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“Here I was thinking that you would never come down for dinner!” Lee exclaimed the moment we made eye contact. “And why are you dressed like that?” She asked with furrowed eyebrows.I licked my blistered lip and sucked in a deep breath. I was wearing some blue baggy jeans and a black turtle neck top. My hair rested on my shoulder and I wore a sunglass to cover up my black eyes.“Yes, darling, why are you wearing sunshades in the house?” Elliot asked from his place at the table, I could see they were eating some pasta and lasagna. For the first time, the smell of the lasagna made me nauseous.“I…because I wanted to go out, but then, I changed my mind,” I informed him softly and walked closer to the table, I swiftly pulled out a chair and sat down. I could feel Emilia’s eyes on me and deep down I wondered why she had not asked me one of her famous questions yet.“Did you later find the photos then?”Lee asked and I froze in place, my eyes widened and I shut them almost immediately. I bit
FIRE CRACKER This is the truth (145)
“You came here.” It was not exactly a question. Daniel stared at me in confusion as I walked into his room and sat at the farthest edge of his bed from where he was. He seemed to be tenser than I was — and I was the one who had been attacked.“Danielle, I—““When were you planning on telling me?” I asked and made eye contact with him. He parted his lips to fix and tear-filled eyes morphed into confusion and I could see a crease form on his forehead. “Telling you what?” He finally found words and stood up. “About you — about yourself, about your condition? How long did you think you could hide it? One month? Two months tops? Then I would find out. Huh?” I asked and I felt my eyes sting with tears.“Danielle, I’m sorry and I will understand if you hate me—““No one’s talking about hate Daniel! I’m trusting here! Mutual trust! The kind that you don’t have in me.” I breathed. “I’ve been through worse things in my life, believe me, but this, this hurts me and it’s not because of these sc
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I sighed as I looked over the pages of the document. “The first psychologist ran off after an attack, he was devastated and so was I, 'cause I was starting to like her,” Daniel informed me and plopped down on his bed, I glanced at him and took a seat opposite him.“The second one, well..”He rolled his eyes in a sassy manner and his fringe — which I had not noticed till now, shifted a bit from his line of sight.“New hairstyle? Another thing that I did not know?” I questioned with an easy smile. He mirrored it.“There’s a lot of things you don’t know about me.” He quirked into an uneasy smirk. “Really?” I challenged. “Is that so? Then I must be doing something wrong and walking backward.”“I doubt so if you have gotten this far.” I made eye contact with him when he said so. “What happened with the second psychologist?” I asked before he could trail his thoughts back to the point that he did not want to discuss this.“She quit after two days.” He said flatly. “Wait what? Why? How?”
FIRE CRACKER You have no rights (147)
“Rise and shine, sunshine!” I cheered as I got up from the bed, I stretched a bit and let out breath from my cheeks. I glanced at Daniel’s sleeping form, I could feel my head pounding from staying up all night. I groaned and proceeded to my desk, It was a weekend, I would work.Soon enough, I heard a soft murmur and shuffling a few moments later. From the mirror in front of me, I could see a messy fringe pop from the duvets and sleepy grey eyes. I smiled and spun the desk chair around. I suddenly made it my mission to get one of these, there was no tangible reason why I didn’t have a desk and a chair in my room.“Why are you staring at me so much?” His gruff voice spoke, I blinked and locked eyes with his half-asleep orbs. Daniel jumped off the bed and sighed loudly.“How did you sleep?” I said after I had turned on the spare laptop that was in his room.“Fine, I guess? You’re warm? And normal? What else do you want to know?” “Emilia made a horrible choice, you have no idea how to s
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“You taught me so many things Derek, but you...” I whispered as I locked my room down and slid down it. My eyes filled with tears and it suddenly became hard to breathe or focus on anything else than the events that occurred a few moments ago.I honestly had no clue why I felt so affected by her words. Because it was Lee talking. She was harmless and she probably didn’t even mean what she was saying. Yet I felt like someone had stabbed me in the chest and was twisting the knife continuously.Maybe it was her words or the fact that she could be right. Maybe it was that fact that I could not fit into this family. What had I been thinking? Isabel was right. Simply wearing fancy clothes and being the CEO of a company would not build or sustain any relationship.I had gotten so lost in seeing their bonds that I forgot that I was alone. I was truly alone. And there was nothing that could be done about it at that point. Not even turning back time could fix this. I threaded my hands to my sho
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“What? Do you — do you even know what you are saying? Jared was shot right in front of me, He bled and died in my hands! I watched the paramedics take him away!” I was having a mental background at the news.I refused to believe that Jared was alive. It made absolutely no sense at all. I was there. I was right there, I saw him get shot and I even tried to save his life, the paramedics declared him dead and there was no pulse at all.So what was Daniel on about?“Look, I am sure that you are mis—” I began but my lips were shut by his next actions.“Is this Jared?” He enquired almost immediately and shoved the photo in my face, I blinked as I registered the image. Sure enough, it looked like Jared, maybe his look alike, but not Jared, because my Jared was dead, I even held him in my hands as he took his last breaths.Even the idea of him being alive freaked me out and sent chills down my spine. I have had to live with the guilt from that day and the only reason I asked Daniel to investig
FIRE CRACKER That makes two of us (150)
“Danielle is not alone in this,” Daniel chimed in and my eyes darted towards him in confusion, he looked his hands in his and continued. “I would willingly give her my shares, after all, you all seem to think that I am incapable of running the company after all,”“No,” I stopped him right in his tracks. Daniel raised an eyebrow at me in confusion and Isabel seemed appalled. “I won’t take your rights,” I said this while staring directly at Isabel, the atmosphere in the room went bald, the walls seemed to be closing in on us all and for a moment there, I struggled to breathe.“That is the big difference between you and me Isabel,” I informed her. “You are used to manipulating and using everyone to get what you want while I am capable of standing on my own two feet without support,” I added.“And that suddenly makes you a better person?” Isabel countered with an eye roll. “You can fool everyone around you Danielle, but not me.”“The only one masquerading around here is you and you know i
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"Danielle!" Daniel called out when we had gotten to the living room. I spun around and parted my lips to speak with a hardened expression. "I want to speak to Jared," The words came out forced and I bit hard on my lip to feel anything else than the emotions that were banging on the walls of my skin. "As soon as possible," I added. My eyes stung with fresh tears and I clenched my fist. Jared could not play with my feelings this way and expect to get away with it, He made me believe that he had died because of him, I mourned him for months and I almost lost my freedom because of it.A loud crash sent me spiraling back to reality and it was then I registered the fact that I had thrown a vase off the shelf in the living room. The brown walls glared at me and I glared back, I was sure they could hear the storm that was raging in my soul because I was sick and tired of people playing with me."I don't think that is a good idea, Dani—""Don't tell me what to do!" I snapped with a glare. My e
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5 years later. “What happened here?” I sucked in a sharp breath as I glanced around what was supposed to be the children’s room but seemed like a battleground. World war three happened here. “It was him!” Bella cried in her high-pitched voice, I cringed at her tone and glanced in the direction of her voice. My heart skipped a bit when I could not find her, but if the mop of blonde curls that peaked out from beneath the bed was anything too go by; I was definitely on the right track. I took tentative steps toward her and crouched down to her height, “Baby, what’s going on?” my voice trembled slightly with worry but that was not the only thing threatening an anxiety attack from me at this moment. It was already 10:00 am and I wasn’t even dressed — forget about dressing up, Tyler wasn’t even around to handle the kids and he promised me. Today was my big day and he promised he would fill in, but as always, he just runs off with his burger. Bella reluctantly reached out to me and
FIRE CRACKER Is it too late to say goodbye?
You know how you can spend your entire life walking on the wrong path. You can feel like you have it all figured out even though you are just starting and struggling to be a good version of yourself. There are some memories, that don’t die when dawn comes barging in. Some dark times that even the sun can’t chase away. My point is: They are too many things out of our control and the last thing you want to do is get stuck with the guilt of not fixing or doing things that were never in your control, to begin with. As I ran my hands through my soaked scarlet hair, a lone tear crawled down my cheek and I swallowed sharply. I bit hard on my bottom lip as I thunderstruck and pierced my skin. It was almost scary how three years had felt like decades, how much I had linked to come here, all the promises, the guilt, everything that had built up to this exact moment. I wiped my tears which were mixed with rain. I found to hear the hesitant footsteps from Rye, but I did not turn. My fists cle
FIRE CRACKER Finally? (196)
“There’s still time for us to run.” I glanced at Emilia as if she had grown two heads, but she had a serious expression on her face and I knew that she was freaking out deep down.So was I.“Run to where exactly?” I decided to humor her risky thoughts with a raised eyebrow, her stance deflated and she let go of my hand. We were outside the church now. It was crazy how much time had passed and how things were happening so fast.Until two weeks ago I was at Alice’s grave. Now I was walking down the aisle. I frowned and breathed. “When did Rye say she was going to get here?” I asked Emilia, the blonde seemed to be too engrossed in starting anything but the church that waiting for her. Her blonde hair had been styled in a perfect bun and Isabel had performed magic with her makeup. Her dimples were visible and she wasn’t even smiling. Emilia took a hold of my hand again, a small smile broke out on her plump lips.I held my breath as she stared me dead in the eyes before she broke out into
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“This was the last place I thought I would ever come,” The words rolled out of my mouth and left a bland taste in my mouth, I could feel the heat from the ground tear my skin apart, and my eyes stung with fresh tears and my fists clenched.If anyone had told me, years ago, or even a month ago that I would do this, I would have laughed in their face and given them a fitting reply, yet here I was, tears pouring down my cheeks with a void in my heart that I was not sure time could heal.“It wasn't supposed to end like this, Alice. This wasn’t the plan. This wasn't the freaking plan,” I whispered and I could barely see from my clouded vision. “You always hurt me when it was alive and I always used to think that I would be happy when you died...” I trailed off and wiped my tears.“I’m not Alice,” I admitted. “I’m not happy at all ad it feels like my heart got ripped out. You took a part of me with you and it space you left stings a lot.” I swallowed and sucked in a sharp breath. I ran my
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Tyler chuckled and his hand went to his neck for a nervous moment. “I don’t think you have realized it but… Alexander is in love, and it’s not with you,” I blinked in confusion.Tyler laughed at what seemed like my facial expression. “Alexander is madly in love with Lee.” My eyes widened and I immediately clicked the dots.Lee’s strange behavior ever since Alexander came into the house, her sudden change of heart, the reason she begged me to stop the wedding, why she was so devastated during the shoot-out, why she kept her gaze on Alex, and most of us, why she was bosses with taking care of Bella. “But she’s just a child and he- he’s twenty-five or something! This isn’t right!” I informed him.“She’ll be eighteen in a few weeks, by then she will be an adult, right?” Cole asked in a calm tone.“Well yes, but…” I trailed off and walked past him, I turned and continued. “She’s still a child, he’s five years older than she, and I don’t know, I’m just not comfortable with the idea.”“It’s
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FIRE CRACKER You hurt me! (192)
"I never thought you would come here." I heard a voice as I sat on the closest rock.From the view I had, the lake was breathtakingly beautiful, it had been months since I came here and I was dying for a breath of fresh air."Do you remember the last time we came here?" the voice continued on a steady pitch, I rolled my eyes at the tone and turned away. "Danielle, you are going to have to face me at one point or the other." Tyler finally confessed in what sounded like a defeated tone, I scoffed at his words. "There's nothing to settle." my voice came out strained. It had been one entire month since Alice was murdered and Aiden died at my hands. The memory still sends chills down my spine and for many days I refused to leave my home because I was terrified of the outcome, I sucked in sharp air and glanced at him."You ended this, remember?" I added in a soft tone, my eyes stung with tears but I blinked them away. Tyler sighed. He broke the small distance between us and sat beside me
FIRE CRACKER Life isn’t fair (191)
I lunged at him. With all the force and anger I could muster at that moment. This was the moment I had waited for so many years. Three long years — I lived with that guilt and pain for three long years. I was broken, I had to deal with the pain and nightmares and the intense feeling that I could not protect the man who did nothing but love me. The only thing I had consoled myself with back then was that I would avenge his death.And only when I had avenged his death, would I visit his grave. Today, I would fulfill that promise.Aiden lost balance in shock, the gun went off immediately. My eyes widened when we hit the ground. I was basically on top of him, dangerously close with the gun between us and my breath hitched.My heart raced and it took me a few seconds to register the fact that the bullet had not hit me, rather it was stuck in Aiden who was bleeding from his nose.I must have taken too long to connect all these dots because the next thing I knew was hands around my neck, c
FIRE CRACKER I will keep that promise (190)
"Aiden," I growled and he smiled. He had a fun held up straight to my face and I was almost thrown off by the audacity of the man. Here, in broad daylight, he was pointing a gun at me, a smug grin plastered on his face as if he had just been given hot coffee on a stressful morning."Danielle" His voice was calm and held no remorse at all, his eyes narrowed at me and rested on Alice's body which was behind me. I watched as Aiden's grey eyes darkened for a bit before they returned to their previous form."For the first time in my entire life...I'm sad I was right about something." The words were not directed at me, rather it was where his gaze rested. Completely fixed on Alice. "If you cared about her, you would have stopped this a long time ago." I shot a glare at him, and he scoffed and stared at me with a piercing gaze. "It's because of her, I did this!" He snapped and shot one of the medics, I stumbled on the side of the van, my eyes went wide and I clenched my fist."That's a li
