I hate sleeping alone anymore. Taking her home last night had been hell, but she was right. Asking her to move in here was too much. I just wish I could shake the feeling of dread each time she was out of my sight. I know she's safe at home with her family, but whenever she's not with me I lose my mind.I rolled out of bed and headed for the shower. I'd see her in a little while and then maybe I could breathe right again. Fuck that. I went back to my room to grab my phone. She answered on the first ring like she'd been waiting for me. "Morning baby, how did you sleep?""I missed you.""I missed you too, I woke up reaching for you.""Aww, that's so sweet I love you too." She grinned and the sound eased the knots in my gut. "I'll be there to get you soon baby go get ready for school." After she made me embarrass myself by sending her kisses over the phone we hung up and I went to take that shower. A very cold one. "Son are you up?" Dad came into my room while I was towel dryin
I calmed myself down before the machine next to me went haywire and the nosy ass nurse came waltzing in here with her crap. I didn't need any more needles or pills. What I needed was out of here.I felt helpless just laying here, something else I hate. I worked too hard to get where I am and I'll be damned if I'm going to let some hick from the sticks come in and rain on my parade. Now that I'm laid up here, that bitch Sian has been running my school like she thinks she's the queen of Eden High, or at least that's the way that idiot Liz had made it sound. It just burns me up to even imagine it. Her walking the halls with my Jace and everyone thinking they were the new 'it' couple. I didn't like the lilt in Liz's voice when she was relaying the news either. I'm gonna have to remind her who owns her stupid ass too. A week and a half away and already things were getting away from me. Plus, I have to get out of here so I can find out what the hell is going on and which one of th
I pulled the silver mirror mom had brought her baby girl from under my pillow and studied myself. At least the asshole that did this to me hadn't touched my face. I was still the most beautiful girl in the city. Yeah, but Jace still won't give you the time of day.The thought had me lowering the mirror in fury. I hated the sting of tears that formed at the corners of my eyes. So weak and pointless, but they always came when I thought of him. He was the first person to treat me like this. Even my stepdad who suspected me of trying to off his brat wasn't so cold. He kept me at arm's length sure, but he hadn't cut me off completely. Jace on the other hand acted like I didn't exist and the worst part was not knowing why.I'd put on my best performance with him. Well, in the beginning I did, before I got to know him and really fell in love, something I'd promised myself I would never do. Love was for the weak minded, mom was always in love when I was a little girl and where did that eve
"Shane you have to go before my parents catches you here." She whispered and looked towards the door as if she expected it to bust open any minute. I could hear them moving around outside beyond her door, but instead of fear, it amped up my horny factor. She tried fighting me off while I was teasing her into letting me have her before heading off to school."Shh, if you stay quiet they won't even know I'm here." I didn't give her a chance to argue. I'd been fingering her to readiness while she was worrying about getting caught, and she was primed.She was like a fucking drug. Last night I'd had her on my bed after we did our homework, but I woke up this morning with a raging hard on that won't quit. I could've rubbed one out in the shower, but that wouldn't have been the same. Last time I'd had blue balls all day until I was able to corner her at lunch for a little foreplay.No way was I going to put myself through that shit again. So after a quick shower I'd driven over here a f
"Look at him, thinks he's fucking something. You know she's only with him because of who his family is right? Probably thinks he's gonna make her a star or some shit, just like all the other stupid bitches in this town." The anger was getting out of control again. I could feel it happening but couldn't seem to put the brakes on. I didn't really care anymore anyway. I've had enough of this shit."Dude, what the fuck is up with you?""What?""Lately you've been acting like an ass. What, did Sanders hit you too hard at practice or something? You're being a douche.""Why, because I don't have my head up his ass like the rest of you? My old man's just as important as his you know.""Only in your dreams. Look, you've had a hard-on for Jace since like the sixth grade. He's already checked your ass too many times to count and we both know you can't take him. If I were you I'd give it a rest, unless you have a death wish." Maybe that's exactly what I have. I walked away and left Al
"Jace get your hands off my ass." She grinned up at me with the sun shining down on that hair of hers, eyes bright and happy. I'd been working hard to put that look back in her eyes these last few days. Doing everything I can to take her mind off of the attack and all the other shit that had followed. After my conversation with dad this morning, I was even more determined."Why should I? it's mine." I kissed her nose and pinched her ass."Because everybody's looking." She swatted at my hands but I held tight."So what, let them." Her eyes went to the girls in their cheering uniforms heading to practice, and I could see the longing on her face."Just another week or so baby and you'll be back out there.""But it doesn't hurt anymore, I wanna practice now." She was so adorable when she pouted like that."That's just the meds talking. We already had this conversation. You try that shit I'ma tan your ass right here." She rolled her eyes and huffed. I guess that's her way of cal
I'd cut him off when we were like ten or some shit, because I knew even back then that he was wired wrong. My parents were sticklers for standing up for the underdog and had passed that trait on to me. Stanley on the other hand, liked picking on anything weaker than him. By the second time I saw him doing that shit I was done. After I'd bloodied his nose for fucking with some kid that couldn't stand up for himself.Ever since then he's done everything he could to get back into my good graces but I was done. He'd learned to leave me the fuck alone, but here lately he's been acting up again. Maybe he needed to switch his meds or some fuck, who knows.I used to feel bad for him when we were kids, because his old man was a piece of shit. But when he started doing the same shit I couldn't bring myself to go there. Mom always taught me that if you don't like something, then you don't do that shit to anyone else. So I'd dropped him and moved on. Then he started complaining to anyone who w
For the rest of the night mom and dad were in and out talking shit to my friends and keeping us entertained. The atmosphere was the lightest it had been in a while. That could be on account of the fact that no one brought up the situation or even mentioned Mandy and her shit, and there were no cops knocking at the damn door. Best of all Sian was totally relaxed and she wasn't faking it to keep my mouth shut.If I could just figure out what the hell she had planned for tomorrow night then maybe I could relax too. I don't think she realizes that I know her as well as I do, or the way her mind works. Being in love with someone kinda gives you some insight, makes you think only of the other person.I know how I feel about what had happened to her, how I feel about anyone fucking with her. And the way Mandy has been coming after me lately, sending the cops to arrest me on some trumped up bullshit, I knew Sian's placating me was all for show. So with that deduction, I knew she had to be