeed he had any. Ava had often wondered if his coldness and slight air of arrogance were a guise or an innate part of his personality. She had never quite made up her mind either way.
He had been trained from a young age to step up to the throne upon the death of his father, which had occurred only a few months ago. That he was prepared to risk being seen with her was as surprising as it was deeply disturbing.
Ava knew she was at risk of revealing too much. She could feel it now even under the cloak of darkness. The pulse of her blood was like thunder in her veins, her breasts felt tight and sensitive, and that secret feminine place he had possessed so many times, throbbed with a hollow ache that was almost painful.
“I’ve been seeing someone,” Ava lied, hoping it would put an end to the undercurrent of attraction she could feel coming towards her.
“The same person you were seeing when you ended our affair?” Federico asked with bitterness sharpening his tone.
“No… It’s someone else.”
Oh, how easily the second lie followed the first, she thought.
“How serious is your relationship with this man?” he asked again.
“Serious enough.”
“Serious enough to risk your freedom?”
Ava dropped the torch, but even as she heard it clatter its way over the cobblestones, she was unable to move.
“W-what are you suggesting?” she asked in a dry croak.
He bent down and retrieved the torch and, flicking it on, shone it on her face.
“How about we go back to my private quarters and discuss it?” Federico suggested.
Ava blinked against the probe of the torch’s beam.
“I’m not sure there is anything we have to discuss, Your Serene Highness,” she said, “or at least, nothing of interest to me.”
“On the contrary, I think it will be of the greatest interest to you,” he went on and turned off the torch with a click that sounded portentous in the still night air. “You see, Ava Marie, I have something that belongs to you...”
‘Yes, well, so do I,’ Ava thought wryly, once again glad of the mantle of darkness so he couldn’t read the apprehension on her face.
“You have my bracelet?” she asked hopefully. “Can I have it back, please?”
“No, since it’s at the palace.”
She wondered if he was telling the truth, but she could hardly ask to search him. She gnawed at her lip for a moment.
“Maybe you could have someone send it to me…” Ava suggested.
“Not unless you want to take the risk of it being mislaid or perhaps even stolen,” Federico replied. “I would prefer to hand it over to you face to face. It looks rather valuable.”
“It is… Very,” Ava said, her heart sinking as she realized she would have no choice but to accompany him back to the palace.
They had met in secret so many times in the past… Just the thought of doing so again conjured up so many intimate images. Ava wondered if Federico was revisiting any of them in his own mind.
“Come.”
He placed a firm hand at her elbow.
“There is a back entrance to the palace a couple of blocks from here.”
Reluctantly, Ava fell into step beside him, her flesh burning under the touch of his hand. They walked in silence. Ava because she didn’t know what to say and Federico, she assumed, because he was waiting until he had her somewhere secluded to discuss whatever he had planned for her.
Because there was a plan… she was in no doubt. Proud men like Federico di Altavilla e Portanova didn’t take rejection well, and her rejection of him had been particularly cruel.
Federico led her through a wrought-iron gate where an aide was waiting. They talked briefly before the man led the way to a suite of rooms down a long, marbled corridor.
The walls were lined with generations of the Royal family… all their eyes seemed to be following Ava as she walked soundlessly by Federico’s side. The aide opened a door leading into a private lounge. The furniture was modern and, although the palace was centuries old, somehow the mix of old and new worked brilliantly.
“So, Ava Marie,” Federico said once the aide had closed the door on his exit, “this is like old times, is it not?”
Ava searched his features for a moment but couldn’t read his inscrutable expression.
“I’m not sure what you mean…” she hedged, although her mind had already taken a wild guess.
He reached out and lifted her chin with the blunt end of one of his long fingers. She felt a shiver of reaction cascade like a shower of exploding fireworks down her spine at that jolt of skin-to-skin electricity passing from his body to hers.
It had always been this way between them. The air in the room was charged with the electric tension of sexual attraction. She could see it in the dark, brooding intensity of his gaze. She could sense it in the sensual curve of his mouth and, God help her, she could feel it in the core of her body, where her intimate muscles were already starting to ache.
“You and I always met in secret, did we not?” he said, looking down at her mouth for a pulsing moment. “I see no reason to change that now.”
Ava stepped back out of his light but eminently disturbing hold, her legs almost tripping over themselves in her haste to put some distance between her body and his.
“Are you suggesting we resume our… illicit affair?” she asked in a brittle keep-away-from-me tone.
He gave a little shrug.
“We were good together, piccola, (Ita for ‘baby’)” Federico answered, using a term of endearment he had chosen for her all those years ago. “Andiamo… (‘Come on’) You know we were.”
Ava wanted to cover her ears and block out the sensual lure of his deep velvet-toned voice. God, did he have any idea of how he still affected her? How could he possibly think she had forgotten how good they had been together?
The moment she had set eyes on him again it had been as if the faint background pulse in her body she had done her best to ignore had suddenly come to fervent life again. It was thumping now beneath her skin, so strong and heavy, it made her feel dizzy.
She had been so strong for all this time. Now wasn’t the time to fall apart. Not now when she was so close to final freedom. She had just a matter of weeks to go until her parole period was finished.
Once that time was up, she would leave the Isle of Bartovia with her baby boy, making a new life for them both. This wasn’t the time to be drawn back into Federico’s sensual orbit, no matter how very tempting it was.
Ava pulled back her shoulders and sent him a glittering glare.
“You seem to be forgetting something, Your Serene Highness. We ended our association six years ago.”
“Spare me the ‘Your Serene Highness’ part. While orgasming, you used to call me Fede… And I didn’t end our relationship, Ava Marie, you did,” he said with an unmistakably embittered edge to his voice.
She lifted her chin even higher.
“So… Should I call you Federico, or would you prefer Your Serene Highness? Should I have bowed or curtsied when I ran into you on the street? How very remiss of me.”
Something moved at the side of his mouth as if her words had pulled on a tight string beneath the skin on his jaw.
“Federico will do perfectly,” he said through tight lips. “At least while you’re in my bedroom, lying in my bed… naked.”
This time it was Ava’s mouth that went tight. So, this was his game now? Not a chance! Not one chance in hell!“I don’t intend being back here or sleeping with you, Federico,” she said with a deliberately haughty look. “Please, give me back my bracelet. I need to get home this instant.” His eyes burned into hers.“Not so fast… You are forgetting yourself, Ava Marie,” Federico said. “This isn’t the way to speak to the future King of this country. I will dismiss you when I see fit, not the other way around. Did I make myself clear?”“And if I still choose to leave this room, what are you going to do about it, Your Serene Highness?” she asked, throwing him another mocking glare. “Lock me up in the palace tower and throw away the key? I’m sure I’ll get used to it rather
Christian’s little hand suddenly clutched at the front of Ava’s uniform, his eyes huge in his stricken face.“You’ll be back again, right, mummy?” Ava squatted down to his level and looked deep into his troubled gaze.“Of course, I will, sweet boy.” His expression was still white with worry.“You’re not g-going to p-prison like before, are you?” She suppressed a frown as she hugged him close. She had always tried to be as honest with him as possible without distressing him with details too difficult for him to understand, but she had never gone into the sordid details of why she had to go to prison. But it
Ava felt as if her eyes were going to pop out of her head and land on the carpeted floor at his feet. She looked at him in complete horror, her mouth opening and closing like a stranded fish, her heart going so hard and fast it felt as if it were going to come through the wall of her chest.“I-I’m not sure that can be arranged,” she stammered. He gave her a frowning look.“I can’t see why not. After all, I’m now the royal patron of the orphanage. It’s only fair that I give my support in ways other than financial.”“Y-yes, but showing a preference for one child over another isn’t… fair,” Ava said, relieved she could think of something reasonably plausible on the spot. “The child who sent you this drawing is one of many who long to be noticed. You would be doing more harm
‘Just breathe…’ she said to herself avoiding looking in Federico’s direction. ‘You can’t cry in front of him… or anyone else, for that matter. You can show any kind of weakness, or they’ll eat you alive.’ Ava composed herself with an effort and resumed her seat at the table as if nothing had happened. She picked up her glass of water and drank several mouthfuls, conscious of Federico looking at her with a frown beetling his eyebrows. She set her glass back down.“You said you had something to discuss with me over lunch about the orphanage,’ Ava reminded him coolly. She pointedly looked at her watch, making it clear she was on a strict timeline, and, more to the point, he wasn’t important enough to her to adjus
She dropped her gaze from his and closed her eyes. Awful memories from that night came down on her like a flock of eagles, ready to tear her apart. Ava didn’t want to keep remember those moments, but she also knew they would hunt her for life. She opened her eyes, ready to go once again over everything.“What happened is… Uh… We started to argue,” she answered in a flat emotionless tone. “I hardly remember what we argued about now… it all seems so muddled and foggy in my head. As usual, he was shouting at me, and I was shouting back at him. And then…” Again, Ava closed her eyes tight, mentally skipping over that distressing scene until she felt she had control again. She reopened her eyes and carried on as if discussing the weekend weather.“Suddenly he was lying at the foot of the staircase
The first brush-like stroke of his mouth on hers was cautious, even a little hesitant, a bit like a goose feather. It was so soft Ava wondered if she had imagined it. The second was firmer, with a hint of growing urgency, but the third tasted of desire hot and strong, rocking Ava straight to the core. She opened her mouth to the searching glide of his tongue, her insides turning to jelly when that deliciously erotic contact was made. The kiss became more urgent, more passionate, more out of control and Ava was swept away with it. It felt so wonderful to be held in his arms again, to have his hands at her waist, holding her trembling body against the heat and strength of his. Federico was hard and getting harder as every second passed, the hollow ache in her body echoing the pounding of his blood against her
Federico came across to where Ava was standing, and, taking her chin between his thumb and index finger, lifted her face to meet his gaze.“So, at this time, there is no man in your life,” he mused. “What other lies have you told me, hmm?” Ava felt her heart kicking erratically behind her chest wall. Her mouth dried up, her throat locked tight and her breathing came to a shuddering halt.“Just that one…” she replied, mentally calculating how many lies she had told him within the space of less than twenty-four hours.“I wonder what other little secrets you are keeping from me… from everybody,” Federico continued, still holding her gaze with the piercing scrutiny of his. “Like where you live, for instance.” She swal
‘You arrogant prick!’ Ava thought and clenched her hands by her sides, her fingertips digging into her palms almost painfully.“You can do or say whatever you want, but I’m not going to be another name on your list of whores,” she hissed with a last stand of pride. “I’m not going to. Okay, you’re the future King… whatever… Take your best shot at me! Because I’d rather be locked up again for life than suffer this fate.” He had the gall to laugh.“Oh, you’re so feisty! And these harsh words… Ava Marie, do you have any idea how foolish you are being right now?”“It can’t be any more foolish than agreeing to lie on my back for you to paw me whenever you like,” she shot back.“Do you think I want it to be this way?” Federico asked as a flicker of anger lit his gaz
The next morning, Ava was overwhelmed by the press on her way to the ferry with Chris. Her son was already in tears, not quite understanding what was going on. Federico had spent some time with him earlier, but he had left before Ava could see him one last time. The nanny had said he had been called away to something urgent at the palace, but Ava had wondered if the old woman had been told to say that so Federico could avoid saying goodbye.“But I don’t want to leave Daddy,” Chris wailed as she tugged him along the gangplank to board the passenger ferry.“Sweetie, it’s just not possible to stay here,” Ava told her son, fighting back tears of her own at some of the vicious insults still being thrown at her from the wharf. Ava kept her head down as she showed
His dark eyes meshed with hers.“Have you ever had an item of clothing in your wardrobe you don’t wear anymore but still don’t feel quite ready to discard it?” She gave him an ironic look.“I’m sure you aren’t the one in your household to sort through your socks and underwear drawer. You have numerous servants who do that for you.” His smile was a little crooked.“Yes… Perhaps you’re right. There aren’t many things I do for myself these days.”“Including choosing a wife?” Ava wished she hadn’t let it slip out since she was sure she sounded as jealous as she felt. Federico held her gaze for an interminable moment.“As future King,
“Daddy says I can have a real paint set and brushes and a… a… weasel all to myself!” Christian announced proudly as he came running towards Ava one morning, four days later.“It’s called an easel, baby,” Ava corrected him as she bent down to kiss his forehead. “A weasel is a small furry animal.”“Oh…” Christian went on excitedly. “I’ve got a new tip truck and a kite Daddy and I are going to use on the beach and Daddy promised me I can have a camera all of my own when I am six.” Ava forced a smile in spite of her inner turmoil. How could she tell Chris this little holiday was soon to end? She had no doubt Federico would continue contact with his son. He had made that very clear every night they had spent together. In such a short time, Federico had establis
She looked at him as if she was going to say no, but then Ava gave him a smile tinged with sadness.“I guess we should make the most of the time we have left… So… Yes, Federico… Yes…” Federico didn’t want to think about how each day was slipping through his fingers like fine grains of sand. All he could hope for was a few more days to keep Chris and Ava close while he sorted through his options. Everything had happened so quickly and he was still coming to terms with it all. Not just his son’s existence but how his feelings for Ava were rising up to the surface after years of being shoved down. He led her upstairs to his bedroom, closing the door softly behind them. She took a few steps in and set down
“I will get justice for you, Ava,” he said, pulling her closer. “I promise I will leave no stone unturned until I do.”“It’s okay, Federico… You've tried and it didn’t work… For me it’s enough you believe in my innocence…”“Ava…” She was standing too close to him to be able to ignore the pulse of his body. The thin layer of her clothes that shielded her form, couldn’t possibly disguise her own response to his nearness. She ran her tongue over the dryness of her lips. Her breathing going out of time, her heart tripping as his head slowly came down… The press of his lips against hers was gentle at first, but as soon as he stroked his tongue across the seam of her lips, everything changed. Passion flared like a combustible fuel exposed to a ligh
Ava spent the next few days watching Federico and Christian together, spending quality time like father and son should. It was so moving to see them together… Their dark heads bent close together over a puzzle or a book or a painting they had done, their smiles so similar. Christian was starting to blossom, his confidence growing as each day passed. He clearly adored his father and Federico made no effort to hide his very deep love for his son. She tried not to let it concern her but Federico hadn’t asked her to sleep with him again. She didn’t know if be happy about it or extremely sad… Was he trying to distance himself from her? It was so hard to tell. When Christian was around, Federico was happy and smiling and chatted with her as an
The words tumbled out and once they had started, Ava couldn’t seem to stop.“He broke my arm when I was four years old. On the way to the hospital, he told me if I said a word to anyone about how it had happened, he would do much worse. He told me to tell everyone I was jumping in bed and fell on the ground. I was so frightened… It wasn’t the first time he had hit me, far from it. He was always hitting me, in my stomach, or my back… Because he didn’t want people to see the bruises… But after that, he toned it down a bit. It wouldn’t do to have anyone pointing their finger at him, now, would it? He was a high-profile man who made a great show of how much he loved his difficult, rebel daughter.” Federico kept on stroking her cold, lifeless hands.“Oh, Ava,” was all he could manage to say.
Federico’s cellphone started to ring and he took it out from his pocket and glanced at the display. “I’m afraid I’ll have to take this call,” he said. “Can you find your way to my study? I’ll meet you there in ten minutes.” Ava gave a nod and slipped out of the room while Federico took the call, keeping his voice low as he spoke to Francesco. She heard him saying something about searches of the Royal Star diamond and that there was nothing leaked to the press about Christian. In the papers, there were some photographs of the party and a short piece about Christian’s role as royal patron, but thankfully nothing else, so far. Ava took the scrapbooks she had made and after a few wrong turns made her way to his study. She stood outside for a moment, holding the books against her chest, trying t
The next morning, Ava was helping Christian with his breakfast, when Federico came in. She looked up, knowing her cheeks were glowing from all the intimacy they had shared during the night before she had slipped back to her own room in the early hours of the morning while he had been sleeping. He met her gaze for a pulsing moment before turning to the little boy.“Good morning, Christian,” Federico said, taking the chair beside him. “Did you sleep well, little man?” Smiling shyly when Federico called him that, Christian put his spoon down politely.“Yes. I could hear the sea. Mummy said I might be able to go to the beach and build a sandcastle.”“I believe that your Mummy is absolutely right. I too think that would be a very good idea. But first…Can we have a little talk? I would like to talk to you