242: How to earn her forgiveness

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Days of agony and restlessness passed with one thing on my mind;

How to earn Scarlett’a forgiveness before I drowned in an abyss of pain or got crushed to bits by an unbelievable weight of guilt and shame. Each time I closed my eyes and tried to think up a reasonable apology, I was smacked with the scenes of how enraged and heartbroken she’d appeared when she found out and I felt like my heart was physically bleeding out.

I’d tried to call her countless times but I couldn't get through to her. I’d send a million messages asking her to give me a chance to straighten things out, but she never opened any of them.

It was killing me, tearing me apart and chewing me up from the inside out in a way that hurt too much for words. I needed to see her. I couldn't live with her hating me, nor allowing her believe that what we shared wasn’t the greatest bond I’d ever been blessed to experience.

She needed to know that my love for her was the realest thing I’d ever felt, that it consumed me s