Elena's point of view.
Doubting the Moon Goddess feels wrong, but as I head to the packhouse, I can’t help questioning her purpose in pairing me with Vanda. The rogue I was imprisoned with wasn’t lying; the Alpha doesn’t give lenient punishments, and my hesitations about our bond feel justified. Yet, the pull in my chest doesn’t waver. Deep within me—mind, body, and soul—his claim is carved, drawing my admiration despite everything.
The front door is unlocked when I return, so I step inside and quietly close it behind me. Slipping off my shoes, I head upstairs. My eyes are drawn to the master’s double doors, and I instinctively veer toward them. I pause, listening for Elizabeth in the kitchen. She’s likely drinking tea; there’s no sound of anyone working.
Serena was right when she said we’re not allowed beyond the border for a reason. As a child, I imagined unclaimed land to be full of monstrous beasts, shadows towering over the fiercest warriors, and harsh landscapes that no wolf could survive. At school, kids whispered that unclaimed lands had no moon and dared each other to cross the border for even a second.
None of that turned out to be true.Perhaps Alpha Kane’s, my formal Alpha's strict borders aren’t to keep us safe from monsters but from leaders like Vuk. And behind these simple doors lies Vanda’s bedroom—my mate’s room.
I reach for the handle, cracking the door open just enough to call, “Vanda?” Silence. No one is inside.
Against my better judgment, I push the door open further, revealing most of the room. My fingers fidget nervously before I ball them into fists. His scent wraps around me, pulling me in like a warm embrace, and I step inside cautiously. My heart raced with adrenaline, but Vanda’s scent calms me. How ironic.
His room is masculine yet soft, its textures inviting. I let my fingers trail along the edge of the bed like I’m dipping them into water. I’m always where I shouldn’t be, yet I yearn to belong here, in my mate’s room. I want to belong to him and his pack, but Vanda seems distant, and I feel just as out of place as the night I left home. The packhouse staff are kind, but it’s clear I’m an outsider.
The bond still tugs at me, but what if my feelings aren’t reciprocated? Does he feel the bond as strongly as I do? I’m scared he doesn’t. From what my cellmate said about him, it’s a miracle he even has a heart for mine to connect with.
Conflicted, I walk to a window and gaze out at the forest, seeking clarity while sneaking around like a mouse avoiding traps.
The sound of footsteps climbing the stairs sends my heart racing. Lost in Vanda’s scent, I didn’t notice his return until now. Panicking, I retreat to the door and quietly close it, but it’s too late. Vanda is already at the top of the stairs, his gaze sharp and unreadable. I release the handle, my skin prickling with goosebumps.
“I’m sorry,” I whisper.
“Are you?”
“Yes,” I stammer. “I shouldn’t have gone in.”
“Then why did you?” His tone is calm, but his presence remains intimidating. “Did you need something?”
“No,” I murmur, lowering my gaze. “I’m sorry.”
Vanda studies me for a moment before letting it go. “Right.”
I step away from the door, eager to avoid further questioning. “I should see my family,” I say, grasping for a change of subject. “I need to tell them I’m mated.”
He exhales, glancing briefly at the door behind me. “You’re from the East. Kane's pack?”
I nod.
“Then I can’t send you.”
My brow furrows. “But—”
“You shouldn’t be far from me,” he cuts me off. “You could go into heat.”
My cheeks flush. “I… I…”
Mom’s warnings about heat flash through my mind, and I look away, embarrassed. I try to move past him toward the spare room, but Vanda steps into my path. My blush deepens.
“If you want to see your family, they’ll have to come here,” he says firmly.
“What if they can’t?”
“Then there’s nothing I can do.”
Vanda doesn’t see this as something punishable, and he brushes past me, entering the master bedroom and closing the door behind him. So much for talking later.
Left alone in the hallway, I retreat to the spare room, still flustered by his mention of heat. A mate is supposed to bring love and security, but I’m more uncertain about my future than ever. Torn between my family and the Goddess, I’m told my family is out of reach. Even if I choose the Goddess and her match for me, Vanda’s commitment is far from certain.
How could this be fate? None of it feels destined.
I wash my hands and splash my face with cool water. Twisting the crystal knobs to turn off the faucet, I notice a cursive ‘D’ engraved into the metal surrounding the crystal. I change clothes, braid my honey-colored hair, undo the braids, and try again. By the sound of Vanda’s footsteps, he’s in and out, keeping himself scarce. Boredom starts to creep in, so later in the day, while he’s away, I venture to the kitchen, hoping to find company.
I smile at the sight of Ben. “Hi.”
He looks up from an open notebook on the counter. “Elena—erm, should I call you Luna?”
“No, call me Elena. I wouldn’t recognize who you mean if you didn’t.”
“It must be a lot to adjust to. I can’t imagine suddenly being mated to an Alpha, gaining a title, and living somewhere new.” He glances at the window across the kitchen, then quickly taps his fingers on the notebook’s pages and forces a tight smile. “Actually, I suppose I can,” He adds.
I move closer, standing on the other side of the counter. “Without all the fine details, it does sound like a dream come true.” I said with a smile.
“Of course. But nothing is ever as simple as it seems, is it? Alphas can be frustrating and difficult, like all other men, if I’m honest.” Ben blunted out.
“Not at all,” I reply, relieved. “It’s nice to hear someone else say what I’ve been thinking.”
“Then I’ll commend you for being so open-minded. Alpha Vuk isn’t an easy one. What does your family think of the match?” He asked.
“They don’t know yet, but I’m hoping I can visit soon to tell them.”
“I’m sure they’ll be proud. An Alpha is an Alpha, after all.”
I chew on my bottom lip. “Do you think they might… not like him?”
Ben tilts his head. “Do they know much about him as an Alpha?”
“Maybe my parents do, but I’m not sure. We don’t really talk about other packs, Alphas, or conflicts at home. If we doubt our Alpha’s ability to protect us, that’s—”
“Disrespectful? Yeah, I get it. We men and our egos. Personally—and I’ll only say this because it’s just us here—I think a female Alpha might be a refreshing change. Women can carry the bloodline, can’t they?” Ben said jokingly.
Elena's point of view.Would Serena or Mom think I’m crazy for staying this long and investing in this matehood? It feels indulgent, and part of me wonders if too much of Vanda’s coldness will end up hurting me. But could I leave if I wanted to? Honestly, I’m not sure. Even after the failed dinner conversation, leaving and going home wouldn’t put me in a better place. There’s no point in returning to my parents without a mate, let alone with the chance of becoming a Luna lost. Mom would be devastated, praying to the Goddess that I find my way back to the stars.So, for now, I stay and hope Vanda’s heart will eventually warm to the bond we share—really feel it the way mates are meant to.I don’t leave the spare room until late in the morning, but when I do, I catch Vanda’s scent in the air. Heading down the stairs, I spot him moving down the hallway toward the front door. He glances back when he sees me. Coerced by our bond, I ask, “Where are you going?”“Out to the fields,” he replies
Elena's point of view.I walk quickly along the training ground's path, spotting where it connects to the larger one just ahead. Swallowing hard, I brace myself for another surge of the strange warmth coursing through me. It comes moments later, a wave crashing low in my abdomen before settling between my thighs. My face scrunches involuntarily. The pack house isn’t far now, and once I get there, I can deal with these growing sensations in privacy.“Elena.”Hearing my name, I glance back to see Vanda approaching, his steps light and unbothered.“Did Charles tell you it’s just a headache?” I say, trying to sound firm. “If I lie down, it’ll go away.”He stops beside me, forcing me to halt, even as the heat in my body reminds me it won’t wait for anything.“What’s wrong?” he asks, his voice laced with concern.“Just a headache,” I insist.“Your scent has changed.”“Are you sure? Maybe you’re just remembering it wrong,” I reply hastily. “I was going back to lie down. Please, don’t let me
Elena's point of view."Mom? Can I come in?" I ask softly.She gives me a scrutinizing look, her eyes traveling from head to toe, before stepping aside to let me pass. As soon as I’m inside, the door slams shut behind me with a thud that sends a chill down my spine."Where have you been?" she demands, her voice sharp. "I was this close," she holds her thumb and pointer finger almost together, "to sending the guards to search the entire pack and beyond for you.""I left," I admit, steadying my voice. "I went onto unclaimed land and—""And what? Went rogue?" Mom interrupts, her frustration boiling over. "Goddess, Elena, I cannot believe your behavior right now! Is this all because your sister was mated to the Beta and not you? How could you leave Serena right when she needed you most? You know how nervous she was!""No, that's not it," I reply firmly. "And I didn’t go rogue. I ended up crossing onto VuK territory... and I found my mate there.""You found your mate?""Yes," I confirm.Mo
Elena's point of view.In the Beta’s house, I sit on a spare bed in complete darkness, staring at the wall. I’ve been frozen like this for over an hour when Serena enters, switching on the lamp by the door. She pulls the curtains closed over the windows flanking the bed before stepping closer to me.“Don’t you want to change into something more comfortable to sleep in?” she asks gently.I remain still, my eyes fixed on the wall.“I’m sorry this is happening. You don’t deserve any of it,” she says softly, placing a tentative hand on my knee.“Then talk to your mate and stop it,” I say, my voice cold and unwavering.“Please try to understand where we’re coming from,” she replies, her tone pleading.I close my eyes. “He isn’t going to hurt me.”“After everything I’ve heard, I don’t believe that,” she retorts, dismissing my words.“You haven’t even met him,” I snap.Serena steps back toward the door, resting her hand on the handle. “I’m here when you’re ready,” she says quietly before lea
Elena's point of view.I follow Vanda into the kitchen after he nods and walks away, determined to address his frustration. "If you're angry with me for telling my sister, fine—I get it. But you can’t hold me accountable for Kane’s Beta.”“You told me you left to search for your mate, not because you lost the man you hoped to be mated to,” he says, flipping on a dim light in the kitchen.“I was looking for my mate when I left,” I insist. “I knew Mark wasn’t the one, so I left. I wasn’t lying when I said there was no possibility of matehood for me in Kane’s pack.”At the counter, Vanda pauses. “You didn’t leave because you were hurt?”I linger in the doorway, wrapping my arms around myself. “I was upset because I disappointed my parents. Not over Mark. How could I be?”Vanda leans on the counter, his body stiff with an emotion I didn’t think he was capable of—overwhelm. The pull of our mate bond urges me to move closer, to comfort him, but I resist.“It’s alright, Elena,” he says after
Elena's point of view.I come downstairs to a quiet house—no leadership meetings to overhear like yesterday. Vanda was gone most of the day, and we didn’t speak before I went to bed.As usual, Elizabeth is the first person I see. She’s sitting at the small table in the kitchen, reading. When she notices me, she shuts her book.“Hungry?” she asks.“Something small would be nice,” I reply.“Toast?”“Yes, thank you.” I take the seat across from hers, which is slightly pulled out.“Any requests for dinner?” Elizabeth asks as she gets up and rounds the counter. “Ben's wondering. The pantry’s looking a little sparse, so he’s planning to visit the Gardens.”“Ask the Alpha—whatever he wants is fine.”Elizabeth smirks. “Funny. I asked him earlier, and he said the same thing about you.”“He did?”“Oh, before he left, he gave me a note to pass on to you. It’s on the counter.” She points to the nearby countertop where the bread box sits. I stand, grab the paper, and sit back down. Vanda’s note is
Elena's point of view.Around three o’clock, Emma leaves when Charles arrives to walk her home. He mentions that Vanda will finish his Alpha duties a little earlier than usual today. While waiting, I sit in the kitchen as Ben processes the produce she gathered from the gardens.At first, she makes small talk, but eventually, she grows quiet, leaving me with my thoughts. Ever since my conversations with her, Elizabeth, and Emma, I’ve had so much to reflect on regarding my matehood.I stare out the window, mulling over my options. At the start of this week, I told myself I needed to decide whether to stay with Vanda or return home. But now, I know I can’t leave him. If I go back, Alpha VuK and my parents will confine me and try to erase Vanda from my mind. Even without that threat, the thought of leaving Vanda makes my stomach churn and my chest ache.I cross my arms on the table and rest my head against them.“Something on your mind?” Ben asks.I wave her off weakly. “Too much.”“Good
Elena's point of view.The tension between Vanda and me is palpable as he prods, “What’s wrong?”I narrow my eyes, accusing, “You know exactly what you’re doing. You’re trying to embarrass me.”He steps in front of me, blocking my escape. “Embarrass you? Elena, the thought of you with your hands…” He trails off, his voice teasing and deliberate.“I don’t want to talk about this,” I interrupt, my voice firm. “Please.”Vanda’s lips twitch, amusement barely contained. “Yet you still want to sleep in my bed?”“Not if my innocence makes it a problem,” I counter, standing my ground.He returns to his plate, scraping up the last remnants of his meal. “Don’t misunderstand me. I want you exactly as you are. And I don’t want anyone else near you.” His words are casual, but the bite he takes afterward is anything but.The bond we share flares to life, spreading warmth through me, and I clutch my glass of water tightly. “Then stop teasing me. I’ve been told… that intimate things are only for mate
Elena's point of view.The next morning, I receive a message from Alexa about our plans for the day. Vanda informs me that he’ll be spending time with Alpha Gold until it’s time to go to the beach, so Serena and I head to the pack house for an early lunch with Alexa, Corinne, and the former Luna, Olivia Gold, on a stone patio in the garden.The patio is shaded by tall trees and decorated with beautifully arranged flower beds. When we arrive, the pack house workers are already setting out platters of finger sandwiches, cookies, and neatly cut fruit for us.Alpha Gold’s mother carries the same elegance as Corinne but is more reserved and introverted. She greets us politely, introducing herself as Olivia Gold. When Alexa joins us after overseeing the food preparations, Olivia quickly asks how she’s feeling in the early stages of her pregnancy.Corinne then turns to Serena. “Are you mated, dear?”I watch my sister, wondering how she will respond.“I was twice.”“Twice?” Corinne echoes, cl
Elena's point of view.I press a hand to my chest, nervous that I might do something wrong.Vanda unbuttons his pants, pushing them down, making his arousal even more evident. My heartbeat quickens as anticipation fills me. Lying back against the bed, I raise my hips to remove my underwear, but Vanda takes over, sliding the delicate fabric over my knees, down my legs, and off my feet."You're quite eager," he murmurs, pulling me toward the edge of the mattress. He parts my legs and presses against me, the last barrier between us being his underwear.As the realization of the moment washes over me, a strange calmness settles within me."I keep having this dream—a recurring one—where we're like this, but you're about to..." I hesitate, searching for the right words. Elizabeth had used a more clinical term, but it felt too formal. "You're about to be inside me," I decide.Vanda hovers above me, bracing himself on either side. "And then what happens?""Then I wake up," I admit softly, my
Elena's point of view.Alpha Gold grins, likely already aware of his mate’s condition, but Corinne gasps in surprise. "You’re pregnant?" she asks, the shock still evident on her face. "For how long?""The wise woman believes I’m about three weeks along, so I must have already been pregnant when I visited Vanda and Elena without realizing it. She mentioned that my scent hasn’t changed as much as expected, but there’s nothing to worry about."I glance at Alexa’s empty spot where a wine glass should be, recalling how much she drank while visiting us. Then, I focus on my own drink. Maybe when Vanda and I start trying for a child, I should avoid alcohol altogether."Wonderful, absolutely wonderful. I thought you refused to taste my special bottle out of spite, but no, my dear little Alexandra is expecting a child," Corinne exclaims, her voice rising with excitement."Bryan and I are thrilled, and his mother is, too," Alexa says, squeezing her mate’s hand affectionately."The previous Luna
Elena's point of view."I know what I'm talking about. You won't get anywhere if you're not respectful towards your mate." Vanda's mother says."I'm... respectful," Vanda replies."Are you? And does your mate feel respected? I know how you can be, Vanda. You can't just go silent on her—she's going to need constant communication and reassurance. All this war business must be taking a toll on her, you know. You may be the one fighting out there, but it's not easy being home, worrying—believe me. She needs to feel safe."I press myself against the hallway wall, trying to be as still as possible. I can feel every small movement—the twitch of a finger, the ache in my back, my heels hovering just slightly off the floor."She is safe," Vanda says."No, I know she may be safe, but does she feel safe?"I swallow hard. The rational part of me says I should leave, give Vanda and his mother their privacy. But I can’t tear myself away."I have everything under control. Nothing is going to happen t
Elena's point of view.As we walk inside, I turn to Vanda. “Do you get along with him?”Vanda lifts our bags effortlessly. “As much as you can expect me to.” He leads me toward the back of the house where the bedrooms are. “My mother, Corinne, will be at the pack house tonight for dinner.”“Well, I should clean up. We only have a few hours before dinner, and it’s going to take me longer with one hand.”“I’m more than willing to help,” Vanda says, setting our bags on the floor of the master bedroom.“You know how to style women’s hair?” I tease.“I think I’d be more useful with the showering and dressing part.”I stifle a laugh and dig through my bag. “I think you’d be more of an obstacle.”Vanda steps closer, sliding a hand around my waist, his fingers lightly grazing the top of my backside. “I think you’re right. I’ll lie down then.”I raise a brow. “Lie down? I never thought I’d see you nap.”“It only happens on rare occasions.” His hand drifts away as he sits on the large bed. “I d
Elena's point of view.As I have only seconds to suppress the surge of anger that rises at the thought of replacing Vanda, I force a pleasant expression onto my face—something surprised yet joyful."Kevin? Really?" I ask, feigning breathlessness.Kevin—a brown-skinned man with buzzed hair and a few visible tattoos—flashes a broad smile. "Finally, I can put a face to the name. Elizabeth talks about you all the time, Luna.""Oh, please, it’s Elena. I can’t imagine Elizabeth’s mate calling me anything else—she’s incredible, I don’t know what I’d do without her; she’s brilliant.""Is she? Even after the wolfsbane incident?" Kevin chuckles nervously. "I was pretty horrified when she told me what happened, and I think she scared herself straight—no more experimenting with strange potions from old books.""Well, we’ll see," I tease. "I’m always willing to entertain her ideas.""I’m just glad you two get along so well. She says you’re like a younger sister to her.""Speaking of sisters," I sa
As Vanda's lips curve into a smile, he shakes his head, unfolds his arms, and heads into the closet."It's not funny, Vanda. My heat. What about my heat?""I'll take care of it," he calls from within the closet.I push off the covers that somehow ended up over me. "I don’t want to go into heat in front of your family. Goddess above," I mutter."If it happens, it happens. It’s only natural—every mated woman goes into heat—and they know you can’t control it."I cover my face with my hands and collapse onto my side.His footsteps approach as he exits the closet. "Elena.""It’s embarrassing," I murmur into my palms, not even caring about the pain at this point. "You don’t understand."The bed shifts as he sits beside me. "I’m sorry, but I’m not going to wake you from a dead sleep to mate with you for the first time.""I shouldn’t have fallen asleep," I say, uncovering my face. "It’s my fault.""It’s no one’s fault, and if you go into heat while we’re there, I’ll do whatever I can to make
Elena's point of view.I can’t help but wonder if Serena’s struggle is at least partially due to the distance between her and Ben, not just because of Mark’s death. I know how the bond can be when mates avoid one another; it would make sense if Serena is having a harder time healing when she’s suffering from two wounds and only attempting to treat one.When Ben finishes for the night, I walk him to the front door, give him a hurried yet tight hug, and shut the door behind him. Charles arrived sometime during our clean-up—I can hear his and Vanda’s voices like a soft hum through the walls.I yawn against the back of my hand and trek upstairs to change clothes.I think Vanda’s plan to visit the Kane pack is a great idea—especially since a war with Alpha Walter means sticking to Alpha VuK’s land—but I wonder if she’s forgotten about my heat issue. If my tracking is accurate, it’s due to happen as soon as tomorrow, and the thought of going into heat in front of her family is extremely mor
Elena's point of view.Dinner is served an hour later than usual, but Vanda doesn’t seem to notice. He’s occupied in the study with Charles and Alex, and after they leave, he heads upstairs.He joins me at the table just as Ben brings out our meals. A round steak is placed in front of me, and I instinctively grab my knife—only to pause and stare at my fork. My stomach rumbles, but I can’t use my left hand.Ben immediately realizes the issue. “Goddess, I’m sorry, Elena. That was careless of me. Let me cut that for you.”Before he can, Vanda reaches for my plate. “I got it.”Ben bashfully leaves the dining room as Vanda sets my plate in front of him, momentarily pushing his own dinner aside to cut my steak into bite-sized pieces.“We’re going somewhere tomorrow,” he tells me, though I had already overheard part of the discussion while he was with Charles and Alex.“Where?” I ask, feeling slightly better.“We’re visiting Alpha Gold for two nights. If we don’t go now, we won’t have anothe