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Chapter 34 - How Can He Love Me If He Doesn't Love Himself?
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Asher My dad’s lawyer just read out his will, and my mom and I drove home in disbelief. Benjamin Prince was an asshole when he was alive but made sure my mother and I were taken care of in the event of his death. My mom now owns all his companies, and when I come of age, his lawyers would transfer 20 million into my account. Basically, everything my dad owned now belonged to my mom. She couldn’t believe he would actually trust her with anything, given how he treated her, but he apologised for stunting her growth in the will. He left no personal letter or note for me, so that tells you just what he thought of his only son. “So, where do you wanna go after school?” My mom asks as we walk up to our house, and I shrug. “He groomed me for OSU, but I would rather not follow in his shadow,” I say, getting out and walking over to open the door for her. “Thanks, baby. Well, you can take a year to decide, if you want? Travel a bit, see the world before you make up your mind?” She asks, unlo
Enduring Liam: A High School BL Novel Chapter 36 - Ego Shouldn't Win In The End
Liam As Asher walks away from me, I reach out, nearly calling him back but stopping myself in time. Turning my back, I let out a sigh and whispered, “I miss you too,” before walking away from him. He actually parked in front of my house instead of around the block; this itself shows me that he doesn’t care about his name or status anymore; that I’m more important than the rumour that would start. We’re both being fucking stubborn; I know this. I have forgiven him, but I’m just too damn proud to tell him that. It’s been just over seven weeks since it happened, and although my ribs have healed, the pain still sits there. And I don’t just mean from the fracture. I understand his reasons for not breaking up the fight in time or at least telling them to stop, but it doesn’t hurt any less. He said that he loved me, that no one was allowed to touch me and that he would always protect me; so where did all the promises go? Yet, whenever he looks at me, I feel like I’m about to burst with a
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Asher They say the best kind of sex is make up sex, but right now for me it is drunk make up sex. I have Liam on my bed as I claim him from behind. Fuck, I have missed him. I’ve missed his touch, his kiss, the way my name spills out of his mouth when he reaches his peak. God, I don’t want this to end; but unfortunately, I feel myself rimming the edge as I come undone. Groaning and gripping his hips, I let go but continued to thrust inside of him. “Asher, wait… fuck…” He groans, fisting the covers in his hands and pushing his ass out to meet my thrusts. “Wait…stop. I can’t anymore…” he breathes out and it literally takes all my fucking willpower to stop myself and slowly pull out of him. He falls down face first and tries to catch his breath as my cum drips out of him. Fuck, I want to be inside him again and do some catching up. Turning him on his back, I move in between his legs and take his dick into my mouth, tasting the sal
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AsherIt's the looks that get to me the most - everyone knows that I’m with Liam, that I’m out and gay. Whenever we go out anywhere, we always get these stares from the townsfolk. I know they’ll only give me stares and ugly looks because I’m the only one who can lead the town’s football team to victory.How did Liam survive all this time? How did he go through this all by himself and with the guys at school beating him up? I might have been raised by an asshole like my father and taught how to be tough, but Liam is a lot braver than I am.School isn’t as bad as I thought it would be, although my teammates don’t look at me like they used to. They still trust me to lead them on the field, but I have a feeling that they’ve started losing faith in me.Why does sexuality have to be such a big deal? How does me fucking a guy or holding hands with a guy hinder my ability to play football? No
Enduring Liam: A High School BL Novel Chapter 39 - Dinner With Dr Marsh
Asher“What happened?!” Liam exclaims when he sees the bruise underneath my eye. I shrug and walk into his house. “Mountford’s quarterback decided to pay me a visit.” Is all I say while we go towards the kitchen.Liam hands me a pack of frozen peas. “Babe, I’m fine, really. Dale and Matt chased them off after they ambushed me and took me out for drinks. I held a cold beer against my eye for about half an hour.”“I’m going to pretend I didn’t hear talks of underage drinking!” Dr Marsh shouts from the kitchen, and my stomach drops. “Fuck,” I mutter. “Hey, Dr Marsh,” I say, walking over to her and planting a kiss on her cheek.She eyes me up and down with a raised eyebrow and crosses her arms. “Getting into a lot of fights lately, Asher?”“Mom!” Liam calls from the freezer, but I shake my head. “Only for being
Enduring Liam: A High School BL Novel Chapter 40 - Finals, Finally
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Enduring Liam: A High School BL Novel Chapter 41 - Graduation Day
AsherDid we crush Mountford? Of fucking course we did, and the pussies went crying to their moms afterwards. Their defence was weak as shit, and their offence lacked drive; I guess they didn’t give a shit about winning this one for some reason. I noticed that Masters was benched the entire time, and it made me wonder if anyone snitched on him for what he tried last time.I’m currently watching Liam get ready in my room, wearing his black graduation cap and gown and his gold Valedictorian sash. He’s been pacing the room since he got dressed, repeating his speech verbatim but getting nervous by the minute.I smile and walk over to him, wrapping my arms around him and kissing his forehead. “Babe, calm down.”He looks at me as if I’ve gone mad and scoffs. “Calm? CALM? I am calm; what about this looks like I am not calm? I’m cool, and it will be fine. I’m calm, and I’m okay.” H
Enduring Liam: A High School BL Novel Chapter 42 - Last Days, Goodbye
Liam“Asher! There are a few more things to pack; get your ass in here!” I call from my bedroom. Asher has been sleeping over the last few days since his mother sold their house, and right now, he’s helping me pack for our trip tomorrow.Asher’s mom has already bought us an apartment in New Haven, so it’s just for us to move in. Obviously, I will pay her back for her kindness when I am able to one day.“You’re fucking bossy today, Marsh,” Asher grumbles as he walks into my room. I scoff and stand with my hand on my hip.“Do you want out of this fucking town or not?” I ask him, to which he immediately shuts up and starts helping me.Everything still feels so surreal; Asher is moving with me to the same town, we’ll be attending the same University and living in our home. I keep on waiting for the penny to drop and wake up, but it never comes.This is us; this is
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Asher “Liam!” I run out after Liam, but he’s already speeding away in his car. I call out to him, but I get no reaction whatsoever; he doesn’t even slow down.“Shit! Shit! Shit!” I exclaim, punching the concrete garage wall and running back inside to grab my cell phone. We can’t leave things like this, and I won’t allow us to end things like this even if it is all my fault.Liam doesn’t answer when I try his cell, but I keep on trying even after he’s killed the call.How could I have been so stupid? We spoke about having our anniversary dinner indoors and reliving our first night together, but now it doesn’t look like that will be happening. In fact, it feels like Liam has given up on me, on us.I sink down into the couch, my eyes going to everything he has set up for us and finally landing on my gift. Sighing, I pick up the gift box and open it, my heart breaking a
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