Cecilia
I settle into a new routine, distracting myself from thoughts of Emeric with a laser-focused job search.
But as the week stretches on, the rejections quickly pile up, and I can’t help but wonder why I’m being declined immediately for every position to which I apply.
Dread rises inside me as I move from dejection to suspicion. Objectively, I know my qualifications are competitive. It has to be something else that’s wrong.
Maybe it’s my background. What Serena Garvalle calls my “half-breed status.”
I always knew that hybrids like me were different.
Pureblood werewolves like Emeric are the real genius, whether from their family background and upbringing or personal ability, he is excellent to impeccable, everything makes him wherever he is a man of the moment, eye-catching.
He is also a very good brother.
We didn't have a serious relationship, but we slept together once a week at Emeric's luxury apartment downtown, and I was always smart enough to leave and never stay the night, knowing that Serena didn't like me being there.
I don't know why Serena didn't like me, but after all these years of trying to impress the girl, she never gave me a good time.
So Emeric, who loved his sister, treated me like a transparent person.
He never contacted me unless I went to him. Even when he slept with me once a week, it was always when I brought food to the door, and he slept with me once a day when he felt the urge, and then he just ignored me.
Once a week, never more, sex seems to be a product of his desire to pass the time, and as if it were a gift given to me.
After leaving the Garvalles, my job hunting did not go as smoothly as I had hoped.
The firms I’ve been contacting are the best in the city. And they all happen to be werewolf-owned.
I schedule a phone meeting with a recruiter, desperate for answers.
“I haven’t even been able to get a first interview,” I explain. “I’m baffled. I thought with my education and experience…”
“Miss Thornhill, I’m afraid I do have an explanation,” the friendly woman replies. “It seems you have upset the Garvalle family.”
Emeric.
Or Serena.
Or maybe it was the both of them. They blacklisted me, making sure I couldn’t get another job in the industry after I left their company.
“You are nothing in this world without me…”
That was the last thing Emeric said to me. I guess he’s trying to make good on his word.
Hours after that illuminating phone call, I’m still shaking with anger. My adrenaline shoots my anxiety up to a new level, though, when Emeric texts me.
Meet me at the Waldorf in 30 min. Room 600.
Urgent.
I should have made better plans for my Friday night.
But I’ve found myself in a luxury hotel, on my way to meet Emeric just because he texted me.
My heart starts racing at the thought of being in a hotel room with him.
But I gulp down the saliva that’s filled my mouth, close my eyes and pause.
I shake my head at my reflection in the mirrored elevator doors as I ride up to the sixth floor. Part of me knows I shouldn’t be doing this. But so much has been left unsaid with Emeric, and I’m desperate for him to hear me out.
I find the door to his room ajar.
The second I push inside, he appears from out of nowhere and slams the door closed behind me. Without a word, he shoves me back against the wall and gropes at my body with hot, needy hands. He dips his face to mine and dives in for a hungry kiss.
I shudder at the sudden, intense pleasure of his touch, letting my eyes flutter closed for a moment.
“What are you doing?” I breathe when I manage to peel our lips apart. “You said it was urgent.”
“Tell me you missed me,” Emeric demands.
He fists my hair and pulls, yanking my head back and making me gasp. His energy is frantic and wild. Thinking about how badly he seems to want me is turning me on like crazy, but I’m not about to tell him what he wants to hear—no matter how true it is.
Emeric eyes my exposed throat and growls, baring his teeth reflexively. A surge of adrenaline zips through me, a familiar rush of simultaneous fear and arousal. In the next second, he picks me up and throws me onto the massive bed on the other side of the room.
When he jumps on top of me, my body reacts against my will, arching my back and forcing a moan to tumble from my lips.
His fingers find the hem of my skirt and begin to inch it upward. I try to fight him, but he only pushes my hands away.
He presses his lips to my ear, tickling my skin with his hot breath and the soft scratch of his dense five o’clock shadow. “Say it. Tell me you missed me.”
Cecilia“Let go of me! ” I shake my head as much as I can with his grip on my hair. He uses his knees to push my legs apart and position himself between them. With a few fluid motions, he reaches down to unclasp his belt and then rips it off, sending it flying across the room with a clatter.Our bodies slip into a familiar fit as Emeric grabs hold of my wrists and pins them over my head. My traitorous legs drift up and circle his waist, giving him a chance to grind his hips down into my pelvis, and for a hot second I want nothing more than to give myself over to this moment completely. I’m too addicted to Emeric’s touch and too starved for him. I choke out a shuddering exhale, overwhelmed with a mix of immense pleasure and terrible self-loathing. How can I be so aroused by the touch of someone who’s been so horrible to me? How can I still want him, after everything he’s done? “Get off of me,” I say with conviction. I struggle against Emeric, but he’s so much stronger than me it’s r
CeciliaThe man I’ve loved for ten years is telling me he’s moving in with someone else, after trying to have sex with me less than an hour ago. “It’d be best if you didn’t come around my place while she’s there,” Emeric adds. I let my gaze drift out the window, beyond which an expanse of city lights glow against the evening’s indigo sky. The view from up here really is exquisite. But I can’t enjoy it right now. Emeric clears his throat, asking for my attention. I drag my eyes back to meet his. “Good for you,” I say, my voice flat and emotionless.His expression changes in a small but distinct way; I watch as he starts getting irritated, his eyes darkening and narrowing.How did he expect me to respond? What am I supposed to say after he tries to fuck me and then announces he’s moving in with his new mate?A server comes by and addresses “Mr. Garvalle” directly. I’m completely ignored as Emeric orders for the both of us. “Are you sure we can’t take your jacket, sir?” “No,” Emeri
CeciliaOld habits die hard. It’s been a good, Emeric-free week. I’ve been taking better care of myself, using my mornings to sleep in or exercise instead of hurrying out to make breakfast for a demanding boss. My new job is off to a good start, and I’ve spent my evenings cooking for myself and sprucing up my apartment.But when I’m heading home from work on Friday, I guess I drift into a kind of autopilot. Next thing I know, I’m on Emeric’s block, looking up the street at his high-rise apartment building.I only live a few blocks west, so it’s not like I drove very far out of my way. But it’s strange how my unconscious mind brought me here, without me even noticing I’d made several wrong turns.I study the groceries in my shopping cart and frown. It’s all Emeric’s favorite foods that I’ve collected. Another old habit. I’m sure with time, I’ll start remembering my own favorite things. It’s just been so long since I shopped, or did anything, for myself without thinking of his needs fi
CeciliaCould the city’s most eligible bachelor Emeric Garvalle’s true mate be Victoria?It’s become rampant tabloid fodder. It’s everywhere, the news of them being spotted together at events, and the rumors that their packs might soon be uniting.Now, it’s only a matter of time before everyone I know hears about all of it, and knows my life’s been changed forever. Before everyone knows Emeric and I are finally over, because he’s found someone better for him than me.Some are just better informed.My first big meeting for Roy’s firm is a lunch meeting with social media celebrity Caroline Collins—who just so happens to be pals with none other than Victoria Cambridge.I knew she wouldn’t make it easy for me.“So what was your problem with Emeric?” Miss Collins squints at me, sneering. “I have no problem with Mr. Garvalle,” I answer politely. Like a lawyer. “He was an excellent employer, but it was time for me to move on.”“Hmm. And why’d you quit, exactly? With no notice, if what I’ve
Cecilia Speak of the devil.Flushed with embarrassment, I’m overwhelmed with a sudden desire to disappear off the face of the earth. I can only hope Emeric didn’t overhear anything I was saying to Tony. Hopefully he only just walked up behind me.I turn to face my former boss and gulp.My mate’s scent strikes my senses right away, awakening an ache inside me. A craving for his touch. And he looks so goddamn handsome, it should be a crime. He’s wearing an expensive, dark green dress shirt under a jacket without a tie. The top two shirt buttons are unbuttoned, revealing a glimpse of his strong chest. And his thick, jet black hair is longish and a bit unkempt, like he’s overdue for a haircut. I hate how much I want to run my fingers through that soft, fluffy mess… Emeric steps close and takes my shopping bag right out of my hand. He looks down into my eyes, catching me into an intense eye contact that makes me feel like the world around us has melted away. “Let’s have dinner,” he sa
CeciliaOf course I put on my big girl pants and bailed him.What is unrequited love? A great sacrifice of yourself. You would be happy and ecstatic for days with just a look or a waving finger from him. You know very well that no matter what you do, he will never love you and he doesn't owe you anything. I willingly gave him the power to hurt me. I had it coming.So I didn’t go meet him at the hotel for whatever he planned.I go home instead, where I pour myself a large glass of wine and put my phone on Do Not Disturb mode so I can’t be tempted to pick up if he calls again. Then I open up the pictures on my phone and navigate to an album where I’ve collected a few photos of Emeric.There aren’t many. I don’t actually have a single picture of the two of us together. The other photos in the album I’ve taken in secret over the years. I go through and delete them all, one at a time. I’m left feeling lonely when they’re gone. My love failed, as my mother told me, "Finding someone you l
Cecilia“Miss Thornhill,” the lithe blonde says as the trio enters the barn, casting long shadows in their wake. "What an unexpected pleasure.” Victoria smiles at me, and if I didn’t know any better, I’d think she actually looked happy to see me. Until she showed me her true colours, I didn't hate her that much; she was one of those sweethearts who grew up with everything she wanted, treated people kindly, and probably never took public transportation in her life. As it turns out, even the nicest girl can get ugly in love.I do know better now. I know she’s just a good actor.I avoid looking Emeric in the eye for as long as possible. When I finally do, I find a staggering intensity in his gaze. But he doesn’t greet me. He doesn’t say a word.We've all known each other for so many years to know that no action is the best reaction.Dalton rushes forward as I get up from the couch. Victoria tugs on Emeric’s arm, and he lets her pull him over to the bar.“It’s really you,” Dalton says,
Cecilia“What’s your problem, Cecilia?” Emeric glares down at me like I’m a child. Like I’m being a brat over something that’s a non-issue. I hate his tone. I hate the look in his eyes.It’s like he didn’t hear a word I actually said.I want to yell at him. I want to cry. I also want to just fucking walk away. I’m so tired of all this.But Emeric Garvalle, it’s becoming quite clear, will simply not take no for an answer.He is a werewolf billionaire with noble lineage, good background, good career, never take no for an answer. I I am a hybrid who needs to work 24/7 to earn a living. How could I ask for someone who had whatever he wanted to love or understand me? I take a deep breath. And then another.Emeric tries to close the distance between us and I twist away, winding up with my back against the door of my cabin. I wish I could say something that would hurt him. I wish I could make my mouth form the words: I just don’t love you anymore.But that would be a lie. Even now, when
CeciliaWhat is past is over now.After the day, my mind was calmer than ever, as if after that day, I could not feel a single emotion towards Emeric even when I thought of him.I don't know if this is a good or bad situation, but because I'm no longer devastated by people, I still feel quite a bit of sarcasm when I think of Emeric──this is the man I've loved for ten years, this person is so formidable that he only needs to use a few words to sweep away ten years of my feelings, leaving no residue at all.He is really deserving of the industry's most favoured Alpha of our generation.The whole city is discussing when this formidable Alpha will marry his Luna, and now it is rumored that Emeric has already met Victoria's parents back in the country, and he has also gifted Victoria's parents a villa by the lake.There are also people who saw his mother Mrs. Garvalle and Victoria teaching abroad, now retired back to the country parents at the restaurant had dinner. Both parents have met, t
DaltonI never should have given up on her the first time. I shouldn’t have just walked away and let Emeric have her.I knew she loved him, though, and I wanted Cecilia to be happy. That was the reason I clung to when I went abroad, leaving the two of them alone. I told myself I was being selfless.But I know the real reason I gave up on chasing Cecilia.It wasn’t just because it seemed she liked Emeric more than me. It wasn’t just to make her happy.It was because Emeric threatened to beat the shit out of me if I went after her, and I knew I couldn’t win that fight.No one could.&n
Cecilia“Didn’t you tell me you loved me so much, you’d give up anything just to be near me?” Emeric tightens his grip, making me whimper in pain. “Didn’t you say you wanted me to marry you? And what, now that I need your help, you don’t care whether I’m dead or alive?”Breathless and devastated, I nearly collapse on the spot. But Emeric holds me in place.The room falls silent, and his words echo in my mind. I thought I knew Emeric well. But I never imagined he could be so cruel as to mockingly repeat in public things I’d said to him in private, intimate moments.I always thought that he just
CeciliaMrs. Garvalle looks shocked for a moment. She probably didn't expect Emeric to say that.But after a brief hesitation, she smiles and says, “Of course not. I would love for you to move in with Emeric, Cecilia. I’ll feel much better knowing my son has you there to take care of him.”Emeric’s dark eyes slide from his mother to me, his lips curled in a satisfied smile.What a touching scene of love between a mother and her son. Too bad I can't enjoy it one bit. “I’m afraid I must rudely decline the both of you,” I say politely. “I’m busy with my new job and my own life. Mr. Garvalle will have to find someone else to be his live-in caretaker.”
CeciliaEmeric doesn’t look good. He looks thin.He’s sitting on the edge of the bed when I enter his hospital room. His eyes snap up to meet mine, but he doesn’t greet me. He just nods, then looks at his mother and says, “I’m ready to be discharged.”She slips out of the room to summon a doctor, and Emeric stands up. He takes a single step in my direction and holds out his hand, as if he expects me to take hold of it.But I am not about to do that. I just look at Emeric and wait for him to say something. To explain why he’s forced me to meet him here.But he only stares right back at me. His unblinking eyes narrow slowly, like he’s
Cecilia“I’ll tell him I can’t reach you,” Roy is just as cunning as any businessman, putting the whole thing on me.“If you really want to dodge Garvalle,” Roy says after a pause," Maybe you should leave town for a while.”It might not be a long-term solution, but some time out of the city doesn’t sound like a bad idea. What more can Emeric or Anna actually do, after all, if they can’t reach me? An early morning phone call from my paralegal provides one answer to that question. He informs me that Anna showed up at the firm looking for me, storming into the office with several others from AtCap. Security had been called. Anna was still on the property, though. They still haven't left even now. Still waiting for me.“Don’t come in today, Cecilia,” Danny warns needlessly. I thought about what Anna said yesterday, about her boyfriend being sacked from Emeric. I guess that's why she came to see me. But I'm not on speaking terms with her anymore. If something happens, she should go t
Cecilia:I leave the office without telling anyone, a couple hours early. Somehow I felt like I should leave early today, as if something bad was going to happen.I can’t focus on work. That disturbing call with Anna has me rattled. I’m not surprised Emeric’s been moody. He hasn’t been eating right. And I’m sure he’s been drinking too much coffee, too, if he’s struggling with sleep.I also know that Emeric will have a period of adjustment after I leave. After all, I have taken care of him for almost ten years, and I have given him the best and most comfortable things in every way. To be honest, maybe Emeric Gravalle doesn't understand his own stomach and body as well as I do.I used to take pride in keeping such a beautiful and important man in top shape. Of course, the credit was never all mine. Emeric worked hard in his home gym to maintain his stunning physique, and genetics are to blame for his gorgeous face. But I did keep him calm and healthy. I always knew it made a differen
Cecilia“I’m just calling Miss Thornhill,” Anna pleads.The fearful warble in her voice almost makes me feel sorry for her. But then I hear Emeric’s voice again and I remember I’m supposed to have already wrenched myself free from all this. “You know that I told you—” my ex-boss starts shouting. I’m so tired of that voice. That anger. And I don’t have to listen to it anymore. I hang up. I tell one of our paralegals that I need help screening my calls.“Put clients through, but anyone else, tell them I’m not here and take a message. Especially anyone from AtCap.” I suspect my paralegal had already heard the rumours about me. He knew that I had got a new mobile phone, that only he and our boss Roy knew the number.The young man nods. “Of course. I’ll talk to the front desk.” I don’t have any more meetings today and I’m not expecting any calls. So I tell the paralegal to close my office door behind him, and then I unplug my desk phone and power down my cell.Anna has only herself
Cecilia“Isn’t that enough?” he asked the last time we spoke, with disgust in his voice.He thought I wanted too much from him. And yet he took everything I had to give. My services as a personal assistant, personal chef, dry cleaner, caterer. My loyalty and devotion. My body.I even moved to be closer to him when I first started working at AtCap, and it’s expensive to live in this part of the city. It crossed my mind that I could move now to somewhere more affordable, but I’ve grown pretty attached to my modest but beautiful little apartment and the gorgeous downtown skyline view I’ve got from my bedroom window. Anna’s call started me thinking about all the things I’ve poured money into for Emeric’s sake. The laundry, the food, the gas I spend going to and from his place all the time. I have to admit, I’d be in much better financial shape if I hadn’t done all that. It’s almost funny that Serena thinks I’m a gold digger. She has no idea how much money I’ve spent on services for Emer