"Yup, I figured I had to feed myself since you ran away and left me on my own,"Jordan replied with food in his mouth a habit that was Jordan's"I didn't run away,"Liam said subconsciously walking toward him and using his finger to wipe off the food on his lips, he heard his intake of breath and realize just a little too late that he wasn't supposed to be touching him, he took his hand away and walked back, putting a distance between them."Liam,"Jordan whispered his name dropping his food and walking close to him, Liam took steps back."Don't come close Jordan,"Liam said. He was too tempting, all it took was for him to be in the same room with him for Liam to remember just how starved he was, he couldn't do this to Jordan."Why Liam? You don't want me anymore?"He asked sadly he continued walking close to him until Liam's back hit the wall, Jordan didn't stop until they were face to face, Liam took a breath to control himself, it was so hard to stare at this man and not want him a
Jordan stared his mouth open at Liam, this felt like Deja Vu, like this whole shit has happened before, the same exact same way but this time it felt worst, this time it was coming from someone he trusted so much, someone he thought won't do this kind of shit to him, oh, what he fool he had been, he was so stupid, could he let this happen again, or maybe he heard him wrong."Liam, what do you mean by what you just said?"He asked hoping to heaven that he misheard him, his naked body suddenly too cold, he pulled the mattress and wrapped it around himself while staring at Liam who didn't look the least bit bothered, he looked cold and distant instead."I said I am with someone else so there is no need for you to come here and also whatever happened between us was a mistake, don't you think that because of that I am going to come back to you, I am with someone who understands me and he will be here soon so it will be better if you leave, I don't want him to meet you here,"Liam said brea
"Let's just let it go,"He told himself. There was no point in hanging on to this and trying to fight for them when Liam already moved on, he should do that too, move on, but of course, he wasn't going to be with anyone else for a long long time, he has been burnt too much to want to love again, the first time had been horrible, and Kelvin happened and when Liam had come, once again he fell in love, he thought he would finally have it all with Liam yet again that wasn't going to be it, he wasn't just lucky, maybe love wasn't meant for him, maybe it was his fate to be lonely, he should just accept it."Should I just leave New York?"He asked himself. The thought didn't sound bad at all, he could move to Los Angeles, or Arizona, start afresh, and just be contented with himself."I can't do that,"He replied to himself. He couldn't leave New York even if he wants to, his life was here, his family was here, as much as he doesn't like that his parents were always on his case, he didn't fan
After Jordan left, Liam felt like the devil, he shouldn't have said what he said, he shouldn't have the look on Jordan's face, the betrayer he saw there, he couldn't think about it without feeling guilty, but then if it will keep Jordan away from him then it is all good, he could live with the guilt or maybe not, because what Jordan had said to him, he didn't know his ex had broken up with him right after they slept together, he didn't like the thought of Jordan with another man either."Just stop, at least he won't come back here and that's for the best,"He whispered to himself and he got up from the bed to go brush his teeth, he stared at his reflection in the mirror, he didn't look so bad, neither did he look like he was sick but he knew there was a time bomb over his head and it might explode anytime soon, he felt it while he made love to Jordan, the adrenaline rush had made his heartbeat uneven and he had struggled to keep his breath."You are dying,"He said to his reflection b
"Later,"He said as he wore his shirt and a pair of trousers, he picked up his way h and his eyes landed on the box containing the ring he had both for Jordan that he never gave to him, he picked it up and opened it, the gold band"Mark, this is not a date,"Liam warned but the man wasn't having it, he just rolled his eyes and went about taking his orders."What are you having Liam?""Whatever you are having,""I want to have you,"He said with a wink."That's not going to happen now just order and let's eat and leave I don't like people and there are lots of people here,""Liam? Who is he to you?"Jordan asked in a low voice."He is my boyfriend, Mark day Hi to Jordan, we used to date, Jordan meets Mark, my boyfriend,"Liam said already knowing that he will be born in hell for all the shits he was putting Jordan through."Hi, Jordan, didn't know you dated Liam, but thank you for letting him go because he is mine now,"Mark said. He was acting like they both knew each other."You guys
Jordan was back to square zero, he shouldn't have gone out today, he should have stayed home but he had been so exhausted from work that he didn't have the strength to cook and had decided to go eat out only for him to see Liam for the first time in nearly three weeks and it couldn't have been anyone else but Mark, why did it had to be someone he knew and he worked with, if it was some unknown face then it won't hurt so bad, he thought he was over Liam but maybe he has been living a lie since.For three weeks, he had done everything else except care about Liam or think about him, each time the thoughts of him came he did his best to throw them out the next moment, not just that, he changed his phone number so that Liam's mom won't call him, because her calling him would only keep him in the past, and he wanted to move on completely, it had taken all his courage to do that and just a few seconds or minutes in Liam's presence has just ruined it, if only he hadn't gone out, or worst of a
"Yo! Bach! What's up?"Lucas's voice got him off and he wiped his head to see the head boss in his office and he freaking yoed him, Jordan looked at him with questioning eyes because his co-workers were giving him weird looks, yes they knew he was close to the Evans but maybe they didn't know he was this close to the CEO, well because he and Lucas hadn't communicated much during work hours their floors were different, he wondered what Lucas was doing back here, maybe he came to tell them to redo some more patterns, if that's it then he might throw hands."You are supposed to be my boss right now, what are you doing here? Don't tell me you are here to give us more work because I will throw hands,"Jordan said to Lucas and he could hear the others grasp, only if they knew how much of a baby Lucas was at home and how he was totally different from how they saw him, maybe they won't be so scared, he knew and he was proud of it."I am not here to give you work, rather I am here to relieve y
"Jordan, say something, please,"Liam pleaded, Jordan just stood there staring at him without saying a word, Liam had waited for him outside, he realized just how much he couldn't stay away from Jordan, after he got home the night before, he had not been able to fall asleep, his head was filled with thoughts of Jordan and everything that he was and meant to home Liam couldn't stay away so he had made up his mind to come to see Jordan and talked to him when he had gotten to his apartment, he hadn't met Jordan at home and had waited outside for him, hoping that he would return and thankfully he did."Liam, I am going to say this and I am going to say it loud and clear, I don't want to have anything to do with you, I don't know why you think it is right to do this but it is not, just fucking get off my face while I am still talking nicely,"Jordan said in a harsh tone."Jordan, listen to me will you?"Liam said in a pleading voice."I am not going to listen to you Liam, I have nothing to