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2021-04-07 22:22:55“What…? How did you…”
“Aya saw you two in the garden restaurant,” Hiro cut it short, “Do you want to say something to me? After I clearly told you not to see him?!” he burst out.
His gaze was terrifying. His eyes were filled with anger, his fists were clenched like he was preparing to hit someone. I became afraid of him.
“It wasn't on purpose! It was hard to avoid him once he clearly saw me… Melisa wasn't around, and all he knows is that I'm a writer and a have a boyfriend…” I tried explaining feverishly.
“Ana… are you an idiot?” he hissed, “He looked for you for a reason, and that wasn't because you are pretty, or that he started to like you! You should have rejected him, and not go anywhere with him!”
I stood before him like a defendant standing in front of the grand jury… I never thought that I would be interrogated by him… no
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