Elena's point of view.
Doubting the Moon Goddess feels wrong, but as I head to the packhouse, I can’t help questioning her purpose in pairing me with Vanda. The rogue I was imprisoned with wasn’t lying; the Alpha doesn’t give lenient punishments, and my hesitations about our bond feel justified. Yet, the pull in my chest doesn’t waver. Deep within me—mind, body, and soul—his claim is carved, drawing my admiration despite everything.
The front door is unlocked when I return, so I step inside and quietly close it behind me. Slipping off my shoes, I head upstairs. My eyes are drawn to the master’s double doors, and I instinctively veer toward them. I pause, listening for Elizabeth in the kitchen. She’s likely drinking tea; there’s no sound of anyone working.
Serena was right when she said we’re not allowed beyond the border for a reason. As a child, I imagined unclaimed land to be full of monstrous beasts, shadows towering over the fiercest warriors, and harsh landscapes that no wolf could survive. At school, kids whispered that unclaimed lands had no moon and dared each other to cross the border for even a second.
None of that turned out to be true.Perhaps Alpha Kane’s, my formal Alpha's strict borders aren’t to keep us safe from monsters but from leaders like Vuk. And behind these simple doors lies Vanda’s bedroom—my mate’s room.
I reach for the handle, cracking the door open just enough to call, “Vanda?” Silence. No one is inside.
Against my better judgment, I push the door open further, revealing most of the room. My fingers fidget nervously before I ball them into fists. His scent wraps around me, pulling me in like a warm embrace, and I step inside cautiously. My heart raced with adrenaline, but Vanda’s scent calms me. How ironic.
His room is masculine yet soft, its textures inviting. I let my fingers trail along the edge of the bed like I’m dipping them into water. I’m always where I shouldn’t be, yet I yearn to belong here, in my mate’s room. I want to belong to him and his pack, but Vanda seems distant, and I feel just as out of place as the night I left home. The packhouse staff are kind, but it’s clear I’m an outsider.
The bond still tugs at me, but what if my feelings aren’t reciprocated? Does he feel the bond as strongly as I do? I’m scared he doesn’t. From what my cellmate said about him, it’s a miracle he even has a heart for mine to connect with.
Conflicted, I walk to a window and gaze out at the forest, seeking clarity while sneaking around like a mouse avoiding traps.
The sound of footsteps climbing the stairs sends my heart racing. Lost in Vanda’s scent, I didn’t notice his return until now. Panicking, I retreat to the door and quietly close it, but it’s too late. Vanda is already at the top of the stairs, his gaze sharp and unreadable. I release the handle, my skin prickling with goosebumps.
“I’m sorry,” I whisper.
“Are you?”
“Yes,” I stammer. “I shouldn’t have gone in.”
“Then why did you?” His tone is calm, but his presence remains intimidating. “Did you need something?”
“No,” I murmur, lowering my gaze. “I’m sorry.”
Vanda studies me for a moment before letting it go. “Right.”
I step away from the door, eager to avoid further questioning. “I should see my family,” I say, grasping for a change of subject. “I need to tell them I’m mated.”
He exhales, glancing briefly at the door behind me. “You’re from the East. Kane's pack?”
I nod.
“Then I can’t send you.”
My brow furrows. “But—”
“You shouldn’t be far from me,” he cuts me off. “You could go into heat.”
My cheeks flush. “I… I…”
Mom’s warnings about heat flash through my mind, and I look away, embarrassed. I try to move past him toward the spare room, but Vanda steps into my path. My blush deepens.
“If you want to see your family, they’ll have to come here,” he says firmly.
“What if they can’t?”
“Then there’s nothing I can do.”
Vanda doesn’t see this as something punishable, and he brushes past me, entering the master bedroom and closing the door behind him. So much for talking later.
Left alone in the hallway, I retreat to the spare room, still flustered by his mention of heat. A mate is supposed to bring love and security, but I’m more uncertain about my future than ever. Torn between my family and the Goddess, I’m told my family is out of reach. Even if I choose the Goddess and her match for me, Vanda’s commitment is far from certain.
How could this be fate? None of it feels destined.
I wash my hands and splash my face with cool water. Twisting the crystal knobs to turn off the faucet, I notice a cursive ‘D’ engraved into the metal surrounding the crystal. I change clothes, braid my honey-colored hair, undo the braids, and try again. By the sound of Vanda’s footsteps, he’s in and out, keeping himself scarce. Boredom starts to creep in, so later in the day, while he’s away, I venture to the kitchen, hoping to find company.
I smile at the sight of Ben. “Hi.”
He looks up from an open notebook on the counter. “Elena—erm, should I call you Luna?”
“No, call me Elena. I wouldn’t recognize who you mean if you didn’t.”
“It must be a lot to adjust to. I can’t imagine suddenly being mated to an Alpha, gaining a title, and living somewhere new.” He glances at the window across the kitchen, then quickly taps his fingers on the notebook’s pages and forces a tight smile. “Actually, I suppose I can,” He adds.
I move closer, standing on the other side of the counter. “Without all the fine details, it does sound like a dream come true.” I said with a smile.
“Of course. But nothing is ever as simple as it seems, is it? Alphas can be frustrating and difficult, like all other men, if I’m honest.” Ben blunted out.
“Not at all,” I reply, relieved. “It’s nice to hear someone else say what I’ve been thinking.”
“Then I’ll commend you for being so open-minded. Alpha Vuk isn’t an easy one. What does your family think of the match?” He asked.
“They don’t know yet, but I’m hoping I can visit soon to tell them.”
“I’m sure they’ll be proud. An Alpha is an Alpha, after all.”
I chew on my bottom lip. “Do you think they might… not like him?”
Ben tilts his head. “Do they know much about him as an Alpha?”
“Maybe my parents do, but I’m not sure. We don’t really talk about other packs, Alphas, or conflicts at home. If we doubt our Alpha’s ability to protect us, that’s—”
“Disrespectful? Yeah, I get it. We men and our egos. Personally—and I’ll only say this because it’s just us here—I think a female Alpha might be a refreshing change. Women can carry the bloodline, can’t they?” Ben said jokingly.
Elena's point of view.Would Serena or Mom think I’m crazy for staying this long and investing in this matehood? It feels indulgent, and part of me wonders if too much of Vanda’s coldness will end up hurting me. But could I leave if I wanted to? Honestly, I’m not sure. Even after the failed dinner conversation, leaving and going home wouldn’t put me in a better place. There’s no point in returning to my parents without a mate, let alone with the chance of becoming a Luna lost. Mom would be devastated, praying to the Goddess that I find my way back to the stars.So, for now, I stay and hope Vanda’s heart will eventually warm to the bond we share—really feel it the way mates are meant to.I don’t leave the spare room until late in the morning, but when I do, I catch Vanda’s scent in the air. Heading down the stairs, I spot him moving down the hallway toward the front door. He glances back when he sees me. Coerced by our bond, I ask, “Where are you going?”“Out to the fields,” he replies
Elena's point of view.I walk quickly along the training ground's path, spotting where it connects to the larger one just ahead. Swallowing hard, I brace myself for another surge of the strange warmth coursing through me. It comes moments later, a wave crashing low in my abdomen before settling between my thighs. My face scrunches involuntarily. The pack house isn’t far now, and once I get there, I can deal with these growing sensations in privacy.“Elena.”Hearing my name, I glance back to see Vanda approaching, his steps light and unbothered.“Did Charles tell you it’s just a headache?” I say, trying to sound firm. “If I lie down, it’ll go away.”He stops beside me, forcing me to halt, even as the heat in my body reminds me it won’t wait for anything.“What’s wrong?” he asks, his voice laced with concern.“Just a headache,” I insist.“Your scent has changed.”“Are you sure? Maybe you’re just remembering it wrong,” I reply hastily. “I was going back to lie down. Please, don’t let me
Elena's point of view."Mom? Can I come in?" I ask softly.She gives me a scrutinizing look, her eyes traveling from head to toe, before stepping aside to let me pass. As soon as I’m inside, the door slams shut behind me with a thud that sends a chill down my spine."Where have you been?" she demands, her voice sharp. "I was this close," she holds her thumb and pointer finger almost together, "to sending the guards to search the entire pack and beyond for you.""I left," I admit, steadying my voice. "I went onto unclaimed land and—""And what? Went rogue?" Mom interrupts, her frustration boiling over. "Goddess, Elena, I cannot believe your behavior right now! Is this all because your sister was mated to the Beta and not you? How could you leave Serena right when she needed you most? You know how nervous she was!""No, that's not it," I reply firmly. "And I didn’t go rogue. I ended up crossing onto VuK territory... and I found my mate there.""You found your mate?""Yes," I confirm.Mo
Elena's point of view.In the Beta’s house, I sit on a spare bed in complete darkness, staring at the wall. I’ve been frozen like this for over an hour when Serena enters, switching on the lamp by the door. She pulls the curtains closed over the windows flanking the bed before stepping closer to me.“Don’t you want to change into something more comfortable to sleep in?” she asks gently.I remain still, my eyes fixed on the wall.“I’m sorry this is happening. You don’t deserve any of it,” she says softly, placing a tentative hand on my knee.“Then talk to your mate and stop it,” I say, my voice cold and unwavering.“Please try to understand where we’re coming from,” she replies, her tone pleading.I close my eyes. “He isn’t going to hurt me.”“After everything I’ve heard, I don’t believe that,” she retorts, dismissing my words.“You haven’t even met him,” I snap.Serena steps back toward the door, resting her hand on the handle. “I’m here when you’re ready,” she says quietly before lea
Elena's point of view.I follow Vanda into the kitchen after he nods and walks away, determined to address his frustration. "If you're angry with me for telling my sister, fine—I get it. But you can’t hold me accountable for Kane’s Beta.”“You told me you left to search for your mate, not because you lost the man you hoped to be mated to,” he says, flipping on a dim light in the kitchen.“I was looking for my mate when I left,” I insist. “I knew Mark wasn’t the one, so I left. I wasn’t lying when I said there was no possibility of matehood for me in Kane’s pack.”At the counter, Vanda pauses. “You didn’t leave because you were hurt?”I linger in the doorway, wrapping my arms around myself. “I was upset because I disappointed my parents. Not over Mark. How could I be?”Vanda leans on the counter, his body stiff with an emotion I didn’t think he was capable of—overwhelm. The pull of our mate bond urges me to move closer, to comfort him, but I resist.“It’s alright, Elena,” he says after
Elena's point of view.I come downstairs to a quiet house—no leadership meetings to overhear like yesterday. Vanda was gone most of the day, and we didn’t speak before I went to bed.As usual, Elizabeth is the first person I see. She’s sitting at the small table in the kitchen, reading. When she notices me, she shuts her book.“Hungry?” she asks.“Something small would be nice,” I reply.“Toast?”“Yes, thank you.” I take the seat across from hers, which is slightly pulled out.“Any requests for dinner?” Elizabeth asks as she gets up and rounds the counter. “Ben's wondering. The pantry’s looking a little sparse, so he’s planning to visit the Gardens.”“Ask the Alpha—whatever he wants is fine.”Elizabeth smirks. “Funny. I asked him earlier, and he said the same thing about you.”“He did?”“Oh, before he left, he gave me a note to pass on to you. It’s on the counter.” She points to the nearby countertop where the bread box sits. I stand, grab the paper, and sit back down. Vanda’s note is
Elena's point of view.Around three o’clock, Emma leaves when Charles arrives to walk her home. He mentions that Vanda will finish his Alpha duties a little earlier than usual today. While waiting, I sit in the kitchen as Ben processes the produce she gathered from the gardens.At first, she makes small talk, but eventually, she grows quiet, leaving me with my thoughts. Ever since my conversations with her, Elizabeth, and Emma, I’ve had so much to reflect on regarding my matehood.I stare out the window, mulling over my options. At the start of this week, I told myself I needed to decide whether to stay with Vanda or return home. But now, I know I can’t leave him. If I go back, Alpha VuK and my parents will confine me and try to erase Vanda from my mind. Even without that threat, the thought of leaving Vanda makes my stomach churn and my chest ache.I cross my arms on the table and rest my head against them.“Something on your mind?” Ben asks.I wave her off weakly. “Too much.”“Good
Elena's point of view.The tension between Vanda and me is palpable as he prods, “What’s wrong?”I narrow my eyes, accusing, “You know exactly what you’re doing. You’re trying to embarrass me.”He steps in front of me, blocking my escape. “Embarrass you? Elena, the thought of you with your hands…” He trails off, his voice teasing and deliberate.“I don’t want to talk about this,” I interrupt, my voice firm. “Please.”Vanda’s lips twitch, amusement barely contained. “Yet you still want to sleep in my bed?”“Not if my innocence makes it a problem,” I counter, standing my ground.He returns to his plate, scraping up the last remnants of his meal. “Don’t misunderstand me. I want you exactly as you are. And I don’t want anyone else near you.” His words are casual, but the bite he takes afterward is anything but.The bond we share flares to life, spreading warmth through me, and I clutch my glass of water tightly. “Then stop teasing me. I’ve been told… that intimate things are only for mate
Elena's point of view.Elizabeth scribbled something on the notepad in front of her before looking up at me. “So, what’s the deal with the previous Luna?” she asked, pen stilling. “She’s showing up because she found out you’re pregnant, right?”I gave her a half-smile. “Pretty much, yeah.”She raised a brow. “Sounds like a mother-by-bond festival is coming.”I snorted. “I doubt it’ll be that dramatic, but I have my weekly checkup with Rose today. She can come to that. I think she’d like it.” I added with a little more hope than I meant to show, “Hopefully, Rose has good news.”Elizabeth nodded knowingly. “And she’ll definitely dunk you in a moonwater bath.”“Moonwater baths…” I echoed, sighing. “I’ve already started forgetting half the pregnancy rituals I was so excited about.”“I can jot it all down for you,” she offered with a teasing smile. “As your Luna Advisor, tending to your Alpha-blooded pregnancy falls under my job description. Any ritual or bath or charm you want—we’ll do it
Elena's point of view Just as Ben was wrapping up dinner, a knock echoed from the front door. I went to answer it and found a familiar face—the female courier who often brought messages to the pack house. She offered me a sealed letter addressed to Vanda and then turned away, heading off with the rest of her delivery pouch slung across her chest.I closed the door behind me and turned the letter over in my hands. The wax seal was pressed with a stylized ‘S’—most likely for Silva. That could only mean one thing: a response to the letters we sent.I broke the seal, unfolded the paper, and immediately recognized the tidy, graceful handwriting. It was from Corinne. She wrote to say she’d be traveling tomorrow and would arrive by evening.Returning to the kitchen, I found Ben pulling out three plates—one for each of us, including Serena, who was due any minute after her training session."Who was at the door?" he asked casually."It was a message from Corinne. She’s coming tomorrow," I re
Elena's point of view.Elizabeth sits across from me in the kitchen, chatting away about her list of potential housekeepers. It’s still pretty early—she arrived only about ten minutes ago. Outside, the sun is just beginning to rise, casting soft light over the pack grounds, where members are slowly emerging from their homes to start their duties, whatever those may be.I was already awake when Elizabeth let herself in. I had come downstairs because it felt like the right thing to do, a nod to routine and common sense.Last night was anything but restful.“You weren’t supposed to worry about finding someone to replace you,” I tell her, cutting into her updates. “You should’ve been spending time with Kevin.”That sounded like something I’d say if I weren’t feeling so disoriented. My thoughts are scattered. I can’t keep my mind from drifting back to Vanda—who never came home—and the fresh bite marks on the side of my neck. An old tradition. A mark.So many questions haunt me. Where did y
Elena's point of view We kiss for a long while until Vanda pulls away. I sense his inner struggle. His hands grip my hips tightly as he takes control, moving my body to his liking. I brace myself against the tub’s edge for balance. The shift in pace is sudden and intense, yet my body quickly adjusts. The only discomfort I feel is the pressure on my chest, so I use my arm to hold my sore breasts and keep them from bouncing.My jaw tightens, my eyes squeeze shut, and my moans turn into desperate whimpers. I try to focus, to grasp onto the kind of pleasure that could push me over the edge, but everything is happening too fast. The only thing I can process is Vanda’s urgent desire. He moves me faster, pushing deeper, until he suddenly stops, holding me firmly in place. He reaches his peak, and I realize how exhausted I feel despite him taking the lead. My heart pounds, my thighs ache. Finally, he releases my hips, and I slide off him.I collapse against Vanda, still facing him, resting m
Elena's point of view.I insist to Serena and Elizabeth that I’m perfectly capable of helping with the cleanup. After reassuring them that I won’t be sick all over the place, they finally relent and allow me to do as I please. I store the leftovers in the fridge while Ben takes charge at the sink, meticulously ensuring the dishes are cleaned to his satisfaction. Eventually, Elizabeth gives up trying to help him and instead assists Serena with moving furniture.Once the house is back in order, I announce, "Go home, all of you. No cooking dinner tonight, no working on Nursery plans or bereavement gifts. Just take the evening off. Thank you for everything, now enjoy yourselves."Ben smirks knowingly. "I think I know why. Quick, girls, before the Alpha gets back."Serena scowls. "Stop it. Gross. She’s my sister.""Not mine.""Yes, she is—by bond."Ben stills. "Right. Then ew, gross, Elena. I don’t even want to think about—"Serena promptly leads him toward the back door before he can fini
Elena's point of view.With my back pressed against the cool bathroom wall, I wait for the nausea to pass. The bitter, metallic stench still lingers in my mind, so raw and fleshy — like rust and death. I shudder at the memory.Whose blood was on Vanda’s face? He’s been on edge during training, but it must’ve been a rogue’s. It has to be.I push myself off the floor and flush the toilet. There wasn’t much to throw up — my nerves over the luncheon had killed my appetite, leaving me with nothing but a few bites of fruit and cheese this morning. Still, the way my body convulsed felt like I’d emptied myself entirely.I rinse my mouth until the sour taste fades, then scrub my hands clean.“How are you feeling?” Elizabeth’s voice comes softly from the other side of the door. She must have stayed close. I open it to find her stepping back.“I think it’s passed.”Ben appears from the kitchen, offering me a small chocolate truffle. “For your breath,” he says with a smirk.I take it gratefully,
"Hello again," I begin with a warm smile. "I'm sure many of you have heard me say this already — some even more than once, like Taylor and Tamra, probably three times by now." A soft chuckle ripples through the room. "But truly, thank you all for coming. Meeting you and your families — by bond and blood — has been an honor. I'm not originally from Draven, but being here with you all, I’ve never felt more at home."The women's faces soften, nodding in quiet agreement."I love getting to know you, hearing about your lives and families, and making myself more familiar to you. It’s become a bit of a joke now that I promise everyone I’m fully recovered from my little trespassing arrest." The room laughs more freely this time. "But there are a few things I’d like to talk about."I glance at Elizabeth, who moves through the crowd with quiet grace, handing out glasses of champagne like a shadow."I’ve mentioned before how I’ve grown especially interested in the families of Draven — particular
I stand in the middle of the large living room, hands on my hips, surveying the space. The luncheon needs to be perfect."There are two upholstered chairs in the other living room — I want them brought in here. Move the couches back to give people more room to walk around. And bring the side table too — we need enough space for plates and drinks," I instruct a guard who’s been pulled from his usual duties outside."Yes, Luna, I’ll move everything now," he replies without hesitation.Turning back to the room, I notice the grand, arched window’s curtains aren’t fully drawn back. I fix that, letting as much daylight as possible flood the space. Though it’s a cold, gray afternoon, the room needs to feel warm and welcoming."Elena!" Elizabeth’s voice calls from the kitchen.I make my way down the hall to find her, Ben, and Serena arranging platters of trimmed sandwiches, cubed fruits, sliced vegetables, cheeses, crackers, and other finger foods."We’re just about done," Ben says, sounding
I’m the first to reach the bedroom after Charles, Emma, and the kids leave. I came to change and take down my hair, but I end up frozen at the dresser, gripping the knobs of my pajama drawer. Emma’s words replay in my mind like a simple melody: Vanda likes it, Vanda likes it, Vanda likes it.It’s not a surprise — it’s a reminder.“Well, Emma seemed excited about the luncheon and the nursery,” Vanda says as he steps into the room.I jolt, snapping out of my daze.“Yeah. It should go well tomorrow. Elizabeth, Ben, and I spent the whole day planning it,” I reply, finally tugging the drawer open and pulling out a white nightgown.“Elizabeth’s also sorting through candidates for the housekeeper position,” Vanda continues. “She said she’s fine staying on until we hire someone, but hopefully, it won’t take more than a week.”He moves behind me, and I startle again when I turn to find him so close.“Should you bother with that?” he murmurs, running his fingers over the soft fabric of the nigh