Chapter 321 Cleo If anybody asked me how I was doing today I would tell them that I'm not gay but then again I'm not okay. I understand what's going on and I am very fine but I'm not fine at the same time I don't think the pain of ever losing a child goes away it never goes away. However I did learn that; it is only under earth that we can experience a wake because the wake is a sign of rebirth . I've said it before when I'm going to say again that people never really die, they are just in a different universe and a different time and space and I used to believe that there is a portal that leads to a place where loved ones could always visit the ones that they miss and come back to earth . I've always feared waking up and finding everyone I've loved gone hasn't there is no trace there is no way for them to be found and russellville I wouldn't know where to start to look for them and then again my husband goes in pulls a stunt that he knows will turn my world upside down . It's un
Chapter 322 Angelo You can never get over the pain of losing a child. It's the worst pain you can ever feel as a parent. The pain never goes away and even though you have children , you fear that they might suffer the same fate that the first child you lost may suffer and therefore you will do everything in your power to keep them safe . Fun things that you didn't expect happen you find yourself trying to balance or trying to cope with what happened and the worst thing is that when preventable things happen you stop blaming yourself and asking yourself of things that you could have done better and hopefully that might have changed the way you hoped things would pan out. I never want to admit fault until things get worse to the point where it's so hard to repair what was broken . Right now I think I might have just done something that was out of my control. It wasn't in my control because after the turbulence happened. I made sure that everybody was okay and my daughter won't stop
Chapter 323CleoI'm usually calm and I'm usually level-headed but in recent days I've been on edge and I haven't been myself lately and it's starting to get to me to the point where I just don't know what to feel anymore because I've been suppressing all my feelings all this time and I think it's about time that I refocus my feelings and be the person I once was.Have you ever been in a relationship where you think that this is the right relationship for you and that you finally found the one because at some point I'd felt like that with the person that I had married . I thought and I still think that he is the right person but there are some aspects of the relationship that I have been neglecting to the point where I don't think that I can't click them anymore because you can only sacrifice for so much and for so long until you find out that; you are doing more damage to yourself by suppressin
Chapter 324 Angelo There is a moment in between waking up and falling asleep where everything seems to be silent and everything seems to be peaceful it is true that The guilty get no sleep and no matter how many times I tried to fight sleep sleep keeps on coming back to attack me and it's my body's way of telling me that I need to take a break and I need to just breathe for a little bit sometimes I pass out to the point where I don't know how I even passed out but last night I couldn't sleep and the only reason I couldn't sleep was because my wife had left me an emotional number I didn't know what to do but I need to do something big and in my trying to do something big I made the mistake of not making sure that I called my uncle and told him that I was coming to Johannesburg I knew that he was going to ask me if I was with my wife and kids. I wish I had told my wife; what I was thinking before I did it. She normally thinks of everything , from start to finish and then the in-betwe
Chapter 325Cleo I'm no stranger to moving around or finding new places to live but this is feeling that you get and it's a feeling of nostalgia that you get when you go back to a place that you left all the memories start coming back everything you've been through starts we're playing in your mind and you end up not knowing which memory to take or keep because every memory that you have lives rent-free and runs riot in your mind.I'm not the person that I was 4 years ago A lot has happened on lot has changed and there are days when I feel like I didn't sign up for the life I have and there are days when I am thankful for the life I have and when you caught in between the two it's kind of hard to figure out where you stand emotionally and mentally mentally I'm strong but emotionally I feel like I'm an emotional basket Case because with everything that's happening with husband and kids. I never in a million years did I dream that Michelangelo would do what he did to me and if he hadn'
Chapter 326AngeloAs someone's friend you know when the person you trust is stalling or buying you time . With Brent , I am always confused because; like his brother he is loyal to me and he knows something I don't do is take any nonsense. When I asked him about what he knew with regards to Dante and my wife he came out with the truth and nothing but the truth it turns out that his brother is actually good friends with Dante tennis matches he is loyal to me he's also loyal to his other friend I just couldn't quite put my hand on how Dante was able to do what he did the only way he was able to do that was if you had an inside Man and it's the real people that you trust that are the ones who betray you I haven't charged but it seems as if somebody has been pulling the strings and making me do things that I didn't want to do it directly so this time after hearing the truth because I know for a fact that Brent always tells the truth no matter t
Chapter 327 Cleo I don't think I have a drinking problem. Given what happened as upload days ago wasn't really in a stage to cope with anything and I wasn't using alcohol as a crutch I was actually talking to take off the edge which is the same as using alcohol as a form of knowing the feelings I was feeling cuz when you're used to doing something every morning and all the sudden you wake up in the morning and everything is turned on its head the one here that you feed your whole entire life for the whole entire span of your relationship has come through then you need something you just take off the edge. On my way to Johannesburg on the plane I made myself some whiskey and Coke. I needed something strong to numb the pain that I was feeling. What I drank wasn't strong enough but I was sober enough. Angelo is a recovering addict and if he told me that I should also clean my act up then maybe I will clean my act up when I feel like cleaning my act up but he was the one who was neglig
Chapter 328 Angelo If there's one thing that I value more than anything else in the whole entire world is the importance of family and keeping my family as a unit I've done crazy things to make sure that I have my kids and I have them under one roof. It's been a couple of days and the twins have recovered from the accident. I had an internal and external investigation done with regards to what happened on that night and it didn't make sense as to who would want to attack us I knew that me and my mother's family merging together with my father's family was going to ruffle a bit of feathers but we are not barking up the wrong tree we have the right people we have the manpower need including those Rossi's. They have been the best allies we could ask for and with regards to everyone showing up and doing what's required of them I haven't had problems because I've been busy dealing with my own personal life but at some point The show must go on and there's business to be done. When I as
Chapter 396AngeloI love planning things,right down to the last detail and with everything that's been going on I feel as if I didn't plan this probably because I didn't plan this probably I decided to just go an impromptu road trip with my wife and that was a great idea and all that now so I don't regret it because I forgot that the place that I was taking Cleo to was the same place that I had Seen someone that I thought I could trust a long time ago. I just remembered when I was alerted by security that someone I knew was in the premises I thought nothing of it until Cleopatra alerted me to the fact that something might be actually wrong and something was in actual fact wrong because she had a feeling that she wasn't alone in the house but she brushed it off like many other feelings she has when she is with me and I don't wa
Chapter 395 Cleo While having dinner with my guy and you're how I realized something I realized that he is a scared as I am of losing me as I was scared of losing him to someone I knew him better than I did and the fact of the matter is we knew each other and you that we wanted to be with each other so at a point where we're sitting opposite each other trying to figure out what could make a relationship break and how best to spend time with each other I'm just saying for that I have the relationship that I have with him because our relationship has been one for the books and to be honest we've been through so much in a short space of time that we just needed a breather and I'm just thankful that he decided to do what he did because he's normally a guy who normally plans and executes without fail. Dinner with Michelangelo without a doubt was amazing and it was awesome we got the chance to talk and figure out what we needed to in terms of our work situation he doesn't want me wor
Chapter 394 Angelo There are times when you question the decisions that you've made and there are days when you understand why you made the decisions that you made, some decisions that you made were made in difficult circumstances,and some of the decisions that you made in terms of desperation actually turned out to be the best decisions you've made ,but there are some decisions that you need to take your time and making and that's the decision that you always want to make when you or choosing the person you want to get married to.I for one don't think that I was going to be married to a woman like Cleopatra and the more I think about it the more I see how our stars were aligned and everything was working in our favor. If this afternoon has anything to go by I just can't wait for tonight. I was busy preparing dinner when I received a call from Carlo . The phone I was using wasn't easily trackable and the signal on the side was jammed with regards to the tracking devices that we
Chapter 393Cleo I think I've gotten good at some things while I was handling life With Angelo and the kids. hiding stuff and bookkeeping stuff secret has never been easier but it's never easy when you've got to hide things from the person that you love it's not personal things that you have to hide its work things that you have to hide and sometimes the personal stuff takes the back burner but today was a bit different because I was talking to the kids and enjoying myself with Michelangelo and not eating and not eating his favorite fish paste sandwich. I've been through a lot with Michelangelo. I just need to take stock of what has happened so far with him and how marriage has been. I'm not like you. The first couple of years of our marriage were hectic. I find myself going to sleep asking myself why I get married to such a man and why the hell I get married to a man that I don't even know but then again the universe works with you and not against you, and there also has to be a r
Chapter 392 Angelo I'm not good with planning surprises in fact I am the worst at planning surprises because Cleopatra is the one who knows how to keep things from me and she knows how to keep things from me and such a way that I don't go searching because once I start searching I will not stop but in her case I can see why she has been feeling the way she's been feeling because I've been neglecting her emotional needs as practical as I can be I need to be the same way when it comes to my emotions and throwing motion towards the people that matter to me and had been a really long week and make that a couple of days because from the time that I decided that it was okay to take a road trip I decided that it was also okay not to go home for a little while because I needed some time to myself and I needed some time with my wife alone without any disturbances without any people telling me that I can't do this I can't do that or without any deadlines I know that the company is in good han
Chapter 391 Cleo Michelangelo tends to brood a lot and when you ask the question I know that he has given it a lot of thought and it's something that's bothering him , since he is a practical man feelings equate to actions so he would ruin his actions rather than feelings that he's feeling something and he is under the impression that I only married him because I had to because he had ask me a question if I ever regret marrying him and truth be told I don't regret marrying him but he doesn't see it that way and I'm glad that we have this break so that I could tell him that I get him and that I'm trying to find a better way to communicate with him and tell him that he has nothing to worry about . I don't regret marrying my husband and wife I'm actually thankful that I married my husband because he is good for me in more ways than one I could be having a bad day and then I see his face and everything else that was going on about my bad day , would evaporate, because I would see his
Chapter 390 Angelo I here's one thing I know it's that Cleopatra has a tendency of keeping stuff from me until I really need to know what's going on and when I do find out what's going on I sometimes wonder why was she keeping it from me in the first place I have ever heard her speaking to my mother and my mother had asked her if she had told me something that I don't know and I needed to know everything there was to know about the deal that she was mediating for the fact that knew that my uncle was in Italy but she didn't tell me why he was in Italy and that was one of the things that but me was that he couldn't just leave his company to me and then just fly away is one of those people who are accurate and they will check and fact check everything. I was just about done with breakfast when I heard Cleopatra talking to my mother and she was talking to her like she's talking to me normally and kind of thankful that they have a relationship that they can communicate properly and ta
Chapter 389 Cleo Garry is the Type of person that you don't mess with me is similar to Rosa in many ways he is like the male version of Rosa once he puts his mind on something he will see it to completion and it doesn't matter how many obstacles getting his way he will make sure that he gets what he wants at the end of the day I figured that out when I was captured because he wasn't taking no for an answer he wanted to know that Michelangelo words the surfer in a way because he didn't like him the only way I found out that he was working with his ex-wife who is now his wife which is hella confusing but makes sense and away was that; she was there to oversee everything that needed to be overseen and with regards to a lot of things that happened they happened chronologically normally things that happen at the spur of the moment like what Michelangelo decided to do happen at the spur of the moment and you understand that he is driven by emotion and feeling and he's being emotional a
Chapter 388 Angelo I understand the nature of the business that I'm in and I understand the family that I have been born into being a family that is messed up that has layers upon layers of darkness and secrets that they are keeping . I also understand that I can never be too careful and made show that I took different routes to where I was headed with my wife I know that she wanted to talk to the kids but I told her that it would be two days but now it's pouring running on 3 days cause this was the second day that we were on the road ,I never do things impromptu I normally plan things out and I do things that are required based on information that is given and fact-checking and double-checking and cross-checking everything that I need to check before I make a decision and with regards to making a decision I normally take my time but something about Cleopatra it just makes you want to be as pragmatic as I can be not to say that I haven't been pragmatic but she makes me want to tak