Chapter Three - Can I Call?

I took in a few deep breaths after putting on my clean shirt and looked at the door... I needed to get out. I have been in here so long I wasn't even sure if she was still here...

Fuck! Why did I freak out like that? God.. she's gay but she's human. I shouldn't have freaked out... she probably felt like shit right now... If she was still here, I needed to get out and apologize.

I slowly opened my bedroom door and found her standing at the middle of the living room looking at one of my paintings on the wall.. fuck.. that ugly thing.

I cleared my throat and she quickly looked at me. Her face was flushed a bit...

I sighed and decided to talk first but we surprisingly both said, "I'm sorry..."

She sighed too and started rambling, "noo fuck I'm so sorry I saw your boobs.. it wasn't my intention I was..."

I furrowed my brows at her, did she just fucken say she's sorry she saw my boobs? What the fuck!

"I mean... fuck.. Amora, I'm sorry okay.. I just.. I'm..."

I shook my head cutting her off, "no.. I don't know why I freaked out like that Tawny.. I shouldn't have, I just..."

"I should have knocked... okay. I'm the one who was wrong.. I didn't knock and you were obviously going to change since I spilled milkshake on you.. shit I'm really sorry.. your phone was seriously ringing non stop, I had no idea what to do and I was like what if it's important..."

I shook my head thinking it wasn't that important. It was this idiot Luna..

"It was my best friend calling.. you didn't know.. so please it's okay.. I just freaked out. I shouldn't have.. understand...?? it's okay.."

We both kept quiet and stared at each other...

"I'm sorry...again.." she said after a bit and I nodded then rolled my eyes, "we should stop now.. apologizing that is.."

"Oh yeah?"

I shrugged, "pshhhh it's okay really.. besides, it's not like my boobs are the first you ever saw by the way.."

She just looked at me as if she had no idea what to say.

God me and my big mouth..

"Shit... sorry, I don't mean it like you see a lot of boobs.. fuck....."

She stared at me as if she was reading something or trying to figure out something this time around.

I was nervous again, I'm embarrassing myself so fucken much, "it's okay though Tawny.. that's what I meant. We good?"

She slowly nodded her head a bit hesitantly, "yeah.. I'm sorry and yeah we good.. right?"

I smiled a bit, she was nervous too. The awkwardness was just fucking with us, "we good.. we good.."

She nodded again and then looked at her wrist watch, "I... I have to go now..umh... so, we will talk yeah?"

"Yeah.. we will.. drive safe.. and don't crash into other people.. they might be worse than me."

She laughed a bit, "I don't think there's anyone who can top you... look at where I am."

I laughed, "Whatever... just get home safe..."

She nodded opening the door, "cool, thanks.. and sorry again about everything, milkshake and camera.. and this..."

I smiled, "all forgiven...."

"Bye..."

"Byee" then she closed the door and I was left staring at it.

I slowly went to the fridge and took soda out. I looked at the door again and then what she said registered..

She said she is sorry she saw my boobs...?

I laughed a bit, what the fuck? Who says that?

I laughed a bit audible and let out a breath I didn't know I was holding in.. She was funny... God she must have been embarrassed...

I looked at the door again. She was gone.

Fuck! I took a sip on my soda... This stupid thing that happened made me feel like I was seeing the last of her...

The afternoon died down and soon my roomate walked in as I was fixing myself a sandwich..

"Hey..."

I nodded my head at her and said nothing. I was actually pissed at her for the filthy place I walked in on.

"How are you.. your boyfriend and best friend have been looking for you. But you didnt respond to texts nor calls. They are worried.." She said and I sighed when I noticed that I have been gone almost the whole day with Tawny and disappeared on my friends without even saying.

I took my phone and was about to text my boyfriend when Freya disturbed me, "hold on... is that what I think it is?"

I turned to her and found her looking at the box on the table next to my bag. I smiled, "it soooo is.."

"Wait... when did you get it? Didn't know you have so much money hanging around.. dude I could use with some, so share..."

I laughed shaking my head, "Freyy... you'd probably buy more animals or buy these ones you have clothes.. so noo.. besides, the mysterious nameless girl did pay for it after all.."

She ached her brow, "what? Did she call?"

I shook my head, "no... she came to school... so tell your friends and animals that there's actually good people out there.. very fucken good people who don't run from their promises."

"Okay.. wooow.. she's a good person indeed.. let me go clean myself up.."

Thank fuck she said something about cleaning, I was forgetting the shit I walked into here, "wait...talking about cleaning.. why the fuck do I have to always remind you to clean after yourself Freya.. you don't stay alone and I bring people over.."

She sighed, "it's not a big deal.."

"Fuck it is... imagine how they'd feel to be seeing your dirty laundry on the fucken couch.. and worse dirty dishes here.. Don't we have a sink in the kitchen for that? Dude this fucken has to stop really. I can't be cleaning after your fucken mess all the time. I am not your mother.."

"Jesus! You got your camera.. one would think you'd be less grumpy but look at you throwing tantrum about small shit..."

I groaned, "please clean your shit or I will lock you in your room for the rest of the year.."

She lifted both her hands in surrender, "fine.. Jeez.. fine I got you the first time."

I walked towards my bedroom and tripped on her sandal, I turned to her, "yet here I am tripping on your shit! Fix this for real.."

I got in my room and banged my door then sat down and started eating.

I took my phone and texted Luna telling her I'm okay and immediately my boyfriend called.

I smiled, "babyyyyy..."

'someone sounds much better..'

"I am more than much better babe.. and how are you? Sorry I disappeared.."

'well it's good to hear my baby is fine.. more than fine even.. I was worried, you were bummed by the camera.. but I promise we will come up with something okay..'

A smile appeared on my face, "actually baby.. I got it.."

'what? the camera?'

"Yes.. the girl.. she bought it like she promised and I'm fucken looking at it now.. I was looking for it that's why I disappeared..."

He laughed, 'fuuuck.. guys give me all my money back.. I told you my lady will get that camera back.. bring it...'

'what? She got it? How?' I heard one of his friends ask and he just laughed, 'she's my girlfriend and she makes things happen.. so give...'

Woooow, did they bet on that? Guys are so stupid!

"Baby did you guys seriously bet on this..?"

'it was Antony and he even put the bet against you.. baby on Saturday I'm so taking you out.. with Tony's money..'

I laughed, "okay idiot.. can I call Paris.."

'I love you baby okay... guys give me my money...'

I shook my head laughing at how they could fucken put a bet on me getting my camera back, "I love you more babe... nighty..."

I hung up and looked at my phone. Paris hasn't called. I took a deep breath and then dialled her numbers. It rang about eight times and I hung up..

I tried it again and it took me straight to voicemail..

"Umh.. Paris call me..."

Then I hung up.

I looked at my watch and it was exactly four hours since Tawny left. I wondered if she got home safe... Should I text her? I mean I have her numbers thanks to that stupid text she sent to me.

Do I text her?

I sighed and got up to take my camera. I started putting it together. I was excited and the lens of this thing was going to be the death of me. I took a picture of one of my paintings on the wall. I looked at it and smiled.. thank you Tawny. I don't know how long it was going to take me to get this back.. but fuck you coz it was your fault from the start.

I took my SD card from the old camera and put it on this one then started playing the video from the expo at school.

I watched as my sister talked about herself, how she started and how she pushed to be where she was.

'I didn't take anything for granted and I knew that any work could push me to be where I want to be. I first interned at a shitty company, I won't name it, but it was shitty to be honest.. yet I learnt a lot and today I'm the editor for one of the biggest magazines in the country. I worked hard, just know that. There are no short cuts to true success.. don't miss any step so that when you fall you don't have to start afresh. Work your ass off.. that's my motto..!'

That was her motto, she was work.. all the fucken time even when I needed her sometimes.

I sighed trying to not get into this too much coz it was going to turn me into a big baby.

I looked at the time and it was nearing 10pm.. fuuuuck! Did these people talk for so long at that stupid expo? Wooow...

I connected my camera on the charger and took my phone. There was literally no text or missed call.

I was a bit mad at Paris but then she was probably busy.

Then my new friend on the other side. She hasn't texted. I sighed. Did she think I was mad? Was she quiet coz she was scared like I'm scared of texting her?

I groaned and got up. This was shitty... I needed to pee and then sleep. I'll see tomorrow if I'm still scared or not to text Tawny.. I needed to tell her that we are good for real.

When I returned my phone was blinking. I took it and to my surprise it that now familiar unknown number...

....998766: Hey... I hope I'm not bothering you.. I think you're sleeping.. I didn't wanna wake you, but I was checking up on you. I just got home.. I am dead tired.

Wait... the fuck.. She just got home? Like NOW? Where on earth was she?

I quick saved her numbers and then texted back.

ME: got home at this time missy? Where have you been?

No I'm actually up, I was watching the boring expo since I was distracted by someone who killed my camera the other day... camera murderer.. Did I tell you that my camera is not even breathing.. you are awful.

She quickly texted back.

TAWNY: well I was at the gym... 💪

And I don't think I'll ever hear the end of this, of me alone, by myself singlehandedly taking your camera where ever it was and killing it.

I laughed I truly was acting as if she was responsible for this alone. But I didn't care, I was going to remind her this for as long as she lived.

ME: Whether I handed you the camera or you took it from my neck... fact is, you killed it okay.. you killed it.😑😑 then don't make me talk about the milkshake..

TAWNY: 😂😂😂🙊🙈🙈🙈Woooow I am the most awful person I've ever met to you.. I apologize but heeey that milkshake showed me your place.. nice place by the way... I should also get myself a rat and a cat or snake as pats..

Wooow she was mocking my place.. I laughed... fuck her.

ME: middle finger to the person reading this.. you suck and you are awful..

I watched as she typed back.

TAWNY: can I call you..?

ME: sure...

My phone rang within a second and I responded, "hey..."

'hey what are you doing??'

"I'm in bed... you?"

'same.. I just got in bed too..'

"Good.. you won't have to crash anyone's things or spill something on them..."

She chuckled a bit, 'you are not funny Amorrra...really.. not funny at all...'

I laughed, "yet you're laughing... hmmm.."

She scoffed, 'anyways I'm tired, I just wanted to check how you are doing..'

I couldn't help but smile, "thank you.. and thank you again for the camera.... that you broke.."

She laughed, 'so... umh.. are you doing anything tomorrow?'

I put on my thinking face.. I only had to fetch my assignments at school and then that was it... so I will be done by 10 am.

I shook my head as if she could see me and turned around that I was now laying on my back looking up at the ceiling, "no I don't have anything.. why are you asking? Wanna bath me with another milkshake?"

She laughed, 'Goodness am I ever going to hear the end of the shit I did to you...?'

I shrugged, "probably not.. what's the fun in that.."

'I am so sorry your majesty.. for real.. anyways I was thinking we could hang out tomorrow if you have nothing..'

"Great.. but we will be spending my money instead of yours.. so which mall?"

'I was actually thinking my place.. malls are crowded with people who stare and wave.... remember..?'

I laughed thinking about what happened today,"well when you guys asked God to make your asses hot and sexy, we just asked to be ordinary and half blind.."

This had her laughing, 'woooow.. so... my place?'

I cleared my throat and decided to joke, "Tawny you met me yesterday and I only knew your name today, now you want to take me to your place.. this is another level of fast..."

'umh.. I only met you yesterday and you took me back to your place today.. but I wasn't complaining. Anyways stop thinking like that.. we will just hang out and play pool table..'

I furrowed my brows as if she could see me, "you got pool table in your place? What are you? White?"

This made her laugh more, 'do you ever run out of shitty things to say.. not that what you said is shitty..'

I rolled my eyes, "you said it's shitty... you're racist.."

'see what I mean.. that's shitty.. again..' she exclaimed.

I laughed, "whatever.. come fetch me anytime after 11.. oh and please fix your clumsiness.. I don't want you breaking me at the end.. sleep well.." then I hung up.

I laughed a bit and put my phone under my pillow then closed my eyes.