CHAPTER THIRTY THREELILYLooking out the window as we drive down to Ingrid’s house, I can not stop thinking. Thinking about everything, Life in general has not been fair to me. I must have been a really horrible person in my past life, that must be why I am suffering from all of this emotional trauma right now.Hearing bits of Nickolas' convo earlier, I know he is hiding things from me and not telling me the whole truth, Just another thing for me to add to my list of things I do not know I guess.I hate this feeling that is creeping up on me; the feeling of helplessness.“Are you okay?” Nickolas asks me.“I am okay.”I say this even though I know I am far from it and by the look I see him giving me from the corner of my eye I know he does not buy my story one bit.“It will be fine.” He says this and lays his hand on my thighs.I do not move as he does this because a part of me thinks this is a mistake. Maybe he was reaching for the gear shift and then he put his hands on me. I realiz
CHAPTER THIRTY FOURNICKOLASI enter into my apartment to see Scot sitting on my couch with his legs crossed. The judgemental look he is giving me is crazy but some reason it makes me want to laugh as well.“Hi.” I say. The guilt in my voice is evident. I was not expecting him to still be here when I came back but Immediately I turned the key in the doorknob and it was loose. I knew he was still here.I dread this conversation we are about to have. I do not want to tell him that I think I have now fallen for this girl who I came here to seek revenge on and who I have kept on insisting is my enemy. A part of me knows he has already figured it out hence the judgemental looks he is throwing my way.He motions for me to take a seat without even saying a word.I sit down and look at him and we both sit in silence. This is something he always did to me, just sit and wait for me to croak under the silence. Scot is extremely manipulative but then he is my friend and I know him better than any
CHAPTER THIRTY FIVELILYI am screaming at the top of my voice as I barge into the house looking for my mother.“Come out mom. Where are you?”I see her rush down the staircase to meet me. She looks so teary eyed as she appears and moves in to hug me.“My daughter.”I put my hands in front of us to create a wall in order to prevent the hug.“Save it. I am not your daughter and you know it. How could you do this to me?”She breaks down in tears as I continue talking.“All these years you lied to me and for what? So you could play at being a mother? You allowed me suffer all this emotional stress I went through in the hands of your husband while you watched and could not defend me. What sort of a mother is that?”“Lily.” she says to me.The tears I see in her eyes are genuine and I can see that my words sting her. My emotions are not wavering either ways because as much as I her I also know that she had no right to do what she did.I walked into this house with an anger that rivalled th
CHAPTER THIRTY SIXNICKOLASAs I ascend the stairs to my apartment, all I can think of is how the person that could have aided in this investigation is dead and it is all because of me. If he had not reached out he probably would still be alive right now. I can not stop running down possibilities in my head. Who killed him? I already know the answer to this one or rather I have an idea of who it is since I do not still have any valid proof to support my claim but definitely one names keeps on popping in my head. Robert.He definitely has to be behind this, I mean there is no other explanation for this. But then how did he find out about the meeting? How did he know what we were talking about? Does he have somebody following me? No that can not be possible I check my surroundings every single day so the leak definitely did not come from me. It has to be the informant.I do not even have an idea who the guy is or rather was. I can not even think of the next step to take now that this
CHAPTER THIRTY SEVENLILY“Are you ready to talk to me about what happened?” Ingrid asks, as she releases me from her arms. I have been in there for a while now but it certainly did not feel like it. I feel so relaxed right now, compared to how I felt when I walked in.I still feel the anger inside me.“I hate them.” I blurt out.Ingrid looks at me intently and then lets out a sigh.“I can tell you are angry and that is probably how you feel right now. These are people that have raised you your whole life. They looked out for you and provided for you.”“Are you trying to defend them right now.” I snap at her. “After everything they have done… after they stole from you and caused you this much pain?”“No I am not defending them. I am the last person that will do that, especially not after everything they have done. What I am saying is this. Like it or not, they are still people that you care about deeply and sooner or later you are going to have to forgive them.”I take a brief pause a
CHAPTER THIRTY EIGHTNICKOLASI bang on Ingrid’s door one more time. All through the drive here I keep on praying that I am wrong about what I think and the call from Lily was not referring to her but at the back of my mind I know.All through the car drive here I keep on thinking of what could have happened. Everything seems to be happening so fast and it is becoming hard for me to wrap my mind around a lot of things. I have to take things one step at a time, first I have to deal with this.Scot hits on the door as well.“Ingrid!” I shout. “Lily!” “Is anybody home?” Scot yells.We both know they are inside because the security guard confirmed it earlier. He had seen Lily enter earlier but had not seen her leave yet. “I am going to break it down.” I say to Scot.“Is that not a bit too rash? Maybe they are indeed not inside.” He sees the reaction on my face as soon as he says this and he quickly quietens down. I am in no mood to be second guessing things like this and besides if I a
CHAPTER THIRTY NINELILY“No no.” I kept on shouting while I ran.The woods were so dark and I could not see where I was going, all I knew was I had to get away from the creature chasing me.I could hear it coming behind me as I ran and the more I ran the more I felt its claws behind me. It felt like it was about digging into the back of my head when I fell and rolled down the hill. I stood back up but I could not run anymore. Rooted to the spot, I kept on hearing growling coming from the dark woods in front of me. My legs feel like logs of wood as they have been overcome by exhaustion. What do I do now? What can I do? I kept on asking myself this question as I lay down there clutching on to my legs in fear. The terror kept on resonating through my body as I felt the wind blow through my face. I The first thing I saw were its eyes as It shone through the darkness. Red and filled with anger. It bared down at me, It was after me. The creature.I willed myself to get up and keep on r
CHAPTER FOURTYNICKOLAS This is the time to take actionThis is the only thought in my mind as I walk into the building with purpose. No one stops me at first as I walk with authority through the doors of the office building. The security probably think I own the place and none of them dare to stop me even though they have never seen me before.I see the receptionist at the desk, I should probably ask her for directions to the office I am looking for. But then again, if I do that she is definitely going to know I do not belong in the building and it will be way harder to get in. I need to talk to him, this is one of the cards I have been amassing over the past month and it is time to play it. My eyes and that of the receptionists meet briefly as I pause in the hallway of the building thinking of my next course of action. She watches me for a while as I try to make up my mind on whether to take the steps or the elevator. “May I help you with something?” She finally asks, as she look