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RyanI shoot up from the bed, positive the loud ringing in my ears distorted what she said.“What?”Tiara is staring at me open-mouthed. “Wait . . .Yo-you didn’t know?”The total shock on my face must have answered the question for her because she shakes her head and continues, “I just figured you knew or something because y’know, you guys dated and all.”I am still staring at her like I just found another horn growing on her forehead. “No,” I finally find my voice, and it is laced with tons of disbelief, “your facts are wrong, Tee.”“I’m telling you Ryan—”“You might not know it but your facts are wrong. So very wrong.”She sighs patiently as she waits for me to come to terms with the news. After a few beats, she bites her lips and says, “Did you see the actual black and white pictures of the baby?”“I mean I saw the uh. . .” I try to remember what exactly I saw, “her name was on the sheet. And the um. . . the date she did it, I think I remember a hospital stamp or something, and the
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