Okay, so maybe I wasn’t completely naked because I was and still am in my panties, but that’s still a whole lot more skin than I wanted him to see. And he covered me with a sheet, which means he didn’t want to see any more of me either.
“Don’t worry, I didn’t see much.” His quiet voice has me spinning my head to my other side, cutting off a cry of pain when my leg twinges, and there on the floor beside the bookcase, with a book draped over a raised denim covered knee, is Mack. I should’ve known he was already in the room, but with his scent everywhere, I wasn’t paying attention. “Uh, thanks?” “No worries.” After closing the book, he shoves it back in the bookcase before rising smoothly to his feet. I’m desperate to know what he was reading, but I’m also desperate for him to leave so I don’t have to look into his face and know he saw me naked, stretched out on the floor like a beached whale. I know I’m not fat since I’m built like most shifters, lean and athletic, but still… At the door, just before he leaves, he turns and regards me steadily for a long moment. “My priority was making sure you were okay.” Relief surges through me. “And are you okay?” he asks when I don’t respond. “Yeah. Yeah, I’m good.” “Good,” he murmurs, and then he pulls the door open, keeping his back to me. “But what little I saw, I liked. A lot. Now, get some rest and I’ll bring up some lunch.” Then he steps out and closes the door behind him. For an eternity, I do nothing but stare. Why does the thought of him liking me make me feel warm all over? And why for the first time since I ran from Shane, is there a smile stretching across my face as I settle back in bed? The next morning, I’m sitting at the dining table in a cozy red and gray Shaker-style kitchen with six shifters, including Mack and Bennett, and I can’t stop thinking about how small this pack is. Back in the Boones, my father’s pack, we viewed six as a small family, not an entire pack. But, given that I was a rare exception, the sole child in a family of two, just my father and me after my mother died, I think I recovered more quickly than any other shifter would have to learn a pack could be this small. If I hadn’t been an omega, I’d have been raised with the other children my age, but because of what I was, I was mostly alone or with my father’s beta, Moses. No one really knew what to do with me, or where I fit in. I thought that would change when I met my mate. I spent years dreaming and daydreaming that I’d find a place that I belonged, and where I would fit, but it was worse at the Dacre pack. A lot worse. Don’t think of that here, Aerin. No one wants an uninvited guest crying at the breakfast table. Not when breakfast has barely even started. Although I’ve mostly been keeping my gaze fixed on my plate so I don’t draw any more attention than I have already; the Winter Lake pack has been darting glances filled with as much curiosity about me as I must have about them. Tina, the girl with the sunny smile and gold hair sitting beside the gruff-sounding, dark-haired guy she introduced as her mate, Warren, seems the friendliest so far. He has to be even taller than Bennett, but his sweet smile convinced me that their height and size are about all they have in common. The other two pack members haven’t said a lot. The guy that Mack introduced as Chris glanced at me once and hasn’t again. Either he’s starving because he’s barely looked up from his plate, or he’s just not that interested in me. Penny, the red-headed girl sitting beside Mack, is the one who seems the most curious about me since she’s the one peeking at me more than the others. They seemed nice when Mack introduced everyone to me. Quiet though. I’m not sure if it’s because Bennett, the one shifter whose name I have no trouble remembering, has warned them against talking to me. It wouldn’t surprise me if he had, since he barely looked at me, much less grunted good morning before slumping into his seat opposite, dressed in a pair of stained and worn blue overalls that tells me he wasn’t just filling the truck at the gas station. He works there. Out of everyone at the table, he also looks the oldest, or maybe it’s the heavy scowl on his face that makes him appear so much older than the early twenties everyone else seems to be. Mack has set a place for someone else in the seat beside mine. Who this person is is a mystery because, from the conversations I’ve been eavesdropping from my table mates, I haven’t heard even one mention of who it might be. All I know is, it has been another member of this tiny pack since Mack said there were seven of them. But I don’t dare ask because if there’s one thing I’ve learned during my runaway and the many hours I’ve spent on buses, it’s that questions lead to more questions. Mack, however, is proving to be an exception to that rule. Every question I’ve asked hasn’t led to him asking one back, which he’d have every right to do since I’m a complete stranger, and potentially a threat. A threat? Maybe if you’d stop hurting yourself then someone would consider you a threat, but right now? Not so much. Considering I’m a strange shifter who’s wandered into another pack’s territory, I’m lucky to be alive. If Mack wandered into my father’s, or Shane’s pack, he wouldn’t last five minutes. But here I’m being cared for. I’m being treated better, at least by Mack, than I ever have at my father’s pack or my mates’. The other day, Mack brought up a meal for me. Somehow, he guessed I loved tacos, how I don’t know, but when he walked in with a plate of both chicken and beef tacos, I could’ve kissed him. After he handed me a clean t-shirt to wear, turning his back so I could tug it over my head, he helped me sit up as painlessly as he could and set the tray in my lap. While I ate, he leaned against the wall beside the open window and chatted away about the people of Winter Lake, like how Mr. Pilsner who visits the library every Monday will fake having weak knees so Nancy from the flower shop will come out and help him down the library stairs. It was strangely entertaining, even though I had no idea who he was talking about. For someone who’s spent days—years, if I’m honest—eating alone, being always alone, it was a pleasure I’d never had before. So I ate slowly, hoping to draw the moment out until I reached my last mouthful and had to stifle a massive yawn. Mack reacted at once, straightening from his lean and setting to work. After he cleared the tray away, he helped me lie down. The last thing I remember before falling asleep was him pulling the sheets over me. Then it was morning and Mack was gently waking to ask me if I wanted to come down and meet the rest of the pack at breakfast. Although I wanted to tell him I would’ve preferred to stay alone in bed, I didn’t. I couldn’t. Not with the memory of everything he’d already done for me still so fresh in my mind. So, I accepted the invitation to breakfast, his offer to carry me to the bathroom, and then his help to slip into a pair of his sweatpants and another clean t-shirt before he carried me down the stairs. “You want more bacon, Aerin?” Mack asks when he notices I’ve eaten the five pieces on my plate and I’m just now turning to the scrambled eggs. I eye the massive pile of gloriously crispy bacon on the other side of the table on a large white platter. I tell myself I’m being greedy since no one else has gone back for seconds yet. And even though I know no one will think anything out of the ordinary if I wanted seconds, or even thirds, since we shifters eat a lot, I hesitate. “Umm.” “So, yes then?” Mack grins at me. After another pause, I nod once. Mack turns to Bennett and snaps his hand out. “Bennett. The bacon.” I forget all about the bacon and lean back from the table, my body tense and ready for the inevitable explosion I imagine is a hairbreadth away. But when Bennett lifts his head from his plate, calmly picks up the platter of bacon, and hands it over to Mack without a word, I’m more confused than ever. I shift my focus to Mack, who has his hand out expectantly, waiting for the plate. He doesn’t look like he’s about to dive to the floor, which I would fully expect anyone to be in the process of doing if they gave an order like that to an alpha. But he’s not the only one acting like it’s perfectly normal for a beta to speak that bluntly to an alpha. The rest of the pack are still quietly chatting among themselves as they eat their breakfast and sip their orange juice or coffee. Maybe they’re keeping their head down to avoid attracting Bennett’s attention. My gaze goes back to Bennett, as I wait for the alpha of the Winter Lake Pack to pull Mack up about ordering him about. If anyone from Shane or my father’s pack ever spoke to them like that, they’d be lucky if they were still breathing after. Once Mack takes the platter from a nonplussed Bennett, he’s forking bacon on my plate when he must sense I’m distracted. He glances into my face. “You okay?” I snap my mouth shut, which is when I realize I must’ve had it hanging half-open all this time. “Uh, sure. Just surprised.” For a second confusion clouds Mack’s face, and then it clears away as if he’s just realized something. “You mean about the way I spoke to Bennett.” “Uh, well, yeah actually.” “Oh, it’s just the way we are.” I glance over at Bennett to confirm if what Mack is saying is the truth or if he’s merely waiting for Mack to lower his guard before lunging across the table at him. My worry is more about self- preservation because I’m sitting next to Mack, which means there’s a strong possibility that I’ll be a casualty if I don’t get out of the way quick enough. Bennett just looks confused.For the first time, he talks directly to me, like I’m stupid, but he talks to me. Which I guess is something. “I don’t understand why. In your pack doesn’t your al—”“What Bennett means,” Mack interrupts, making my eyes widen with shock because a beta interrupting an alpha like that is practically unheard of, “is that there are different dynamics in all packs. His role doesn’t mean he’s always the only one giving orders.”I stare at him in confusion. “But that’s what an alpha does. Give orders.”Penny has a coughing fit and Mack turns to clap her on the back. Once she’s stopped, he continues speaking. “Things are a little more fluid here.”Since I’ve never heard, or seen any pack dynamic like this—where the beta can order the alpha to do something and there’s no pushback, I shift my focus back to Bennett to see what he’s making of all this.Bennett’s expression is completely blank. “Alpha,” he murmurs.“Alpha,” Mack repeats with a wide smile. “Now, did you want more bacon, Aerin?”I l
Although Adela stops wrapping to glance up at me, she doesn’t call me a liar, and neither does Mack, though they must be able to tell I’m not being entirely truthful.Mack’s eyes dip to my stomach. “Did you want to talk to Adela about the baby while she’s here? I can wait outside if you want?”You mean why did I run away from my mate? Uh, no thanks.They, Adela at least, think I’ve been abused. I caught her glances as if she were searching out bruises or cuts, but it’s pointless. Not just because we shifters heal too fast to leave lasting bruises. There are some wounds, some hurts that aren’t on the outside. They cut too deep for that.The worst was the indifference, I think. The way Shane would turn away when I was speaking as if what I had to say wasn’t important, or the way he wouldn’t care if I saw him disappearing with Bree. He’d return still doing up his pants as if he wanted me to know what they’d been doing. And if I somehow missed it, he’d stand next to where I was sitting
Soon it gets dark enough that Mack returns to lower the blinds and draw the curtains. I pretend to be asleep when he switches on the lamp beside my bed and turns off the overhead lights. I lay perfectly still, taking slow measured breaths until he leaves. His steps are light, unhurried, as he makes his way down the thickly carpeted hallway.After a short time in the bathroom, the sounds of running water stop and he moves into what must be another bedroom further down the hallway. The sounds now are quieter as he readies himself for bed.And then the house is still.Even then, I don’t move. Not until I know he’s gone to bed. Not until I’m sure he must’ve fallen asleep.Then, only when the house is completely silent do I sit up, peel the covers off me, and use both hands to shift my injured leg to the floor.At the first contact my toes make with the floor, I suck in a breath at the sharp pain. For several minutes I sit on the edge of the bed, just breathing in and out as I work myself
I catch the brief flash of relief in his eyes before he nods. “No one here will hurt you or threaten you, or do anything that you don’t want them to do. Not because I would stop them, but because no one in Winter Lake is like that.”I don’t even try to hide my disbelief because a pack like that doesn’t exist. My father hosted more than his fair share of alphas from all around the country, so if anyone would know, it would be me. It’s not even just that. Although I believe he won’t hurt me, he’s not the one I’m worried about.Mack wouldn’t be able to do a damn thing to stop the one person who has the power to do the most harm. Not unless he wanted to challenge Bennett for leadership of the pack, and after seeing the size of Bennett, I doubt Mack would want to do that. I doubt Mack would survive that.Right now, it seems he’s been able to talk Bennett into letting me stay, at least until my leg is healed. After that? I’ll be lucky if the door doesn’t hit me on the way out. That’s if Be
I guess protein bars aren’t a real food after all. “So, what do you want to do today?” Mack asks. I shrug. “I don’t know.”Although Mack has said it’s okay for me to read and watch TV and do nothing for three days, it’s hard to know what I actually want to do.Since I left the Dacre pack, I’ve spent all my time either moving to the next place or thinking about where I’d go next, because I knew staying in one place for too long would make it easier for Shane to track me.Although the Dacre pack is in a small town in Minnesota, the bus station doesn’t go to a lot of places. A determined shifter could track me, and Shane has every reason to be determined. His father taking away his position as alpha would do it.Winter Lake was supposed to be my short break. A place to catch my breath before I headed east to lose myself in New York. A city where there must be so many places to hide that no shifter nose could track me if I lost myself there. At least I hope not.I could even ask Mack to b
Sometimes the presence of an omega will unearth the deeper problems buried in the heart of the pack, making it easier for her to heal. It’s a little harder to ignore the malicious glee in their voices.It doesn’t take five minutes surrounded by the pack to know that my being here won’t change things because I don’t want to be anywhere near them, much less heal them.“You think he told her?” I hear someone else murmur, and once again I avoid looking in their direction. The last thing I want to be accused of is eavesdropping when I’ve barely been here a day.I can feel more lingering glances. They’re trying to figure out where I belong in the pack hierarchy, but just as with the Boone pack, I know I won’t fit here either. I feel the difference between us, even between me and Shane who’s supposed to be the one I’m closest to in the world. The other half of my soul.Shane’s pack is full of energy and fighting spirit. There are a lot of dominant personalities here. I feel them clashing an
So, I tried to read their emotions as they disappeared into the forest, and all I got for my trouble was a migraine that lasted for three hours, and a bad case of dizziness that made me throw up.When I missed dinner, Shane’s father came to visit me, probably thinking it meant Shane had finally gotten me pregnant. One sniff later and he was away again, leaving me alone in a dark room with a pounding head and the world spinning around me.No one else came to see if I was okay. No one cared.But this time, the distance between me, Mack, and Bennett isn’t as great as it was back then, and we’re all outside, so it should prevent me from getting a migraine. Even if it does, if I learn something important, it’ll be worth it.Opening myself up like this isn’t easy, and the only reason I know how is because the omega who trained me explicitly warned me never to attempt it.It takes every ounce of my concentration to cast my senses out in a tightly focused way because all around me I’m surrou
Adela narrows her clear blue eyes, the wrinkled skin around her eyes creasing even more. “You’d better. Now, I have something for you.”As I was fully expecting Adela to leave after she’d examined my leg and told me it was well on the way to healing, I’m surprised she’s still here.But then, I remember she practically shoved Mack out of the lounge before she checked my leg, so I guess I’m about to find out the reason why.Mack, thankfully, didn’t tell her about my escape attempt out of his bedroom window before he left. I doubt it would’ve gone well with Adela. So, he’s in the kitchen tidying up the remains of the breakfast we shared that morning.After my overheard conversation from the day before, Mack gave me ice cream, water, and more food than I could ever hope to eat. But despite all his care, my headache soon transformed into a migraine so bad that I went to bed early. When he suggested it was because of the sun, I didn’t correct him. I couldn’t. I was in too much pain by then
‘Why not?’ Sylvie had questioned curiously, her adoring teenage heart thumping frantically at the thought of being married to Ran, of being his wife, of sharing his life, his bed… A delicious shiver of anticipatory pleasure had run through her as she’d willed her stepbrother to say that there was a mysterious someone in Ran’s life, far too young for him as yet, a special someone...herself…But instead, disappointingly, prosaically, Alex had told her, ‘An estate manager’s salary and tied accommodation in a small cottage are hardly up to the standard or style of living that the women Ran dates are used to, and he’s far too proud to want to live off his wife...’‘The women...?’ Sylvie had flared unhappily, whilst her mother, who had been listening to their conversation, had chipped in disparagingly.‘Ran would be far better off marrying some farmer’s daughter, a girl who’s been brought up for that kind of lifestyle...’Sylvie remembered how Alex’s eyebrows had risen at this display of s
It was several seconds before Ran bothered to respond to her unrehearsed but determinedly distancing little speech, and for a moment Sylvie thought that he was actually going to ignore what she had said, but then he turned towards her and said, ‘So what you’re saying is that it’s to be purely business between us, is that it?’It took every ounce of courage that Sylvie possessed, and then some, for her to be able to meet the look he was giving her full-on, but somehow or other she managed to do so, even if the effort left her perilously short of breath and with her heart pounding almost as painfully as her head, She agreed coolly, ‘Yes.’Ran was the one to look away first, his face hardening as he glanced briefly at her mouth before doing so.‘Well, if that’s what you want, so be it,’ he told her crisply, returning his attention to his driving.His response, instead of making her feel relieved, left her feeling... What?Disappointed that he hadn’t challenged her, hadn’t given her the o
The next thing she knew, Ran was taking her very firmly by the arm and propelling her towards the door, ignoring her protests to leave her alone.At the top of the stairs, to her infuriated chagrin, he turned round and swung her up into his arms, telling her through gritted teeth, ‘If you’re going to faint on me, Sylvie, then here’s the best place to do it.’She wanted to tell him that fainting was the last thing she intended to do, but her face was pressed against the warm flesh of his throat and if she tried to speak her lips would be touching his skin and then…Swallowing hard, Sylvie tried to concentrate on banishing the agonizing pain in her head but it was something that she couldn’t just will away. As she knew from past experience, the only way of getting rid of it was for her to go to bed and sleep it off.They were downstairs now and Ran was crossing the hallway, thrusting open the door and carrying her out into the fresh air.‘What are you doing?’ she demanded as he walked p
They were supposed to be confined to the park area surrounding the house and not cropping the grazing he needed for his sheep. There must be a break in the fence somewhere—the new fence which he had just severely depleted his carefully hoarded bank balance to buy—which meant…There had been rumors about rustlers being in the area; other farmers had reported break-ins and losses.Once he had seen Sylvie settled at the house he would have to come back out and check the fencing.Sylvie winced as the Land Rover hit a rut in the road, sitting up and just about managing to suppress a sharp cry of pain—or at least she thought she had suppressed it until she heard Ran asking her curtly, ‘What is it? What’s wrong?’‘Nothing... I’ve got a headache, that’s all,’ she stressed offhandedly, but her face flushed as she saw the look he was giving her and she realized that he wasn’t deceived.‘A headache?’ he queried dryly. ‘It looks more like a migraine to me. Have you got some medication for it
Haverton Hall’s rooms might not possess quite the vastness of the palazzo’s marble-floored rooms, nor the fading grandeur of the Prague palace, but Sylvie had already lost count of the number of salons and ante-chambers they had walked through on the lower floor. The gallery felt as though it stretched for miles, and as she studied the dusty wooden floor of the ballroom her heart sank at the thought of inspecting its lofty plasterwork ceiling and its elegantly inlaid paneling. And they still had the upper floors to go over! But she couldn’t afford to show any weakness in front of Ran and have him crowing over her. No way. And so, ignoring the warning beginnings of a throbbing headache, she took a deep breath and began to inspect the paneling.‘The first thing we’re going to need to do is to get a report on the extent of the dry rot,’ she told Ran in a firmly businesslike voice.He stopped her. ‘That won’t be necessary.’ Sylvie paused and turned to look angrily at him.‘Ran, there’
The shaming fact was that, no matter how she tried to convince herself otherwise, she had done exactly what she had promised herself she would not do and allowed him to take the upper hand. And worse than that...far worse...she had... Quickly she swallowed the frighteningly familiar and painful lump of aching emptiness she could feel blocking the back of her throat. No way... She was not going down that road again...not for a king’s ransom. The arrogant, selfish, almost cruel way Ran had just behaved towards her proved everything she had ever learned about him. She was under no illusions about why he had kissed her like that... It was his way of reminding her not just of the past, but also of his superiority...of telling her that, whilst she might be the one who was in charge of the project they were going to be working on together, he still had the power to control her...to control her and to hurt her.Sylvie turned swiftly on her heel, not waiting for him to see the emotions she
FIVE miles or so before her ultimate destination Sylvie pulled the car she had hired at the airport over to the side of the road and switched off the engine—not because she was unsure of where she was going, not even because she wanted to absorb the beauty of the Derbyshire countryside around her, magnificent though it was as it basked warmly in the mid-afternoon sunshine, devoid of any sign of human occupation apart from her own.No, the reason she had stopped was that she had been tellingly aware for the last few miles not just of the slight dampness of her hands on the steering wheel but, even more betraying, of the increasing turmoil of her thoughts and the nervous butterflies churning her stomach.When she finally met...confronted...Ran, she wanted to be calm and in control of both herself and the situation. She was not, she reminded herself sternly, meeting him as an idealistic teenager who had fallen so disastrously and desperately in love with him, but as a woman, a woman who
‘Just wait until you see it, though, Sylvie. You’ll love it. It’s a perfect example of...’ ‘We’re already very close to the limit of this year’s budget,’ Sylvie warned him sternly, ‘and—’ ‘So what? We’ll just have to increase this year’s funding,’ Lloyd told her with typical laid-back geniality.‘Lloyd,’ Sylvie protested, ‘you’re talking about an increase of heaven alone knows how many million dollars... The Trust...’‘I am the Trust,’ Lloyd reminded her gently, and Sylvie had to acknowledge that he spoke the truth. Even so, she gave him an ironic look to which he responded by informing her loftily, ‘I’m just doing what I know the old man would have wanted me to do...’‘By buying a decaying neoclassical pile in the middle of Derbyshire?’ Sylvie asked him dryly.And she was still shaking her head as Lloyd told her winningly, ‘You’ll love it, Sylvie...I promise you!’Cravenly Sylvie was tempted to tell him that she was far too busy and that he would have to find someone else to take ch
‘YOU’RE not serious...’Sylvie frowned as she studied the synopsis pinned to the front of the file her employer had just handed her.Lloyd Kelmer the fourth was the kind of eccentric billionaire who, by rights, only ought to have existed in fairy stories—as a particularly genial and indulgent godfather, Sylvie thought. She had been introduced to him at a party to which she had been invited by some acquaintances of her stepbrother’s. She had only gone to the party because she had been feeling particularly lost and insignificant, having only recently left her American college and moved to New York. They had got chatting and Lloyd had begun to tell her about the trials and traumas he had experienced in running the huge wealthy Trust set up by his grandfather.‘The old man had this thing about stately homes, I guess I kinda feel the same.He owned a fair handful of the things himself, so he kinda had a taste for them, if you know what I mean. There was the plantation down in Carolina an