(Eve's POV)
“3601? 3611? 3610? Damn card key! Why don’t you have numbers in you?” I groaned, balancing the two drinks on a small tray I held as I exited the elevator.
I bit my bottom lip and looked at the left hallway, hoping it would help me remember what Bethany instructed. It was supposed to be the easiest task, but after Rosie’s call, I got distracted, and the only thing I remembered was bringing the wine to Bob Barclay. This was a test, so I knew I shouldn’t make a mistake. My job was at stake as Bob was as perfectionist as the CEO of Secret Temptation.
“Turn left…” My eyes narrowed as I looked at the long hallway. I shook my head. “No, it must be right.”
I drew in a long breath and made my way to the nearby coffee table, regretting that I didn’t jot down the room number. I gently rested the small tray on the polished surface of the table and picked up the elegant wine glasses, holding them firmly. I had no intention of making the two glasses into many pieces in case I accidentally broke them.
My legs were wobbly, and I was shivering from the cold for different reasons. First, I was anxious about not bringing the wine to Bob, and the second was my dress. Bethany insisted I put on Moira’s gift, ignoring my plea that I could die of hypothermia if I wore the sexy spaghetti strap midi dress.
“Turn left then,” I decided, puffing out air as I advanced toward the end of the hallway. “Bob, here I come,” I mumbled, sipping juuuussst a little from the wine glass, hoping he would not notice.
Holding the two wine glasses in one hand, I used my other hand to swipe the key card.
“Ha!” I beamed and chuckled when I heard the clicking sound of the lock.
Grin curved my lips as I pushed the door with my shoulder to open it wide, mumbling Bethany’s instruction. “Bring these wines to Bob’s room and place it…” I looked around and sighed. “to the… table.”
Which table?
Side table? Coffee table or his work desk? I squinted, concentrating hard to remember because I was sure Bethany mentioned it before I left the function area. Holding the wine glasses in my two hands again, I advanced toward the bed. It must be the bed’s side table. Why would he need two glasses on his work desk?
I was a foot away from the bed when I heard a quiet squeak of a sliding door. Ready to apologize to Bob, I turned around, but my jaw dropped, and my heart skipped a beat. I thought I had swallowed my tongue, seeing a stranger… a naked stranger before me.
I was one hundred and one percent sure he was not Bob. I saw Bob earlier, and he was gay and sweet, but I never got the chance to talk to him. The man standing before me was tall, devilishly handsome, and sexy. My stunned gaze moved slowly, skimming his beautiful physique to his abdomen. My eyes stopped on his manhood. I licked my lips, my eyes blinking unashamedly and gazing at his massive member with need.
This wasn’t my first time seeing a naked man, but this man was a god, if not an archangel of sin. I gulped and then blinked when I tasted the sweet flavor of wine. When I gazed at the glasses I held, one was empty.
“Oops, sorry,” I gasped, realizing I drank the wine.
“Why do I have to be so lucky?” He smirked, moving closer to me.
I bit my bottom lip, breathing hard as I heard his deep and unmistakable sexy voice for the first time. He was not doing anything to me yet, but the mere sound of his voice and his deep brown eyes slowly traveling down my body made my rosy buds hard.
Suddenly, I was burning with desire, and there was a slick wetness of excitement in my throbbing core. Bethany was right. During those years of being alone, I should have done something, maybe get laid, because, at this point, I was like a walking volcano at its highest alert level, ready to erupt.
Without leaving his gaze on me, he took the glasses and drank the other glass of wine. Like me, he looked confused but thirsty, drinking the last drop of wine before putting it on the side table. He stepped forward, leaving no space between us.
“I…” I forgot my name.
“I know who you are,” he said, lowering his head and covering my open mouth with his.
My eyes fluttered shut as I gave myself up, accepting his kiss. I thought he would grab my arm and pull me to the bed, but instead, he surprised me. He pulled me closer, wrapped his arms around my waist, and kissed me passionately. His mouth was warm and sweet.
I parted my lips, welcoming his tongue and enjoying the little tingles in my body. I didn’t expect to react this way, but I didn’t pull back as I had this unexpected hunger, an insatiable sexual desire that only this stranger could fill. It was probably because no one had kissed and touched me since Marcus died and not even before Isabella was born.
He broke our kiss and grazed his warm lips to ear, nipping and breathing, while his hands began to pull up my dress. A while ago, I thought I would die of hypothermia, but now, just in my underwear, I would be lucky not to get charred by the fire his touch made.
“How much?” he whispered as his large hand grabbed my waist while his other hand expertly unclasped my bra.
“What?” I stiffened, placing my palms on his chest, and hoped to push him away. My eyes, which were molten with desire a while ago, were wide with shock. “I’m not… I’m…”
I didn’t get the chance to explain. His mouth covered mine and kissed me fiercely, making me forget myself and my purpose of being here. His hands started to move, sliding his palms gently against my hard peaks, cupping my mounds and kneading them.
I cried out softly, running my fingers to his still-damp hair and arching my body toward him. This was insane, but wherever Marcus’ soul was, I hoped he forgave me as the touch of this stranger was nothing like his. His hands were leaving a magic touch on my skin, making my core throb with need.
He lowered his head, flicking his tongue out and licking my rosy peak before taking it to his mouth. My toes curled in exploding desire, and I moaned sweetly as he began sucking and his hands began caressing my clit. I didn’t even notice he took off my panties. I gasped, grasping his hair tightly when he thrust his finger into my slit, stroking faster while biting my hard peak playfully.
It had been years, and this was like getting me out of prison of loneliness and being alone for a long time. My shame was drowned with need, and I squirmed, grasping his shoulders and biting my lips hard as my orgasm coursed through me.
The phone in the room and his cell phone rang simultaneously, but maybe, like me, he was in bliss. Ignoring the call, he lay me on the bed and parted my legs wider. Without much warning, as if I needed one, he held my hips up and slid his hard manhood deeper before pulling out slowly.
My heart stopped beating, and I gasped again when he pushed back, thrusting more profoundly and moving faster. I couldn’t ask him to stop, and I didn’t want him. I wanted him to bring me to heaven with him. As if he heard my body screaming, he moved faster and didn’t stop even when my body vibrated, hit by another violent orgasm.
This beautiful god was not done. He attacked me with pleasure, kissing my breast and sucking my bud intensely, and then he buried his head in my neck and grabbed my hips tighter as he thrust a few more times until we cried together at the blinding pleasure hitting us as we reached cloud nine.
We were quiet for some time. Only the sound of the air conditioner, which I wanted to avoid the whole night earlier, and our panting as we breathed were the only noises filling the bedroom. When his cell phone rang, it startled me. Only then did I wonder how many times it rang while we raced to seventh heaven.
He rolled to my side, stretched his arm, and reached for his phone.
“Yes, this is Callahan,” he said as he answered.
My heart skipped a beat. My eyes grew wider in shock. No, it stopped beating when I realized who the gorgeous god who had brought me to heaven a while ago. Gaping, my eyes followed Callahan Barclay as he climbed down the bed and went to the bathroom.
“Oh God! Bethany,” I cried, scrambling to my feet and picking up my dress.
I was glad Moira gifted me a little dress that was not complicated to wear. I gathered my underwear, forgetting my bra and wearing just my panties, dressed, and escaped the bedroom hurriedly.
“Come on, come on!” I cried, waiting for the elevator to open and glancing at Callahan’s room as if zombies would come out any moment and devour me.
When I heard the creak of a door opening, I shrieked and dashed toward the emergency exit, running as I climbed down the staircase. My heart was pounding hard, ignoring the ring of my phone for the first time in my life. It was insane because there were many rooms on that floor, but I immediately assumed the door was from Callahan’s room.
When I reached the second floor, I went straight to the restroom and washed my face.
“Eve!”
I screamed, not recognizing Bethany’s voice. From the mirror, I saw her coming out of the cubicle. My best friend knitted her eyebrows, eyeing me suspiciously as she washed her hands.
“I gave you the wrong card key. Where did you go? I’ve been looking for you -” Her forehead creased, and she moved closer to me. “You smell funny,” she scoffed, shaking her head. “You smell -”
“Bethany, don’t be mad at me,” I swallowed hard as I stepped back before she could guess what had happened to me. “I know… I know you need more staff today, and I need a job desperately, but Rosie called… and… and…” Forget about the money.
“You need to go home,” she said, finishing the sentence for me, and then she nodded, understanding me. “Of course. What happened?”
“The kids… you know. Um… it’s a new place, and they’re scared,” I lied, turning around without waiting for her reply and running toward the main lobby. I escaped in a hurry to make sure I wouldn’t cross paths with Callahan again.
I hailed the first taxi I saw and gave the driver my new address. Getting home would take two hours, but I turned off my cell phone just in case Bethany tried calling. My mind was in chaos, and my heart didn’t stop hammering my chest. I still could not believe I gave in so quickly to a man I didn’t know. Where did my dignity and values go?
As I reached home, I went straight to Moira’s office and thought it would be nice to meditate inside and brush off all these negative vibes whirling inside my brain. I reached for the doorknob, wishing it was open. And it was!
“Huh,” I blinked in surprise when I twisted the knob, and the door swung open.
Today was terrible enough for me to think bad things would happen to me if I entered the room. I removed my shoes, stepped inside the small room, and sat on cross legs on the mat, closing my eyes to meditate.
My mind was in chaos as I thought of Rosie’s call and what had just happened in Callahan’s bedroom. Jessy calling Althea, their biological mother, and begging her to take them back didn’t worry me at all. This wasn’t the first time she called her mother.
Callahan was another story. Falling into his trap, or whatever it was, I lost my chance to get a job in their company. He was probably looking for a piece of evidence, and I happened to be in the wrong place. Yet, I wondered why my heart was happy. Maybe I read my emotions wrong. Satisfying my body’s needs is different from falling in love.
‘Reset, please. I want to reset my life. Please, can somebody push that button?’ I took another deep breath, not realizing I was slowly falling into the Land of Nod.
“Reset? Where’s the button, Eve Bennet, and I will.” Bethany hissed, grabbed the edge of the blanket, and tugged it toward her. “Why are you still in bed?” Her eyes grew wider as she crossed her arms over her chest.
Gaping, I stared at Bethany in disbelief. I was sure she wore that flouncy, off-shoulder yellow floral dress yesterday, and I was… I gasped, my eyes fixed on the small desk calendar on the side table, screaming at me it was October 25th. I was back in the mansion.
(Eve’s POV)I crawled onto the bed, facing the full-length mirror that stood against the wall. A sense of shock washed over me when I saw my reflection. I was dressed in my old pair of black pajamas, which I was sure I wore yesterday night. There was no evidence of my messy mascara, but my hair was a complete mess, with a few strands sticking out in every direction. I blinked in dazed confusion, slowly turning my head on the table calendar on the side table.Was it a dream? I swallowed hard, convincing myself that what happened yesterday must be real. My core still tingled, reacting at the memory of Callahan’s massive manhood inside me. I could still taste and feel his touch and kisses.I closed my eyes and groaned. Either I was lonely or broken.“Is everything okay?” Bethany looked at me anxiously and shook her head. “Wrong question. Are you okay? You look sick,” she said, pressing her palm on my forehead. “You’re -”“Okay,” I muttered, easing back. “I’m fine, Bethany,” I assured her
(Eve’s POV) “Why are we leaving, Mommy? Why can’t we live here anymore?” Isabella asked, blinking her round eyes at me. I swallowed hard, not because of the overwhelming emotions I had in leaving this place but because, in my mind, we already left. If this were a phenomenon of an illusion of a memory that could have happened before, then I would say this was the weirdest déjà vu ever. “Because it’s not -” “It’s not ours anymore, baby,” I immediately cut Jessy. “Get inside so your sisters can sit as well,” I said, kissing her forehead. Jessy gave me a skeptical look but pursed her lips. I knew she had a lot of things to say, but she only lifted a brow, crossed her arms over her chest, and leaned on the car, watching me secure Isabella’s seatbelt. When I was done, she cursed under her breath, rolled her eyes to show her annoyance, and followed her little sister inside the car. Bethany rested her arm on my shoulders, forcing a smile as she leaned her head on mine. “Eve, tell me wh
(Cal’s POV) “Woke up on the wrong side of bed?” Bob chuckled, glancing at me amusedly as he placed the documents on my table. “That’s for your signature.” I let out a long, tired sigh, furrowing my eyebrows in frustration as I straightened up in my seat and took a deep breath, taking the papers but eyeing the one in his hand. “Where’s Lorraine?” I asked, my eyes still on the paper as I looked for my secretary. Bob scoffed. “You fired her yesterday, remember?” he said while sneering at me. “I can't believe you let her go when we're swamped with this event. What exactly do you expect me to do, Cal? Split my body in two so I can be both at the event and assist you?” “She’s incompetent," I sighed, finally remembering terminating her yesterday. "Assisting me? That’s your job. You’re my assistant.” I placed the paper back on the table and leaned on the swivel chair. He sat on the chair and propped his right elbow on the table. “Darling, don’t forget I’m also your business partner in ch
(Cal's POV)I shook my head, my eyes pinned on her. With a furrowed brow, I lifted her resume and waved it to them. My gaze shifted to her face, trying to recall where I had seen or met her, but my memory failed me.“Have we met before?” I asked, still studying her features, searching for any recognizable detail that could jog my memory, but nothing seemed to click.Her head moved with a forceful shake. “No, this is our first time to meet,” she muttered with conviction, emphasizing each word. I nodded, hiding my amusement. “And this will be my first time interviewing an applicant from afar.”“Oh!” Her face turned crimson.She lowered her gaze, but it was only for a while. When she raised her head, she gave Bethany a dagger look, but my best employee puckered her lips, and then she burst out laughing with Bob.“Get in. He won’t bite you,” Bob promised, gesturing his hand to her to enter the room.This time, she did not resist. As if counting her steps, she walked toward the chair Bob
(Eve's POV)“Eve, what is wrong with you?” Bethany talked in a hushed tone even though we were outside Callahan’s office.“What is wrong with me?” My eyes grew bigger as if it was enough to emphasize to my friend that everything was wrong. “Didn’t you hear Bob?”Thinking Callahan knew me, I almost had a cardiac arrest when he mentioned my name earlier. But then, I realized we had not met in person because today was yesterday, and yesterday did not happen yet. I still could not move on with that issue. Bethany and I did not go to the office to get the dress she would lend me because I wore Moira’s gift. Without Wyatt mentioning the gift, I did not dare go to the room where I found the dress… Besides, it only happened in my dream.Although things were different, I again met Callahan in an inconvenient way.“I heard his every word, Eve. Secretary work isn’t a joke,” she said, puckering her lips. “I work here, and good heavens, I knew how challenging it is to work with Callahan. He’s a wo
(Eve’s POV)“The secretary first,” Bob instructed the show's lead makeup artist, his voice in a panic. “Hurry!”Jill acknowledged him with a nod. She gave her staff a few instructions and then left her post to come to my aid as if I were an emergency. When she was done, she called the hairstylist to complete my look for the evening.I could have done it myself, but Bethany told me to focus on the list, saying this was my first test, so I had to let the company’s hair and makeup artists do their job while I studied the files. Bethany and Bob debated for a while, but eventually, they settled on a breathtaking V-neckline gown adorned with eye-catching forest-green sequins.“I’m not wearing that,” I murmured, shaking my head.“Yes, you are, darling. In events like this, you will always be the CEO’s date.” He pursed his lips, narrowing his eyes as if thinking of the right words to say. “Even if he has a date, you have to be on his side… or behind him, ready to give information or take note
(Cal’s POV)I winced as I stepped out of the bathroom and had to stay motionless until the buzzing in my ears stopped. I groaned, my head aching as the wave of memories flooded my memory. Worse, they came in fragments, falling into my head in a million pieces of puzzle as if it would give me an accurate picture of that memory if I successfully put them together.My heart raced with anticipation as I looked at the bed. I had this eerie feeling that someone was supposed to be there, but my mind was blank, and I could not remember who that someone could be. I heaved a deep sigh and turned my head to the door, hearing the doorbell chime. Who could it be? Bob and Millicent knew I hated being disturbed by the doorbell.I wrapped the fluffy towel around my waist and walked toward the door, ignoring the droplets of water that trailed down my skin. I made my way towards the door to check who it was, and when I got closer, I peeked through the peephole but did not see anyone. I took a deep brea
(Cal’s POV)“Congratulations!” Bob’s face lit up with a triumphant smile as he handed me a crystal glass filled with a deep red liquid.When I did not answer, he followed the direction of my gaze. The two best friends were at the table; Eve, with her animated gestures, was engrossed in conversation with Bethany. Whatever they were talking about seemed to be a source of amusement for them. They were laughing at something… or maybe someone.“How’s Eve?” I asked, taking the glass from him.I had my eyes on Eve while sipping the wine. Before the event, I told Bob about her relationship with Marcus, but as expected, my cousin didn’t care about it. He said he was indebted to Bethany, not to Millicent or me.“That’s the consequence of you hiring someone immediately without checking the background,” he said annoyingly when I instructed him to fire Eve tonight. “I’m not firing anyone tonight. If you want, do it yourself.”Yes, I would do that tonight. Instead of offering her a contract, I woul
(Eve’s POV)“Where did all that energy come from, Eve?” Marga laughed warmly, her eyes sparkling with curiosity as she glanced at her. “Argh! I need to sit. Order for me, Beth.” She took a deep breath, savoring the rich aroma of freshly brewed coffee that wafted through the air as they stepped into Tony’s Café.Although Bethany looked as drained as Marga, she chose not to say anything. She went straight to the counter without asking for our orders.My pregnant friend pulled a chair and moaned. “Ahh! This is heaven.”“Sitting down? Heaven?” I chuckled, sitting across from her. “We have one store to visit. You still need to check the -”“Ugh!” She shook her head. “Oh, please. No, thank you. I’d dreamt of this, and even in a dream, it’s tiring. Right now, what I need is a massage. So…” Her eyes sparkled as she changed the subject. “Was it a date?”“A date?” I shook my head and racked my brain quickly to give her a believable reason. “A date shouldn’t be with a visitor.”She nodded, agree
(Eve’s POV)I blinked rapidly, my gaze fixed on Wyatt at the dining table, laughing hard at Harry’s joke. I managed to force a laugh at something he said that wasn’t even funny. I managed to finish the main course, but I could hardly swallow the cupcake dessert.It must be my instinct, but something was off about him. After taking another sip of the wine he gave me, I rested my clenched fists in my lap, controlling the tension through my body. I plastered a smile, showing him I was okay because Harry kept glancing at me every time my lips touched the glass.A sudden wave of heat washed over me. Was it the lingering effects of last night's fever? I returned the wine glass to the table, picked up the water, and drank it slowly, my eyes darting to my phone, a silent plea for escape. I glanced at Wyatt, and even without words, we both knew we were in the same uncomfortable boat.I tilted my head, suddenly seeing Wyatt so attractive. My eyes began roaming from his gorgeous face down to his
(Eve’s POV)My children gasped when Cotton escaped Theo’s hold but giggled when they saw it approach me, walking between my legs and curling its tails as it meowed. When the kitten raised its head and met my eyes as if to say we had met again, I yelped and squeezed my eyes shut. This must be another dream.Isabella came to the rescue, picking up her pet. “Don’t be scared, Mommy. Cotton’s just greeting you,” she said, her eyes wide.A nervous chuckle escaped my mouth, and then I stared at Callahan, looking tired as if he had not slept a bit. He walked toward me after calling my kids to sit and eat breakfast.“What…” What are you doing here? I cleared my throat and changed my mind about asking him. Instead, I lifted my hand and pressed my palm on his forehead. “Are you okay?”Callahan grasped my hand and nodded. “I should be the one asking you that, Eve.”With wide eyes, I leaned forward and whispered, unconsciously saying, “You’re not supposed to come today.”He scoffed, releasing my ha
(Eve’s POV)I have an hour.“Cal…” I whispered his name, slipping my tongue between his lips.Callahan parted his lips for me and kissed me passionately, waking every part of my body. Slowly, he trailed my shoulders down to my wrists.A low growl escaped my throat, pushing my body against him. I must be sick… or maybe an addiction to him because whenever Callahan and I started touching each other, I couldn’t push him away or stop myself. I became a slave, letting him do whatever he wanted to do with me.The dampness between my legs and the heat crawling through my skin proved I wanted him now. I withdrew my hand from him, reaching the zipper of his pants and grasping his pulsing tool. My heart raced, feeling his already hard member. I moaned deliciously, feeling the tingling down my core. I was on fire!“Eve…” Callahan moaned, grabbing my hand and stopping me from pulling the zipper down.“How about we make that dream come true, Cal,” I whispered, taunting him.Callahan chuckled softl
(Eve’s POV)“What?” I hissed, irked that he had to remember that hot night. I didn’t even know how we ended up in my bedroom. All I remembered was offering him a coffee after tucking the kids to bed, but instead of heading to the front door, we were both like crazy couples, kissing and touching as we headed to my bedroom.I jerked, withdrawing my arm. This time, Callahan released me. “We had sex? That’s absurd. A nightmare!” I gritted my teeth,Callahan let out a sigh and said, “For you.”It should have been like rocketing fireworks in the sky, but it was an exploding firecracker for me, making me angrier at him.Tears welled in my eyes. “What am to you, Cal? Your daily dose of medicine? You think I solve your sex problem?”Because if I was, I guessed I had a problem in that department, too. As much as I wanted to stay away from Callahan, every time he touched me, my body responded. Positively! All the way! My body shivered in anger, but I couldn’t shout or scream. All this conversa
(Eve’s POV)Call me a cheater, but the very reason for repeating the day was to ensure I made the right decision and correct whatever mistake I made. This was not for me but for my kids. I would not leave them alone in this world with the wrong parent. Judge me, but no dying mother would want that.“Don’t go home yet,” Marga begged when I told them I was going home.I glanced at my phone screen and shook my head briefly. This is exactly what happened the first time. “Nope. You know that I have to cook for my children. Mommy duties,” I muttered firmly.Half lie. Half truth.I had to be home before Callahan could walk into the living room, give the cat to my children, and stop Isabella from loving my boss to the moon and back. Although Cotton was a cute Balinese kitten, and like my children, I also fell in love with the tiny feline, I still had to consider Cooper’s health.After a few minutes of convincing Bethany and Marga, they finally let me go. Before driving home, I set the alarm
(Eve’s POV)The cinema was almost empty, the early hour casting a strange, eerie vibe. I couldn’t tell if the tiny hairs on my skin were standing because the zombie was approaching the closet where the child was hidden or because of the cold. Had I known Bernard wanted to watch a movie, I would have brought a sweater. And then there was the fact that I couldn't scream, not without drawing unwanted attention from the staff. It was all so awkward.I grabbed a handful of popcorn and shoved it into my mouth, my eyes on the large screen. I was so glad the movie was about to end.My eyes widened, and my heart hammered my chest, not because the zombie was a foot away from the closet but because of a warm hand on my knee. I chewed slowly, pretending I didn’t notice it, but when he leaned his head closer to mine, I couldn’t help but swallow the food in my mouth.I coughed briefly and was glad I chewed the popcorn well. It would be embarrassing if I choked on the popped kernels.Bernard breathe
(Eve’s POV)Perhaps dating a younger man like Bernard was a bad idea, I thought to myself.‘Stop, self!’ I told myself, sounding like a decade older than Bernard when I was only two years older than him. I sighed when I glanced at my phone screen, realizing my date was thirty minutes late.I crossed my legs, picked up the cup, which was almost empty, and looked outside the window of Shay’s restaurant.On my date with Bernard, I didn’t leave home early. I didn’t suspect the first time as I was too nervous and focused on my date with Ben, but when I saw my children earlier, I had to check the kitchen, which was messier than I imagined. The sink was overflowing with dishes, and the floor was scattered with crumbs. Still, I arrived on time at Shay’s and was still lucky to get the same spot as my date with Ben.“Finally!” I breathed, a mix of relief and annoyance washing over me as Bernard finally entered the restaurant. Despite the wait, I managed to keep my patience intact. I had to meet
(Eve’s POV)“Faster!” I moaned, my voice hushing beautifully across the room while my fingernails dug into Callahan’s skin.“My pleasure,” Callahan smiled, thrusting into my core deeper, faster.The bliss of too much pleasure made my toes curl, and I screamed, crying his name. Then… I gasped, my brows furrowing when he suddenly stopped and looked closer at me, shaking my shoulders.“Mommy! Mommy!” cried Isabella.“Huh?” I groaned when I heard my daughter’s cry. I opened my eyes and blinked confusedly at the same ceiling I was staring at while Callahan buried his heavy and massive manhood inside me. My body jerked at the small hands, shaking my shoulders and pulling my arms.“Mommy!” Theo screamed, grasping my right arm hard with his hands.My heart hammered my chest as I met three pairs of eyes, round and scared, looking at me.“Mommy, are you okay?” Cooper asked worriedly.“Huh?” I swallowed hard, blinking again and quickly processing what happened last night. I closed my eyes, brea