VIVIANI stood outside the hospital room trying to pace myself. It had only been a few days but it felt like an eternity since I last saw her. The image of her looking lost as she lay on the bed, extremely weak and unable to move filtered through my mind and sent a sharp stab of pain through my heart, I thought I might cry. But I knew I couldn't show my true emotions in front of my mother. I needed to be strong and be excited so she would be happy too. I took in three calming breaths in quick succession before I knocked and opened the door. The sight that greeted me was surprising in a pleasant way. My mother was seated on bed and being fed by a caregiver. She looked up and me with twinkling eyes and my heart melted. A wide smile broke out on my face as I inched closer to the bed. "Hello, good morning." I greeted the caregiver. She was a small woman with a kind face who looked to be in her late thirties or early forties. I had heard stories about caregivers who got violent with
VIVIANI sat back on my seat trying to calm down. We had decided to forego the looming banter for clearer heads. Nate had graciously pocketed his check and apologized, alongside Mr. Alex for mentioning my baby and we were all sitted again pretending to be civil. I still simmered in anger within me but I knew this wasn't the time nor the place for such, so I agreed to let it go. "Let's please proceed." Mr. Alex said. He looked eager to get this done and over with after my outburst. "Yes, please." I replied enjoying his discomfort. He was always so in control and for most of the time we were married, I had come to resent him a bit since he was Nate's spokesperson. Of course, he was only doing his job as a lawyer but he still came off as annoying sometimes. Right now, he perched on the edge of his chair as though there was fire on his butt. "Go ahead, Alex." Nate said with a defeated sigh. He did not bother to hide his unhappiness at the situation and I couldn't be bothered to pre
VIVIANI watched Nate's eyes light up. He had not seen his mother in so long but I did not expect him to look so excited, especially when she looked like she did not share his enthusiasm in the least. "Mom." He made to hug her but she sidestepped him as if she had not noticed his movement. "You look good." She said giving him a brief once over before looking away from him as if she did not have a second more to spare acknowledging him. Nate ate up her compliment and smoothed out nonexistent creases from his suit. She fixed her steely gaze on me and I flinched involuntarily. I was not sure what she was about to say and it unnerved me. The woman had a penchant for nitpicking at the slightest of things. She smiled at me but her eyes remained unkind as she appraised me, dragging her eyes lazily over my entire body. It felt as though she could see through me, as if she was peering into my soul and discovering something she seemed problematic in there. I smiled at her pretending not t
VIVIAN Nate's hand felt warm in mine. I wasn't sure why he was being so effusive but I played along with it. After all, all eyes were suddenly on us after my announcement that I would rather sit beside Nate than Gran. I'd just wanted to play the role of good wife, plus I felt uncomfortable being left alone with Gran but Nate was being too forward. He took my hand in his and led me towards the dinning room while making sure nobody collided into me. When we walked in, Gran who was already seated at the head of the table waved us over. "Sit here." he said nodding to the chairs closest to him on the right side. Some of Nate's aunties and uncles had already settled into the chairs on the left side. Nate pulled out a chair for me and took the one closest to Gran. I was grateful that I did not have to sit beside Gran and answer his invasive questions because I was certain I would slip up and it seemed that Nate's mother had irreparably ruined my mood. "Is this seat taken?"
VIVIAN The shock of Nate mother's statement stunned me into silence. Apart from my fitful coughing, the entire table was dead silent and I could feel their eyes locked on me. I tried to suppress my cough, to slink back into the shadows and let Nate handle this but I knew that this was my cross to carry. Nate's mother had addressed me and made sure the spotlight was on me. She was an attention seeker in her own right but she was deflecting all the attention towards me this time. I wasn't sure whether to be grateful or not. I felt my eyes water from the effort that it took to cough and reached for a glass of water but there were already two glasses being held out in front of me. In the seconds it took me to decide which one to grab, different thoughts ran through my mind. I loathed to receive help from Nate but it would be awkward to pick Ethan's own over his. All eyes were on me, watching every of my little action and I did not want to give them something to gossip about especial
VIVIANI stared back at Nate's mother. I had been certain that nothing she could say would catch me off balance but this one definitely did. How could she brazenly talk about an heir when I had just lost a baby? I wanted to ask if she understood what it meant to lose a child but I also knew she would find fault with that question and that nobody would take my side. Still, I needed to say something, anything that would deflect her atrocious question. "I..." "It's my fault." Nate sounded a bit irritated as he said the words. "Please don't speak to Vivian in that manner. I wanted her to heal properly, I still do." Nate's mother could barely contain a snort but she said nothing. "And even though an heir matters to me, she matters the most." He looked at me as he said the last part. Anyone that was watching us would never believe that we had just finalized the process of our divorce before attending this party. I smiled at him as if I was truly grateful before meeting his mother's e
NATEMy hands itched to touch her. I wanted to talk to her, to hold her and to laugh with her. I wanted to tell her that I was sorry and feel that she knew I truly meant it. I wanted her to look into my eyes and say that she had forgiven me, that nothing else mattered because we were here together. I wished she was affected that we were in the same space and she would just spare me a glance but she did not seem to care, didn't seem like it had even occurred to her to care. "Viv, I..." I called stretching a tentative hand towards her but she hardly noticed. "Nate, I'm exhausted." She said. The undertone suggested that it wasn't just physical exhaustion. She was tired of me and it hurt to see her this way. She probably thought we would go about in circles, just like in the past but I just wanted to apologize and listen to her. What words would convince her? Did I have to split open my belly for her to see my true intentions? "Let's talk." I tried again. "No." Her answer was shar
VIVIANI watched Ethan as he spoke. His voice was soft, calming, just as good as the fresh air I so desperately sought. It made me feel guilty that I had so obviously avoided all evening, instead favoring Nate who did not deserve it. "Dinner was awkward, wasn't it?" He pressed his lips together in an apologetic gesture as if anything had been his fault. "Nothing I wasn't expecting." I replied. I was grateful that he at least had the good sense to feel sorry as a member of the Stuart family. Nate had apologized too but I couldn't just take him seriously. "Viv, you shouldn't be so complacent. They'll keep stepping over you like that. I could see it in your face that you were uncomfortable." I was surprised at how he could read me so well. I nodded, casting my eyes to the floor and digging my toes into the earthy ground. "I was. Your mother doesn't seem to like me much. Many of them don't seem to." I was not sure why I was opening up to him but there was something about him that
Her hands trembled slightly. She was staring out the window of her office at the academy but her mind was somewhere else entirely. She had been transported back in time to the fateful day two weeks ago when the doctor had made the announcement with a wide grin on her face. "Congratulations, Miss Vivian. You're ten weeks pregnant." She had said, flashing Vivian a genuine smile that reached her crinkling eyes. At that moment, a cold sweat had broken out on Vivian’s forehead as the doctor’s words hit her like a bomb. The words had been so unprecedented, so out of left field that it took her a long time to understand the gravity of the doctor’s pronouncement. When she had finally digested her words, fear caused a knot to form in her stomach."The baby is in perfect condition." The doctor had said and Vivian had smiled at her, happy but at the same time, uncertain. "Your husband must be so proud." She had said. But would he? Nate had been so vehemently against a child and even though
VIVIANI opened my eyes. But I was in an unfamiliar place. The darkness that surrounded me was not only palpable, it was suffocating. I tried to breathe but my lungs seemed to be constricted with something. I stretched forth my hands to guide my path but something seemed to be on my way. I tore at the barrier but it only grew thicker. It was the darkness. Was there any way out of here? How could I fight something I could not even see? I opened my mouth to scream but no sound would come out. I was stuck in this deep, dark pit with nowhere to go but down. Below me, it seemed like there was quicksand and if I did not find a way to get out of here quickly, I would be swallowed whole. I clawed at the space in front of me, beside me and above me but the darkness was too dense, too restricting. Where was help when I needed it the most? My determination had started to wane. My resolve which I thought was stronger than steel bars had become considerably weakened the more it dawned on me t
NATEI felt overwhelmed. I had not felt this way in the longest of times, not even when dealing with Richard's stupidity. Why were things going haywire all of a sudden just when I thought the dust had settled down? I could not pretend not to know why. Gran's announcement yesterday had triggered a lot of suppressed resentment and I just had to deal tactfully with it or everything I held dear would be taken away right before my eyes. I had been called to the company the day before because Aston was making trouble. Word had spread that he had gone around contacting all the members of the board and having a secret meeting with them. I was not sure what the meeting had been about but I could guess. "Let's hurry." I said to my driver as I looked through Vivian's mail for the umpteenth time. I was about to send a message thanking her for her hard work when my phone started to vibrate. It was a call from my personal assistant. "They are holding an emergency extraordinary meeting of the
VIVIANI typed away feverishly. I could feel the adrenaline pumping through my veins, fueling my fingers and propelling me to think. What had this not occurred to me before? Why had I glossed over Emily's statement back then like it was nothing at all. Had I been too overwhelmed at the time that I had been unable to put two and two together? Unable to see what was right in front of me? Emily had said three companies. Three companies, but only two were behind bars. So what happened to the last one? It was a question I should have been asking for sometime now. Would I be able to find a connection that would reveal which company was the third? Would I find enough proof? I started by digging into the two companies. Their CEOs had been well known in the business world for taking over small companies after leading them into debt. There were many comments online laying complaints against them and a third name kept popping up. Could it be?... I changed the direction of my research. It w
VIVIAN It all felt awkward. Gran had made the announcement of the century and the room was thrown into chaos. Aston looked like he could combust in anger at any time and stormed off. Gran was unwilling to listen to Nate's protests and Nate's mother just looked surprised. I, on the other hand was unsure how I was supposed to react. I was not very surprised, considering how much affinity Gran held for Nate, I was only a bit skeptical about the timing. But what did I care? I was no longer a part of the family. I was practically a stranger who happened to witness the Stuart family going at each other and it didn't matter what my thoughts were. I just wanted to escape before anyone looked in my direction and thought to rope me into it. Gran shuffled out of the room, leaning slightly on his cane and I saw my chance. Nate was still looking around, confused as ever and there was just a general tension in the air that I was sure no one would notice my silent disappearance. It felt good n
NATEI swore internally. How had Ashton found out? But then again, the same idiot that had the temerity to give out company information had probably babbled again. Vivian looked stricken standing there, staring numbly from Ashton to my mother to Gran. She tried to say something but it seemed like the words would not come out. I wanted to hold her and calm her down like I did yesterday in the hospital but this was not the place or time and I was pretty sure she would push me away. Guilt weighed down on me heavily. This was all my fault. I had brought this situation on her and I wanted to fix it badly but I felt control slipping out of my hands. Ashton was pushing, tearing down the walls of support around me, trying to strip me of my confidence and painting Vivian as the black sheep. I could not understand for the life of me why he had suddenly turned bad. Or perhaps he had always been this way, lurking silently in the shadows, waiting for this chance to ruin me. "Vivian did nothin
VIVIANI sighed for the thousandth time. Why on earth couldn't I be allowed to catch a break? Had all the universal forces aligned to ensure I did not have a single moment of peace? The whole situation seemed absurd to me. I did not yet know what Ethan was going on about but it couldn't be anything good, judging by the tone of his voice. Moreover, he was never one to impose, so if he was in front of my house, it must mean something quite severe was about to go down or was even going down. The taxi came to a stop in front of my apartment and I hurried up the path. I did not have to look for Ethan as his car was parked conspicuously on the driveway and he was sitting on it's hood tapping his phone impatiently. "What the hell, Ethan..." "There's no time for this." He looked worried, confused and most notably, tired. His tie had been drawn down, probably to enable him breathe properly while driving and his hair was tousled as if he had been in too much of a hurry to brush it properl
VIVIANI was elated.I flashed a wide smile back at the sea of smiling faces. I had not felt this way in a really long time, had not felt like what I had to say mattered, like I could dispense joy so freely, so abundantly and still have so much of it left to live on. I was not sad or angry or conflicted here, I just felt like I was wrapped in a bubble of peace, woven softly into a web of comfort and it scared me that this peace was fragile. That it could easily be broken if I didn't protect it. "Do you kids remember what we learnt yesterday?" I asked, leaning towards them and adopting a high pitched childlike voice. "Yes!" They chorused with enthusiasm. I smiled and turned to the board. "Today, we will learn something even more interesting. Are you ready to learn?" They answered with as much enthusiasm as earlier. Their innocence tugged at my heartstrings. Wouldn't my baby have grown to sound like this? To make mischievous jokes and play pranks on others? Maybe it was really not
VIVIANAnother emergency. But this one couldn't be a prank because Nate had delivered the news and we weren't exactly friendly enough to pull that type of joke on each other. Also, it involved my mother. Nate was a premium jerk but he wouldn't stoop so low. Right? I wished he would. I would swear at him and maybe even hit him but my mother would be fine and I would have worried in vain. "Oh God, oh God... Oh God." Night was falling fast but I didn't care. I rushed out of the house and flagged down the first taxi I saw. If anything happened to my mother, how would I cope with the pain, the guilt. If anything happened... Thoughts consumed me and filled my head with scenarios that were probably too far fetched but seemed feasible at that moment. Panic had taken over me and my hands shook terribly as I contemplated calling Nate. What would I say? What was I trying to find out? "No, no..." "Is there a problem?" The taxi driver was looking at me through the rearview mirror and I ave