I could not contain the emotion the truth, my happiness was indescribable, he has made vibrate my be from some years ago, but eh not been able to tell him that I like, not for fear of him, but you just don't want to feel again the rejection, as long as you know that among us there is a love so unique and just us I will be happy maybe that's why I understood that I didn't need the dark glasses, more than anything, who should want to first I am myself.
- Every day that passes you melt my heart.
(He said while he never looked away from me and his eyes were wet)
I responded attentively to him.
- Why do you say that?
- I just can't stop thinking about the wonderful woman you've become, my little Hope.
It felt strange I'm barely 1 year younger than his person, but for sure it sounds very nice coming from him.
- Wonderful I'm not, I've just grown up with experience. Rejection has not been able to turn off my being, it hurts yes, it feels hor
I did not know how to react, what to do or what to think, during my childhood and part of what is now my adult life I had the hope of being able to see her, to be able to hug her, to be able to tell her mom and how much I needed her; I preferred a thousand times that she was missing and that the word death was not related to that fact.I tried to lie I didn't want to hear anymore...—I don't know anyone by that name.He said while I still turned my back on him.—You'll have the pants to deny it.—I really don't know who you're talking about, I don't know this Margaret girl, so let me go.I wanted to escape from that place, what I was hearing couldn't be true, tears flowed from my eyes, but I didn't know why, I couldn't be crying for someone I didn't know.—Then because you're wearing her necklace, and because your body is tense when you hear about her Hope.—And you that... (while drying my face)..
I went from being at a party for the first time to having a mess of thoughts and confusion, all I could do was keep my head down, this couldn't be happening, I was so immersed in my mind that I didn't feel Jacob calling me until I touched my shoulder and came back to reality. Jacob Express. —Hope tell me the truth that happened, it is not common to see you so distracted it is as if only your body is here. One thing Yin emphasized was the fact that for the time being no one had to know what little he had told me to avoid exposing them to danger, only to not look so strange I could say that he was indeed my uncle and even that we knew it was something that others could not digest so easily. I shook my head and asked Jacob to get me out of that place, so I raised my face slightly and looked straight at Jacob and begged him. —Jacob I don't feel well, we can go. Although I wasn't quite attentive to Mary and William I could see from the corn
Something in me told me that I should stick my head out, when I did it and there I saw him, lying on the ground shaking, in my mind there was a fight between two beings one who asked me to do the right thing and help him and another who celebrated the fact of seeing him like this and asked me to leave him lying there. No matter how stupid he was with me, I couldn't leave him like that, so the being who asked me to help him won, I left my wallet on the desk and took off my heels, I approached him and foolishly tried to wake him up without getting any answer, I thought of shouting to see if someone answered me, but, probably they would treat me as crazy or they could even accuse me of wanting to kill him, of course if there was someone in the building because most, if not all, were at the party, also most of the campus saw him hit early after our argument so instead of helping him something told me that the first thing they would do would be judge me. Take forces, stil
I could not get Seliet away, also that fucking fever that came out of nowhere did not give up, again I felt that I was fading it was as if that necklace called me out loud and again I lost consciousness, ending up consumed once again by the darkness and wrapped in that horrible nightmare, but for some reason it was no longer so strange to me.The face of that woman became familiar to me, that dream made me witness of her death of how they stuck a sword in her belly, her eyes became glassy full of tears, I saw how she tried to crawl wanting to get to where I knew her baby, but as much as I try she could not get it, in her hand there was a necklace, I could not believe it, it was the same one that Hope wears around her neck, the same one that I touched this afternoon, I saw her say goodbye and with her soul shattered I saw her have to leave this world alone, life escaped his eyes leaving his body empty as if it were a simple shell, the only thing left was desolation in that her
There I am, inside that room submerged even in a trance in my dreams, having Ronan close makes me feel as if I was at home, my being tries to hold on to him as if I knew him of yesteryear, as if it were the only thing that binds me to the earth and immersed in my thoughts I feel like the necklace in my chest insists me to approach him, it is as if my body has its own mind while I am unconscious. I do not know what happened while I slept, but I feel the heat of a body that entangles me in its arms, there lies inert and all agony in me disappears.I feel the clarity of the morning and when I open my eyes Ronan is no longer lying next to me, he did not appreciate even the fact that I took care of him, in short, he is a complete jerk. I feel angry and I shouldn't, I just fulfilled the fact of taking care of someone who needed it, but I would have preferred to see him smile thanking me.The memories of what happened the previous night return to my mind and after getting out
For a moment I found it funny and even nice to see the two in plan to challenge each other measuring forces against each other, I can not deny seeing them act like this only makes me want to see them really fight, I am a lover of fights and Jacob witnesses that not for nothing I am an expert in martial arts techniques.Everything was as if it were a film that was out of focus and in slow motion so we did not realize when the professor arrived, when everything returned to calm we all placed ourselves straight in the seats as if we were a corps of soldiers in perfect battalion formation.I heard the girls whisper about Ronan how cute he seemed and how it was a waste that Linda Diamond was his girlfriend.Girlfriend! that word stirred my senses, but I could not afford to prove that it caused a bad taste in my mouth.The professor struck a marker that he had in his hand against the table making that noise make me return to my senses and often he presented him
Yin and I decided that it was a good idea to stay for a while in the green area near the building where we were, until it was the final time in which we would meet with the others in the common dining room.It was a very beautiful place, full of flowers all around it and in the center of that place there was a dome supported by 4 columns with some amazing stained glass windows on the ceiling that when the sunlight collided with them were formed on the floor of that place beautiful figures full of color, we stood still for a long time admiring that area that was really little visited by the students, it was a very quiet morning, very fresh, very subtle, quite calm.Eye and that calm is before tragedy has much fabric to cut and that day and the ones to come during the period of that first month were simply a respite from the chaos that was coming, the worst of all is that I suspected it, this peace that was felt I knew that it would not last long.I thought that,
Yin laughed at me, I saw the mockery on his face, I don't understand why that silly grimace on his face brings me a feeling of peace and war.We took our things and left in a hurry, when we arrived at the dining room Jacob, Mary and William were already seated at a table near the windows overlooking the outside of the central park, we approached little by little, Jacob's face was a poem was read with all clarity in all the lines of expression of his face the words HUNGER and DEATH with capital letters and I knew that if he spoke too much it would be a walking corpse.I beckoned to Yin to approach us in silence, but, for him it was like saying, throw me into the lions ' mouths, that place felt so heavy, but, I did not count on there being another person more reckless than Yin and it was not just one but two more people with whom I would have to deal, Mary and William laughed at their lungs after seeing the expressions of Jacob, Yin and mine, everyone who was in that din