CHAPTER 2

Daisy's POV

The rays of the sun penetrating my window curtains surrounded my room and woke me up. 

I opened my eyes and realized it was a new day. I tried to jump down like I do every morning. I usually jump down from my bed, keep my feet in my pom rug for a while to massage it before going over to my exercise area.

I always make sure to exercise every morning to keep fit and for my butt. I used to have a very tiny waist but ever since I started my daily exercise routine, the story changed. When I first got into high school, my friends used to make fun of me because of that.

As I tried to jump down, I let out a cry of discomfort as the memories came rushing back. The memories of the night before. 

My body became weak all of a sudden and I discovered my whole body was aching and burning up like hell.

The reality dawned on me. 

I had my first kiss and first sex with a stranger. Someone I didn't even bother to ask his name, the name of his school, or even where he stays. I was stupid.

He used my naivety and weakness to his advantage

I've always wanted to experience what it feels like to be kissed and to have a bit of romantic intimacy with a man but I was not prepared emotionally and mentally for sex.

Dad used to say sex is addictive.

But I wanted to have a little experience before I go off to Oxford University. 

My friend, Maria, had a boyfriend and she was already sexually active even before I began to menstruate. She used to tell me how Eric makes her feel and makes her yell out in bed. She tried to hook me up with Eric's friend, Peter but I didn't like him.

After I had experienced what sex is like, I couldn't deny the fact that it was an amazing experience. But I was mad at him… I mean the guy.

I didn't know his name and I doubt if he knows mine. I told him I didn't want to have sex but he went ahead digging into me till I gave in.

That was more like rape. It was against my wish. I only wanted him to kiss me and make me feel I was normal like every other teenager out there. I was trying to prove a point to myself. Maria said I was abnormal.

"You've never kissed anyone but your dad. You've never had sex with anyone before", Maria would say.

Maria was a crazy girl and she behaved like a slut. She said that was what her boyfriend likes...an audacious, crazy, and sexy lady.

I could remember Maria once asked if I was a lesbian and I screamed "no" in response.

She kept saying to my ears that I was abnormal. I asked myself the same question every day and I decided to use our graduation party to my advantage…to prove a point to myself. 

But it turned out that a stranger used my predicament to his advantage...to satisfy himself. He wasn't gentle on me except for the initial stage.

I intended to go to the party and have Denis kiss me so I'd have a tale to tell Maria the next day. She was always the one with a tale to tell but I wanted the story to change. I wanted to tell her how it feels like to kiss a man. But sex was totally out of the question.

Denis had a crush on me and I was always nice to him. He was my classmate and I told him I was not interested in him so he won't take my niceness for a yes.

I know Denis would be happy if I asked him to kiss me. 

If he kiss me, I would be happy that I was able to prove my point and he would be happy too, I thought before going to the party. 

But that never happened. I didn't even see Denis at all.

My subconscious answered. "How will you see him when you are doing something else?"

"Oh! Goodness," I covered my face in my palms.

"I'm ashamed of myself."

I was ashamed because the thought of sex was annoying and exciting at the same time. I felt like a real woman for the first time. 

I enjoyed the sex, it was heavenly. When he pulled out of me, I felt his absence. 

He teased me with it several times, making me crave for him. I felt fulfilled when he was inside of me.

I sighed as I shook my head, trying to get rid of the thoughts and memories. I muttered the strength to stand up and I cried in pain as a tear rolled down my eyes. I almost fell back onto the bed but held myself up. My stamina helped me out. 

That was the benefit of keeping fit.

The soreness in my little kitty was hurting like hell. 

'Is this what sex is all about? Pleasure and pain? If that was it, then I'm done with sex for this lifetime', I soliloquized.

Getting pleasured during the sex and crying out my eyes after the whole thing is done. I walked slowly to the bathroom folding my arms around my bosom. My nipples were aching too. I remembered how he sucked and chewed on it like a cake, now I was suffering the pain.

I heard a voice that sounded like Maria's as I entered the bathroom and pulled off my clothes. I smiled to myself and I thought. "I'd have something to tell Maria. I'd finally be able to prove to her that I am mentally ok and not a lesbian like she claimed I was."

I remember the day Maria forced me to watch porn. That girl was indeed crazy!

She made me watch all sorts of porn movies but I didn't find any of them interesting and arousing. That increased my fears.

Maria said I had porn phobia and I would eventually die of it, just like Lucy. I really have no idea if it was a made-up story or if it was real.

"Dee-dee", Maria called, coming into my room.

"Uhm?" I answered from the bathroom as I allowed the hot water from the shower to pour all over me from my hair. The water made me feel relaxed and I freed myself, spreading my hand out and my leg while breathing out air.

"Be a quick girl. Don't keep me waiting" Maria hollered.

"Uhm" I mumbled as a reply.

I allowed my entire body to enjoy the sweetness of the hot water. Then I shampooed my hair and washed my body. I opened my legs wide and washed my private part, letting the hot water wash the pain away.

I shut my eyes, enjoying the sweetness of the hot water on my private part as a flash of my one-night stand came back and I opened my eyes sharply. "What the hell!."

I didn't want the memories. 

I allowed the water to wash through me once again and finally stepped out of the bathroom with my towel. I tried to walk normally so Maria wouldn't notice a thing. The pain had reduced already but the soreness still lingered.

"Hello baby girl, how was your night?" Maria grinned.

She was going through my drawer. I know what she was looking for...a novel. That was what we had in common.

She loved novels just like I do. We buy and exchange them after reading. She usually gave me hers and I do the same in return. 

I stopped asking her for novels the moment she started reading erotic books. She reads it to pleasure herself whenever Eric wasn't around. She gave me one of those books and when I read it, I began to feel uncomfortable, so I stopped reading it.

That intensified Maria's fear of my abnormality. To be honest, it increased mine too.

"It was fine." I sighed and pushed her away from my drawer. I sat down in front of my dressing mirror to apply my body lotion as she loomed above me. "You are no longer allowed to take my books. Go read your erotica."

She chuckled. "You can't forbid me. I need to read thrillers and suspense-filled books at the moment. Eric is around so I don't need erotic books now."

I whirled around to get a view of her face. "What pleasure do you get from reading it?" I inquired with a scowl.

"What? You mean erotics?" I nodded. "Oh my Goodness! What do you know?" She laughed.

"Are you telling me or not?" I feigned annoyance.

"Ok. Whenever I get to the part where the ML and the FL begin to have sex, I always imagine it was Eric and me and I'd get wet. It will make it a gateway to masturbating" she grinned proudly.

"What are ML and FL?" I asked, looking past the stupid grin plastered on her face.

She rolled her eyes and answered. "Male lead and female lead. Every book has that."

"Oh!" I murmured, comprehending what she meant. I finished applying the lotion on my body as she succeeded in grabbing one of my favorite books titled "Master of the Game" by Sidney Sheldon.

She moved away to lay on the bed while I walked over to my closet to search for a simple dress to wear.

'Now that I was out of high school, I'd have time to read more books and if possible, I'd try to start my first book. I'm just scared that it won't sell, even though dad is encouraging me to give it a try, I thought.

"How was the party last night?" She questioned all of a sudden.

"It was great."

"I'm sorry I didn't stick to you all through the night." She apologized.

"Yeah. You were busy with your sweet boyfriend to have noticed what your best friend was doing all through the night and I'm sure you both ended everything up in bed." I finished in one breath as I wore my shorts.

Maria smiled. "Actually, we did it in the toilet…"

"What the hell!" I exclaimed. "Toilet? That's ridiculous."

"We wanted to try something new. I see nothing wrong with that. I sat on the slab and he…."

"Spare me the details please", I snapped.

She shrugged and laid down. "I know you wouldn't want to hear it so why ask? Virgin Mary." She mocked.

"Or did something interesting happen last night?" she asked, covering her face with the book.

I wondered how she gets to talk and read at the same time. How she managed to comprehend what she was reading remained a mystery. I wanted to disclose what happened but something was holding me back.

I needed to tell her. She was the reason why it happened in the first place.

"Yes", I answered. "I had sex" I finally blurted out.

"What?" She exclaimed and threw the book away. "When? Where? How?"

"At the party. In the car. And roughly", I answered with a smirk.

"Oh Goodness! Daisy, you are no longer a virgin?" She held my hands and looked at me from head to toe like someone who had grown horns.

"Yeah."

"How was it?"

"It was amazing. But the after-effects hurt like hell."

She chuckled. "That's because it's your first."

"Really? I thought that's what sex is like. Pain after pleasure."

"No, no. You are wrong. You will get used to it with time.

I shook my head and thought, There is no next time.

"So who was the lucky guy?" She went back to sit as she examined me. I followed and sat down beside her. "A guy from another school."

"Wao! So you got f****d by those hot guys?"

"Stop using the F word, please. That's bad of you."

"Were you not f****d?" She laughed and hugged me. "I'm proud of you, baby."

"So you see, I'm not abnormal", I smiled triumphantly.

"Yeah. You've proved my thesis wrong. You are now sexually active", she shouted.

"Yeah."

"I hope you used protection", she uttered more like a question and my mouth dropped open.

Maria gasped and demanded. "Daisy, don't tell me you didn't use protection."