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FIRE CRACKER The count down has begun (131)
“When I was a child, Danny I thought that everyone had a good heart,” I laughed at my thoughts, and a tear rolled down my cheek at the same time, it was almost scary how I had chances from that carefree Danielle to this volcano.It felt like I was going to explode at any moment, I had never felt this emotion in my entire life and it had never been so intense. This feeling of anger and hatred. Negative feelings were very strong. Most times they can even be blinder than love. Because their only satisfaction comes when someone suffers while love sacrifices, Hatred consumes everything and everyone. “I thought that people could change! That they had good hearts and they were sweet and I was the one doing it all wrong.” I remembered Seven-year-old Danielle who did not understand why her mother would Lock her in her room and not feed her for days, then I remember how I would analyze fourteen-year-old Danielle and try to make sense of why this woman was investing so much in someone she hate
FIRE CRACKER I’m about to find out (132)
The sound of water hitting the ground made it a bit hard on my lip. I had suddenly become super conscious over the past two days and it may or may not have had something to do with the event I had planned out for today.I bit harder on my lip as I made another cut, I felt lighter, the feeling of itching and existence was gone, I wasn’t sure this was a good idea but I also didn't know what good ideas were, all I knew what that I was embracing change, no matter how sour or wrong it felt.I made another cut and more of it fell, I could barely keep my eyes on the mirror in front of me because as much as it felt empowering, this transition felt painful. It felt like I was shedding skin and losing a part of myself.So maybe I was. But this change was as needed as it was painful. I needed to watch the other Danielle fade away before this new one took control, I needed to lose everything that made me feel like I needed to be someone who loved or cared for anyone but my goals. Being affectiona
FIRE CRACKER Danielle Dawn? (133)
The company building was large, From. On the outside looked like one of those huge castles that were only spoken about in movies and books only this one looked more professional.My father had an advertising company that enabled brands and business owners and even new start-ups to promote what they do effectively. They were also into shipments and distribution of coffee. I wasn’t sure how they were able to combine both, but it sounded interesting.“If Dad was here right now, he would be elated. He had always wanted you to run the company, you are his eldest child after all.” Daniel reminded me as we walked into the office. I gave him a tight smile and walked ahead.I almost stumbled when someone popped out of nowhere, her facial expression casually went from startled to shock and finally anger, Her eyes blazed with amber green fury and her lips were pursed in a tight line.“What are you doing here?” She spat as she eyed me down. I chuckled after I gauzed her down. “Did you have amnes
FIRE CRACKER I’ll snap her neck (134)
“Finally!” I sighed as I plopped down on the huge office chair, Danielle sat opposite me with a smirk on his face.“She won’t take this lying down, if I know Isabel as well as I do, she’s going to come up with a clap back very soon,” Daniel informed me and we made eye contact,“We’ll have to show her, her place before then. Until then though, let’s celebrate and laugh and cheer. Because this is one of the many steps we will take.” I spoke calmly. “That chair suits you,” Daniel told me. “Like it was made just for you.” He added with a small smile. “Thank you, even though I still think you should be sitting here,” I informed Daniel. “I don’t even understand how this company works and marketing. Ha! We’ll be bankrupt in a week.” We chuckled at my words.“Here I was, thinking we’d last a month!” He joked and I gasped.“A month! C’mon, I know you have faith in me, but this much? I’m a medical professional, not a marketing specialist,” I told him.“Well, it’s a good thing I’ve got experie
FIRE CRACKER You should not have done this (135)
“The coffee tastes good right?” Daniel praised me as he showed me around the company, I nodded my head in agreement. We had been walking for over an hour and he was explaining certain aspects of the company and also showing me around the place. It was a refined environment and I was already in love with it. “I got a response from the Adams company” Daniel suddenly said and I paused abruptly. He seemed to be walking ahead but paused a few steps past me and turned around. “Get ready to meet them tomorrow evening, We got them to sign the contract.”The edges of my lip twitched and I smiled. “I just knew you could do it,” I praised him.“But you are going to have to do something to yourself, anything so that they don’t recognize you.” Daniel began. “Even if you look different with that haircut, it won’t be enough,” Daniel finished. I nodded. “What were you talking about with Lee?” He suddenly spoke after a while, we continued our mini walk around the company.“‘Nothing important. We wer
FIRE CRACKER Trust and brand new lies (136)
“You look stunning.” Daniel breathed.“Good,” I said as I put on my mask and glanced at the mirror. “That’s what I was aiming for,” I added.I was almost sure the person staring back at me was not Danielle. Whether it was my Scarlett hair or my blue eyes, freckles, and heavy makeup, I wasn’t sure. But the stylist that Daniel hired was good at what he did.“The car is almost here, and are you ready?” Daniel asked. “Once we start this. We’ll have to end it too.” He informed me and I smiled.“Then let's start now,” I said and walked out of the place we were in. It was a simple building where Daniel had convinced the stylist to do a makeover. He told me it would be a horrible idea to have it in public as anyone could recognize me. But now, they could not, even I could not recognize me.A smirk spread across my features, I could not help but wonder how Tyler would react when he met me, would he recognize me? I doubted it. Not if he was getting married to Megan. “What are you thinking
FIRE CRACKER He hurt me first (137)
"At least that is done with." Daniel sighed when the car pulled over in front of our home, "I know right? I could not wait for it to be over." I admitted."Is something going through your mind?" He asked and stepped out, in a few moments he had opened the door on my side and I took careful steps down."Did you notice how tense Tyler was?" I asked but Daniel shrugged."No, not really, he seemed normal to me. Maybe it was because I was focused on the contract and not him""What are you even saying!" I said and shoved him playfully and walked into the house"I was just kidding!" He called after me and I rolled my eyes before I could give him. a response though my eyes locked with hers.She looked completely furious. I could see the fumes of anger shooting out of her ears and when she parted her lips to speak, I let out a nervous laugh and took a step backward."Oh sorry, I'll — uh, I'll just take a few steps back, he he he," I laughed lightly. "I think I missed my way," I added and took
FIRE CRACKER You should be terrified (138)
“Take me for example!” I continued. “No matter how many years pass, the nightmares still plague me, I’m still uncomfortable around men, I still can’t breathe properly without having an attack and the memories won’t freaking leave me alone!” I cried“You don’t have to justify anything to anyone Danielle,” Daniel spoke up.“No, I have to Daniel, this is, unfortunately, the fate of all of us to get oppressed or abused into silence, we constantly have to explain why and how we are finally speaking up and everyone is always defending the other party because unfortunately, Mental wounds don’t bleed blood,” I added and wiped my eyes.“Nana, I won’t walk away from you today, no, I won’t. You wanted to be a part of my life right? Then you will just have to accept the person I am becoming. Because this will get worse!”“So what? Do you want to stop Tyler’s wedding? Is that your big plan?!” Emilia said with worry-filled eyes and I chuckled.“Stop his wedding? Why would I want to do that?” I aske
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5 years later. “What happened here?” I sucked in a sharp breath as I glanced around what was supposed to be the children’s room but seemed like a battleground. World war three happened here. “It was him!” Bella cried in her high-pitched voice, I cringed at her tone and glanced in the direction of her voice. My heart skipped a bit when I could not find her, but if the mop of blonde curls that peaked out from beneath the bed was anything too go by; I was definitely on the right track. I took tentative steps toward her and crouched down to her height, “Baby, what’s going on?” my voice trembled slightly with worry but that was not the only thing threatening an anxiety attack from me at this moment. It was already 10:00 am and I wasn’t even dressed — forget about dressing up, Tyler wasn’t even around to handle the kids and he promised me. Today was my big day and he promised he would fill in, but as always, he just runs off with his burger. Bella reluctantly reached out to me and
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You know how you can spend your entire life walking on the wrong path. You can feel like you have it all figured out even though you are just starting and struggling to be a good version of yourself. There are some memories, that don’t die when dawn comes barging in. Some dark times that even the sun can’t chase away. My point is: They are too many things out of our control and the last thing you want to do is get stuck with the guilt of not fixing or doing things that were never in your control, to begin with. As I ran my hands through my soaked scarlet hair, a lone tear crawled down my cheek and I swallowed sharply. I bit hard on my bottom lip as I thunderstruck and pierced my skin. It was almost scary how three years had felt like decades, how much I had linked to come here, all the promises, the guilt, everything that had built up to this exact moment. I wiped my tears which were mixed with rain. I found to hear the hesitant footsteps from Rye, but I did not turn. My fists cle
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“This was the last place I thought I would ever come,” The words rolled out of my mouth and left a bland taste in my mouth, I could feel the heat from the ground tear my skin apart, and my eyes stung with fresh tears and my fists clenched.If anyone had told me, years ago, or even a month ago that I would do this, I would have laughed in their face and given them a fitting reply, yet here I was, tears pouring down my cheeks with a void in my heart that I was not sure time could heal.“It wasn't supposed to end like this, Alice. This wasn’t the plan. This wasn't the freaking plan,” I whispered and I could barely see from my clouded vision. “You always hurt me when it was alive and I always used to think that I would be happy when you died...” I trailed off and wiped my tears.“I’m not Alice,” I admitted. “I’m not happy at all ad it feels like my heart got ripped out. You took a part of me with you and it space you left stings a lot.” I swallowed and sucked in a sharp breath. I ran my
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"I never thought you would come here." I heard a voice as I sat on the closest rock.From the view I had, the lake was breathtakingly beautiful, it had been months since I came here and I was dying for a breath of fresh air."Do you remember the last time we came here?" the voice continued on a steady pitch, I rolled my eyes at the tone and turned away. "Danielle, you are going to have to face me at one point or the other." Tyler finally confessed in what sounded like a defeated tone, I scoffed at his words. "There's nothing to settle." my voice came out strained. It had been one entire month since Alice was murdered and Aiden died at my hands. The memory still sends chills down my spine and for many days I refused to leave my home because I was terrified of the outcome, I sucked in sharp air and glanced at him."You ended this, remember?" I added in a soft tone, my eyes stung with tears but I blinked them away. Tyler sighed. He broke the small distance between us and sat beside me
FIRE CRACKER Life isn’t fair (191)
I lunged at him. With all the force and anger I could muster at that moment. This was the moment I had waited for so many years. Three long years — I lived with that guilt and pain for three long years. I was broken, I had to deal with the pain and nightmares and the intense feeling that I could not protect the man who did nothing but love me. The only thing I had consoled myself with back then was that I would avenge his death.And only when I had avenged his death, would I visit his grave. Today, I would fulfill that promise.Aiden lost balance in shock, the gun went off immediately. My eyes widened when we hit the ground. I was basically on top of him, dangerously close with the gun between us and my breath hitched.My heart raced and it took me a few seconds to register the fact that the bullet had not hit me, rather it was stuck in Aiden who was bleeding from his nose.I must have taken too long to connect all these dots because the next thing I knew was hands around my neck, c
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"Aiden," I growled and he smiled. He had a fun held up straight to my face and I was almost thrown off by the audacity of the man. Here, in broad daylight, he was pointing a gun at me, a smug grin plastered on his face as if he had just been given hot coffee on a stressful morning."Danielle" His voice was calm and held no remorse at all, his eyes narrowed at me and rested on Alice's body which was behind me. I watched as Aiden's grey eyes darkened for a bit before they returned to their previous form."For the first time in my entire life...I'm sad I was right about something." The words were not directed at me, rather it was where his gaze rested. Completely fixed on Alice. "If you cared about her, you would have stopped this a long time ago." I shot a glare at him, and he scoffed and stared at me with a piercing gaze. "It's because of her, I did this!" He snapped and shot one of the medics, I stumbled on the side of the van, my eyes went wide and I clenched my fist."That's a li
