Sa mga nagdaang araw ay naipasintabi ko ang lahat ng kaharutan ko sa katawan. Gabi-gabi akong nag-aaral para sa exam.
Nawala sa isip ko na nandito ang magkapatid na Buenaconsejo. Maging si Rafus ay hindi ko muna ginagambala kasi alam kong abala rin siya. Gano'n ako ka-understanding na future girlfriend.Napaunat ako ng braso. Kalalabas lang namin ng classroom dahil tapos na ang exam. Jangkit and Dani are complaining about how hard our exam is. Meanwhile, Lowell and Dom are keeping their cool as if exam's not a big deal.Inaamin ko na maging ako ay nahirapan pero hindi naman sa lahat ng subject. May partikular lang talaga na items na hirap na hirap ako sa pagsasagot. Kapag ayoko ng mamroblema, nagsesenyas ako kay Kimberly kung ano'ng sagot niya para sa numerong iyon."Tara kain na tayo," aya ko sa kanila dahil kanina ko pa naririnig ang pagkulo ng tiyan. Nakalimutan kong kumain ng agahan kaina bago umalis ng bahay sa kaba para sa exam."Ma"Ris, thank you for coming here with me—"I couldn't let him finish because I've been itching to ask this question ever since, "Why did you leave with saying goodbye to me?"My voice was almost a whisper, and my vision was getting blurry, but I held myself back and averted my eyes from his.I felt his intense stare at me. When I looked back, I saw guilt cross his eyes. I smiled bitterly and grabbed my water bottle."It's okay, you don't need to answer it. You're entitled to that.""I didn't know I'll stay long in Manila, Ris." He uttered after a long silence. He reached for my hand, yet I was quick to put my hand below the table. "Believe me, Ris. I was about to go back here in Antique to study, but I was left with no choice. Mama's sick and confined to the hospital for months. Our business is also at stake so I have to cooperate with my brother.""At least you should have told me you're leaving after that day!"I saw ho
Matagal akong napatitig sa perdeng papel na nasa ibabaw ng notebook habang hawak ang cellphone. Pagtipa nalang sa number ang kulang pero kinakabahan talaga ako ng sobra.Nasa kwarto na ako at tanging ang ilaw ko nalang dito ang bukas. Napapikit ako at kumawala ng malalim na paghinga bago itipa at i-dial ang number. Kagat-kagat ko ang labi ko habang naririnig ang pagring niyon."Hello?"Umawang ang labi ko at napakurap-kurap habang nakatingin sa screen ng cellphone. Ang ganda at sobrang lambing ng boses niya! I checked if the number I've dialed was correct."Hello? Sino po 'to?" Ulit niya."Uh, hello po, ikaw po ba si Ate Reive?" Nahihiya kong tanong at bahagyang kinurot ang tuhod. "Si Slaine po 'to, Ate Reive. Ako po iyong mag-aapply sa bilang part-timer sa convenience store.""Ah, ikaw pala, Slaine." Marahan siyang natawa sa kabilang linya. "Matagal ko nang hinihintay ang pagtawag mo, hindi kasi nakuha ni Luigi ang numero mo."
"Hindi ka na sana nag-abala pa, Paris." Marahan kong sabi at bumuntong-hininga.He sweetly smiled at me and then pulled over the car in front of our house, "It's okay, Ris. In fact, I like doing this.""I don't want to get a link with you," I frankly said in monotone.I saw how his Adam's apple moved. He lifted his head a bit to meet my gaze. His look became serious, "Why, Ris?"I cleared my throat and looked away. "Do... I need a reason?"Natahimik siya at nagsimulang namuo ang tensiyon sa loob ng kotse. He tilted his head and licked his lips, "Is this because of what happened back in El Paso?""What? No! That is not the reason—""I already resolved the issues between me and Reun. I already apologized to her about my rude behavior—""Paris, tama na..." mahina kong bulong habang nakahawak sa kamay niya. "Ayoko ng ganito.""What do you mean, Ris?""This..." I uttered after heaving a deep breath.
"Welcome to the Buenaconsejo's Enterprise." Hector's deep voice echoed the whole second floor. Tumayo narin ang ibang kasama ko at bumati kami ng magandang umaga sa magkapatid."In case you didn't know us. I'm Hector Janvier Buenaconsejo... and this is my brother Paris Abraham Buenaconsejo."Umangat ako ng tingin at napasinghap nang mahuling nakatingin si Paris sa akin kaya agad akong umiwas. Hector's discussing something in front of us, and I can't follow because I was distracted by Paris' grin."Since you're just doing a work immersion in our enterprise, I won't be strict with the time. I'll let you leave at five." Nervousness crept my system when Kuya Hector laid his eyes on me. "If you have issues or concerns, don't be embarrassed to reach out to my secretary, Paris, or me."Kuya Hector entered the office, and Paris was left here with us. "You can pass your folders including your resume and indigency to her," my jaw dropped when he pointed at
Kapapasok ko pa lang sa convenience store nang mahagip ng mata ko ang pamilyar na hubog ng katawan. Nagtagal ang pagtitig ko sa kaniya at siguro ay naramdaman niya iyon dahil pagbaling niya sa akin.His expression remained blank, but his intense stare made my knees wobbled. Hindi man lang ba siya nagulat nang makita ako? Grabe na talaga 'to.Imbes na dumiretso sa kaniya ay nagtungo agad ako sa staff room para kunin ang vest at tumulong kay Ate Reive. Sulyap ang tanging nagawa ko kay Rafus. He's preoccupied with the book he's reading, but I was alarmed when he stood up, and I couldn't draw near him because I was busy here on the counter.I wanted to call his name, but it's already too late because he already exited the store. Maybe I'll just text him later if I'm not busy anymore."Miss!" When the girl called my attention."Sorry po, miss." Napabalik ako sa reyalidad at mabilis na kumilos. Tinanggap ko ang bayad niya at magalang na inabot
I don't understand why. I'm just doing my job, but I keep on receiving bad feedback. Some say I'm a gold digger, a sucker for the Buenaconsejo's, and after their money and inheritance.How can they say those words without a basis that I'm a kind of that woman?It's easier for them to judge than believe me. It's been a month since this work immersion started. Those four weeks were okay for me until gossip about me ignited.That lunch was actually the last time I interacted with the Buenaconsejo's though they invited me for the next day and to the following days.I kept on refusing them even Paris when he offered a ride the last time because it was raining hard and it's already evening. I'm hours late for my part-time job but I still didn't accept his friendly offer.At first, I didn't mind the baseless talk because I believe that it was all made up by those people who have nothing to do with their lives.To my shock, Clemenseanne and Reun once came to buy goods in the enterprise, then
"I care so much... so much for you, and I don't want you to suffer. Wala akong pakialam kung nadawit ang pangalan namin, ang mahalaga ay ikaw. Ayokong umiba ang tingin ng tao sa'yo dahil dito at hindi ko na mapipigilan ang sarili ko kapag pinasalitaan ka pa nila uli, Ris."I took a step back and stared sharply at him as if throwing daggers. He keeps on reaching my arms, but every time he moves forward, I take a step backward."Why are you doing this to me?! Why?" I sounded desperate. "Fine, if you want to help, then help! But please... spare me! You kept on saying those words even though I've already cleared it between us! You kept on making my mind in turmoil and my feelings confused! Sinabi ko naman sa'yo, 'di ba? Pagkakaibigan nalang ang kaya kong ibigay, na hindi na kita gusto! Why are you doing this, huh? Why? Please respect me, Paris. I don't want to have a connection with you and with your family anymore, and I can't—"Hindi ko natapos ang sasabihin ko dahil sa pagkabigla. Sumu
Nakatingin ako sa relong pambisig. Kanina pa ang uwian at ako ang nagpaiwan sa barkada rito sa Poblacion. Marami pa namang mga nagkakalat na estudyante sa paligid, karamihan ang mga magboyfriend-girlfriend.Sina Lowell at Dom ay nagmadaling umuwi dahil pupunta sila sa Galapagos para manood ng Game 4 ng basketball at sasama si Jangkit sa kanila.Napabuntong-hininga ako at nagdadalawang isip kung sisipot ba o hindi. Nakatanggap ako kanina ng text mula kay Crisanta na gusto niyang makipagkita sa akin.Napapikit ako bago tuluyang hinawakan ang doorhandle at tuluyang pumasok dahilan ng pagtunog ng bell sa ibabaw."Slaine, here!"Napatingin ako sa kanang direksyon at nakita ko sila. My mouth left open upon seeing Crisanta's raising her hand, and beside her is her group.Ilang akong napangiti habang naglalakad papalapit sa kanila. Ang buong akala ko ay si Crisanta lang ang gustong makipagkita sa akin."Upo ka," sabi ng isa at marahan akong hinila paupo sa tabi niya.Kaswal nila akong kinausa
"Baby..." I heard Rafus spoke and I felt his presence in the bathroom.I stayed silent and acted oblivious. I don't want to talk with him at the moment because I know it'll end with screaming and fighting."Let's talk, I'll explain everything to you." His voice is cooing, and I just found him behind my back. His clothes are already soaking wet but he didn't left not until I faced him."Later... let's do that later." I said almost a whisper."No," he shook his head. The wet shirt is tracing his built. "We have to settle this now. I don't think I can last another second knowing something's off between us."My lips remain in thin line. I'm staring at him because I'm waiting for the words that will come out his mouth."That night when you finally gave me and our relationship another chance, kagagaling ko lang no'n mula sa dinner kasama ang pamilya ko at pamilya ni Aurora." He sighed and held my waist. His eyes were pleading and fille
"Be with me," Rafus whisper to my ears.The sunlight's already spreading everywhere, yet we're still here lying on my bed, both naked beneath my comforter.I hummed then buried my face more on his chest. "Where to?"He tightens the hug before kissing the top of my head. "Palawan. I brought a vacation house from Sienna, and I wanted to visit it with you."Nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kaniya. I don't think I can get used to his handsomeness that will welcome me when I wake up in the morning. "Kailan ba ang plano mong bumisita roon?""Two days from now. Is that alright with you? We'll just fix what we needed to be fixed in the corporation, then I'll ask Rojas or Amadeus to look after the business for a while."I gasped audibly and blinked twice. "You're still friends with Amadeus?""Baby, what are you talking about? Of course, I'm still friends with Amadeus." Natawa si Rafus at inangat ang pang-itaas na katawan para kubabawan
I groaned when my clock alarmed loudly. I covered my face with the blanket, hoping that my sleepiness would visit me again, but failed.Marahan kong iminulat ang mata ko at ngayon ko lang natanto na walang sinag na tumatama sa mga mata ko dahil natatakpan ng kurtina ang sliding glass door na nakakonekta sa balkonahe.Natutop ko ang labi nang maalalang sa sofa ako kagabi, papaanong nandito na ako ngayon sa kwarto? I scanned myself, and I also found out that I'm wearing comfortable cotton oversize shirt, not my office clothes.I shook my head. Damn he's doing this again! Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko. It's beating wildly as if something triggers my system to feel those feelings again.I climbed off my bed then help my way towards the bathroom and fixed myself ready for work. Hindi na ako nag-abalang magluto ng agahan dahil dadaan nalang ako sa café mamaya."Good morning."My heart leaped. Kalalabas ko lang ng apartment ay siya agad an
I fixed the belt on my trouser and left the two buttons of my long sleeve top open. I wore tube beneath, so I won't get to receive any lewd stares from anyone.Napakurap-kurap ako nang lumuhod si Rafus at siya mismo ang nagpasuot ng ankle strap sandals sa akin. I felt the gentleness as he held my feet and carefully assuring that the strap was perfectly locked."Rafus, don't treat me like this please..." I said almost begging.I don't want him to treat me like I'm valuable. Damn, I don't want to get hurt by the same person again! Nawasak ako dati at ayokong mawasak ulit. His gestures and the way he treat me brings the feelings I used to feel for him."Let's clearly draw the line. I don't have any hang ups with you, and yes, we had sex. I think that's normal for us, don't try putting another meaning of what happened last night when it's clearly lust and sexual desire."His expression became stoic and later, he laughed at himself. "Damn, bab
We're both silent the whole ride. I refuse to utter a word because I'm trying hard to control myself after remembering all the memories we had here, and Rafus' perfume never change over the years.Damn, even if I don't admit it, I know to myself that I still have hangs up for him.I don't know where Rafus is taking me. Nagdrive thru lang kami ng pagkain tapos tumulak uli kami. I looked at my wristwatch, it's nearing five thirty already."Seriously speaking, where are you taking me Rafus?""You'll see, we're almost there, just hang on for few minutes."I sighed and shut my mouth. He won't tell me, period. Why did I kept on trying since earlier then? Rafus' unbending, what's new about it?After an hour of driving, finally the car stopped. I didn't wait for Rafus' cue and help myself got out of the car."What are we doing here?" I seriously asked him with my arms crossed over my chest.Kalalabas niya lang ng kotse
"Come in," he announces and after a moment, a guy enter his office."Mr. Cattaneo, I'm here to inform you that the partition and curve table is already here. We'll just going to install it here in your office."Rafus nodded, "Okay, and do finish it as fast as you can."Naalerto ako nang hawakan ni Rafus ang kamay ko at pinagsiklop iyon. Nakita ko rin ang pagsulyap ng employee sa kamay naming dalawa kaya ginapang ako ng kaba at nagpupumilit na kumalas."Do inform me if you're done," Rafus formally said to the guy and swiftly picked my handbag on the floor.Lumabas kami ng opsina at doon ako nagkaroon ng lakas loob para lagyan ng puwersa ang pagwaksi ko sa kamay kong hawak niya."It's working hours," I said, not taking my eyes off him. "I believe you do know how to separate personal relationship with work, Mr. Cattaneo."He flashes that smirk, making me feel annoyed. "Well that principle works depending where my woman
I blink couple of times before slowly opening my eyes to adjust to the light that passes through the slightly open curtain.I groaned as I felt pain in my head like it's been hammered multiple times. I travelled my eyes to the whole room and fear starting creeping in my system.This is not my room!I touched my body and that's when I finally felt at ease. Thank God I'm still fully-clothed.I spend few moments of ransacking my head to find answer why I'm here in someone's room, but I only remember that I'm with Ma'am Claireen in the club last night!Before I could finally recognize the familiar scent that fills in the whole room, the door push open and a man step in, making my jaw drop in shock and confusion."Oh, you're awake now..." He calmly said and I got distracted by the sweats dripping from his forehead.I cleared my throat, "Where am I? And why I am here with you?"Mariin siyang napatingin sa akin at doon
"What are you doing here?" My brows furrow and my blood starts to boil. He didn't answer, he just remain there, standing while looking calm and collected.I took a deep breath and almost rolled my eyes on him. Kinuha ko ang grocery bags na nakalapag at binuksan ang pinto ng apartment ko saka bastang pumasok pero bago ko pa iyon maisara, pinigilan iyon ng malakas na kamay."Ano ba'ng problema mo?" Pinigilan ko ang sarili na huwag siyang pagtaasan ng boses.Titig na titig siya mga mata ko at hindi ko magawang umiwas. I can see exhaustion, pain, and longing in his eyes. In a snap, he invited himself in. He took the grocery bags from my hold and shamelessly walked towards my kitchen."Seriously, Rafus? What are you trying to do? Why are you doing this?" I followed him to my kitchen and took the grocery bag to place it on my countertop.I was taken a back when he wrapped his arms around my waist and buried his head between my neck and shoulder
I paid the driver a yellow bill and didn't wait for my change. Lumabas ako ng sasakyan dala-dala ang dalawang duffel bag. Hindi naman siguro ako mukhang haggard mula sa flight dahil malaki ang tiwala ko sa simpleng make-up na inilagay ko sa mukha.I'm wearing a matching plaid trouser and blazer, a black tube top, then white shoes. This is often my office attire, and I never got any complain from my fellow workmates or from Mr. Sorrento.Hindi ako pinigilan ng security guard nang basta-basta akong pumasok. Sa dalawang taon ko ba namang pagtatrabaho dito sa incorporated ay hindi nila ako nakilala."Ms. Aranza!" Gulat na bungad ng receptionist. "Naparito po kayo?"Tipid akong ngumiti, "May problema lang sa resignation ko. Uhm—pwede bang maiwan ko muna dito sa ground floor ang mga duffel bag ko?""Uh sige po," nakangiti niyang tugon at sumenyas sa security guard kaya madaling naipasok sa loob ang workplace ng receptionist ang bags ko.