I lay awake on my side, watching Alessandro sleep as the sun begins to rise. Beautiful hues of yellow, red and orange cast off the windows, shining through the room gloriously. The gentle rumbling sound of him snoring reverberates off the walls; his features are soft, long lashes fan his cheeks, and he looks peaceful, calm and so relaxed for once. After his confession about Maria grooming him by his fathers' orders, my heart bleeds for him, deeply, and I fear it may bleed itself dry. How can two damaged souls with different outlooks on life try to repair one another? They can't. Especially when all the odds are stacked against you. I need to sort my life out and I can't do that here with all the distractions. And it's why I've made the tough decision to move to Wellington City and stay with my Aunt Mae on my father's side of the family. Aunt Mae with a glass eye. Looking past Alessandro, straining my neck, I glance at the digital alarm clock sitting on top of his bedside
ALESSANDRO, AKA DON VALENTINO. Reaching across the bed with my arm in the hopes to entice Ivy back into my embrace once more, a mischievous smirk plays on the corner of my mouth. I have not slept this well since she left. But having her back in my bed and sharing my hidden truths, has taken some of the weight that has been weighing me down for years off my shoulders. But what makes me weak, is that Ivy didn’t judge me. I am capable of dealing with glances of distaste and repulsiveness. These sentiments are irrelevant to a man like me. A man accustomed to the disdainful, frigid glances of individuals who mean nothing to me. It acts as a buffer between my mind and my emotions. It is the pity that would have been most painful. The sensitivity with which her watery hazel eyes glance at me will be my undoing. She is my vulnerability, my everything, and I wish I could figure out how to stop wounding her fragile heart. When I extend my hand further across the bed, all that remains
“Please, Miss Bishop. There is so much we have to discuss and time is very limited.” The kind doctor insists. Sighing, “all right, this doesn't sound too promising.” I say as I sit back in the armchair. I watch as the doctor walks around her badly damaged desk and sits in her office chair, which looks very outdated as well. She places the small pile of papers down on the desk and moves the mouse to her computer. I wait in silence as I watch her, wishing she would hurry and skip straight to the point. “Okay,” she breathes out as she raises her gaze to meet mine. “The blood work came back, and you are very well, indeed, pregnant.” She pauses as she waits for my reaction. “Pre-pregnant?” I stutter as if the two-syllable word has always been difficult for me to say. “Yes, pregnant.” She states firmly. “When was the last time you had a menstrual cycle?” I think back, “the last time was about six months ago. They aren't regular, so I paid it no attention.” “Mmm-hmm,” the doct
ALESSANDRO, AKA DON VALENTINO. TWO WEEKs EARLIER. I swivel in my chair, turning myself, so I can stare out the window. The same window I always found Ivy gazing out of. Ivy. Ivy Bishop. My headache. The only woman who has managed to put my very existence on hold. She is the only woman who has ever run away from me, causing my heart to stop beating and my breath to cease. Each time Ryan enters my office with an update, a glimmer of optimism for him tracking her down sits on my shoulders. Sadly, that sliver of hope is genuinely starting to disappear, along with the desire of me striving to track her down. The morning she abandoned me in bed, I had relentlessly called her number, but her phone continuously kept going straight to voice mail. By that time, the evening had come around. I had a bad feeling and I drove myself to Nicole's house, the same friend that wouldn't let me leave without her by my side like a thorn in a rose when Ivy had fainted at her papa's funeral
Groaning, I slowly feel myself rousing from my slumber and my abdomen feels like it is on fire. “Sweetie, don't move too much.” I recognise my Aunt Maes’ sweet voice. “Aunt Mae?” I croak. “Is that you?” “Shhh, love. Save your energy.” She says quietly in a trembling voice as she rubs my arm. I breathe heavily, feeling emotional, and swallow the lump that coaxes the back of my throat. “Is it over?” My voice shakes with sadness. “Did they… remove it?” The desire to know is too consuming for me not to ask. I force myself to stay awake, fluttering my eyelids open as I stare up at the ceiling that looks very different to the one I saw before I was sedated. I slowly twist my neck, looking at Aunt Mae, who has tears in her eyes. “It is, Ivy.” She sighs, shaking her head as her bottom lip trembles. “It's over, and I am so sorry for your loss. For your pain and suffering.” She sobs as she wipes the tip of her nose with a tissue. I close my eyes, tears of agony and torment staini
THREE DAYs LATER. The hospital finally discharged me from their care earlier this morning. They had requested that I stay an extra night for observation, as the burning sensation in my abdomen became unbearable to deal with the day after surgery. Overall, it turned out that I was having phantom pains from a previous surgery that I had to undergo ten years prior. The specialist informed me to take things slowly as it will take longer for me to recover than expected. Instructions I have always found hard to abide by. I despise the thought of my body being weak all over again. I hate feeling like a burden. Sipping on a steamy cup of herbal tea, I sit on the outdoor sofa at the back of Aunt Mae's house on the deck, looking up at the sky. The sun is starting to set, casting beautiful hues of fire across the horizon. This has become my all-time favourite spot and time of day. It is enthralling, and spellbinding in its ability to bring me some measure of calm within myself, while
Nic picks up my phone and waves it in front of me with a racy demeanour taking over her. I pluck my phone out of her grasp and I stare at it. “I'll send him a text.” I looked up to meet her gaze. She gasps with a look of objection sketched across her face. “That's a hard… no!” She snorts. “And I know full well that you are not that stupid to honestly go through with it and send him a: Can we meet? We seriously need to talk.” She holds up a finger with every word that leaves her lips. “A text that consists of eight bloody words. You are better than that, and he deserves better.” She arches a perfectly shaped brow as she finishes scolding me. “Okay,” I respond with a shake of my head. “You are taking this way too seriously.” I groan, unlocking my phone, and then I scroll down my contacts list until I come across the nickname, I so graciously gave him. ~Arrogant Jerk~ My thumb Hoover's over the call icon and I nibble on my bottom lip as I begin to feel agitated. “What if-”
The sound of the perimeter alarm blares through my phone, and I roll out of bed, snagging my gun from the bedside table. The door to my room creeks open, and I can make out that there are at least four men in my hotel suite. I lean against the cold wall, silently waiting for the right time to strike. Being outnumbered, I can’t afford to mess my timing up. I look towards my room and shadows made up of four different figures creep along the wall. Swiftly, all four men move to each corner of my bed, they look at each other and nod, firing their weapons, and bullets spray the mattress, lighting the room up. I watch them through the ensuite mirror. One of the men pulls the blanket back, revealing the empty bed, and they look around the room confused. Spinning around, I raise my arm, lightly stepping into the room and I fire my gun four times, putting a bullet in each of their heads. I stand over their wounded figures, firing my gun another four times, putting a bullet in each of