Chapter 6

Liam spent the rest of the day trying to get his work done without overdoing it, even though he wanted the freedom to do things himself and just live by his own rules, he knew overdoing it might cause him a lot, he wasn't like other people no matter how he tried to think he was, he couldn't be it no matter how he tries, he has always been the sick child, the weak one, the one who couldn't do certain things, who couldn't engage in certain activities, he didn't have a normal childhood, spent most of his days either at the hospital or at home, he had been homeschooled and when he had told his parents he wanted to become a neurologist they had been so worried, they had pushed him to do pharmacy instead, in their words, it was better and requires less work, well he had listened now he wishes he had gone with his original course of choice, don't get it wrong, he loves his job but he still feels he would have been better as a neurologist.

After work, he decided to go over to see his baby, Blake, he called Blake to be sure he was hoke, the last time he spoke to Blake he had been angry, he had been at Katrina's wedding when Blake has called that he wanted to hang out, he hadn't wanted to turn Blake down so he had gone to meet him at the bar but Blake wasn't alone, he had three other friends with him and they all kept talking and ignoring him when they had brought alcohol which Blake knew he couldn't take, and Blake had let his friends Mick him, he had been so offended that he had gone out and done something he regretted and knew Blake won't like if he found out, Liam wanted to keep that secret as much as possible, it hasn't been long since he started dating Blake and this was the first time that was top in a relationship, he didn't want to ruin it even though Blake does things that piss him off.

"Hi, babe,"

"Hey,"

Liam responds kissing Blake softly.

"I didn't know you will come right now,"

"I came to cuddle, can I do that?"

"Of course,"

Blake replied hugging him, Liam breath in his fresh smell and felt himself relax, he pulled his head up claiming his lips, Blake kissed him back as they both landed on the bed, he wasn't in the mood to do anything else so he just kissed Blake again and pulled him on top of him.

"Cuddle, that's what I want to do,"

"Of course,"

Blake replied and hugged him closer.

"Can we go out?"

Blake asked a few minutes after he got to the house, Liam wasn't in the mood to go out, he just wanted to lay in bed with Blake in his arms.

"No, sorry, I don't feel like going out, can't we just stay here?"

"No, Liam, come on, let's go out,"

Blake persuaded getting off the bed.

"I just said I can't, I don't have the strength,"

Liam replied, Blake looked offended by his reply but he couldn't help it, he didn't want to go anywhere.

"Why are you so selfish Liam? Why do I feel like you don't want to be seen with me? You are so selfish, all you think about is yourself,"

Blake accused.

"That's not true,"

"Yes it is, if not, will you go hang out with me tonight?"

"Blake, I already told you, I can't go out, I don't drink, why are you still insisting on doing those things with me? I didn't keep anything from you, I came out clean before we started this relationship, you say I am selfish and not doing things with you? What do you do? I mean I do the most in this relationship, the last time I tried to do what you ask by going out with you, you left me there and left with your friends knowing that I came out for you,"

"Enough, Liam, that's enough, this is what I mean, this is why I say you are selfish Liam, you keep finding ways to play the victim card, please, there are tonnes of other sick people out there, you are not the only one with an issue, get out of your high horse,"

"I don't have time to talk about this, I may as well just leave, call me when you are in your right senses,"

Liam said, took his coat, and left Blake's apartment, where he thought he would gain some strength and motivation from some he loves and who claims to love him too, they haven't even been in a relationship for long, not even up to three months and Blake is already acting this way, he should have known better than to be sincere and told him about his condition, he thought telling him would have made it easier for the both of them to communicate but that wasn't the case, Blake still wanted him to do the things that he wasn't supposed to be doing, at this rate, he might just call it off.

Liam went back to the hotel he was currently using, he laid on the bed, for some reason he felt burnt, felt lifeless, he needed to get a new place since his old place was taking too much time getting fixed, he had been on getting a new place but everywhere he looked were either too far from his work place or too expensive and he didn't want to ask his parents for help, that why he had been thrilled when Katrina, a lady he met at the hospital one time and who he had become relatively close to had told him she would speak to a friend who owned an apartment and let him share, he was even willing to split the rent but then the friend turned out to be no other than Jordan Bach who hated him, he kissed goodbye to getting the apartment and rather tried to find other altarnatives, he considered asking his boyfriend Blake to let him move with him but Blake always have something to fight him about, what more if they move in together, it only going to get worst, so been with Blake was out of it, he wasn't going to give up, he just needed to work a little more to earn enough for the apartment and he was going to do that...