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2024-10-29 19:42:56I couldn't walk.
It was honestly one of the most heart-wrenching news I had ever received in my life. I completely zoned out after the doctor said that, My entire world paused and I became painfully aware of the fact that I could neither feel nor move my legs, It felt like they were bricks themselves and I felt a rush of warmth bubble inside me irritatingly.I recalled how I had gagged and let out the food I had forced down my throat a few hours earlier. To be honest, I had expected to cry or scream, but nothing left my lips, no reaction was enough to express the amount of pain and anger I felt at the moment. I wasn't sure who I was angry at. But at that moment, I needed something or someone to be angry at anything. Fortunately, I found myself.My face contorted and I felt the muscles ache at the pressure. The last thing I needed was this, the last thing I deserved was this. I knew I didn't have amazing and cool plans like many people out there, I knew I hRelated chapters
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"Aiden," I growled and he smiled. He had a fun held up straight to my face and I was almost thrown off by the audacity of the man. Here, in broad daylight, he was pointing a gun at me, a smug grin plastered on his face as if he had just been given hot coffee on a stressful morning."Danielle" His voice was calm and held no remorse at all, his eyes narrowed at me and rested on Alice's body which was behind me. I watched as Aiden's grey eyes darkened for a bit before they returned to their previous form."For the first time in my entire life...I'm sad I was right about something." The words were not directed at me, rather it was where his gaze rested. Completely fixed on Alice. "If you cared about her, you would have stopped this a long time ago." I shot a glare at him, and he scoffed and stared at me with a piercing gaze. "It's because of her, I did this!" He snapped and shot one of the medics, I stumbled on the side of the van, my eyes went wide and I clenched my fist."That's a li
