How can I accept this? (127)

“Dinner is ready?” Someone said and I glanced up. My eyes locked with Elliot for a split moment before I looked away. I think as still curled up on the floor of the kitchen and I was sure I had tear tracks on my face.

“I’ll be down in a minute.” I offered.

“Why are you sitting here all alone?” He asked and took a seat on the ground beside me, I resisted the urge to move away, but he must have noticed because he shifted back a bit, I shut my eyes and clenched my fist.

Here I was again. Doing the same thing I was beating myself up for earlier, treating people wearily because I was scared of history repeating itself.

“I just needed to be alone,” I whispered. I licked my lips and played with my thumb a bit, Elliot didn't leave though, He sat on the ground and I could feel his eyes on me but I didn’t feel uncomfortable.

“You want some coffee?” He enquired after a while.

“Yeah,” I breathed with a short nod. A smile spread across his tight lips and he walked over to the coffee brewer. I f