Chapter 82Zara's POVIt all came back to me. I fought to hold back the tears but I lost. My eyes were dripping until I could see no more. I closed the big bundle of pages in my hands. I needed a moment to recover, to take it all in.I stared at my wrists for the longest time, the parts where the scars were. It had been so long, so much time had passed. For some reason, an unusual memory popped into my head, it was the first time Alpha Damon looked at me."What is this? Who did this to you?" I recalled the rage in his voice as he posed those questions to me. He was holding up my hand and asking about the injuries I had given myself.I was not completely honest to him that day too. I told him that it had been my father and stepmother when really it was me. I tried to kill myself that day, nobody else. Like in the case of a gun for hire, the convict is the person that pulls the trigger. I flung the heavy book again to reveal more of my shrouded past. August 17Everything is back to no
Chapter 83Zara's POVIt took a while before I flipped another page. The memories were all setting in, cementing in my mind again. It felt like my life was a book and I was reading through the chapters.Why was I doing this to myself? Why did I want to relive my pain? "Those who disregard the past are bound to repeat their mistakes." I knew that it was not for some grand reason like that. So why was I doing it? Another page.August 18I just looked at the date, before I could even glance through the page, a figure appeared in the corner of the room. It was a young woman dressed in the signature Bloodmoon uniform. She had, apparently, been standing for a while. I only noticed her when her footsteps became too audible to go unnoticed."The Alpha would like to see you," she started. I stared at her features, mesmerised by how much her chest bulged out in her uniform, how they looked like they would pop off if she moved around a little more. "Both of them," she added. Both of them? Her
Chapter 84Xavier's POVI almost held my jaw up with my hands when Zara appeared in the room. She was the second person to arrive so it was just both of us in the room. "You look ravishing," I remembered to say amidst the jumble of unholy thoughts in my mind. My mind drifted many times, thinking of the most impossible and tempting things. There was more to why I was attracted to Zara, more than just her looks but at this moment I really believed that her looks were enough to capture my attention.Her black dress was gorgeous with splits at the side that revealed her thighs. I hoped I did not stare too much. I did not want to come off as a pervert to her. "You don't look so bad yourself," she said and completely mesmerised me. Her soft voice was very soothing. It reached the depths of my soul, calling out to the hopeless lover that I am. "Thank you," I said, standing up and reaching for a seat beside me. She walked all the way around the table and took a seat opposite me. She didn't
Chapter 85Xavier's POVAlpha Damon was silent until he was not. It looked like he would just sit back and enjoy the show that was about to unfold before his eyes. Riana Park's raised hand was just seconds away from the innocent Zara's face.She did not move. Zara watched the commotion go on with an unusual calmness. She was composed even in the seconds leading to the slap that was set to hit her. Her composure said something about her- how experienced she was to situations like these, a drama veteran."That is enough out of you!" My father's voice soon became the loudest in the room. It filled the space around my ears. It must have penetrated even the walls outside the dining hall. This was a drama indeed and I was thankful that the protagonist of the show remained unharmed. My father's hand stopped, just in time, Riana's hand when it was in the air. Another second and it would have hit its mark. I don't know what I would have done. I did not want to imagine it. It may have been the
Chapter 86Zara's POVNumb. That was all I felt. It was how I felt at the dinner and it was how I was feeling now, in Alpha Damon's chambers, awaiting his wrath. I can't pinpoint when exactly I started to feel this way.In cases of extreme pain, a person may psychologically "shut down," and dissociate from the pain they feel. This creates, even in the continual presence of the pain, an absence of pain. Numbness.How easy or difficult it is to get to this state is mostly dependent on one's tolerance to pain and varies based on individuals' threshold.I did not feel any physical pain, only a maddening nudge at myself. Now that I think of it, I may know when it all started. I tried to deny it but I watched in great dismay and annoyance as Riana Park entered the room and stole attention and compliments from every corner, even Xavier's. "You look very beautiful," he said and instantaneously put me off. I was not angry but a feeling that I could easily refer to as hatred filled me up jus
Chapter 87Zara's POVThe mind is malleable, like red, hot metal, its fluidity allows it to take any shape the welder decides. Standing in the middle of the Alpha's chambers, his lips on mine while his hands drew me close, I felt something. I can not describe that emotion. My mind is too hazy and I feel calling what I felt, like, would be hasty. I was after all under the influence of the full moon, like every other full moon.I did not like Alpha Damon. I hated him, tried to. I disliked his audacity, the ego that made him feel untouchable, the pride that made him believe he could do anything and get away with it, like beating up my father and stepbrother and kissing me without consent. He can't. He shouldn't be able to get away with it."I... I... I've always wanted to..." he paused. I think his eyes looked teary, I think I saw a glint of a person trapped within the big, bad vessel. I know what it is like to have another person trapped inside of you. This was nothing like the relatio
Chapter 88Zara's POVIt is a cold summer night like any other, except tonight was not just any night.The full moon was in complete control. I had long since lost any sense of identity. As I roamed the forest, crumpling plants with my bare feet and splashing puddles of water collected by the rain, I was one with nature.Like a monk sworn to a vow of poverty, nothing belonged to me. It felt like I disappeared and was boundless as the wind cut through my thick fur while I ran. We all did. The forest was swarming with wolves. I heard the sounds of many feet against the forest floors, like a stampede.All of my senses were elevated. I saw farther than I ever have and for things that I could not see, I heard and if not I perceived. I would feel almighty if I had a sense of ego. Nothing was hidden from me. This is what it means to be a werewolf.I needed this. I needed to feel this way. As much as it was not my body- it felt like I had almost completely vanished without a trail, yet I felt
Chapter 1 ZARA'S POV "Whoosh!!" The sudden sound of cold water rushing all over my body. My mouth involuntarily gaped open to regulate my hyperventilation as I opened my eyes to see my whole body and bed covered in water. In a bid to understand what just happened, I searched around for an explanation, only to see Miriam, my stepmother with an empty bucket dripping water, her hands on her waist and her eyes full of hateful mischief. "M... Mum-" "If it wasn't that you were wet right now and I don't want to stain my palm with the dirt on your skin, I would've given you a dirty slap. How many times have I warned you never to call me your mother anymore? Do I look like a dead witch to you?!", She threw harsh words at my face, but I was trying not to shiver as the early morning attacked my skin. "I... I'm sorry, Miss Miriam", I muttered as I avoided her face. "Were you born into this world to be some sleeping beauty? Do you want to sleep your life away? Don't you have chores that y
Chapter 88Zara's POVIt is a cold summer night like any other, except tonight was not just any night.The full moon was in complete control. I had long since lost any sense of identity. As I roamed the forest, crumpling plants with my bare feet and splashing puddles of water collected by the rain, I was one with nature.Like a monk sworn to a vow of poverty, nothing belonged to me. It felt like I disappeared and was boundless as the wind cut through my thick fur while I ran. We all did. The forest was swarming with wolves. I heard the sounds of many feet against the forest floors, like a stampede.All of my senses were elevated. I saw farther than I ever have and for things that I could not see, I heard and if not I perceived. I would feel almighty if I had a sense of ego. Nothing was hidden from me. This is what it means to be a werewolf.I needed this. I needed to feel this way. As much as it was not my body- it felt like I had almost completely vanished without a trail, yet I felt
Chapter 87Zara's POVThe mind is malleable, like red, hot metal, its fluidity allows it to take any shape the welder decides. Standing in the middle of the Alpha's chambers, his lips on mine while his hands drew me close, I felt something. I can not describe that emotion. My mind is too hazy and I feel calling what I felt, like, would be hasty. I was after all under the influence of the full moon, like every other full moon.I did not like Alpha Damon. I hated him, tried to. I disliked his audacity, the ego that made him feel untouchable, the pride that made him believe he could do anything and get away with it, like beating up my father and stepbrother and kissing me without consent. He can't. He shouldn't be able to get away with it."I... I... I've always wanted to..." he paused. I think his eyes looked teary, I think I saw a glint of a person trapped within the big, bad vessel. I know what it is like to have another person trapped inside of you. This was nothing like the relatio
Chapter 86Zara's POVNumb. That was all I felt. It was how I felt at the dinner and it was how I was feeling now, in Alpha Damon's chambers, awaiting his wrath. I can't pinpoint when exactly I started to feel this way.In cases of extreme pain, a person may psychologically "shut down," and dissociate from the pain they feel. This creates, even in the continual presence of the pain, an absence of pain. Numbness.How easy or difficult it is to get to this state is mostly dependent on one's tolerance to pain and varies based on individuals' threshold.I did not feel any physical pain, only a maddening nudge at myself. Now that I think of it, I may know when it all started. I tried to deny it but I watched in great dismay and annoyance as Riana Park entered the room and stole attention and compliments from every corner, even Xavier's. "You look very beautiful," he said and instantaneously put me off. I was not angry but a feeling that I could easily refer to as hatred filled me up jus
Chapter 85Xavier's POVAlpha Damon was silent until he was not. It looked like he would just sit back and enjoy the show that was about to unfold before his eyes. Riana Park's raised hand was just seconds away from the innocent Zara's face.She did not move. Zara watched the commotion go on with an unusual calmness. She was composed even in the seconds leading to the slap that was set to hit her. Her composure said something about her- how experienced she was to situations like these, a drama veteran."That is enough out of you!" My father's voice soon became the loudest in the room. It filled the space around my ears. It must have penetrated even the walls outside the dining hall. This was a drama indeed and I was thankful that the protagonist of the show remained unharmed. My father's hand stopped, just in time, Riana's hand when it was in the air. Another second and it would have hit its mark. I don't know what I would have done. I did not want to imagine it. It may have been the
Chapter 84Xavier's POVI almost held my jaw up with my hands when Zara appeared in the room. She was the second person to arrive so it was just both of us in the room. "You look ravishing," I remembered to say amidst the jumble of unholy thoughts in my mind. My mind drifted many times, thinking of the most impossible and tempting things. There was more to why I was attracted to Zara, more than just her looks but at this moment I really believed that her looks were enough to capture my attention.Her black dress was gorgeous with splits at the side that revealed her thighs. I hoped I did not stare too much. I did not want to come off as a pervert to her. "You don't look so bad yourself," she said and completely mesmerised me. Her soft voice was very soothing. It reached the depths of my soul, calling out to the hopeless lover that I am. "Thank you," I said, standing up and reaching for a seat beside me. She walked all the way around the table and took a seat opposite me. She didn't
Chapter 83Zara's POVIt took a while before I flipped another page. The memories were all setting in, cementing in my mind again. It felt like my life was a book and I was reading through the chapters.Why was I doing this to myself? Why did I want to relive my pain? "Those who disregard the past are bound to repeat their mistakes." I knew that it was not for some grand reason like that. So why was I doing it? Another page.August 18I just looked at the date, before I could even glance through the page, a figure appeared in the corner of the room. It was a young woman dressed in the signature Bloodmoon uniform. She had, apparently, been standing for a while. I only noticed her when her footsteps became too audible to go unnoticed."The Alpha would like to see you," she started. I stared at her features, mesmerised by how much her chest bulged out in her uniform, how they looked like they would pop off if she moved around a little more. "Both of them," she added. Both of them? Her
Chapter 82Zara's POVIt all came back to me. I fought to hold back the tears but I lost. My eyes were dripping until I could see no more. I closed the big bundle of pages in my hands. I needed a moment to recover, to take it all in.I stared at my wrists for the longest time, the parts where the scars were. It had been so long, so much time had passed. For some reason, an unusual memory popped into my head, it was the first time Alpha Damon looked at me."What is this? Who did this to you?" I recalled the rage in his voice as he posed those questions to me. He was holding up my hand and asking about the injuries I had given myself.I was not completely honest to him that day too. I told him that it had been my father and stepmother when really it was me. I tried to kill myself that day, nobody else. Like in the case of a gun for hire, the convict is the person that pulls the trigger. I flung the heavy book again to reveal more of my shrouded past. August 17Everything is back to no
Chapter 81Alpha Damon's POV"You're always welcome whenever," I found myself saying. It seemed to be the only thing I had been doing recently- shaking hands, forcing smiles and welcoming people. Diplomacy is part of being an Alpha but it doesn't mean that you have to like it. I hated it. I hated every time Alpha Alken, the fat, old pig walked up to me with one of his warm smiles. I hated how gentle he appeared to be, a shame to an Alpha. I watched since Xavier was a child how Alpha Alken would spoil his daughter Riana, how he seemed to give her anything and everything she wanted. Such an attitude was unbecoming of an Alpha. A true Alpha is strong and his will should not be influenced by anybody at all.The truth is, I find myself asking if getting Xavier and Riana engaged was the right decision. I do not regret it. I refuse to. Everything I do is to strengthen the pack, to protect it and make it so the tragedy of the Bloodmoon pack never repeats itself. "You must show me to your t
Chapter 80Zara's POV"I know where you've been," Alpha Damon welcomed me with a suspicious tone. Where I've been?There was no way he could have seen me in Xavier's room, no way at all. Unless... my scent? As Alpha Damon barked questions at Xavier at his door earlier, I poured shampoo and the other unknown concoctions sprawled on the bathroom sink over myself.I coated my arms, legs and every other part of my body that was exposed in my pink little gown. There was no way Alpha Damon could have known or so I thought.I stood for a while, trying to avoid his piercing gaze and then I recalled how much he hated my silence, how badly he sought a response to his questions and even mere comments he made, like a child eager for attention from everybody around him."I... I don't know what you mean." I tried to come up with something better but my brain was frozen. I should be used to interrogations like these but I was not. "You don't? I could have sworn that you were in my son's room earli