Chapter seven

IVY’S POV

My heart is pummeling so fast and hard. My body hair is tingling. I move from the bed and check my wardrobe, hurling my clothes from the hanger to the floor. I still can’t find my money.

My feet is cold and there is this unexplained snap in my heart. I still can’t understand what is happening. How is this even possible? My life savings gone like that without a clue.

I wobble with my eyes rolling from one uncertain point to the other. “No.. no..” i fall on the floor with a heavy thud. Tears rolls out from my eyes and mixes with my sweat. I clench my fist and drag my hair. I pick up the empty piggy bank on the bed and stare at it. It’s still empty.

“How… how is this even possible?” I wail under my breath and squeeze my eyes. The dust on the floor gums with my skin. I send down heavy saliva and free my grasp from the piggy bank. It falls on the floor and so does my head. I relax my head on the floor and just allow tears escape by the sides of my eyes.

This is beyond me. I do not even have the energy to cry anymore. My whole world has just crumbled. I seriously do not have a purpose in life. Life has just been so cruel to me. What is my crime in life? Is this a curse? All I want to do is be my own person and have a peaceful life. but even that is taken away from me.

“You are so unfair…” I sigh and close my eyes. On flipping it open, I open another gate of fresh tears. “ just take my life and let me be”. “Just get it done with already” i roar and stare at the ceiling. My whole body is quivering and I’m numb as well. Quite an unexplainable situation I am in.

“Why!!!!?”

Firstly, I don’t even have a face. I can’t call this a face. A scar isn’t enough punishment I guess. Also immense hatred from my mom and that wasn’t enough. It moves to me not even having a mate and now the only thing i have as hope is gone.

I Immediately sprout form the floor and rush to my mirror. My breathing is heavy, pushing my chest out and in. My teeth clasp firmly on each other. “Ahhjjjj” I break and bang my head on the mirror. It shatters and scatters on the floor. I don’t stop and keep going till it all pours on the floor.

Blood rushes down but I don’t care as that’s what I want. I just want to die. I don’t want to heal. I pick a blade beside my drawer. I slit my wrist. “Just take my life!!!!! Just kill me!!!” I scream at the top of my voice.

I go over the process of cutting my wrist over and over and over again. Blood keeps gushing, but it is healing back. “Fuck!!!” I growl and increase in speed. Sabrina is wailing as I continue hurting myself and her. “Stop!!!” She screams in my head.

The faster I am cutting myself, the faster I am healing. “You won’t even allow me die? What else do you want from me, haven’t you taken enough and made me miserable enough??” I stagger and land on the ground. The blade in my hand falls away as I cry out. I press my eyes hard as tears continue to flush out.

There is a knock on the door. Before I can turn towards the door, the door opens. It’s my mom. Her eyes falls on me. She contracts her brows for a second and broadens them back. I am still breathing heavily. She excuses her gaze away from me and moves further. She looks the damage in my room. Her sight returns back to me. She ogles at me and the huffs. Her left chin pulls a little and a smirk surfaces.

“When you are down being stupid, you know what to do. Useless!” she shakes her head and walks away without locking the door. My eyes remain at the entrance of the door. I am numb and as usual I’m more amazed at how my mother detest me more and more each passing day.

I close my eyes and just weep silently.

***

“Bye daisy”.I wave.

It’s the evening of the same day. I’m on my way back home, after biding Daisy, my best friend goodbye. Yes, I do not have friends, but daisy is the only one friend I have. You’d meet her some other time.

I stroll on the streets, my head decks a little down. My breathing is slow but weighty. Is like I’m just an empty vessel, strolling on the streets and just wallowing and waiting when the stupid thing I’m living that’s called a life is snapped out from me. I had thought that maybe being eighteen comes with some special feelings but it’s clear it’s all an illusion. The older you get, the more useless and unhappy you are.

“I’m happy that Asher really won the alpha duel. I can not imagine what Warlock would have done.” A fellow wearing a white shirt and pants says.

“Yeah, very true. Warlock is just a ruthless beast. Having him as an alpha will just ruin our pack and the whole region. Such terror he’d inflict in the whole region” another fellow standing beside the first says. I halt in movement, my eyes still facing forward. “She is my Luna” this heart wrecking voice comes back live in my head. A line of tears streams out my left eye.

My body is dead, but I have no other option but to leave. I walk away with a more shattered heart and soul.

Finally, I have reached my home after short and uncertain strides back home. After crying about my lost money, I had to go out to clear my head. Daisy is the only person that understands me. Maybe because she doesn’t speak, she gives me the opportunity to pour my whole heart.

My eyes remain static at the gate. I have double mind of even entering the house. I dust my dress and wipe the sweat on my forehead. I bite my lower lips in contempt. “Phew” I sigh and walk into the house.I have no other option. My eyes fall on two pack members. They look at me in disgust as usual. I am without my mask so it’s even more normal.

I head straight to my room since it’s evening time. “Miss Ugly fool!” This enters my ears. Instantly, I cease my movement. I think I know who it is. I turn slowly and yes, it’s Taika.

I frown and watch her as she walks slowly towards me. Her black gown, shifting from one side to the other as she walks in evil majesty. My heart falls down to my stomach because I know what I am about to face. Taika never has anything good to say.

She is now in front of me, her eyes directly pinning into mine. I remain calm and tired. “Can you not greet anymore, ugly duckling?” She spits.

“Good evening, Taika” I say with a slight bow to avoid any clash. “What is this nonsense? Is that how you greet the Luna of the silver moon pack? Foolish duck!” She roars with her eyes bulging out. I wince and truly I’m confuse of what she wants.

“Sorry. Good evening, Luna Taika”I bow more and with more decorum. She looks at me and shakes her head angrily. “You fool, greet me as the Queen I am!!” She grabs my neck and brings me to my feet. I crash on the floor, my knees hitting tightly the ground. My lips touch her feet as I wasn’t expecting the pull.

I close my eyes and hold back my tears. It’s funny how someone I am older than treats me as a dog. Her birthday is tomorrow.

“Now greet me!!!” She snaps. I close my eyes and lick my lips.

“Good evening, Taika, Luna of the silver moon pack” I exhale, my lips shaking. “That’s more like it”

I stand up from floor and then turn to leave. “Did I tell you I’m done with you?” She holds me back with her words. I turn back and look at her.

“Your eyes down!!” She bawls and I quickly push my sight downwards.

“I’d be leaving tomorrow for Asher’s Crowning ceremony and mine as well. I’d be taking you along as my personal servant”My head shakes. These words brings my sense back to life. “What!!?” I quiz with eyes broad. I don’t think I can stay under one roof with Taika and Asher and watch them together.

“I know you only do not have a face, don’t tell me you do not have ears as well”she whines. She walks away wagging her head in disgust. I watch her as she diminishes. No, I can’t go with her to the silver moon pack. I need to come up with a plan. I think it’s time for me to pay the ultimate price…