my biggest mistake

(Karis's pov)

I loved to see the shocked expression on Xander's face; he probably could not believe that I lost interest in him.

"You are in love with someone else." Xander chuckled, unable to believe the words that were coming out of my mouth. His shock was understandable because which bride in her right mind would tell her husband on their wedding night that she doesn't love him but it had nothing to do with me

"Yes, I made a mistake in the past and I..." He didn't let me finish my statement as my lips were sealed by Xander's lips again. It seemed like he wanted to dominate me with his sexual appeal, and I wouldn't lie 'cause he was dangerous. Every time his lips captured mine, and his sinful tongue started exploring my mouth. It makes me feel like giving in to him.

Xander was going to be the death of me. Despite how I kept on telling myself I should avoid him a part of me that always craved his love and affection wanted to give in.

Why was he doing this to me? He should hate me and avoid me just like he normally does, but why did he look hurt when I mentioned the open marriage or when I said I loved someone else? ' Karis what are you thinking?! You can't fall for his tricks again.!!' My thoughts screamed in my head making me snap away from those silly thoughts in my head telling me to submit to him

My hands were pressed against his firm chest, trying to push him away. If he kept on kissing me with this intensity, I might give in. Xander Finally left my lips to give me the chance to gasp for air which he had sucked out of my lungs.

Our eyes locked, and I could see they were filled with desires. Desire he had for me. Why was he looking at me in that? He said he was disgusted by me, but why were his eyes telling me something else? I won't lie the look he was giving me was turning me on.

"You don't hate me. Your body reacts so well to my touch." Xander scoffed at me still dwelling on my statement. Xander's hands slipped under my gown to my undies, which were already wet. I was so damn wet for him. It was so embarrassing to admit that my body obeyed him while my mind didn't.

"You are already wet for me Karis. Just say the word and I will make your desires come true because I am the only man allowed to." My throat went dry looking at his hungry eyes. My eyes went down to catch sight of his bulge. The image of his hard large dick was still fresh in my memory, and I remembered the wild nights when he drove me wild with it.

My legs clenched my throat going dry. My rebellious body just didn't want to cooperate with me. I gulped hard, trying to organize my thoughts despite my soaking wet pussy that was crying for his dick, but I wasn't going to give in to that desire.

After trying my best to keep my thoughts straight and reminding myself not to fall for the cravings of my body, I smirked him, knowing he still hadn't gotten over my words. It made me happy knowing I was messing with his mind just like how he was messing with my body."I hate you with every part of my body. I can never find a place to love a man who is cheating on me with my sister." I spat at him.

His face twisted with rage, and he barked at me, "Why do you fucking keep on saying I cheated on you with Emma? What the hell came over you?"

I was stunned by his sharp tone and how angry he got. This was the first time I had seen this part of him. "Because you are Xander. Did you think I don't know how she looks at you? She even had the nerve to try to ruin our wedding, and you didn't say anything, Xander. You didn't even care to ask me if I was alright."

Xander was taken aback by my tone, which was sharp. I was angry not just at Xander or Emma. Most importantly, I was mad at myself, who still craved his touch after everything. Xander parted his mouth to say something but closed it, lost for words.

He was at a loss for words at my outburst of emotions. "Tch." He clicked his tongue and got off me. He raked his fingers through his hair, ruffling it as a groan left his lips. It was hard to get what he was thinking, now one thing for sure: the mood was ruined.

I watched him get off the bed and make his way to the door before giving me one last glance. "Try to get your thoughts together. You are Mrs De Marco let that sink into your head." With that being said he stormed out of the room.

My body sank on the bed with every tension leaving me after he left. Finally, I could not hold it anymore as my eyes blurred with tears that started to run down my cheeks.

Everything that has happened so far started to sink in. What was I going to do about Xander? I was so deep in my thoughts that I didn't realize when sleep came to draw me to a long slumber.

The loud knocking sounds on the door made me jolt awake. My eyes shot out but I was forced to close them again because of the bright sun rays. It was already morning and I spent the entire night crying in my wedding dress after Xander left.

I tried to sit up but my entire body was aching me because of wearing my tight wedding dress all night. The person at the door knocked again hearing no response from me. "Good morning madam. I hope I am not interrupting you but it is already 9 am I was sent to assist you." A female voice spoke against the door which I recognized as one of the maids in the De Marco estate

My brows furrowed, wondering if the entire household was aware of the fact I didn't spend my wedding night with Xander.