Hi my dearest readers. How do you feel about Dean's request and Bella's reaction?
(Bella)"You were a whore Bella and you're still a whore. Jezz, what was I thinking?" Dean lashes out angrily as he threw pictures of me around the room.I haven't seen Dean this angry, it scares me to the pit of my stomach."I swear, Dean. This is all a lie, a mistake, a conspiracy," I wail, on my knees as I beg him to listen to me just this once."Shut the fuckk up, Bella. I'm done listening to you," he seethes. "My mom was right all along, a pig will always remain a pig," he spits the words out, like venom, unfiltered.My heart aches hearing those harsh words from him.Tears stream down my cheeks as I sobbed, but those tears doesn't move Dean, not anymore.My once loving husband, who stood his ground that I was his soulmate, who he wanted to spend the rest of his life with, against his family.He didn't care about their opinion of me.A stripper, an exotic dancer but none of that mattered to Dean. He loved me and married me against all odds."You still crave that life. Don't you?" H
(Bella)My heart bleeds as I watch Dean storm off.He's asking for a divorce, just like that?How did we get here?How did my life turn into a living nightmare in one day?Those pictures, I mutter reaching out to them and picking them up one after the other.Four different men that I've never seen.It looks so real but I don't remember coming in contact with any of this men, not in my past and definitely not now.Something is fishy but I can't seem to place my hand on what it is.Whoever is behind this, just wants to break me and Dean apart.But I won't let them."No," the word slips out of my mouth. "I won't give up on us just like that, I'm going to fight for my man, my marriage, what I have with Dean is worth fighting for,." I say, my voice firm as I dust myself up.How do I go about it?Dean is so angry, I doubt if he'd ever listen to what I have to say.I need someone that can talk to Dean.But who?His mother?I scoff at myself. Judy is the last person I should think of.She has
(Bella)The doorbell rings and jars me awake. I fling my eyes open, pulling myself up from the couch.My back hurts..Just then I realize it's the next day and I had slept off on the couch waiting for Dean.This only means one thing, Dean didn't come home last night.The very first day he's sleeping out.My eyes hurts as fresh tears stride down my cheeks but the doorbell rings again, this time continuously.I spring up. It could be Dean.Quickly I move over to the door, and swing it open.My breath catches in my throat. It's not Dean.Judy, Elena and an older man. And then when she shifts, I spot Ashley standing right behind.Before I could process what's going on, Judy pushes me aside, striding in like the queen of England. Elena, Dean's aunt, gives me a horrific look as she walks in.And then the man and Ashley came in.Ashley casts me a weird look as she brushes past me.I step in. "What are you doing here, the both of you?" I'm forced to ask, as much as I'm exhausted, I can't let
(Bella)I shove the papers on the table and Judy picks it up, her hand running through the papers in excitement.A smile crosses her face as he mutters. "Finally," she turns to Ashley and Elena, giving them a knowing smile and then back to me."Alright. Let's wrap it up real quick. Go in there and pack your things. The buyers are waiting, hurry up Bella," she spat, crossing her legs and relaxing into the couch.I stare at her, all of them, sobbing my eyes out.Where do I go from here?My life has been centered around Dean. I drag my feet upstairs, each step feels heavier than the last. My heart torn apart as I packed my clothes, glancing around the house I'd started to set up as my forever home.The one I'd build a family with Dean and live happily ever after. Fresh tears came pouring out, my eyes feels so heavy, my chest too tight to breathe.Once done packing my personal stuff, I sit on the bed, thinking of where to go.I really do not want to bother Derrick but he'd be so mad if I
(Dean)"That's enough Dean!" Ethan says as he drags the glass away from me, eyebrows raised."You're only hurting yourself. Drinking won't solve anything," he retorts. "You need to go home and at least hear Bella out,"I chuckle bitterly. "And listen to more lies?" I blurted out. "Those pictures are all the proof I needed. She's a slut, Ethan."Ethan shakes his head. "This is quite confusing. Bella loves you, I'm sure.""Pretense, all pretense, man. She deceived me into believing that. But truth is, she still craves her old life, she wants to be out there fucking them dudes. She's on birth control, didn't want to ruin her perfect shape," I snap."My mother, Aunt Elena, they were right after all. Bella is a filthy slut, no redemption.""You're drunk, Dean. We need to get you home," Ethan says, skipping right past my tantrums.I scoff. "Home?" I laugh. "That's no home. She disgusts me, I can't even stand her," my phone insistently buzzes in my pocket, again, and again.I pull it out, and
Bella.It's been a week since the divorce and there has been no call nor text message from Dean.And each time I think about how easily he gave up on our love, it hurts me even more.I've tried to call him and everytime I do, it enters voicemail. Even Ethan's number hasn't been reachable as well.We're having a baby, one that we've always wanted and he doesn't even know.I've never imagined raising our child alone, never had to think about it and now it seems like that's becoming my reality. Dean is nowhere to be found, he hasn't reached out.It seems like I'm the only one half hoping to fix things somehow.I've been stalking our house for the past few days, waiting to talk to Dean but that gate has been closed, it just feels like I've been shut out of Dean's life for good.Judy wasn't bluffing about selling the house after all.My life has become a living nightmare.I instinctively rub my belly, I have a human growing inside of me, a baby to love me and me to love back.I don't even h
(Bella)"Sorry ma'am. But we've been asked not to let you into this premises," one of the security guards tells me.Is this a joke? I roll my eyes at him. "I'm here to see my husband!" I retort firmly. "I'm sure you know who I am?" "Of course we all do but please madam you have to leave now. I don't want to lose my job," he reply calmly, his tone pleading.I can't believe this, why would Dean give such orders. How did we get here?He disappeared on me, running away from problem and now he's restricting me?I could already feel tears forming in my eyes, waiting to spill.I turn to the guard again. "Please I have to see him. I promise not to get you into any trouble," I pleaded frustratingly.He takes a deep breath. "Trust me ma'am, if I can, you wouldn't have to ask twice." He says.I don't back down. "Please, just five minutes, it's important that I see him,""There's nothing I can do ma'am. I'm sorry you have to leave now,"I look at the guard again and he looked really sorry, like
(Bella)I step out of my ride, looking at the building in front of me, club forte. A place that used to be part of me till Dean showed up.I take a deep breath, putting my shades back on before walking into the club.I'd planned to come in time, if I hadn't, some of those weird and obsessed clients would've seen me.I walk straight to Jame's office and knock before letting myself in.A smile spreads across his face as I step in."Alright girls. We'll continue this later, I have an important guest," he smiles warmly at me, discharging the three girls. I guess they're newbies because I don't recognize any of them.They stand up, casting me a quick glance before they walk out of the door.James stands up, moving over as we share a quick hug. "It's so good to see you again, Bee. How long has it been?"I chuckle lightly. "It's been two years, James. Don't act like you don't remember,"He laughs briefly. "You know me too well. Don't you?" He retorts and then his face turns serious. "Why?" He
(Bella)I watch as my kids jumped all over Dean, telling him all about their day in school, showing him paintings and not to mention Jasmine bringing up Blossom just like she said she would.Nothing baffles me more than how comfortable they seemed around him, it just feels like they've known him since forever.And Dean? He seemed to be enjoying every bit of it, his smile has never left his face since he walked through that day.I tried as much as I can to avoid his gaze, I only speak when spoken to, and of course my super hyperactive kids didn't make it any easier, constantly getting me to talk to Dean.A smile did creep up my face from time to time as I watched Dean together with the kids, but I deadpanned anytime his gaze shifts to me.My kids were smiling quite a lot, they had this wide, beaming grin on their faces.I glanced at Jav, and my son's eyes were glowing as he looked at Dean with so much admiration, he has a wide smile glued to his face all through, it felt so good to see
(Dean)This was the day I was going to meet my kids….well, as a friend, not their dad, but it doesn't really matter, Bella has given me the chance to get to know them, that's enough, for now.I stand in front of my bedroom mirror, changing my outfit for the fifth time, in a bid to get the perfect outfit.Never in my entire life have I felt so many emotions at once. Ethan couldn't help but laugh at me when I kept asking him if I had chosen the right outfit. Ethan looks at me and shakes his head, a knowing smirk on his face. "You're freaking out, man. Need I remind you that you're meeting with your kids, you don't need perfection, they'd love you still," I let out a dragged breath. "I know. I just…. I want to look my best, I'll be spending quality time with them for the first time," I tell him like he doesn't know that yet."I hear ya bro, but I'm certain you don't need those," He points at the extra clothes I had brought out to try on. "Besides, I'm sure they'd be too distracted with
(Bella)"So?" Derrick breathed through the phone.I sighed. "Don't even get me started with the ridiculousness of Eric's offer," I all but shriek, the irritation I felt that day threatening to resurface.A brief laughter tore through Derrick's throat.I roll my eyes as if he could see that. "It's not funny," I say with a grimace."Clearly it isn't."I stifle a snort. "I just don't get it, Rick," I blurted out, running a hand through my hair. "They all see me as a pawn in their dirty games, throwing money around like it solves everything," I hissed."Wait," Derrick steps in and I could hear him suck in a sharp breath. "Aside from offering you a big position in Dynamite, did he also…?""A hundred thousand dollars and the position of CFO, just to get me to come work for him,""Son of a fucking bitch," Derrick cursed under his breath."Well, I told him to go fuck his mother," I assert.A soft chuckle escapes Rick's mouth and I bet he wiggled his eyebrows, clearly satisfied with my respons
(Bella)I turn to meet her fiery eyes, burning with a barely contained disdain. "Ashley, I'm sure you know it's not cool to stalk people?" I retort, a tiny smile on my face."Oh shut up!" She spat, inching closer, her face switching to a smirk. She looks around the store, and then back to me. "You made a terrible mistake coming back here, Bella. A mistake you'll will pay dearly for," she threatens, her eyes locked onto mine.I know exactly what to say and how to react. Since I have my recorder on, I need to push her a little, just enough to make her spill her trash.I all but snorted. "A mistake, really?" I spat. "How so? As far as I can work out, you're the one trying so hard to hide your dirty little secret, not me." I give her a look and then a smirk forms on my face.I watch her face twitch and a frown resurfaces. "Don't get too cocky," she blurted out, her eyes cold as always. "You sound so self-righteous but we both know that a retired whore like yourself is far from perfect," s
(Bella)Seated in Calvin's office, I watch his body tense as I told him I invited Dean, my ex-husband over.He worked his jaw and furrows his eyes on me. "It's all for the kids, right?" Calvin asks with a raised eyebrow as he studies me intently.Noticing the worry etched on his face, I nod. "Of, course, he's coming only as their friend," I reassured him."Nothing more?" He asked again, more persistent and that made me shift slightly on my chair. I understand his concerns but there's something in his eyes, something more than a mere concern, something a little disturbing.I give him a tight-lipped smile. "Nothing more," I repeat. "Jav and Jas are oddly too fond of him," I add, not sure I can fully say it's odd, maybe it's only natural as he's their biological father even though they don't know that yet.Calvin holds my gaze for a moment before he exhaled softly. "It's fine," he says before his eyes shifts back to me. "Will you really be comfortable with him there? Perhaps I should dro
(Judy)I take a sip from my glass, my mind spiralling as I watch Ashley leave.Of, course she has managed to instill that panic in me even though I'm world best at hiding my emotions.I'd be lying if I say I'm not bothered. Truth is, I am. And it scares me.If Dean ever finds out, then it'd be disastrous, he'll want to know more and when he eventually does. I sigh. Stopping my mind from thinking further, but it doesn't.My thoughts are running wild. I thought I had this all under control but no it doesn't seem like it anymore.I had offered that silly girl a life changing money to give up her kids, to leave and never come back but she vehemently refused, throwing the paper to my face.It did hurt my ego and even more from a girl like her, I didn't think she'd refuse, I thought she'd jump at the offer, after all girls of her caliber would do anything for money.Or perhaps, I tilt my head, the money isn't enough, she probably wants more?It has to be it. She's probably bidding for the r
(Ashley)"To what do l owe this sudden visit?" Judy asks, bringing her glass down, her posture annoyingly serene.I threw my purse on the couch and blurted out. "He knows, I think he does!" I settle into the couch, my eyes on her.I see something flash through her eyes— maybe a little fear, worry? I don't really know but it's gone as quickly as it came. "And you say that because?" She gives me a look, her face blank.I hesitate a little, choosing my ways carefully. "Okay, the thing is," I began, my eyes darting on her. "I have been following Dean for quite some time now and he's been visiting that building, the last time I followed him, he saw them—- those kids, they ran up to him," my words stumbles out in a stutter, my face not hiding my irritation and anger.Judy rolls her eyes, sitting up straighter and there it was, that exact reaction I saw a while ago, more clearer this time.It's definitely fear, worry, panic."They ran up to him?" She repeats, her eyes darting on me like she's
(Bella)"It's just a visit, for my kid's sake, it's nothing serious and it's no big deal to have him over," I tell myself, over and over again as soon as I disconnected the call.Hoping these words will sink in and calm my frazzled nerves. I might have been pretty tense during the phone call because I let out a very long exhale afterwards.I've thought about contacting him for a day or two, and I finally made up my mind to stop thinking and actually do it.Not to mention that at some point, I considered packing out of this building since Dean owns it, that way he won't be able to bother me, us.But then, it's that really going to stop him?Logically, I don't think I can be able to keep my kids away from him forever, Derrick has the same opinion too. His exact words and I quote "I hate to say this sis, but you can't forbid Dean from wanting to be part of his kid's life"Those words did quite a number on me as well. I've thought about this for a while…. No, I've actually given it a thoro
(Dean)I blinked, trying to be sure that my mind wasn't playing a cruel trick on me, but hell it isn't.I give Ethan a quick glance before grabbing my phone in a rush. Leaning back, Ethan just stares at me.I might have held my breath as I slide the green icon."Hello," her breathy voice wafted into my ear, soothing every frazzled nerves. "This is Bella,"I swallowed. "I know," I say, my voice barely audible as I try not to sound as nervous as I already am."Ok.." she goes silent and then her voice comes up again. "Sorry to bother you, but I was wondering if you could come over sooner, the…my kid's are fussing over seeing you,"There's a long pause from my end, I roll my eyes, glancing at Ethan briefly while trying to process if I've heard her correctly.I guess she misunderstood my silence because her next words pulled me out of my trance sharply. "Well, if you're busy I could just….,""No, I'm not." I blurted out, my words stumbles out quicker than I intended. "I'm totally free, when