Home / Romance / FINDING TRUE LOVE(Beyond Beauty) / FINDING OUT A DREADFUL PART OF ME

Share

FINDING OUT A DREADFUL PART OF ME

Author: Rose Wren
last update Last Updated: 2025-01-14 21:49:44

CHAPTER 3✍️

     

 I woke up in an unfamiliar place; the ceiling was far different from the ones in my room. “Where the hell am I?” I asked myself. I tried getting up, and that was when I saw the bed I was lying on. “I’m in a freaking hospital.”

 

 The door creaked. I looked up to see what was wrong, and I saw Lizzy walk in with a man that looked like, he’s in his late forties and yes, he was with a stethoscope on his neck. “Yeah, how great. Lizzy brought me to a fucking hospital.”

 “Hey, Starr, right? How’re you feeling?” the doctor asked, his voice gentle.

 

 I hesitantly answered, “I feel good doctor,” please can you give me and my friend a moment together? It’s really urgent. I need to speak with her.

 

 The doctor nodded sympathetically. “Of course, I’ll give you some privacy. But just for a minute, okay?”

 

 As soon as the doctor left, I turned to Lizzy, my voice low and urgent.

 

 “Why the hell did you bring me to a hospital, Lizzy? You know how much I hate hospitals, it smells, It makes me so scared and want to throw up. You really want to scare me and add to my problems?” I added, trying to keep my tone light despite the growing unease in my chest.

 

 Lizzy’s expression turned serious, her eyes locked on mine. “You fainted, Starr. You scared the hell out of me. I didn’t know what else to do.”

 

 I frowned, trying to remember. “Fainted? What do you mean? I just….. I don’t know, I felt dizzy or something.”

 

 Lizzy’s grip on my hand tightened. “Don’t worry, I’m here and everything will be fine. You don’t have to be scared. And the doctor also said your intake of alcohol was too much, it’s filled on your system and it isn’t good for your condition, but he didn’t say the condition.

 

 

 I didn’t know how to respond, so I gave a simple answer. “Condition? What’s he talking about?” I freaked out.

 

 “I don’t know, Starr, he didn’t say. He only mentioned he’d say it when you wake up.”

 

 “Well, tell him to come In” I quickly said, cause at that point I was so scared to the teeth.”

 

  The doctor walked in, with an expression plastered on his face, and trust me, that expression made me so scared that I began to panic. The look on his face made me know that there was something wrong, even if he tried covering it up with a smile.“Okay, ladies, let’s take a look at your test results, shall we?”

 

 The expression of the doctor turned sympathetic., as he began. “You’ve hyperthyroidism.”

 

 Immediately, he said that word. My brain and my system stopped working for a minute. I felt I had been punched in the gut, my breath knocked out of me. I didn’t hear anything else he was saying; I only saw his mouth moving. It was as if time had frozen, and all I could think was, “What? How? Why?”

 

 I forced myself to calm down, taking a few deep breaths, and focused on the doctor’s words. “It’s caused by stress and anxiety, Alcohol Consumption, Genetics pre-deposition and Hormonal Imbalance,” He continued.

 

 I felt a lump form in my throat as I processed the diagnosis. “So, it’s not just one thing, it’s a combination of everything,” I said, trying to keep my voice steady.

 

 The doctor nodded, his eyes filled with empathy. “Yes, unfortunately, it’s a complex combination. And it won’t kill you if you’re on proper medications. But it will trigger intense symptoms like, Fatigue, memory loss, weight loss, panic attack, and slow conception. But don’t worry, we can manage it with medications.

 

 I took a deep breath, trying to absorb the information. “Okay, thank you, doctor.” And trust me, the only one that got my attention was the last one, a slow conception.

 

Oh my God, was that why I couldn’t conceive? All this while I’ve been in darkness, I’ve been suffering, unaware of the underlying sickness that had been ravaging my body. I have been sick.

 

Without a doubt, I know I’ve lost Charles forever. There’s definitely no way he’d ever come back to me. I’m doomed!!

 

I and Charles had been trying to conceive for months, cause he said that’s the only way his mother would allow me to be his wife, even though I was more capable in other things like taking care of our bills, He insisted, that his mother needed to be sure that, the person he’s getting married to would be able to give her multiple grandkids as she was only able to give birth to Charles. “Fuck!!!….my life is over, and I should have known that was a lie, he had no intention of settling down with me, he didn’t love me enough to bear with me,” I banged my hands on the table.

 

I tried so hard to get pregnant, I just didn’t understand why it was taking so much time for me to conceive. Other women get pregnant effortlessly. Why is mine so difficult? Why am I begging my body to cooperate? I always said that to myself, but I didn’t know I was walking around in a medical condition.

 

Which man would want to be with a woman with fertility issues? I’d never find any other man that would love with this condition. “Why me?” I questioned myself. Indeed, I’m CURSED!!! I said again with tears streaming down my face furiously.

 

I felt a lump in my throat as Lizzy’s eyes locked onto mine, filled with concern. The doctor went to my bedside trying to set up an IV bag, but I cared less. A phone made a beeping sound, and I turned to face Lizzy. She stood up and walked to where she kept our phones. I had even forgotten I had a phone till she said, “Starr, it’s yours that made that beep sound. I think you’ve got a message.”

 

I unlocked my phone, and I saw it was a message from Charles. My mind raced quickly as I was about to press open. What does he want to say to me? I thought to myself, What else? It must be an apology or something.

 

I pressed open, and I got the most shocking message ever. I quickly scrolled through the messages, my heart sank.

 

“You’re invited to my wedding,” I read the message, accompanied by a formal invitation card with a photo of Charles and his bride to be. She looked exactly like the woman he was in bed with. Oh, I get it now. He already had it planned out, and I was just a money-making machine to give them a better future.

 

My world crumbled around me, and I stared blankly at my screen, my mind racing with questions. How could he do this to me? Didn’t our relationship mean anything to him? Really, a wedding?!!!

 

Continue to read this book for free
Scan code to download App

Related chapters

  • FINDING TRUE LOVE(Beyond Beauty)   ONE LAST TIME

    Chapter 4✍️“Always make sure you sleep well, rest early, and stay away from alcohol, okay? And also stay hydrated.” He added.I nodded slightly, still gazing out the window. Lizzy squeezed my hand reassuring.“We’ll get through this, Starr, like we always do, okay? Lizzy consoled me. Yes.” I answered.The doctor smiled softly, warmly. “You’ll need to come back for a follow-up appointment in two weeks’ time. We’ll monitor your condition and adjust your medication as needed.”I turned back to face him, forcing a weak smile. “Okay, doctor. Thank you.”After an emotionally draining day, I collapsed onto the bed as soon as we got home, exhausted, took over. Lizzy let me sleep, knowing I needed to recharge.Hours later, I woke up feeling a bit more refreshed. Lizzy was sitting in the living room, her eyes fixed on me as I walked in.“Hey, how are you feeling?” She asked, concern etched on her face.I shrugged, taking a seat beside her. “Better, thanks.”Lizzy nodd

    Last Updated : 2025-01-14
  • FINDING TRUE LOVE(Beyond Beauty)   MOVING FORWARD

    Chapter 5✍️“Where are my freaking clothes?” I shouted at the top of my voice. The door swung open, and someone walked in. I looked up and my eyes widened in horror. It was the same guy I met at the club! “What was his name again?” I thought to myself, panic setting in. “I don’t even remember and I don’t care!!!”“No, no, no, this can’t be happening, I exclaimed, my voice and hands trembling. “W-what am I doing in your… your house?” I stuttered, trying to process the situation. “Who brought me here?” I demanded, my anger rising.The guy’s expression remained calm, but I could see a sense of amusement dancing in his eyes.“You don’t remember me, do you?” He asked, his voice low but smooth.I shook my head, feeling a mix of embarrassment and frustration. “No, I…I don’t, and funny enough, I don’t care. The only thing I wish to know is, Why the hell am I in your fucking bed?” That’s all I want to know.I tilted my head sideways, trying to calm my frazzled nerves do

    Last Updated : 2025-01-14
  • FINDING TRUE LOVE(Beyond Beauty)   New beginning

    Chapter 6✍️The cool breeze enveloped me as I stepped off the plane in France. I joined the stream of passengers moving towards the baggage claim, the sound of luggage wheels and chatters filling the air. I felt a thrill of happiness knowing I was away and I wanted to start all over, but I still had thoughts of that suspicious phone call. I don’t frolic around with any man, so who could that be? I mean, I would have easily said Charles’s wife, but they were long gone and I haven’t spoken to him since our last encounter at the airport, so definitely it’s not here, then who? I thought to myself with a blank expression on my face. I rolled my luggages to a taxi, gave the driver my destination and few minutes later, I stood at the front of a beautiful tall building.This was it, my new home. I smiled and stepped inside. The concierge greeted me warmly and handed me the keys to my apartment. I thanked her and made my way upstairs, unlocking the door and stepping inside

    Last Updated : 2025-01-25
  • FINDING TRUE LOVE(Beyond Beauty)   Chapter 7✍️

    CHAPTER 7✍️Starr’s POV I and Mr. Jenkins were still conversing, but we were nearly finished.“I like that.” He quickly reached for his landline and called someone to come in and after a few minutes, a beautiful brunette lady came in and he told her to take me to my office.We got outside, and she complimented me. “Hey, I’m Racheal, but you can call me ray. I wouldn’t mind, I mean cause my friends call me that.” She stuttered, and God! You’re so beautiful,” she added.I blushed immediately, that rolled out of her mouth. “Thank you Racheal, you look beautiful too,” I complimented her too, and she slightly tapped my arm. “Oh, please, don’t flatter me.”We got a cabin, and we stopped there. She opened the door and told me this was my space, while hers was just beside mine, and if I ever needed anything, I shouldn’t hesitate to call her. And I responded, “ Okay, Rachael, thank you.”After a long stressful day at work, I got home, had my shower, and headed outside t

    Last Updated : 2025-01-27
  • FINDING TRUE LOVE(Beyond Beauty)   I MET HIM

    CHAPTER 8✍️Starr’s POVThe next morning, I gazed into the mirror, my eyes sparkled with self-admiration. I couldn’t help but notice the transformation that had taken place over the past two years. My skin, had lightened to a radiant glow, My curves, were mind blowing.With a gentle smile, I traced the contours of my face, my fingers dancing across my high cheekbones, my full lips, and my almond-shaped eyes. I felt like a work of art.We had already packed our things yesterday, so it wasn’t hard to get the airport that morning.Few hours later, I checked the flight status and saw that our plane had just landed. My heart skipped a beat.We made our way to the arrivals gate, my eyes scanning the crowd for a glimpse of my best friend .And then, suddenly, I saw her. Her long hair flowing behind her. Her eyes locked onto mine, and a radiant smile spread across her face.“Lizzy” I exclaimed, rushing towards her with open arms.I swept her into a tight hug, feeling

    Last Updated : 2025-01-28
  • FINDING TRUE LOVE(Beyond Beauty)   Chapter 9

    CHAPTER 9✍️We all sat down on our chairs, conversing cause they were all throwing questions at me and I answered all swiftly. The idiot, Seven, kept on staring at me and Ella kept giving me this side eye that felt annoying. “Why is she looking at me like that?” I mumbled to myself.So she finally muttered to Tania to swap chairs with hers, they did, and she immediately pulled the chair closer to Seven.They began talking, “Hey, Seven! I’m Ella, It’s so great to finally meet you.” He responded with his name, and Ella tried pushing it more, but he clearly wasn’t interested in whatever she was saying. But Ella didn’t mind, all she wanted was to strike a conversation with him by all means, she wanted his attention at all cost.But he was still seated, looking uninterested. She didn’t let that deter her, though. She flashed him a bright smile and asked another question, but he just looked at her and gave a warm smile.We all kept on conversing, except Seven and Ell

    Last Updated : 2025-01-30
  • FINDING TRUE LOVE(Beyond Beauty)   A plan unfolds

    CHAPTER 10✍️ “I felt something I had tried so much to bury for the past 2years, pain, anger. Heaven knows how much I had tried to forgive Charles, but I just couldn’t. He left me at my most vulnerable time without looking back. He didn’t even care I caught him cheating, he just….,” I stopped cause I couldn’t bear to stand there with him for even two seconds more, so I threw his hands off mine and slapped him across his cranky face.“Don’t you fucking dare touch me, you bastard,” I told him, pointing my fingers at him, my eyes shooting daggers. If eyes could kill, I’m sure he’d be six feet below by now.He touched his cheeks with his head down, before he looked up to look me in the eye. “Starr please, let me explain,” He said, his voice cracking from stuttering. But I didn’t care, all I wanted was for him to go back into the dark just like he did 2years ago.“I don’t care what you have to say, Charles,” I told him, my voice laced with anger and firmness.

    Last Updated : 2025-01-31
  • FINDING TRUE LOVE(Beyond Beauty)   A PROMISE MADE

    chapter 11✍ Seven POV As we entered my apartment, the guys burst out laughing, still high on the drama from the restaurant. Then Gab spoke up, "Dude, what was up with Lizzy’s friend at the restaurant? She totally lost it!" I chuckled, "I'm telling you, that girl is insane!" Chris cracked up, "Yeah, what was up with her?" "I know, right? She went from zero to a hundred in seconds!" Jude joined in too laughing. "Maybe it was someone she had a thing with in the past?" Chris said, his voice rigid. But I shook my head, still chuckling, "Nah, she's just crazy!". why did she tear off the note and storm out of the restaurant like that? I think she’s insane.” I said and Gab smiled again and replied smirking. "Crazy or not, she's definitely got some spark!, and you know it.” Jude chuckled, "Yeah, and a whole lot of drama!" "Well, at least she's interesting! And really really beautiful” Chris added his face brightened with a huge grin, but he continued. “Yes, that

    Last Updated : 2025-01-31

Latest chapter

  • FINDING TRUE LOVE(Beyond Beauty)   CHAPTER 83

    Sighing, I bursted out into laughter. This epistle is so funny. I knew she was hurt, and that, given my weeks of silence, she probably assumed I was tired of her and wanted to break up.I narrowed my eyes back to my parents and siblings.⏰⏰⏰TWO WEEKS LATERSquinted my eyes before heaving out the deep breath that I’ve kept in for so long.“What is your woman saying, man?” I inquired, narrowing my eyes in slight anger.Groaning, I responded immediately. “I thought you told me that she said Starr would be home today. What changed?” I took another deep breath as I tried to understand what he was spurting from the other end.“So for two weeks, she has been avoiding you? Is that it?” I asked him with my jaw clenching with anger.My eyes moved around trying to read what’s going on even from the other side of the phone.“Man, I think she’s lying or stalling. Maybe Starr is upstairs. Check it out for me. Go to her room and knock. She’s supposed to be back from work.”Tugging the root of my ha

  • FINDING TRUE LOVE(Beyond Beauty)   CHAPTER 82

    Washington, Seattle⏰Momentarily, I turned my back to my father, before tugging the root of my hair then faced him again. “No, I’m not going to reconsider anything that man uttered. All of that he said, it’s just based on his daughter’s feelings and not for the company’s alignment.”Narrowing my eyes, I spoke again. “And moreover I told you and mom that I found someone that I love already so I meant it when I clearly stated last year, that the betrothal engagement is cut of.”“I only honored this invitation because of the respect I have for him, but since he wouldn’t get it through his head via email, that is the reason I came. To let it out myself so he and his family can leave us alone dad.”Still panting, I let it all out while my father just stood staring at me till I explained everything. “Okay, son. I understand.”Finally, I was glad when that came out of his mouth. He held me by my arms and motioned that we go back inside.“Thank you Terrence for having my son and I.” Trisha’s

  • FINDING TRUE LOVE(Beyond Beauty)   CHAPTER 81

    Tension filled the room immediately and I saw her face melt into something I couldn’t get myself to understand. “Perfect, you’re a jealous one. Just like him.”She chuckled again, although this one was a little louder, earning a huge grin on her face before she spoke again. “Oh, I now see why you two are made for each other.” She stated chuckling, and again, she checked her phone for the ninth time.I arched my chin up as I began to wonder why she constantly kept on doing that.She picked up her phone from the table and scrolled through, typing something in it. Probably sent a message before placing it down back on the table. She took her eyes to me. “I’m sorry that you found that offensive, or rather I’m that you found me in your man’s shirt. It won’t happen again.” It was my time to chuckle. And I did before taking my eyes back to her. “No, don’t take it personal. I just……”“You know what Starr? It’s totally fine. I understand.” She stated as she leaned closer and placed her arms

  • FINDING TRUE LOVE(Beyond Beauty)   CHAPTER 80

    It was a message from Seven’s first love. Camille.Why did she send me a message? Why does she want us to meet?I rolled my eyes and took it back to Lizzy and she widened hers and shrugged her shoulders. “What?”Grouchily, I responded. “Camille wants us to meet today.”A small smile spread across her face immediately. “Why that expression?” I quickly inquired.Chuckling, she replied. “Nothing. I’m just glad she probably wants to get things off her chest with you, so it’s a good one.”Without wasting any more seconds, I gave my honest response. “Well, I’m not going.”Lizzy bursted out laughing with her hands on her chest. “Oh Starr., I know you’ll. So quit the hard girl and go meet the woman trying to get between you and your man.”Time flew in a flurry of activity, and it was early evening.I quickly wore a knee length black gown and I short heel slippers to go with it.Hesitantly, I pulled up at the small parking lot and strolled inside.The shiny light in the room was very captivati

  • FINDING TRUE LOVE(Beyond Beauty)   CHAPTER 79

    Restlessly, I kept turning around in my bed. I couldn’t sleep. I kept on drifting back to the conversation Seven and I had earlier today. Was I that bad? Am I possessed? Why can’t I keep a man just like every other woman?My mind reeled off to Ella. She knew of my condition now. I’m sure she’d blackmail me with it since she has always had eyes for Seven, so there was absolutely no way I’d win this.She would definitely force me to back out for her to take my place in his life. If I truly had one.I wasn’t ready to tell him. No. I couldn’t possibly look him in the eyes and say. “Hey, I’ve a freaking medical condition and I can’t conceive.” Yeah. That’s extremely funny.I just can’t. There is no way I am doing that. So the other option is just to let him be. But my heart can’t. I love him.Sighing, I placed my hand on my chest as I continued to heave heavily and think deep.Sighing out deeply for the up tenth time, I felt my chest tightened so quickly, I grasp the duvet and threw it off

  • FINDING TRUE LOVE(Beyond Beauty)   CHAPTER 78

    Her gawking eyes followed me till I push the door open and went outside. She didn’t bother saying anything, the same goes for me and for some unknown reasons I was grateful.I wasn’t ready for any fake love or affection.Hastily, I walked to my car and stayed in there for some time, wiping away the constant tears that were dripping down.After successfully pouring everything out, I drove home and went inside, not spending another one second out there wallowing.The instant I pushed the door open, I met Chris and Gab in the sitting room with their woman giggling and all happy.They were definitely cracking jokes and grinning from ear to ear. Faking a small smile, I greeted them and moved closer to take Chris’s outstretched hands to shake me.After the short compliments and welcoming speech, I made sure I didn’t spare a slight glance to Lizzy’s way.I just ran upstairs and banged my door hard. Few minutes later, after taking a cold shower, I heard a soft knock on the door.Quickly, I wr

  • FINDING TRUE LOVE(Beyond Beauty)   TAKING A BREAK

    Chapter 77He took a step closer to me, his eyes locked on mine. Pain and hurt instantly filled his eyes. “Gone.” I furrowed my brows in confusion as I tried to understand what he meant by “Gone.”.“What do you mean by gone?”Biting his lower lips, he sniffed in a little and spoke again. “She died. It was still birth.” My eyes bulged out in pain for him and he hurried back to the windows, staring out at it. I took a deep breath, composing myself before speaking. “You shouldn’t blame yourself for that.” I spoke out, trying to comfort him.He turned to look at me as I continued, “You got separated. So there was absolutely no way you’d have been there for her.”Sewing in his sob, he spoke. “Apparently, she got pregnant and my parent already got me betrothed to Trisha right from when we were growing up because Trisha's family are also rich and they needed that contracted marriage.”“So I’m sure Camille’s mother figured it all out. That was the reason she took her

  • FINDING TRUE LOVE(Beyond Beauty)   CHAPTER 76

    I didn’t know what to do next. One part of me wanted to storm out and confront Lizzy, while another part of me stayed frozen in shock.I stood there, unsure of how to react, as Lizzy continued her conversation, oblivious to my presence.As I stood there, I knew that my relationship with Seven would never be the same. The secrets and lied had created a rift, and I wasn’t sure if it would be amended.My secrets to him and his to me. He knew about all of this, and he made me think that I was overreacting.With my trembling hands, I wiped my tears, and gradually, without making a noise, I went out of her room.I approached the gate, pushed it open, and went into my car. I let my tears fall because I knew it was over for me.Trying to relax my racing heart, I placed my hands on my chest to calm myself. My drugs were in my bag, so there was no way I’d stop a huge panic attack if it set in.My hands caught my steering wheel, so I puffed out the gagging air in my throat, then revved the engin

  • FINDING TRUE LOVE(Beyond Beauty)   CHAPTER 75

    Still contemplating, tears continued to spill out of my eyes, and I quickly took my hands to wipe them out. Slowly, I turned around to look at Lizzy. She glanced at me without saying anything. Giving me the expression of, do whatever it is you want, she moved her step to reach the stairs, going up. Lizzy’s behavior dumbfounded me, because she had never acted like that before. She left me alone to face this all by myself. Sluggishly, I nodded, picked my bag from the couch and went straight to the wine cellar to get a full bottle of wine before moving to my room. Slamming the door shut, I didn’t bother to take another step. I just slumped to the floor and wrapped my knee close to my face and cried my eyes out. I was selfish. Maybe I should have trusted him and now he has left me. I did this to myself. I let anger and jealousy fuel inside me so badly that I didn’t see who he really was. How true of a man he has been to me. I stayed there, on the ground and cried for hours an

Explore and read good novels for free
Free access to a vast number of good novels on GoodNovel app. Download the books you like and read anywhere & anytime.
Read books for free on the app
SCAN CODE TO READ ON APP
DMCA.com Protection Status